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number of kind souls~
yeah its moi..

Fat ugly ger called*Jacqueline* aka *Xinyi*

U can find her in the *Eastern part of Spore*

Landed on *18th March 1985* with a smile => not a cry!

Graduated from *Red Swastika & Maha Bodhi Primary Sch*
*Manjusri Secondary Sch*

Currently still at *Singapore Polytechnic* => she cant wait to graduate!

Working as *Part-time Beauty Consultant*

Achieving a *Diploma in Biz Admin (Major in Mktg)*

Aspire to...
obtain a
*Degree in Biz Mgmt* or *Social Science*

work in *Hotel Industry*Food & Beverage Industry*Schools* (being a teacher was her childhood dream, but mayb not now..)

Finally..have *Her driving licence* {wahahah}

Happily attached to *Her bunch of sch & work frenz, & of cuz her family*

Loves to *take photo*daydream *& Picture how her future will be like* =>I'm a Pisces you see!*bio-ing at branded products* buy diff kind of watches*

Will love to *get married at de age of 23*design my own house*have many kids-preferably 4* (hehehe)

Favourite singers *Trademark*U2*Five For Fighting*Matchbox Twenty*Elva*
*Cyndi*Fish Leong*Red Hot Chilli Peppers*SimplyRed
*Firehouse*Sixpence*Air Supply*Avril Lavigue*Tatu*Linkin
Park*FIR*Sammi*Joey Yung*

Favourite movies
*How to lose a guy in 10 days*Shrek 2*Looney Tunes*
*A walk to remember*Finding Nemo*Prince & Me*Taxi*

Favourite food
*Durian*Potato*Strawberry*Mango*Most noodles (not rice pls!)*Fish*Vegetables*Jackfruit*Soursop*

Favourite drink
*Grass Jelly*Lemon tea*Green Tea*Apple Tea* Aloe Vera*Sugarcane*Soyabean*Peach Tea*Passion fruit*Gin Tonic*Vodka* (no Coke for me pls!)

Dream car
Nissan March

@wants to be [email protected]
@wld love to cook for her future [email protected]
@can be [email protected]
@cries [email protected]
@believes in fate & [email protected]
@loves tube [email protected]
@likes to [email protected]
@loves [email protected]
@used to [email protected]
@drinks but do not [email protected]
@shop, shop & [email protected]
@loves Winnie the Pooh [email protected]
@hang ard at clubs & [email protected]
@plays pool but not [email protected]
@treasure all her love ones tho she may not show [email protected]
@dislikes liars, backstabbers, cheaters, insincere [email protected]

Friendster: [email protected]
MSN: [email protected]

^Her msg to everyone^- Life is short, enjoy while you can, and treasure all ya love ones! May ya life be filled with excitement, blended with happiness! Rem to smile, cos de world will SMiLe with you (at least i will..)! -
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~Wish List~

- 60 Christmas cards
- Glitter pen
- refil for 2005 organizer
- CD Rack
- SMOMA CD featuring jazz music
- FIR's album
- Shiseido eyebrow shadow
- H20 eye purification
- Crumbler
- belt
- Adidas cap
- Lancome eyebrow pencil
- Maybelline's new lipstick colour
- Esprit brown leather watch
- Breil watch (blue)
- CK new range oval watch
- Shiseido concealer
- Black pants for work
- Michael Negrin necklace (with Enamel Rose)
- Casio Baby G (pink)
- Black covered shoes for work
- Tony & Tina Herbal Glitter Eye Pencil
- Gucci "Envy Me" Perfume
- Shiseido eyeshadow (Jewel on Veil)
- Victoria Secrets Gift Certificates
- Cross Necklace
- Recipe book
- Loreal Studio Line Mega Fixing Spray
- Eyefrost Eyeshadow from Red Earth
- Chanel Precision Eye Definer
- Jelly Pure Eyes P-2 & Styling Rouge Lipstick (from Kanebo)
- Denim Corset from Sisley
- Georg Jensen ring
- Burberry bag
- LV pouch
- Nokia 7200 Black cover
- Urban & Co Membership Card
- MTM VIP Card
- Fitness FIrst Membership Card
- Jitterbugs Membership Card
- IPod Mini
- Mambo dress tube
- Lver tube top
- jade necklace

~Courses learnt/learning~

- Yoga
- Pilates
-Japanese language
- Belly Dancing
- Exotic Dance
- Salsa
- Piano

~CHILL...cool webbie:~

- Victoria Secrets
- Guess
- French Connection
- Zara
- Esprit
- Gucci
- Burberry
- Ralph Lauren
- Georg Jensen
- Tommy Hilfiger
- Christian Dior
- Charles & Keith
- Lancome
- Estee Lauder
- Bobbi Brown
- workout
- Forever 21
- Levis
- Funny T-shirts Design
- Delias shopping
- DrJays shopping
- FredFlare shopping
- Cosmetic shopping
- Bath and Shower shopping
- Estrella shopping
- Kawaii-neh
- Lip gloss shopping
- Roxy
- Nike
- Adidas
- FleshImp
- bikinis
- splash hawaii
- Women's Secret
- The Life Shop
- PinkPeony
- Rouge online
- Urban Nymph
- Luxe Ideas
- Mavrik Jewelry
- Suzz
- Purple Anemone
- Wynhost
- Bohemian butterfly
- Junk Funk Munk
- RoseOfAsia
- FieJapan
- Singapore Bikes
- Chain of Beads
- Revolve Clothing
- Cocoon Dreams
- Abercrombie & Fitch
Impt Dates..
6th - Lihe
7th - John
12th - BTBM Test
14th - MMIT Test
17th - TTP Test
19th - Poly 50
20th - IAF Test
21st - Werner
23rd - Father
27th - Wilson
28th - UCCD CA1 Submission, BD BSG Test
31st - Vivian

