Today was different because it was not as busy as a normal Friday. I also had help in the kitchen with prep. It was nice to have the extra help. So I've still been thinking about Joey. I have no idea why now. I got what I wanted. But he's still there. He's still on my mind. Dana really isn't on my mind anymore, but he still pops up every now and then. At least David isn't on my mind anymore. That's a good thing. I don't think about him or what it would be like to get a second chance with him. I saw Steve tonight. I kinda didn't want to. I know what he wants. He wants to sleep with me. Just like another specific person. I don't want to though. And I know that I have to tell them both. But I'm not sure exactly how or when would be the best time. Oh well. I'm pretty sure that I'll figure out a way. I kinda want to know why Joey won't leave my mind. And its not even in the same way as before. I'm not crushing on him. That's done and over with. I just want ... nvm. I'll write about that on my other name. I just hope that it doesn't take as long to get Joey off my mind as it did to get David off my mind. I don't want to be thinking about him for a year or so afterwards. But at the rate things are going its gonna soon be a year. I started liking him around my b-day, which is only 3 months away. Alright I'm watching TV right now so I'll write later on.

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Well today was a decent day. I woke up in a decent mood. However as the day progressed my mood went to just simply blah. I'm not really sure for what reason. I don't even really know why I was in a decent mood this morning. Probably cuz of the things on my mind. And when my mood changed it was probably cuz whatever had been on my mind was no longer on it. Whatever. It doesn't really matter. Well it stormed really hard for about a half an hour last night. I was still at work and it just came out of nowhere. I wasn't clocked in anymore; I had gone outside to see if I could help Joey out on the patio again. While I was out there it started to rain slow at first and then out of nowhere, boom! I was suddenly extrememly windy and raining so hard that you couldn't see very far. And within a half hour it was gone. It was like a lake in the parking lot. There was a lot of water. So anywho, after that Joey gave me a ride home again. I gave in to him. And now that I've had my fix I don't think its gonna happen again. Anywho, I was talking to Thomas yesterday and I really liked it. I'm just gonna try and keep from getting into him like I did Chris. I don't want to get bothered by him if some shit goes down. I still want to see him. Just like Chris. Alright I have no clue what else to write. I'll write later.

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Its raining!!!! And the fact that its at night makes the lightning so much more obvious. Now, there's not a lot of lightning but its still there. As long as it stops raining long enough in the morning so that I can get to work without being rained on. Then it can pour all it wants. Hell it can even knock the power out while I'm at work. That would be awsome!! Not being able to do anything cuz nothing is working. Alright that's all I wanted to write. I have to work in the morning so I need to be getting some sleep. I'll write probably tomorrow.

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Today was busier than a normal Monday. Of course its also a holiday weekend so that probably accounted for most of the business. So I had to open today. I was there at 9:30. And I was able to get most of prep done, but since we were as busy as we were I had to do more prep later in the afternoon. I was on the clock until about 6:30. Joey came by around 5, 5:30 to work out on the patio. When I was done doing my work, I clocked out and went outside to see if I could help in any way. I ended up helping him outside until just past 8. He gave me a ride home around 9 as a 'thanks for helping'. He had to go and do it though. He had to wear the thing that make me interested in him in the first place. It sorta distracted me. I'm glad that I wasn't working for too long after he got there. I'm so tired. I don't have to open tomorrow but I do have to be there in the morning. I have no clue what else to say cuz I basically already summed it up. I'll write again probably tomorrow.

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I'm watching Mulan right now, but since I've seen it so many damn times I can write and watch it at the same time and not have it matter. Today I'm actually glad that I went in to work cuz it was busy and I ended up getting a few hours that I wasn't planning on getting. This also means that I will be able to go home early on Thursday. I just have to get prep done. Well maybe I can go home early on Wednesday like I planned originally and this way I'll have more time to finish shit on Thursday. Anywho I was thinking about Joey this morning. I was also thinking about Dana. I don't know why. They were just both on my mind. I wonder when the next time I'll see Dana is. I hope its soon. But I doubt it. I have to call Katie and make sure that she'll be able to hang out this weekend. And I have to see about going up to the Tucson Mall. I just know that I have to think of something to get her to go up there. Maybe if I fill her tank. Maybe that would get her to agree to go up there. And if we're gonna be going out early like she wants to there shouldn't be too much of a problem. Ugh. Why dod I have to like someone that I can't have. Just like David .. well sorta. I liked David in a different way since there had been something there. With Dana there's nothing. It'd be nice to start something that could go somewhere, but how is beyond me. I know that I keep writing the same shit over and over again only in different ways but its what's on my mind. Grrr. Why do I have to be so much younger than him? Or why does he have to be so much older than me? Why does he have to live so damn far away? And why is there no way to contact him aside from going to his job? Why? That's one of the biggest questions ever. You can ask that question to anything at all and almost never get a reasonable answer. Alright I have no idea what else to write except that I want Dana. That's it. So I'm done now.

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I had today off, but it started out shitty again. My phone woke me up around quarter after 1 in the afternoon. It was Tiffany from work asking me if I could have tomorrow off and work Thursday instead. I had no problem with that, but I wanted to know why. I heard Erin in the background say that it was so that she could have the day off. I figured it was so that she wouldn't have to see me tomorrow. When I ended the phone call I saw that I had a message. I listened to the message; it was Erin bitching me out for shitty dough. That just triggered something in me so I got up, got dressed and went up there so that I could talk to her. I did what Joe suggested. I told her that even if she didn't say anything back, that if she could just listen to me I'd appreciate it. So we went into the office and talked. We ended up being okay again. She told me that she really did want me to work for her on Thursday so that she could have a day off this week since yesterday was supposed to be it. I hung out up there for a little bit, laughed and joked with Brandon, Erin, Tiffany and Lance. After a while I left cuz I had to go to the store cuz I had no food in my apt. I finally got some food in my apt but its not really healthy. Oh, just as Brandon was leaving I told him that Joey told Dana that I like him and Brandon wanted to know what he should do. I said I didn't care so he told me that he'd have Dana call me. Now I'm not sure how that was going to work since they didn't have my number and Dana doesn't have a phone. But Brandon said he'd figure out a way. I was happy about that, but I knew that it wasn't going to happen. I haven't gotten a phone call yet and I doubt if I will. That would be so awsome if I did though. It'd make my day. Anywho, I'm going in to work tomorrow (even though I'm off) for a couple hours so that David can come in at 2. Now Erin can drive and they have Tiffany and Trevor there tomorrow, but if Erin has to take a delivery there won't be anyone in the store to pour beer. So I'm going up there at noon and I'll hang out till 2 just in case I have to pour beer while Erin is out of the store. Uhm.. oh, Joey said that the next time he went up to the new store to just go up there he would take me. I'm looking forward to it. I know the general area that its going to be in, I've just never been there. I want to go and I want to go with Joey just cuz. There's really no reason why. I actually want to go to Northside more than I want to go to the new store, but I know that going to the new store is more of a possibility. I might be able to convince Katie to go up there for like gas money. I'd probably ask if we could go to Tucson Mall and while we're up there see if we could stop at Northside for some food. That might actually work. I'll see if she's up to it when we go to see Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest. This way I could see Dana while he was working. And I could introduce him to Katie. Alright I'm out of shit to say so I'll write later.

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