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Monday. 6.29.15 6:15 pm
Tomorrow is the last day of the month of June, and just like every year for the past 20, I'm looking forward to the month being over. This month actually wasn't too bad for me this time around. It probably has something to do with the fact that I have a job I enjoy doing and people who will listen to me and give me advice and support. And make snarky comments when necessary. It seems like my sister and mom are doing well enough this time around as well. I guess we'll see how tomorrow goes. . . considering it's the actual day of.

It's not dropped below 80 in my room in about a week. There was a very brief reprieve yesterday because it was cloudy the entire day, but because it was still warm, it didn't cool off any. It didn't get any warmer, which was nice, but it stayed above 80 the whole day. It's awkward when you want to go inside to cool off, but really don't have that option.

It's only supposed to stay this way, or get just a smidge hotter the entire rest of the week. I have no idea when we're forecast to have rain again. I'd really like for it to be autumn again. It's my favorite time of year.

Anywho, I'm keeping this short because leaning on the computer is making my hands warmer than they should be so I'm gonna dive back in to Netflix while I sit in front of my giant ass tower fan, trying to keep cool.

Until next time. . .

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Encryption code 1344
Tuesday. 6.23.15 9:45 pm
Just like the last one, so many months ago, this title does have a relevance, but the only person who would understand what that means doesn't read my blog.

If you are reading it ... then ... hi! Hello there!

This entry is going to have nothing to do with you, so if you don't want to keep reading, that's fine. If you do, enjoy.

I'm still trying my damnedest to get to VA for my cousin's wedding. I want to meet up with my family members that I haven't seen in over a decade. There's only two people from my extended family whom I've seen in the last 10 years: my uncle who randomly decided to use my sister's wedding in 2010 as an excuse to go to Vegas and last year when my aunt was out here on business. That's it. I have until the 25th of July to RSVP. I also want to kind of make it a secret. Like, only tell my aunt and cousin that I'll be going. I want to show up and have everyone else surprised that I'm there. I've grown up quite a bit since most of them last saw me and although pictures on Facebook are a thing, I'm pretty much a carbon copy of my mother so it'll be fun seeing her siblings reactions to seeing me in person.

Tomorrow is midweek ... I really need to catch up on my work. I'm about two days behind now and I'd like to be caught up again. It's annoying that they can't just send things through every couple days. They have to wait and send it through in a big batch ... and then get people complaining because it's been a week or more and they still haven't received a call. Or, they have to wait another month before we actually have something available. Don't get me wrong, I still like my job; just the way they handle some things is frustrating.

Next week is supposed to get hot ... They're forecasting 90s for the whole week. Considering I came from Vegas, 90 shouldn't be a huge deal, but 90 is hot no matter what part of the country you live in. Especially if there's no air conditioning. Luckily, I seem to have come up with a weird method that seems to be keeping my place under 80. And the giant tower fan, I've not had to turn up above the first setting, so that's a plus. I even get chills with it pointed directly at me. Then I just sleep with my little fan on. I've even been keeping the fleece blankets on my bed. We'll see how well this works when the temps soar.

I really want to go out of town again this weekend ... I have to find things to do around the city that don't cost me anything. It's actually not hard to do; there's so many hidden, and not-so-hidden, gems around here that I can explore. The idea of getting out of town is just so much more appealing. It's my way of escaping every day life without the commitment of permanence.

I'm excited for tomorrow, actually. I have plans for lunch and I have plans after work. The rest of the week there's nothing exciting planned, but tomorrow is going to be good.

No idea when I'll write again.

Until then ...

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Up in your face
Sunday. 6.21.15 9:59 am
Funny... no matter how hard you try to avoid something, it always seems to be right there in your face. You avoid Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, and any other social media site. You avoid Google and YouTube and news websites. You avoid going to certain sections of a store. But no matter how hard you try, the only sure way to avoid something you know is everywhere, is to completely lock yourself up in your room and read books the whole time. Or just stare at the ceiling. Either option will keep the thing you're trying to avoid out of your line of sight.

Today is Father's Day and, although I don't try to avoid it as much as I used to, I still try not to really think about it. It's been 20 years {on the 30th of this month} since dad passed away and it's gotten easier with the years to see the stuff in stores and hear people talk about doing things with their fathers. I don't actively try to avoid it as much as I used to. However, I do try not to think about it. Obviously I'm not doing a very good job today, since that's what this entry is mainly about, but still.