4th - Angeline, BD Phase 3 & MMIT Part 1 Submission
8th & 9th - CNY
14th - Valentines Day
16th - LayKuan, Wenna
18th - BTBM CA2 Submission
23rd - Jonathan
24th - BTBM Presentation
25th - BD Executive Summary
28th - Mummy, Vikki, Suria

2nd - UCCD Presentation
3rd - IAF CA2
4th - Cindee, UCCD CA2 Submission
7th - TTP Presentation
10th - Jennifer
11th - Stella
17th - Dennis
18th - Me, MMIT Presentation
19th - BD Final Presentation
24th - BD BSG Report Submission
27th - Shufen
29th - UCCD Written Test

1st - Bridget
3rd - MMIT Open Book Test
5th - Sister
6th - Niki
9th - Shawn
10th - Terence
14th - Doris

7th - Sujuan
15th - Yuwen
16th - Wynn
17th - Joyce
24th - Brother
28th - Laiman

16th - Xiaoyi
27th - Jieshan

14th - Bryan
29th - Cuijuan


7th - Xiuwen
15th - Sharrel
19th - Cindy, Terenz
27th - Huiping

2nd - Xintian
6th - Minyee
11th - Roanna
13th - Yeow Tuck
17th - Jiayun
28th - Nicholas
29th - Gabriel

3rd - Yingyun
8th - Weilin
10th - Eugene
11th - Samantha
13th - Lynette
17th - Novem
21st - Lynn
29th - Kelly

1st- James
15th - Qiwen
19th - Peilin, Tingfeng
25th - Selina
27th - Maybelline, Peiling
28th - Suryanty
31st - Tricia, Claryn
my inspiration..
Entry 1
Life is like a rollercoaster
Sometimes feeling at the top
Sometimes feeling at the bottom
Really happy to be with you
I love to see u laugh, see you smile
Life is full of ups and downs
Sorrow and happiness
Being with u had made my life splendid
just wanna tell the whole world
you are the greatest!

Entry 2
Dun leave me for you friend
for i'll never leave you
for my friend

Entry 3
Sleeping under your arms
is all i wanna do tonight...
the warmth...
the security...
is really priceless!

Entry 4
Somedays, some nights
I just cant stop thinking of you
Somedays, sometime
I just cant stop missing you
And every minute, every second
I jus cant stop loving you!

Entry 5
that's my character
that's my hair
thats my life

Entry 6
In my mind
there is only one word to describe you
In my life
there is only one person who tries hard
to make me happy
In my heart
there is only one SPECIAL YOU

Entry 7
It was you
who made me grow
It was you
who made me learn
It was you
who made me strong
It was you, my dear
who made me what I am today!

Entry 8
My life is not interesting
without ur hugz
My life is not interesting
without ur kisses
My like is not interesting
without ur lurve
I wanna make ur life interesting
so i am giving you
my love by my

Entry 9
My tears just flowed naturally
dun ask me why
coz i am not sure myself
many thoughts just came to my mind
Dun try to make me happy
cos i know its all a lie
dun try to make me smile
cos i jus dun wanna try
all i wanna do is CRY

Entry 10
Made many mistakes
in this life i undertake
there is no turnng back
the crack is always there

Entry 11
Had a sudden urge of going
back to school
Being with my frenz who are
so-called cool
Looking at some guyz simply
make me drool!

Entry 12
Born into this world
as a healthy ger
Like everyone else
I'd a love of my life
My only wish
was to be his wife
but fated as it might be
our luv couldnt withsatnd time
Monday. 1.10.05 11:57 pm
back back.

while doin grocery shopping jus nw.. father ask my mum if she can sense any new yr mood now. made me tink how fast time flies. ya, its gonna b chinese new yr in like 1 mths time! sigh. he used to cum my hse to pai nian. tis yr wil b different. loneliness engulfed me again. no use sighing huh? but seriously, tis yr wil b so busy tt i doubt anyone wil truly enjoy de new yr spirit.. will b busy chiong-ing all de projs n stuffs..whr gt time to slack n enjoy? =( and so sway for my 1 wk hol to b in de same wk as cny..meaning..there wun b extra off daes for me to rest. argh. *stress stress*

and i kinda feel de fear of visiting my aunts n uncles liao. cos dey wil b like askin "eh where;'s ur bf?" i suppose some mite not hav not of de news lor. so wad m i suppose to sae? "oh, we broke off half a yr back?" sigh. n i gonna put on a fake smile again i suppose. no choice wad..den go ppls hse pai nian den show black face meh? i miss my cousins tho. *grin*

been ponderin a lot these daes. oh ya, forget to mention, i bought another level of "Conversation With God" liao! hee, total of 3 levels. stil reading yeah.

life's fragile. n sometimes i wonder wad do frenship means to us. cos, ppl cum n go ya. de ppl u trust now, de ppl tt u r so darn close wif, in 5 yrs time, wil things stil b de same? highly unlikely rite? ppl change. all de time. i miss my frens. sheesh. been so long since i met viv. babe. de pigs. etc etc. n de feelin is like so lost suddenly.. am i alone? arghh.

we're always so busy n occupied wif our own stuff tt many a times, we fail to treausre those close to us. i start to feel tt nth in tis world last. even frenship. so im not holding high hopes in any of my frenship too. cos de higher ur hopes, de greater ur disappointment. i learn tt fr experience. :X same for r/s i guess. i wan to enter into a new one. at least, i wan to try n make myself afresh, n believe tt miracles do happen. tt god has given me sth to live for. but at de same time, ive de fear. de fear of negative signals. cos nth wil b purrfect.

