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Stressed, drained and slightly bothered
Friday. 12.15.06 11:32 pm
Today was just as long as I had thought it would be. I got out of there maybe a half hour earlier than I was expecting, but it was still long.

I woke up at 8am with my alarm, took a shower, got ready for work and left my apartment at approx. 9:07am. I got to work and clocked in at approx. 9:23am. I got myself situated {changed into uniform, got some water} and immediately started working. I had the choice between slicing the cheesecake for the $1000 order or to filter the fryers. Since I haven't sliced cheesecake in a while and I really didn't want to touch the fryers, I decided to slice the cheesecake. I had to cut 3 {12" or 10", I'm not sure which} cheesecakes into 48 slices. That meant that I had to score it twice {we have a thing that scores it into 12 slices} and then had to cut each of the 24 slices in half again. So basically I had to cut 144 slices of cheesecake. My hand still hurts a little from pressing the knife into the frozen cheesecake and its almost 12 hours later.

The catering order went without a hitch. It went as perfectly as planned. The birthday party that came in later that evening also went as well as it could go. The actually went pretty smoothly. It was just constant and busy the whole day.

I'm stressed because I want to make sure that I get everything done that needs to be done before I leave. And I want to make sure that it gets done efficently and propperly. The stress of that and making sure that my other stuff outside of work gets done as well; my appointments {hair and tattoo}, laundry, packing, getting rid of the food that could go bad in the two weeks I'll be gone, etc.

I'm drained because i'm putting forth so much energy. More energy than I'm used to putting forth. And putting so much energy forward in such a short period of time, making sure I have enough energy the whole time, can be stressing.

Now, I talked to Lance today and I found out that he doesn't like me in the same way. I asked him straight out. He's not bothered or weirded out that I like him, but he doesn't feel the same way about me and that's what he told me. He told me that I'm a really good friend though, so that made me happy. I was mad at myself for letting myself like him in that way. I was so set on not liking him, but it happened anyway. I still sort of want a relationship with him, but it's probably much better this way. It most likely would have ended on a sour note and that would have fucked up the friendship as well. I don't want that. Besides, I'm going to be moving in the summer anyway. I don't want to do another long distance thing. I like that we're going to just stay friends. It's going to take some time to get over him, and as long as I don't sleep with him {though I do want to}, then it shouldn't take me long to get over him. So its not really a big deal. I'm sort of bothered by it, but I'll get over it.

My headache isn't going away. Its actually slowly gotten worse over the last few days. Also, in the morning, I've been waking up with a bad stomach ache. Its usually gone by the time I get to work. But the whole time getting ready its there, making me feel sick to my stomach. Oh well. Its probably cuz I'm stressing. And when I stress I don't eat. But whenever I look at food, or even think about food, it makes my stomach upset again.

Today I had a salad and a couple pieces of fudge. That's it. Yesterday I think all I had was a few chicken tenders and a couple chips ahoy cookies. I don't remember on Wednesday. I'm not hungry. Like I said, though, whenever I look or even think about food, I get sick to my stomach. Whatever. I haven't completely stopped eating so its alright.

I just want this vacation to come. I need it. I need to get away from here for some time. Just completely shut myself off from the life I live now and take a break. I doubt two weeks will be enough time, but I'll have to make the best with what I'm given.

I'm getting my tattoo tomorrow; I'm excited. I'm tired. I think I'll be going to bed in an hour or so. I'll write more tomorrow night, and I'll have pics of the tat to post.

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Minor Dilema
Thursday. 12.14.06 10:28 pm
So, uhm... Lance is going to be working at the restaurant again. This will be the 3rd or 4th time he's quit and come back. This is what I was afraid of. I was hoping that I wouldn't have to work with him. This could cause some awkwardness. Another thing is that he doesn't know that the most of the employees {if not all} know how I feel about him. And that they all think we're dating. When he came in tonight to see when he could start working, it was almost as though he was trying to not make it look as if there was anything at all. Erin and Joey both noticed the tension so they were good and didn't joke or say anything. Which I am definately thankful for. I doubt that everyone is going to act the same way.


I don't want our friendship to get fucked up. Relationship or not, we're friends and I really care about our friendship.


