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Wednesday. 6.28.06 11:02 pm
Well I had the day off, again. I'm not liking this arrangment. My schedule better be fixed next week or I'm not gonna be happy. I didn't get up until like quarter after one so I definately slept in. About half an hour later I went up to work because I had to do something. I hung out up there for a while, had something to eat and then came home before the night crew got there. I have to open tomorrow. I also have to clean out the fryers tomorrow (ugh). Oh someone came by earlier. Someone that I haven't seen in a while. He told me to call him sometime and I never got around to it. Oh well; he came by cuz he was in this part of town and when he went up to work he didn't recognize anyone there so he came by here. He hung out for a while. We talked about what's been going on over the last few months and then he had to leave cuz he had to be somewhere by 9. He told me to call him and that he might bring me by his house which he just recently moved in to. I know why he wants me to call him, but I'm trying to figure out a way to tell him no I don't want to have sex with him. I'm pretty sure I'll figure something out. Anywho I watched America's Got Talent tonight. Some of the acts were better than last week and some were much worse, but there were some really talented people on there this time. There's one more episode where they are auditioning and then the people who moved on complete against one another in the semi finals. So I'm looking forward to that episode. There are definately people who deserve the one million dollar prize, but since only one person gets to win it I have no clue who its gonna be. I'll just have to wait until the very end and just hope that someone who is useless doesn't win it. Someone who can take their talent far should be winning the prize. Alright I'm not sure what else to say so I'll write later.

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long day
Wednesday. 6.28.06 1:08 am
Today I actually worked, I had to be there by 10. We had 2 huge orders to do first thing this morning; one was close to $400 and the other just over $100. Then we had the prep shit to do. So today was long. Not bad, just long. Tonight was Eastside's night to bowl so we went and it was nowhere near as fun as last night. We weren't teamed up with anyone cuz the other people didn't show up. I mean the team we were supposed to be playing against didn't show up. The other people from our store where there but they were like 4 lanes away from us. So we were by ourselves. Our three games were finished within like an hour and a half. Hopefully next week will be better. Anywho I have no food in my house. I have $9 till Thursday. I mean I can always go in to work and get food there, but there's only so much I can tolerate eating there. I'm hungry and I want food, but its too late now to go out anywhere and since I don't have a car I can't go to a drive-thru. Whatever. So I starve. Until tomorrow at least. I better have a normal work week next week. If not I'm gonna be pissed. Alright I have no clue what else to say so I'll write more later.

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bowling part deux
Tuesday. 6.27.06 2:51 am
YES!! We went bowling tonight because Northside was actually able to bowl tonight. I had a lot of fun. I still suck at bowling; I was better this time though. I got a couple strikes. Then on like the 3rd game I started to bowl really well and somehow the game got reset so the scores were gone. I wasn't mad though. Brandon, Dana, Joanna, and a few other people that I didn't know of from Northside were there. All I care about was that Dana was there. I actually got to see him. That's all that mattered to me. My mind was distracted all night too. I wanted so badly to say something or do something. But I don't think he'd be even remotely interested in me. Maybe I dunno. He's like 11 years older than me, which is quite a difference, but age doesn't really matter as long as we're both legal right? LoL. Anywho I wanted so badly to hook up with him. I almost kinda want someone to say something to him about me crushing on him just to see what his reaction is, but then again I don't because I don't want it to be a bad reaction. So the only people I told I know that I can trust to keep it to themselves. I almost said something about when me and Joey had our thing, but I decided against it. And I'm glad I did, cuz they see Joey on a regular basis and what we did is a little more in depth than just a simple 'I wanna hook up with you' type of thing. I know that nothing is gonna happen between me and Dana. Something did happen between me and Joey. I mean its nothing big or bad, but the fact that I'm still working there and that we still work together it would be awkward. Anywho, I still want to hook up with Dana even if it is only once. I think it would be sorta fun, but then again I don't know how he does things. He might be into the weird shit that I find to be too much. He might find the things that I'm into not good enough for him too. Oh well. I can hope right? Dana is online, but I don't know where he is online or what his e-mail is or anything; and I'm even sorta afraid to ask for that just in case he's all weirded out by it and is like 'why do you want my e-mail?' Anywho I hope that I see him again soon. And hey ya never know with these things right? Okay I have to go to work in 9 hours so I'm gonna try and get a decent night sleep. I'll write more later.

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yet another day off
Monday. 6.26.06 5:37 pm
I hate my neighbor. I live in a fucking apt so the walls are obviously shared. My frickin neighbor finds it okay to play their music up so goddamn loud that its rattling my fuckin windows!! I HATE that. I'm at least curtious and don't turn it up that loud. I mean if you want to play your music that damn loud MOVE INTO A FUCKING HOUSE!! Where you don't have to worry about the 3 people who share the same walls (and floor) as you. I've already said something and what did they do? Turn it down long enough for me to get back into my apt. Then it went right back up. At least they're somewhat nice enought to not have it up that loud at night when everone is sleeping. Anywho now that I've gotten that out, I'm off again today. This is weird, not going to work on a Monday. I'm thinkin about going up there and getting some food. Its like 20 till 4 so the evening 'rush' will be coming soon. I dunno. I kinda don't wanna go anywhere. Tomorrow is Tuesday which means we go bowling tomorrow. Tonight Northside is supposedly going to go bowling cuz 'they can't do Tuesdays since thats their busy day and no one is available to go' Whatever. They're just scared. Of what I'm not really sure cuz we're not that good, but oh well. LoL. I just wanna see Dana. I don't even really care about bowling cuz I suck at it. I haven't seen Dana since he stopped working at the Eastside. He's apparently only allowed to word at the Northside. Vinnie Jr. won't let him come down here anymore to work. He's needed too much up there. Oh well I'm pretty sure I'll see him eventually. So Brandon finally got online and replied to my message. I'm glad he's doin good. I didn't know he was a country boy though. But hey whatever works for him. I'm so bored right now. Not as bored as I was last night though cuz I could always get dressed and go out for a while. Unlike at 2 in the morning when I can't really go anywhere. Even if I had a car I couldn't really go out anywhere at 2 in the morning. This isn't exactly a 24 hour town. Oh well. I'm not really sure what else to write so I'll get on later and write.