most likely, 99% wil b negative, and only a minimal 1% positive. how sad can tt b. n i find it hard to trust ppl now too. guess i said tt b4. b it guys or gers, its tuff la. after all de bad exp, after all de taken-for-granted and taken-advantage-of incidents..i kinda learn my lesson..to protect myself n not b so naive, n also not to trust ppl so easily. it dun sound quite nice cos it seems as if im so damn selfish, tinkin of myself only, but i guess tts life huh? de stronger wins. de weaker gets defeated. even if u treat de other party nice, u tink he/she wil do de same thg to u? if u dun protect urself, den hu will?

argh..i dunno y im writing all this also. pardon all my rubbish. mayb its time i go n zzz..after all, im a pig huh? gee. *as fat as a piggg*

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Monday. 1.10.05 8:02 pm
ahhh..i jus wrote an entry..n dunno how de hell de window got close..shit man. grr. been awhile since i wrote so ya..lemme think..hmm.


was at town conducting tis bloody survey. argh. takin up so much of my time. n as expected, v few respodents lor. hu wil actually b willing to sacrifice his time, filling up 6 pgs of survey, wen he can go shop ard hur? lolx..if its me, i also wun lor. anyway..after much desperation, we decided to approach our relatives..n their fren's fren..lolx..plus de colleagues..my parents help me bring to their office too, so yeah, ive completed! gee. slack wif my grp at Taka Mac for awhile, after conducting an interview wif de salesman at Best Denki. boy, he was damn arrogant can. hello, salesmen only leh? i mean, he provide quite substantial info la, but nid to b so hao lian one meh? hmph.

wen shopping wif sujuan after tt. gee. not me hu suggested ar, it was her..keke.. she din wan to go home so early, so e wen walkin ard lor. n tok so many crap stuffs. *faint* ppl must b tinkin tis 2 mad woman...dunno tokin bout wad..lolx.. bought a shoe fr Charles & Keith, n apparently, i heard tt i took de last pair, so de customer hu was behind me, couldnt had de chance to purchase it. hee. bought a top fr Taka too..heh. den wen to Kinokuniya..and ahem..i bought a CHINESE book! buahahaha, its damn unlike me lor. n i seldom spend money on books one eh. lolx. but ok la..de book is not those chim chim chinese..more of de simplified version, so not too bad. my Chinese get A one hor! hehe..as usual, de book writes bout a love story. *smiles* de plot..err... too gd to b true le..if life is so simple den ppl wun hav so much worries le. :)

got home for dinner. hah. den had tis funny conversation wif my bunch of frenz.. sooo crappy. lolx. MSN so fun hur? keke..


i was addicted to de book. read de book til 2+ yest..so i was damn tired on Wed. already tried my best to pay attention liao. first 1/2 of de lec always damn alert, but after tt..u can c me lying on de table liao..lolx.. *yawn yawn* was suppose to go dwn to Harvey Norman wif my grp..but err, cos of my tiredness, i cancelled it. gee. yea bad of me hur. too tired le. *grinn* so..heh i slept wen i got home. ahha. beauty sleep neh..lol. i only woke up ard 9pm. *faint* sucha pig huh? it feels so gd to slp man..

had a late dinner wif my father..den he suddenly tok to me bout jobs la..university la..blah blah..damn stress lor. n of no reason, he ask me to go his office to work! and my mum wen "dun wan la..u tink ur DBS bank damn gd ah? for wad ask ur daughter to go thr.." and de wae dey bicker ard dey gao xiao..i sit thr see show. lolx.


boring day. long hours of lecture plus long hours of break. cant rem much of wad i did on tis dae too. mayb i was in my own dreamland all along hur? gee. recently noe how to slp a lot liao. :P

continued reading my Chinese book as usual at nite..reali v touching book. recommended! (but i doubt anyone wil b as crazy as me to go buy la huh) n after every chp, de book wil hav some phrases bout r/s which is damn meaningful one lor.. wanted to post it here..but.. i got no chinese software. -.-" tried to download, but end up dunno wad rubbish dey tel me..so 4get it. =(

b4 i forget, Happie birthday Lihe! 20 le ah! hope things go smoothly for u tis yr yea? jiayou wor! =)


*yawn* its Friday so SOON...meaning ...tests r approaching! argh. had tis BD BSG game trial thingy n its sooo chim! omg! ive yet to analyse how to play it, but its reali complicated la. dunno how to fare for this. if kena last position how? damn malu-ing wor. grrr.

took de train home as usual..den ahhh, tis shit uncle (actually he isnt tt old also), sitting at de kopitiam near to de bus stop i was waiting, suddenly wen "eh mei ren, ni.." den he stop wad he was saying. i stared at him, tinkin he was some xiao lang n walk off. den hahahaha....i knew y he stop tokin! my mum was behind! lolx.. so coincidental! my mum was on her way hm fr office too. gee, my mum must hav gave tt uncle a fierce look. ahh MUMMY's power! hehe..took a bus home wif mum after tt n we kept luffing over tt matter. =)


finally did some productive stuff today. lolx. studied n wrote my notes.. den eveening, mummy ask if i wanna go out! geee. *big big smile* wen to Bugis wif my parents.. along de wae, was tokin to my father, den he told me some issue bout my uncle n his divorced wife. dey got heated up over certain matters n de latest news was tt, dey arent on tokin terms now. initially, tho my uncle had a new wife, my ex-aunt stil did tok to him n stuff (cos of children matters ma..). but recently, heard tt she gave her biz up to one of her partners, so wil b earning lesser, n told my uncle tt she wun b giving anymore 'pocket money' to my grandma (hu is living wif her). somehow..my uncle wasnt hapi wif tt decision, n dey both flare up..so now.. like strangers liao. sigh. so sad huh? got 3 kids somemore. hai. guys, ur better dun b so irresponsible next time hor! mm.