My headache is getting worse. The next 4 days are going to be the longest days ever. I have to be at work at 9:30 tomorrow morning and 9:30 Saturday morning. Tomorrow I'm probably going to be there for about 11 1/2 hours. Saturday I probably won't be there past 6, but that's only cuz I already had plans before I even knew that I had to work Saturday. And I can't stay late. Sunday, I have to work more on getting the orders put in for the catering orders they have on Wednesday and Thursday. Then on Monday we have to start putting everything together and finish ordering stuff for the catering orders.

I have 5 more days till I leave for vacation. And even though I'm off on Tuesday, I still have to do stuff. I have my hair appointment, I have to pack, I have to do other stuff that I can't really think of right now. Ugh.

I just can't wait till this next 5 days are over. My headache will probably not be completely gone, but it'll be more dulled out.


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So it begins...
Wednesday. 12.13.06 10:50 pm
Today was not too bad. It wasn't that busy, which meant that I was able to get all the prep done. I had a newbie to train. His parents own another small sandwich restaurant so he basically needs to just learn our ways. I have faith. . . sort of. I rarely have faith in new people until they've been there for at least a week.

Joey came up to the restaurant tonight to bring the CostCo order. He over bought this week so that he wouldn't have to go next week. He also bought Christmas gifts for the managers. He got Gary a mini Heineken Keg. With an already attached nozel. Its frickin awesome looking. He got Erin a bath set. It was a double set with Brown Sugar and White Chocolate scents. He got Tori something {though she's not a manager, yet} but I don't know what he got her. He got me a water window. Its an Ice Castle with snow men in it. Its really pretty.

Its like a giant, fancy snow globe cuz there's snow and glitter that floats around in the water. It requires AA batteries to power the different color lights and the blower to blow around the snow and glitter. I think its really pretty. If you want to see it better just click on it and it'll enlarge it. Joey can be nice and thoughtful when the time is right.

My finger that I smashed yesterday still hurts. Its still bruised, although its not swollen anymore so I guess that's a good thing.

Now, for an explanation on the title. Today started my long ass work week. I started to order stuff for the giant order next week. I'm so glad that I won't be there to work on it. Although I could use part of the tip that'll come with it, I really don't want to have anything to do with putting it together. I remember last year and although it went really well, it still sucked having to make sure it went perfectly.

I'm very excited to getting my tattoo. And I think I'm going to layer my hair rather than just having it trimmed. I need to find out how much more it would be to do that. If its not too much more, then I'll get it done. It'll be something new, and if I don't like it that much, it'll just grow back out.

Lance... I don't even have anything to say about Lance tonight. I'm not too happy right now, but whatever. I go from being happy about it, to being annoyed. So just whatever tonight.

Anywho, I don't really have anything else to say right now. I'll write some more later on when I do.

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The good and the bad...
Tuesday. 12.12.06 8:45 pm
So the good news is that I scheduled my tattoo appointment. I gave him the design to redo and make all nice and shit. He told me that it'll cost about $140 give or take some. Its at 8pm so I should have no problem getting there in time. And I leave in a week from tomorrow. That's the good news.

Now for the bad:

First of all, I slammed my left middle finger in the door when I got home, so now its bruised and it sort of hurts to type. But whatever, its not like its falling off or bleeding. I'll get over it.

Second, I'm probably going to have to walk to my tattoo appointment cuz Katie won't be getting off work until 7:30 that night {she works at UPS so the holiday hours are insane} and it takes another 15, 20 to get to my apartment from her work. The only small issue I have with walking there is that it'll already be dark and I don't like walking alone in the dark. But since its only one traffic light away and it only takes about 20 minutes to walk there, it shouldn't be too bad. I can speed walk if need be.

Third, I have to work this Saturday. I already ranted about having to work on Saturday and why its so shitty, but you can read about that in the previous entry. I don't want to repeat myself too much.

You notice that the bad shit is progressively getting worse and the list is much longer than the good shit.

Fourth, I'm praying that Lance will be able to give me a ride to the airport next Wednesday. I went up to work today to ask Erin if she would be able to, as a precautionary thing, just in case, ya know? Well, she can't cuz they have a $2200 catering order that needs to be done between Wednesday and Thursday of next week. She'll be going in an hour and half early on both of those days to work on it, and the day before they'll start receiving the stuff needed for these orders. {On that note I'm very happy that I'm leaving cuz I remember doing it last year and it sucked ass}. So I'm definately praying.

