I think its finally done
Sunday. 6.18.06 11:58 pm
I think I've finally reached the goal that I've been trying to reach for the past year. I think I'm finally over David. When I work with him I don't feel anything towards him. When I talk to him, there's nothing there. I don't think about him outside of work. I don't think about going out with him anymore. And even more importantly, I don't really give shit when he hugs one of the other girls at work. I don't care whether he likes them or not. Its just not there anymore. Thank the Lord. I've been trying to get over him for over a year. And now its finally happened. It feels so good to not like him in that way. It actually feels really good right now to not like anyone. I'm very happy being single and I don't want to even think about getting invlolved with anyone. Only one person and he's just simply in my dreams. Just for fun almost. And if you've read the other entries then you know who. I'll give you a hint: Tourgasm! I love that new 'documentary' series on HBO. All four of them are hilarious. If you aren't watching it you need to. I don't care if you don't like stand up too much cuz its not all stand up. Its like I said a documentary-type series. Anywho, I don't really have much else to say. I'll get on again sooner or later.
Thursday. 6.15.06 10:58 pm
I'm not sure why I suddenly don't like David, or why I don't want to talk to him or see him. I mean sure I still care about him, but I just don't want to have anything to do with him. Today kinda proved why I don't want to leave any of my shit up at work. He saw one of the stuffed animals that Lance had won and thinking it was mine he ripped its head off and hung it in the walk-in. I don't get it. What did I don to him to deserve this kind of treatment. The shit that I go through. Its not worth it anymore. I want to know a way to get him to leave me alone. But I have no clue how. Maybe if I ignore him, he'll stop. Then again same senario, he might do more shit to me to get attention. To get me to react to the shit he's doing. Whatever. I have to open tomorrow. I don't want to. Its money though. I don't know what else to say so I'll write again later.
Wednesday. 6.14.06 8:09 pm
Have you ever woken up and thought to yourself, "today is gonna be a good day" or "today is really gonna be shit"? Well this morning I woke up and did not know how the day was gonna go. I went to work and it still remained iffy. Now that I'm home my day is pretty much over and I guess the day went alright. Nothing really went wrong, but nothing exciting or too good happened either. I think I'm almost done with David. I was very glad to have not seen him today. And I'm glad I don't have to see him tomorrow either, granted I'll be able to get out of there before he gets there. I don't mind working with him, I just don't want to. I don't really give a shit anymore. I care about him, just not in the same way. Its not worth it to like him. Its never going to go anywhere, so I'm done. I paid my cell bill and my cable bill. They took up half of what I had in my account. Ya know, I was in an 'I don't give a shit' mood again today. I've been in that mood lately. I don't know why either. Oh well, I guess that's just how its gotta be for now. Uhm, I really don't know what else to say so I'll end this for now. I'll get on later.
Tuesday. 6.13.06 9:47 pm
Today was slow, but I guess it was normal for a Tuesday. It was only me, Erin and Gary today and there wasn't a whole lot of prep to do. Philly came in today; she was in Hawaii for a few months. I don't know how to react to her homecoming. I'm sorta glad to see her, but at the same time I'm not. I know I'm not too happy with what she said to me today. She told me that she texted David last night and he called her back and they talked for an hour. I thought he didn't like talking on the phone. And I didn't realize that he was that into her to talk to her for an hour on the phone in the middle of the night. Oh well. Whatever. I'm sure me and Philly will hang out eventually. I'm not sure when though. Anywho, Marcus came in today and I got his keys. Lance hadn't been over there yet, I wonder if he's there now. He's supposed to be bring the DVD to Marcus's so that he can watch it too. Tomorrow I have to open, but I get to work with Brandon tomorrow so that's a good thing. I don't have to see David either. Or Joey so that's even better. Alright I'm out of shit to say so if I have something else to write I'll get on later and write it.
A really blah day
Monday. 6.12.06 8:48 pm
Today was really blah for me. Like, I wasn't in a good mood, but at the same time I wasn't in a bad mood either. I was just blah. Mostly cuz today was my Dad's b-day and I couldn't exactly celebrate it with him. He would have been 50. The entire month of June isn't exactly a good month for me, although I've gotten more used to it over the years. Its something that will never go away though. Ya know, I've come to the conclusion that I will never fully get over David until one of us quits. Once I'm not interacting with him on a somewhat normal basis, then I would hope that I will get over him. I know I'll never forget him and I don't want to because he's a good person to know, but I just want to stop liking him the way that I do. I came to that conclusion today when Tori told me something and I got that tinge of jealousy. She told me that she helped David move. Which means that they hung out together outside of work and that she knows where he lives. Now I don't care that they hung out, I just wish that it were me. I wish that we could do something like that together and not have it mean anything. But I know its not gonna happen. I mean look how long it took for me to get over him as much as I have. So, I'm just gonna hafta deal with were I'm at now. Anywho, Joey found out today what happens when someone touches the back of my neck, and he decided to fuck with me the rest of the day. Man, I'm so sick of working. I wish that I could get paid to do nothing. Oh, I had another dream about Dane Cook last night. It was similar in the fact that we ran into each other and became a couple, but the events leading up to it were slightly different. Oh well. Its just a dream right? Alright I'm done writing for now, so if I have something to write about, I'll get on later.
Monday. 6.12.06 1:11 am
OMG!! I love Tourgasm!! Dane Cook is frickin hilarious. I'm watching it for the second time tonight. And I still can't stop smiling. I love all of them. They're so funny. If you haven't seen it yet then you missed out on the funniest show on TV. Its the best. No doubt what-so-ever. I can't wait till next Sunday for the next episode. Alright I'm done writing. That's all I wanted to write about. I'll write tomorrow.
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