today was a shopping spreee. gee. cos i bought like 10 tops? lolx. my mum gonna kill me liao. hee. but i tink i'll reserve a few for new yr la.. =) v happie wif my shou huo. hehe. den had dinner at Ajisen Ramen. mum suggested tt since father haven tried b4. ave la.. was kinda full also. so we only ordered 2 bowls to share. daday left ard 7+ to attend his colleague's wedding dinner at Chijmes..

i tout we were gg home after sending dad off, but my mum wen " cum, lets go to City Hall. shop at Raffles City". -.-" im so surprise! lolx.. hehe so off we wen thr to shop.. i spotted a tube thr. den i saw some aunties like wan to try also..was kinda turn off. dun ask me y. i kept hesitating.. and i decided to jus try to c if its nice a not lor. no harm ma. jus more troublesome only. i was tinkin "hmm tis tube v aunty-lookin meh?" after much consideration, decided to buy it la. hu cares if aunties actually wear dem. at de counter, de lady was commenting on de tube. hehe, she sae its nice! lolx..so ya..it reaffirmed my decision, n there u go, i bought it! keke.

got home ard 10 n laze ard as usual. lolx. *lazy lazy lazy*


quiet Sunday. did my revision at home. din go out. hee. altho was tempted to. lolx. parents wen out in de evening to buy dinner..dey wanted to try Pungool Nasi lemak! heh. but its not at pungool la..hehe. franchise de. ard katong got liao..no nid go so far. been tellin mummy to try tt cos always c long queue wen we go Parkway ma. so hah finally..lol.. but i dun eat rice la, so my dinner was Fish Meat beehoon. hehe. dunno how nice de nasi lemak is, but sis told me de rice v nice-smelling. n bro told me de otah is gr8. so ya, mayb u all shld go try? hmm.

watch de charity show after tt. every yr, dey nv fail to make ppl tear. de actions dey do, de stunts dey make, jus to get our hands to de fone n dial 19001128888. kym ng impress me wif her upside-down show.. her veins in her forehead started swelling fr de pressure. wow. and de 2000 push ups (to "free" Ven Ming Yi from his daunting balancing stunt on a 12-m tower). and of cuz not to mention, de monk. hu stand up high (as high as 5 storeys) for like close to 2 hrs, not moving..its damn scary lor.

reali pei fu dem. i tink my legs wil jus turn jelly. was stunned wen Singaporeans actually offered to help out in achieving de 2000 push ups too. Quoted by Edmund "Singaporeans may be kiasu, but in time of need, they wil help out. When my son took over from me, I felt really really proud. He is learning de lesson tt he has to contribute, whether big or small, as long as u can do wad u can. That's all tt matters". hee. and... more importantly, dey reached their target once again! awwww happi happi! not only did dey reach their target, dey even achieve higher than last yr! 6.8million! oohhh! awww, marvellous! miracle! de beginning was so low! =P


monday blues. grrr. *blury eyes*

dunno to b hapi wen Monday comes a not, cos well, its a long day. 9 to 5 wif 1 hr break. but well..de next dae is off. no sch on tues. so, is it gd or bad hur? hmm.

TTP was as usual boring..and every lesson of his, i must protect myself fr being suan by ahem..___ if nt i mite jus die throughout his whole 2 hrs lec and 2 hrs lab lesson. -.-" TTP test next monday..gosh. death is awaiting me. HELP!! u see de 'impt dates' on de left side? sigh. its a reminder to myself man. as well as to my frens out thr. in case u all do not noe of de exact dates of our tests etc. hope it helps u all. but dun blame me if its wrong hor. im human being, so accuracy is nv 100%. lolx.. anyway, if i nv added ya bdae inside, pls leave me a msg k! i mite hav forgotten somehow, but no offence ah! =)

found a seat on de train. thankfully. cos i wanted to study my BTBM which is on Wed. sigh. kp forgetting stuff tt ive memorise. shitzz. as de train approach Aljunied (whr im suppose to alight), i suddenly felt my vision blurred. i walked dwn de stairs as usual, n like some old lady, i had to hold on to de handle! argh. n i had to tk small steps. got kinda afraid cos i seldom hav such situation like tis. it got worse soon after. started to feel v dizzy, n was walkin in a zig zag manner, machiam drunk lidat. i quickly wen to de washrm, n squat down. hoping it wil b better. walked to my bus stop after tt..n shit, i almost hit onto de side mirror of a lorry. is it side mirror?

u noe, de one outisde of de vehicle, nt de inside one. (i 4get de name le). its those quite big lorry..de height of de mirror, is ard my head thr lor. n i was so gong, to almost hit onto it. its glass rite? shit man. heng a guy saw me n came to help me. thank god. he send me home n here i am now, safely.*was desperate for help le* was a bad experience. my head stil feel dizzy at tis moment of time. n i feel lieke puking. i hope it doesnt happen a 2nd time! reali shit.

ok i'll continue again..gotta go buy grocery wif my parents le. study hard peeps. dun b lik me. =P

Your dark side is centered around Hopeless Faith. A
shattered broken heart holding its last breath,
searching for its salvation in a cold world.
All you want is a sweet loving heart, touchs
your hand and holds you in their arms,
prmoising you they will love you forever, so
you can feel that the whole world is revolved
around the both of you only, no more sorrow or
regret, just love. You will find what you want
when you believe in yourself and when you start
making your life with your own hands.