I'm merely pointing out how, no matter what you do, it's nearly impossible to completely and entirely avoid something you don't want to think about.

In other news, I've gone to the gym twice this weekend. I was only going to go yesterday, but I felt like going again today. After getting out of the house last night and going to a park that I think I've only been to once, seeing all the people being carefree and probably high/drunk as fuck, I decided that I would go to the gym again this morning.

I planned to go to the park just to find a new vantage point for watching the sun set; when I got there, I'd forgotten that it was the summer solstice festival and there were quite a few people still there. Music was playing in about 4 different sections of the park and people were sitting around in groups, small and large, just drinking, laughing, smoking and dancing. I walked around a little bit, weaving my way in and out of the groups of people, trying to find the best places to take pictures. The sun set wasn't as beautiful as the one a few nights ago, but I wasn't in a position to be able to take pictures of that one. Taking pictures behind you, while driving on the freeway is typically frowned upon.

I have one more place to go today and that is to put gas in my car. I shall be doing so as soon as my laundry is done. Otherwise, I'm in for the day and will be binge watching PLL on Netflix.

I didn't sleep very well last night. I ended up not going to bed until around 1:30 and was awoken around 2:30 and again around 5:30 and 6:30. I finally gave up and got up around 7:30. Hopefully the lack of sleep last night helps me sleep well enough tonight, since work starts back up again tomorrow.

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Food = gym
Friday. 6.19.15 7:22 pm
I ate so much food today ... I was already planning on going to the gym in the morning, but this definitely solidified the plan. The baby shower that I went to, for whatever reason, I didn't think would have that much food. It did, so I indulged. And of course, the one time my friend didn't bail on me for burgers {we've been trying to plan this for the past month} is the day that I overindulge at lunch. I went out for burgers anyway because the place we went to is amazing, but I'm so full.

Walking afterwards helped slightly. I don't feel like I'm going to explode, but I'm definitely not going to eat anything afterwards. I am glad that we finally got together, though. It's been a while and it was nice being able to catch up. Who knows when we'll get together again, though. His schedule is graveyard and now that he finally has weekends off, after working weekends for the last several years, he's taking full advantage. Which, I totally don't blame him; it just takes patience when trying to plan a get together.

No definitive plans for the weekend, other than the gym in the morning. I need to go to the bank at some point tomorrow so I think I may plan my gym trip around that so that I can just stop at the bank afterwards. I also need to go grocery shopping, which, depending on how I feel may or may not be postponed until Sunday. Laundry is definitely a thing that has to happen, but that'll most likely be done Sunday morning. I like having fresh clothes for Monday.

I'm having one of those moments when I want to stay up really late, since I don't have to work tomorrow, but at the same time go to bed right now. I'll likely end up just going to bed at my normal time; I guess we'll see what happens.

I know that my entries have been sparse this month. I honestly haven't really had anything I've wanted to write about. I went out last Friday to a park/"beach" and took pictures of the sunset. They came out pretty well. It was my dad's birthday and I really couldn't think of anything that I could do for him so I felt like going out to a place I'd never been. It was actually really lucky that my car didn't get towed because I was in a place that required a permit, which I don't have yet, and I was there for at least 30-45 minutes. I don't think it was a full hour, but it could have been close to it.

Anywho, I'm not sure how many more entries I'll be writing this month. I guess it depends on if I actually feel like there's something I want to write about.

Until then. . .

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On a whim
Sunday. 6.7.15 9:34 am
After the way that I was feeling Friday, I decided to just say fuck it and go for a drive anyway. I don't like driving south, for some strange reason, so before I left the house I checked for alternate routes that I could take if I didn't feel like driving south any longer. Kind of like how I've yet to leave the state while going north, I felt it would be the same way while driving south.

In looking at the map, I actually saw something that kind of made the decision for me and determined that I would definitely be going west instead of south. So around the Olympia/Centralia area I took the SR101 exit and began my trek west. I made a quick pit stop in Aberdeen to get something to drink and use the bathroom. I thought I got lost in Hoquiam, but it just was a strange turn in the road. That's the problem when you're joy riding on a road that turns in to a main vein that cuts through a town. Although, if I had gotten lost, it would not have taken me long to get back on the road I wanted.

