Friday. 12.12.08 11:12 am
I thought I won't feel it again
I thought I can be free from this pain
I thought I would be find happiness
But I am so wrong.
As I stood in the shadows
I see happy faces pass me by
I see friends making plans and having fun
I see things that I may not ever own
I thought I'm immune to it
I thought I was strong
I thought I won't long for acknowledgement
And a place where I belong
I should have never let them in
I should have never built a door
Now I'm left wondering
What am I to do inside these walls?
As I stood inside these walls
I dream and I hope
That I'll be strong
And make myself comfortable in this one place
where I belong
Hugs To: AlexisNg
I'm making up for the late hugs which were supposed to be in the last 2 posts =D
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Tuesday. 11.11.08 9:07 am
The Book Thief is full of sarcasm!! Itís like watching House... I like it for some weird reason. Though for some odd reason, I canít really detect much of it in speeches. One of the phrases in the book went: ďWhatís worst than a boy who hates you? A boy who loves youĒ I was trying hard not to laugh in the bus at that. It is so true when you donít have the same feelings for the guy. Poor guy...
Anyway, I know getting average 6 hours is good, my eye bags from those are horrible that some of my classmates wonder if I am over working myself. It sucks! I need to get used to not getting at least 8 hours average.
I need to get my uncle a Christmas present... But I donít know what because he either gets whatever he wants himself or his girlfriend will get it for him. What is left for the niece to buy? Everything else he doesnít really need.... which is why there are so many unused things here. Sigh... I guess I shall be his personal assistant for a little while longer, since he becomes my driver on certain days.
Seriously, I hate not knowing what to get people I want to give something to!
I also think that Iíve chosen the wrong course. Seriously, I donít know if it is right or wrong to think that some people think that Iím their personal psychologist or something. I donít give the best opinions or advices anyway. Sometimes, people tell me things... I donít quite want to know. I hope I donít blurt things out unconsciously. I donít want to lose their trust, well the trust of some people whom I consider important that is. I sometimes wonder if I am chosen on purpose.
Is it me or most girls don't like being out of their comfort zone? I mean, most people have their very own comfort zones, some bigger than others but I do notice that girls are more reluctant when it comes to expanding comfort zones..
What to do? What to do? I donít know what to do. Iím babbling at this point, I know, just need to get the random points out of my head, read some more of The Book Thief, go to bed early and wake up tomorrow to do my assignment!
Hugs To: randomjunk
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Sunday. 11.2.08 9:51 pm
This is a picture of her.
What? You don't see anyone there by the cupboard?? What d'you mean you DON'T SEE HER?
Ouch! She just whacked me on the head saying "I'm invisible to everyone else but you, Stupid!"
She also says that if I don't finish this stupid post quickly, she's going to make sure that it never makes it onto the net.
Yea, she's a frightening chap but very effective at making me stop procrastinating.
Okay, procrastinating time is almost over. Got to go before she take my food away.
She asks if anyone else has an invisible friend? She wants know them just in case she wants to ditch me and go hang around with them for a while.
Take care everyone... I have to go study for this Thursday's Economics test which will be 20% of my overall marks.
Hugs to: jolenesiah
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Friday. 10.31.08 5:51 am
I'll Be - Edwin McCain
I almost forgot that today is still October as the recent talk of what will happen in the near future...
3 assignments due in 2 weeks
Economics mid-terms next Thursday
A.I.B. test two Tuesdays from now
English for Business and Management test to be announced within the next week
What to get my friends for Christmas!
...got my brain to move ahead of time!
I am eating oreos, staring at my assignments and the TV behind it, making myself fatter with oreos (was taking pics with my phone earlier to waste it's battery because I have lousy games, and I think I look fatter!), cursing the fact that a big number of my friends and acquaintances will be free from studying now... and trying to dare myself to finish whatever I need to do by Sunday. I think creating an invisible friend to dare me would be a good move.
Ah.. She appeared.. She came out from her pile of assignments. Good for me.. She can make me do a number of things but I'm not sure if she can get me to finish all of my homework.
Okay. I'm gonna go finish at least one report tonight. I've been stuck on turning the interviews into a report.
Have fun trick o' treating! Have fun with your friends if you're out partying!
Have a nice weekend!
Hugs To: jolenesiah
, and renaye
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Thursday. 10.30.08 6:35 am
This morning, I wasn't feeling well because I had to make this decision about my high pay weekend job. It started when my uncle said that there are bad omens with the new job. It started with the "I don't know what I'm supposed to sell in that job" and then to the event which happened yesterday, the traning which got cancelled at the last minute. Called my mother and she agrees with my uncle but the decision is ultimately mine. My aunt says that they are not always right. They think that it was shady. So I went around asking some friends for their opinion.
It was just my luck when I was in the nearest mall earlier, I found out that Roots (I wanted to take advantage of the 80% off jeans but I guess I was too late) got replaced with Springfield and they are looking for part-timers only that the pay is nearly half of the previous one but we get EPF, which is like social security. I hope I do get the job with Springfield, I don't quite mind half of the pay. I am more excited to work for half the pay than the one with the higher pay.
I also got a really nice piece of advice which made my day. It is something which didn't end with "It is entirely up to you" Thank you so much!!! You know who you are! Thank you guys for listening too!
I am so gonna sleep really soundly tonight.
Hugs To: ranor
, and Silver-dot-
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Wednesday. 10.29.08 12:02 am
The weather is so hot, it is cooking me alive even when I'm at home with the fan turning on the highest speed. I don't have A/C in my room, unlike someone else's. She must've set it on a pretty low temperature because I can feel it the moment I open the joint bathroom door at 7.30 in the morning. Either that or the night must be pretty warm. Regardless, that spell of wet dogs lingers whenever I open the main door which causes me to feel nausea. Seriously, why have a dog when you can't take care of it. The poor bugger sometimes gets whacked pretty badly too. I'm talking about my neighbour's dog.
I finished The Alchemist
by Paulo Coelho while waiting for my employer to call me telling me where my training is. The book is good. It talks about your Personal Legand and how a boy found, followed and achieved his. I think, if you want to know if you're on the right track in life, read the book. It might be able to help you out.
My employer, could not get me and I could not get her. I tried calling her every 5 minutes from 9.45 to 10.15, even sent her a text and finally she sent me a text saying that the training is cancelled. What a waste of time! Going to the place takes about an hour! This is not the first time I couldn't get someone for the past two weeks. Last week, it was I who can't call out. I doubt the weather is to blame for the lousy service provided by Maxis.
I'm going to go read The Book Theif
by Marcus Zusak and start my assignments after lunch. Have fun in the sun everyone!
Hugs To: Jolenesiah
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