What is the center of your dark core? (updated)
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you are one hot chick walking.people never get
bored around cuz you know how to livin things
up.but be careful and slow things down and
every thing will be ok. you are what we call it

What is hot in you (your body, brain or soul) ? (girls only)
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Oooh, you are sweet :), you don't like troubles and
you know how to forgive. you think love is all
about caring, sharing and passion. although you
like peace but you know how to defand when the
situation requires. you truly love your
friends, and you like to be liked. but you know
sometimes there are things you should fight

What kind of women are you? in 3 questions only
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You seek knowledge. you don't like to be out of the
picture, you seem a little bit curious
"actually a lot". you have a lot of
goals you wish you could acheive, but you are
not the kind of people who waits for a wonder,
you go out and try to figure out what could
make it come true. you are ambitious,
independent, smart human being. you are truly
unique so be proud of yourself and keep trying
till you reach your dreams cuz one day you
You are best at jobs needs an open minded, smart
person like you, such as journalists,

Why you were born? What do you seek in life? What is the reason behind your existence?
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You are still single because you are afraid you
might get hurt, inside you, you are very
romantic but you never show it, cuz you don't
want someone to play with your feelings, you
like your parner to be understanding and
patient, someone who cares about you, deep
inside knows that you will find them one day.

Why are you still single? (girls& guys)
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You are a Romantic Kisser, when it comes to kissing
you get your drive from the lure of romance,
for you it is more than a meeting of the lips,
you appreciate kissing for what it symolizes,
you probably like to make a lot of eye
contact, gently hug, touch your date and talk
tenderly about your feelings.

What kind of kisser are you?
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You are a Slow Dancer. You are the romantic girl
between your friends, you have beautiful sweet
little dreams about the future, you love your
friends and ready to do any thing for them.
Your ideal man is the charming prince who is
ready to give up everything just for you, and
always show you how much he loves you.

What kind of dancers are you? (Girls only)
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You are Cocaine (aka: coke, crack, snow, 151...).
You are the second most commonly used drug in
the world. You are very witty, talented, perky
person if you can just have the right
opportunity to show to everybody how unique you
are, when you are in a good mood you can reach
a very high point of happiness, but when this
(mood) end, you suffer from dpression,
insomnia, anxiety, hallucinations, seizures
which can lead to serious damage such as heart
attacks, respiratory failure or simply Death
(what a nice person you are). You are
classified as class (A and B) illegal drugs.

What kind of Drugs are you? and how that reflect your personality?
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You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.
Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul.
You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.
Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.

You have great vision and can be very insightful.
In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.
Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.
You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

You Are Chocolat Orange Pocky

Your attitude: funky and flavorful
Rich and deep - yet zingy and zesty
You are the perfect partner in crime

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Monday. 1.3.05 11:03 pm
i dunno how tis entry can b a hapie one. cos im feelin too down tt i tink tis entry wil jus make me tear more.

i noe its stupid. n dumb. i dunno y i teared either. J is attached. yes, he is. double confirmation.

few daes bk, i saw his friendster. den saw tis pic wif a ger n he wrote "she wants me!!". had mixed feelings. cos he stil put "single" mah. din probe much. see him online, also nv tok to him. den today... my fren ask me if i noe tt J is attached..n i was stunned for a second. i mean, ok, i guessed it. but i din wan my guess to b right. n wen ur fren tells tt to u, it cant b wrong rite? so ya. it broke my heart. for dunno wad reason.

babe said "u reali like him very much!!". i dun even noe de right answer myself. mayb yes, mayb no. i seriously tried to get him off my mind. but wen tis sentence "J is attached" was said to me, i totally lost everythg. ahh fark. hell. crap. mayb i shld jus delete him fr my MSN list. prolly i wun tink so much lidat. u noe de shit i feel? omg. damn down until i dun feel like tokin to anyone, or do my stuffs. ahhhh. i wish i can treat him as a normal fren again. time. => i nid lots.

tis portrays how i feel rite now..

The Hardest Thing

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do...

to look you in the eyes, and tell you I don't love you...

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie...

to show no emotion, when you start to cry...

I can't let you see what you mean to me, when my hands are tied and my hearts not free...

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do...

to turn around and walk away, pretending I don't love you....


life suk. reali. i noe its incomparable to those innocent ppl hu died. i shouldnt b complaining. but i nid a place to vent out all my frustration lah.

i haf like so many freakin stuffs to do now. tests r nearing. 2 each a wk. n my notes arent updated for goodness sake. den my proj survey arent getting anywhr. tried using friendster to get respondents. but result not very appealing. father said he'll help me ask him colleagues. hope it'll aid somehow. gonna go dwn town tml to do too. sigh. expect many rejections. yuwen is sick. dwn wif fever. one less helper. die. god, r u helpin me??

notes r piling up. tryin to rewrite all my notes again. may hafta work during 4 wk ends now. de event co called me. 9 bucks per hr, attractive yea. seriously dunno how to juggle it. if my studies get affected, it'll all b my fault. nt gonna blame anyone except myself.

nth much to write. tink my love luck is gg dwn de drain. everyday seem to get worse than previous daes. either de guy is too persistent. make me kinda irritated. or he uses me as a substitute due to previous break up. or he jus wanna hav a fling. or ive no chemistry wif him. or he is totally boring n unromantic. am i being picky?! ahhh i reali dunno. mayb most guys make me feel disgusted now. only some, intellectual ones, hu now how to converse, wil i tok to dem. im sry if i ignored many. jac is in a damn down mood today. *cries*

i once tout, if any guy comes along my way, i'll jus accept him. but i realise its too tuff. now, i even feel answering guys calls a hindrance. esp wen dey cor u to noe more bout u. i dunno. i dun reply some msgs too. i noe its bad. but jus dun hav de "feeling" to tok, much less answer de cor. SORRIE! guess, single is my life.