Fifth {and I think last} Lance won't be coming over tonight... again. I'm not 100% sure that he won't come over cuz he never actually said he wasn't, but I'm almost positive that he won't be. Just simply cuz I want him to. That's how shit like that works. And today when I went up to work, I found out that his younger sister is telling people at the high school that me and him are having sex! We're not,{although I do want to} so its just a rumor. But now people up at work are thinking that we are and are questioning me on it. Ugh!!! It is my fucking business who I sleep with, whether or not they know who the person is. Whatever. People suck.

For the next week, I'll be suffering from a pretty bad headache. It started today and it won't end until I'm in Vegas. As I said in the last entry, I hate the week before I go on vacation.

I will leave you with some funny news. My new shirt that Katie got me for Christmas is a success. I wore it out today and the reactions I got were great. It made me smile inside. People driving by were even slowing down to read what it said. I know that some people were offended, but if that's the case, they don't have to reread it. Nor do they have to look, or wear it themselves. Its MY shirt and I will wear it wherever and whenever. However, I know that my mom won't like it too much, but I'm gonna wear it around her anyway. You're probably wondering what makes this shirt so great so I will end this entry and leave you with what it says:

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Tuesday. 12.12.06 1:28 pm
I hate the week before I leave to go on vacation. Not only cuz it takes forever, but I'm trying to cram a hundred things in around work to prepare for the vacation. And then when I think that everything is set and ready to go, something happens that makes it change.

This morning, about 15 minutes ago, {about 15 minutes after I woke up} I get a text from Gary telling me I have to work Saturday day. This is shitty for me cuz I was about to make my hair appointment today for Saturday. I'm also gonna go up to make my tattoo appointment {you can't call, you have to go in and schedule appts}. I have to work Saturday morning cuz Tiffany can't for some reason. So I told Gary to just put me back off on Tuesday. Tuesday is my normal day off, but I was going to have him schedule me to make up for some hours that I would be losing. This way I'll still have a day to get my shit ready {laundry, packing, etc} for when I leave. I'm going to go in early on Saturday morning so that I can bust out all the shit I need to do so that I can leave early. Ugh!!!

Lance never came by last night cuz his exam went on longer than anticipated. He said he'd most likely come over today. I want to call him to see when he'll be over, but I have a feeling, since its not even noon yet, that he's still sleeping and I don't want to wake him. I sent him a text telling him to call me when he woke up. I want to ask him what time he's coming over so that I know whether I have to walk to the tattoo place or if he'll give me a ride. I have a feeling that I'll end up walking either way.

Other than the obvious not being able to get my hair cut on Saturday, I also have to figure out how to make my lack of clean clothing last through till Tuesday. I can't afford to do laundry more than once a week and Saturday is usually my laundry day. This means that with working added to the other stuff I have planned on Saturday, I won't have time to do laundry then. I have to wait till Tuesday. This means I have to resort to wearing clothes that I don't like wearing anymore cuz they don't really fit propperly, but they still fit well enough to wear out. Grr!

This seems to be a themed vacation; the theme: shit not going as originally planned. You've read about the shit that just happened today, refer to Bug's latest entry to read more about what's not going to happen as planned. {It involves not going to California anymore} I just hope that some things actually go right. Or even better than originally thought.

I hate the week before I go on vacation.

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yup, its monday
Monday. 12.11.06 10:25 pm
Today was definately Monday. It was slow, there were only three of us working and it just seemed to take forever to end. Ugh.

Nothing exciting happened today. Gary was not in the best of moods cuz his night manager called in saying he was puking. In reality, he was probably just hung over. This added to the other things that he's done {or not done} and caused Gary to just fire him. Oh well. We were lucky enough that someone came in who had good experience in the restaurant business so Gary hired him and he'll be there tomorrow to start learning our ways.

I'm tired right now. And bored. I'm glad I don't have to work tomorrow. I think I'm gonna go up to the tattoo parlor tomorrow just to see how long it takes me to walk there in case Katie can't go out on Saturday. I'm pretty sure she can though. Still, its always good to take precautions.

Anywho, I don't have anything else to say at this present time. And I'm paying more attention to the TV. So I'll write more later on.

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