Continuing on, I kept following the signs for the Ocean Beaches. Ocean Shores is a pretty popular area. There's hotels and touristy things to do, but that was not my destination. Turning down the road that pointed to where the beach attractions were, I saw a sign that actually determined exactly where I'd ended up. Initially it was just the town I was aiming to go to, with no real end destination.

When I saw the turn off, I made my way slowly around to the entrance of Ocean City State Park. When I saw Ocean City on the map, I knew I had to go there and I actually looked to see how far away it was from Ocean City, MD. 3003 miles, according to Google Maps. I thought it would be interesting to go to the same city, that far away from the only other one I knew by that name.

Upon turning in to the park entrance, however, I saw signs stating that a permit was required and I'd forgotten all about the fact that going to any National/State Park, you need a pass. Until I drove closer to the booth, was it then I saw that it was free day. What are the odds that the one day I randomly choose to drive out to a state park is the day that I don't need a permit to be there? It's like the world was shining down on me and knew that this was something I needed to happen.

It was the first time I'd ever seen the Pacific Ocean. It was amazing. Awe-inspiring. It had been so long since the last time I was at an ocean beach that I'd forgotten just how vast it really is. There was nothing around except the beach and the ocean. There were quite a few people there flying kites and having BBQ's and just hanging out. I took off my flip flops and walked through the sand to the wake. I stopped a little before where the water stopped and took pictures, then proceeded to hold on to my sandals and phone and walk toward the water.

I stood in the wake for a little bit, letting it wash over my feet, feeling the sand move underneath as the water pulled back out. I didn't think of anything other than being there. I walked a little farther out, letting the water come up to my knees and walked down the beach a little ways. I didn't go very far, but it was so calming. Being in the presence of the open ocean like that, even with people around you, reminds you just how much to appreciate the things around you. And how, even with chaos, there's still a way to remain calm.

Usually I don't like being somewhere like that alone, but yesterday felt just fine. I didn't feel any kind of discomfort at all just being there by myself on the beach. Even walking down the path that led from the parking roundabout to the beach, I didn't feel strange. Yesterday was meant to happen that way.

On the drive back, I was quickly reminded just how much cooler being on the beach is and the heat that was waiting for me when I got home. The sun was blaring in through the driver side window and actually gave me a small burn on my left shoulder. Go figure ... Luckily it's not a bad one; I can still lay with my arm over my head without my shoulder hurting. The tiny spot on my left chest that got burned isn't even enough to leave any kind of tan. It'll just fade back to white. I have a lovely seat belt mark ... so I guess it proves that I'm a safe driver?

Today is going to be even hotter than yesterday. And tomorrow is going to be even hotter than today. I'm going to just reserve my shower for later and I'll wait to wash my hair until tomorrow; I'll just throw it up for work. I really should go grocery shopping today, but I honestly doing feel like going out in to the heat. It's not horrible right now, but the sun makes things uncomfortable quite quickly. Besides, my clothes are all in the dryer at the moment and I'm not going anywhere until they're done.

So I guess here's to trying to stay cool today.

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No pants is best pants
Friday. 6.5.15 9:30 pm
After the day I had at work, I needed a drink by 9am. I was in a funk and the volume of calls and annoying people didn't help. I finished off the few beers I had left in my fridge last night so I was going to stop by the store before I came home to replenish, but then I just came home.

I don't even have food to eat so I will need to go back out at some point, probably tomorrow, to get at least food. I don't like drinking alone, but I guess the hope that I had to get together with someone for drinks isn't happening. Which is fine; I was pretty sure it was going to play out that way anyway. With last weekend being as active as it was, I'm actually pretty okay with this weekend being a lazy one.

I contemplated going to Portland for a day. I've never been and in doing some research, there's a few parks that would be amazing for photo taking. But I really need to start saving up my money and I'm doing a horrible job at it. Another reason why I'm not buying alcohol this weekend, despite wanting to have it to calm my nerves.

I'll have to work up the motivation to actually leave my place tomorrow. I've gotten very good at ignoring the growls emanating from my stomach. Perhaps sleep tonight will help eliminate the funk that I've been in all day.

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