now i can only wish T n J xing fu kuai le..both gt gf..wen someone is happie, de other party wil b sad. tts a sacrifice i guess. John msg me, he said he was in town den saw T n gf on de streets. sigh. one bad news + one more bad news = very very very bad bad news! fark!

ive too much stuffs on my mind. time i sorta many many things. wun b blogging for a short while i guess. dun miss me. well, i noe u wun.

tk care pple. study hard. =)

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Sunday. 1.2.05 10:17 pm
"love means trusting myself with you who has seen me at my worst & loves me anyway"-> quite true?


aint too sure wad i did..i tink i slept de whole noon. lolx. hmm. evening.. wen to Parkway wif my parents. shopping i sure ONz one! haha.. immediately woke up fr my slp. lolx.

been raining on n off. sigh. de rain's so emotional huh? i tink its shedding tears for those innocent victims? mm.

Parkway is getting to b pretty boring for me liao..i tink i can even like name out de shops tt dey hav thr. lolx. mum bought tis top n matching skirt for new yr which i tout it looks damn good on her. i dunno how to cor it. gt name one. but err i dunno. lolx. not de normal plain tops lor. den i saw some customers tryin on their dresses there..suddenly felt like wearing dress for cny. lolx.

but b4 tt, must go on diet. buahahaha... wen i was a kid, it was like a must to wear dress lor. esp de first dae. now parents also lac lac liao. wear black colour also can. lolx. cum to tink of it..cny is approaching in like a mths time huh? omg. tts reali fast. i haven gotten any clothes meant for cny yet. but..i tink i mite nt hav enuf time to go search for dem..so tis yr..mayb wil jus wear old clothes.. stil clothes rite? hmm.

bought heels n 2 tops tt lk like cardigan type. dunno how to describe also. heh. but i luv it. gee. tinkin of buyiing another colour. of de same design. yea, tts me. always doin tt. hehe. i love de shoe i bought too. tout it was very unique n diff fr those simple kinda shoes. bleah. i decided not to tk pic of de stuff i bought, lest tis blog entry wil b too long liao. cos i gonna post damn lotsa pics today. get rdy. lolx.

had dinner at Banquet. ordered tis Tom Yam Soup,

Popiah, Rojak,

n dunno wad omelette mee ar?

haha..3 ppl share.. quite cost savings huh? lolx.

wen to de gym after tt.

den. hmm. *lemme think*

did proj stuffs.. time past pretty fast. i saw de clock... -2am liao. was bout to go slp, den gt tis unknwn number cor me. as usual..i din answer. lolx. too many prank calls liao. cant blame me. but after tt, i receive a msg fr tt number. n its actually a part timer fr Lancome! lolx. so i immd called her bk. n we ended up tokin..n i dunno wad time i slept in de end. she's de ger tt i mention hu has damn swt smile. i saw her during training, immd caught my eye. lolx. nice features, nice body, nice voice. perfect huh! =)

she told me she wanna convert to full time..den complain tt Lancome de staff benefits not so gd. she wanna try to get into SK2. n apparently, peiling's fren is workin thr. (side track a bit. tis is Pl's new perm! nice ma? i haven did anythg to my hair! stil tinking! sob sob.. (2nd from de right)..)

so i told her i'll her ask bout it. tink de pay n everythg is much better lor. looks like..im nt de only one 'tokin bad' bout my exp at Lancome.. cos she told me many stories..n all bad one la.. dun wanna publicize here. i hope she gets in SK2 anyway. hmm. she's reali damn pretty. haha. see if i mit her one of these daes..


dunno wad time i slept last nite. i was suppose to go to de market. but my pig lifestlye..forbidded me. lolx. woke up ard 11.. ate a little..den i wen bk to slp ard 1. damn piggg. did some work. saw tis show on SCV. some pilot-air stewardess show. den was tinkin of wad viv told me last nite. she sae she wan to try for air stewardess, cos can fly here n thr, busy lives, can remain single. hmmmm. de show showed a lot of benefits. but in life whr gt so purrfect one? lalala~ sian.

wanted to go out..but was another rainy dae..no one seem to wan to go out..so..sigh..end up stayin at hm lor. decided to pack my room.. after much dilly-dallying. but only pack 1/2. lolx. my books etc r place neatly liao, but clothes..i nid a full dae i tink. hehe. in de midst of packing.. dunno whether to kp his fotos a not. n all de stuff he gave me. big or small.

sigh. u see, my rm places all de foto frames. shld i get rid of all of dem? arrgghh...de left corner pic.. taken at de airport wif my poly mates. next to it, solo pic i took on his bdae. celebrated at Paramount Hotel, den we wen Parkway de next morning. beside it, me at Clarke Quay. we were at Robertson Quay Hotel celebrating dunno which yr's xmas. de bottle of heart at de right..given by him..during de early stages of our courtship.

holidaes r over..its back to books books books..argh. how cum so fast monday liao? zzz. gotta get bk to my books liao..upcoming test is jus like 10 daes ltr? omg! n its freakin damn many chps! shit.

pictures time! *grin* it'll b reali a lot hor..
New Year's Eve
drinks drinks.

food food. -pizza.

outside C.A.N cafe..

where it is located.

our lousy photography skills. lolx.

walkin n takin fotos..buahaha...

along suntec area i tink..towards esplanade..


waiting for de green men..wahahah..