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New episode of Tourgasm
Sunday. 6.25.06 11:39 pm
There was a new episode of Tourgasm on tonight. It was awsome just like the other two. This one however Dane's girlfriend was introduced. It was sweet, him getting out of the van looking for her and then an embracing hug. I had an instant of jealousy, but I got over it immediately. Its sweet that he's got someone whom he loves and cares about that much. Oh well. I still love the guy and his comedy. That's not gonna stop me from loving him. I love other commedians who are married and have kids so just cuz one guy has a girlfriend, doesn't mean anything. It just means he's happy. Well apparently Chris never found this stuff and if he did, he didn't let on. He was talking to me last night and he was laughing about shit so I'm guessing everything is still cool. Although I don't feel like I'm crushing on him as much as I was. I thought about it and its sort of a waste of my time to like a guy who, like I said, I'm probably not going to see. So I'm back to liking no one again. And I'm fine with it just like before. I haven't been laid since like I don't even remembe. It hasn't been that long; maybe a few months. But just like the guy thing I don't want it. I'm not even remotely interested. There's no one that I have on my mind to want to be with so the thought of sex is like nonexistant. I need to get my DVD back from Lance cuz I want Allie and Tiffany to see it; I can always let him borrow it again. I'm not sure if Marcus has seen it. That was sort of the whole point in letting Lance borrow it was so that he could get it to Marcus. I think he finally got it to Marcus's, but I'm not sure if he's seen it yet. I'll call Lance tomorrow. Anywho I don't know what else to write so I'll write later.
So this whole week is screwed up. I work every other day this week so I have 3 days off. I don't mind as long as I get my hours. Now if I don't get my hours then I am going to have a problem. I just watched Tourgasm again. I didn't have that jealous reaction when I saw Dane's girlfriend. Which is definately good. So I'm yet again extremely bored. I have no one to talk to cuz there's no one online right now. But the fact that its quarter to midnight here which means that its quarter till 3 in the morning on the east coast means that no one is online. That means that Chris won't be on for quite some time. But I mean I don't really talk to him; he's always busy with his music. I like it though. I'm watching Harold and Kumar Go to While Castle cuz there's nothing on TV either. But its a good movie so its not a complete waste. I'm so frickin bored I don't even know what to say. I'm so bored that I'm not tired, but I'm not really up to staying awake. I know that if I lay down, I'm going to toss and turn and not fall asleep for a while. But if I stay awake I know that I'm not gonna have anything to do. So I'll just remain bored. Ugh. I kinda wanna go out somewhere. But I have nowhere to go. I have no one to go anywhere with. So I'm SOL. I can't stop yawning. But I'm not tired. I'm just bored out of my mind. Did I mention I was bored? I think I did. I can't say enough how much I'm bored. Alright I have not a clue what else to say. I'll write whenever.

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a day off
Saturday. 6.24.06 7:33 pm
Today is my first day off this week. I had to go out though. I had to go to the bank, Blockbuster and I decided I was gonna go up to work too. I haven't been up there on my day off in a while and there was a good crew this morning so I hung out for a bit. I got something to eat while I was there. That's actually the whole point in me going up there. Was to get free food. I didn't really want food from work but I knew that if I went anywhere else I had to pay for it. Technically I'm supposed to pay for the food that I get at work if I'm not working, but I never do. Well on occasion I pay for it, but for the most part I don't. And no one says anything to me. I just go in, make my food and eat it. None of them care. I've probably taken about a paycheck's worth of food. Oh well. As long as no one says anything to me I'm gonna keep doing it. I don't do it all the time either. Only every once in a while. Its too freakin hot outside to go anywhere. Man I cannot wait till I get out of this town. Anywho I'm watching Dane Cook's Harmfull if Swallowed DVD. He's so damn funny. There's absolutly nothing on TV right now. Hence the DVD. Oh, I'm thinking that maybe I've done something err, said something to Chris cuz he's not talking to me. I couldn't have done anything cuz of the distance between us. So I'm wondering if I've said anything to make him not want to talk to me. I'm hoping that he didn't find this and read it. Cuz like I said that would be weird. Oh well. So he's not talking to me. I went without talking to him for two years I'm pretty sure I can do it again. So I'm gonna be going to see Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest when it comes out. I'm looking very forward to it. I love the first one I'm sure I'll love the second one. Alright I have no idea what else I'm gonna write about. I'll get on later and write if anything interesting happens.
Ugh. I don't exactly know what to do. I finally stop liking David in that way so what happens? I start crushing on a guy that I hardly know anymore, that I haven't spoken to since graduation and that I'm most likely never going to see? What the hell is wrong with me? I don't get it. I only knew Chris for like maybe a year. When I graduated I never thought I'd even hear from any of these people again. But now thanks to myspace I found a few of them. Maybe David was right. Maybe I should just foget about having an account. I should just stick to this. I know I can rely on this site. No I think I'll keep the account, but ... Damnit!!! I wish I could figure out what to do. I know that if I had a boyfriend I wouldn't be thinking about him, but I don't want a boyfriend. I don't want a relationship with anyone. I'm just not interested. Whatever. Maybe if I don't talk to him for a while it'll stop the crush. Oh well. I'll write again later

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