Ro was tryin to cor Joyce in China. i had nth to do..so ya..took pic. lolx.

at de esplanade..

ppl watchin de band..see..all sitting down de.. -.-"

ourselves. lolx.

shit. i forgot de name for tis. Ro told me its "bo.." (sth lidat). cant rem it now.

de bungy jump thingy..cant c huh?

at Clarke Quay..

kena tis shit stuffs! argh..

at Checkers..

Bangkok trip (yes i noe, its like 1 mth ago liao. but aiya.. jus post for de sake of posting. lolx.)

on de airplane! obvious la huh? lolx..

father n me..our rooms!

mummy n daddy! =)

bro was tryin to tk de action of me feeding de fishes..lolx..



tiger show..

walkin to see..i tink de pigs..lolx..my bro must hav taken tis. im in front wif my mum. den my grandma n dad. followed by my sis.

me up on de parachute thingy..fly fly fly!

my bro n me at Dream World. or is it dream land? shit.

my lovely mummy n daddy..gee, nice pic ya? *sweet sweet*

hmm. realise i din load pics of those aqua. n de scuba diving pics. ahh. another time la huh? nid to do some work liao...cya...

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Sunday. 2.1.05 1:48 am
something to ponder about..

"love cannot be found in all the right places at times, but love finds you always just when youre ready for in and in the right moment.... "

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happie new year!
Saturday. 01.01.05 2:56 pm
happie new year! 2005 gotta be better than 2004! :P wen u write de 'date', rem..it ends wif '05 now..not '04..dun live in de past! *wake up*

anyone wen countdown? heh. yest...my legs were killing me. keke.

wen for 1 lesson in de morn..wen dwn to mit Claryn after tt, to hand in de time sheet togeda. i was early (cos lesson ended early), so dropped by at PS to check if Mphosis stil has de top i wanted to get. *frown*. dun hav. sob. wen dwn Somerset to wait for her, den proceeded to find boss to get her signature. haha. i like my boss' dressing. lolx. tink she gt de seh. not de chio chio kind, but gt x-factor arh. tink she's filthy rich also. c de accessories she has on her body. all exp products one. one dae i wanna b like her..lolx...*luff luff luff*

told her not to put me on any schedule for jan, cos sch work is piling. wanna settle my sch stuffs first. den she mention, jan gt no occasions, so shld b ok, but feb she'll nid me. tink cos of de new yr period ba. hope i dun forget my product stuffs by den. *grin* at least i can tk a break now..heh.

wen to Tanjong Pagar after tt to hand in to de agency. damn ma fan rite? bo bian. Ro called, saying tt 2 of my frens not gg for de countdown le. sian 1/2. i hate it sia. argh. tink both of us hav enuf of all these shit liao. was having tt kind of heck-care mood liao la. anyway told her i'll cor her ltr to cfm plans etc, cos had to go mit my mum liao. at Bugis. first thg i did -- check our de Mphosis shop! lolx. i tink i shld check out how to get de member huh? hehe..my tops r like 70% from there? got my tops thr, n mummy also got one! hehe. i love it wen we get tops fr de same plc! cos it wil seem as if de age gap isnt tt big. haha, my logic.

had a late lunch at de Ajisen Ramen, mummy wanted to try. food's so-so. alrite la. heh, i gt de member. lolx. tink my sis wld love tis plc. im nt a fan of Japanese food tho. called Ro. she sounded kinda mad. (over de others). aiya, i wld b also. but wads de pt? lemme see...7 pigs.. one is not in Spore (exempted), another gt family dinner (ok, nvm), one sae gt sch stuff to finish (oh well), another agreed but ltr sae mum wun b hapi (ahh...ok..), de last one sae lazy. (ok, wtf?) so its left wif de 2 pathetic pigs..Ro and Me! lolx..n c'mon lor, we plan tis very early leh. even made dinner reservation. den now all tis rubbish. hu wun b piss huh? sigh. since dey nt coming..den so b it lor..arranged to mit Ro at Bugis at 830..

settled it den, stop by at Giordano whr mum bought bro a jeans. got myself a black pants too. walked ard a little more den headed home. argh. wanted to find shoes. my flats r like.. torn n tattered? not tt bad la..but not in gd condition. dunno how to sae. lolx. gt home ard 4.. was considering whether to go to de gym or tk a nap. 1. i am tired. i doze off in de bus. 2. i wan to exercise. HOW? noe wad did i choose?

SLEEP!!! (buahahahah...)

nah. i had planned to tk a short nap, den wake up to go to de gym b4 i wen out.
but like expected.....a pig like me..................

i slept at 5.. woke up a few instances but wen bk to slp..turn to c de clock behind me, i saw 730..(i totally forgot bout de gym thingy)..tout stil gt time, so slp somemore.. den... de next time i check de time on my fone, it showed 20:27! arghhh! for a moment i tout it was de next dae liao (it always happen to me). shit! 830 liao meh? omggg! i quickly rush n prepare, told Ro to mit ltr..den she kp luffing at my blurrness. ahhh. i must b real tired la. cos tis kinda thg dun happen to me one lor. zzz. *age is getting on me lah*

rushed like mad. couldnt even find de shoe i wanted to wear. dun wanna wear flats (cos it wun b matching)..so ya..i wore heels..and damn pain ar! lolx..

finally met up ard 930. headed to C.A.N cafe. i fell in love wif tt place. ok la, mayb not tt exagerrating. but its a nice plc to chill lor. de police fren brought me thr de other time. so now i intro-ed tis plc to Ro. nice rite gal? i tink i shall bring viv thr de next time. lolx. we ordered some chips..pizza.. n drinks.. >(not tt we're glutton, but cos we nv eat dinner k! lol..) heng we gt thr like 15 mins earlier, cos after us, gt many big grps coming in n couldnt find seats. chatted a lot..machiam 2 depressed gers lidat.

haha. i reali wish 2005 wil b a better one. if not...suffering for one more yr..can reali kill..DEADLY. stayed thr til ard 1130..den we slowly walk to Esplanade to countdown. Ro wanted to check out wad dey hav thr ma. along de way, we bought beer. lolx. but we din drink til dead drunk. tho Ro's face was flushed liao. she's kinda sensitive to alcoholic drinks. c her face i wanna luff. hee. cos it was reali pinkish red red. lolx. countdwn at de Esplanade.. like nt so happening leh... dun hav de right atmosphere u see. sigh. must b de Tsunami thingy. ending de yr wif such a sad thg. sigh. tts life huh?

Esplanade had some performances things. we stayed thr to watch a lil. it was de Electrical (or sth lidat). de band. 4 guys n 1 ger or dunno wad. haha, info fr Ro. dey played nice songs tho. mayb wil check out their album ltr. de mood wasnt high enuf. u noe u noe.. like aiyah.. dunn hav de 'high' spirit lor.. audiences were jus sitting dwn..den those standin werent even dancing.. mayb only a few ba. saw de boat ride thingy den was considering whether wanna sit not. cost 12 ucks per person for to n fro. too costly, so gave up on tt idea. i sat tt wif him last time tho. n we had fun takin funny pics of ourselves. lolx.

decided to head dwn to CLarke Quay. wah. de whole Esplanade cum CLarke Quay area, i saw a lot of Malays. is it their territory? hmm. reali a lot leh. saw Ro's fren along de way, den ahhh kena sprayed by hm! u noe those party spray..omg.. a lot can. blue blue stuffs. wah. my fone kena also. zzz!

i dunno how long we stayed at Clarke Quay. my legs were like screaming for help. plsu de heels. lolx. serve me rite huh? grrr. we kp walkin in circles.. tink we prolly spend like 2 hrs thr. checkin out all de pubs thr. lolx. den we saw de Bungy Jump thingy. omg. freakin scary leh! ppl wan to scare themselves on de first dae of 2005 arh? pay so much jus to scare ur heart out?

lolx.. saw tis grp of Malay guys.. we walked pass dem den dey wen "Happie New Year!!!". i stared at dem. haha. a bit too sudden la. cos i was tokin halfway to Ro. den i was like "Oh, Happie.." n i stopped. lolx. dunno y also. den dey wen "wah...wish u happie new year, u nv wish me arh..?" n de way dey sae it..like make it sound so pitiful lor..n make those sad sad sound..damn funnie!

decided to head dwn to Mohd Sultan after tt. n guess wad? we couldnt find our way! ARGH! i cant imagine we actually sorta lost our way! lolx..how stupid are we. sigh. walked ard Clarke Quay in circles..entering all de small routes..jus couldnt seem to find it. gave up after like loitering for 3 hours? lolx. n wilson if u'r wonderin y i din tk cab, its bcos..

my fren din wan! she kept saying tt she noe de way.. all de while, she was saying "i gt tis feelin tt its somewhere here..lets walk tis direction..it has to b here.." end up. she finally gave up n we walked dwn to Checkers. ya, we WALK. lolx. my legs like gonna break liao. tink i did a lot of exercise. haha.

n Ro said "eh we walked a lot leh..i can feel my butt smaller liao..." buahaha... i wish lor. den outside thr, tis freakin asshole! -- argh..reali frighten me. he was alone. he came to me. den.. he wen "xiao jie..wo jue de ni hen mei leh..ke yi ren shi ni ma..?" OMG! i dunno y i was so scared. kp holding on to Ro's hands.

i ignored him den he followed behind..ahhh! he said "bu yao zhi yang le, wo zhi shi yao ren shi ni. My name is Matthew, tis yr 23, how bout u?" omg, i wish i can jus shout at him de f word, but errr, i was reali scared out of my wits. lolx. dunno how de hell we manage to get off. walk real fast. den Ro said " omg. look at him. i tink he is jus lookin for someone to fuck la." hmm. mayb huh? he din look drunk tho. CREEPY!

rot there. so many pple! tink all of dem go thr slack after countdwn.. Checkers must b having gd biz yest man. dey double de food prices somemore! freakin ex! Ro got an American Bacon Cheese Sandwich..i jus gt a soup. lolx. n we slacked thr all de way to 5+.. was reali tired. but we tok to each other to kp each other awake. lolx. life's weird lah.. r/s..frenship..aiya.. dunno la.. all fated one lor. dun wanna tink also.

530..we slowly walk out.. n decided to walk all de way to City Hall, cos de first train is only at 6.18am. so yea..we walk..n decided to tk bus at City Hall instead. straight bus ma. faster for us also. so yah. we made it. awake thru out. heh. got home like at 7am? de sky already so bright!! break record sia. i gt home.. tink my parents gg to wake up soon to go market. haha. couldnt acc dem today la. too tired liao. wen to my bed immediately. feels gr8 to get to slp again! lolx.. woke up at 12+..n decided to do my SPSS for my proj. n guess wad.. i cant install it! omg, gab!! shit liao.. shall c how ltr..zzz

its de beginning of de new yr..T msg me last nite.. told myself to forget him liao. PAST PAST PAST. i hope i can do it. but last nite.. i actually wanted to ask him if he did miss me. n was bout to tel him tt i miss everythg we did togeda. fr de small stuffs to de big stuffs. but i DIDNT. i dunno if its bcos i din had de courage. or prolly cos i fear de answer. i dunno. new yr..new resolutions..new beginning..

hope u all hav a new start...gambatte. :P

P.S pics wil b up later! too tired to load liao.

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