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Tuesday. 1.9.07 4:28 pm
Well, my nose is clear enough for me to breathe through, but I still can't smell anything. And when I breathe in deep, it still sounds like its clogged. Oh well. At least now I can have a chance to let my lips become undry from all the mouth breathing {ugh}.

I've been mostly drinking water and Gatorade the last few days. I haven't been eating hardly anything. I can't smell anything and I can't taste anything so the thought of food isn't too appetizing. Besides, I haven't been hungry and I'm not one to force food upon a nonhungry stomach. I've been taking bites of things here and there, but actually taking in enough to call it eating? Not so much. I realize that chicken noodle soup is one of the best things you can have when you're sick, but I don't like soup, regardless if it has chicken in it... {I love chicken}. Oh well. I'll make up for it when I get better and everything has taste to it again.

Its getting hot outside. Today its supposed to be in the upper 70s. Anything above 70, in my opinion, is too hot. I hate the heat. But living in the desert, I can't really avoid it. Its supposed to be warm again tomorrow and then the cold front thats dropping more snow in Colorado is going to be moving down here, making it drop from 73 one day to 29 that night and then only getting up to maybe 60 the next day. And people wonder why they are getting sick. {I know why I got sick; but other people I know don't}

Ugh. Six more months. Six more months, then I can have my mom take care of me when I'm sick. Six more months and I won't be ... well ... I'll still be in a desert, but ... hmm ... it won't get as hot during the summer? I dunno. That one was kind of pointless. Just six more months till I'll be leaving Tucson forever.

Hmm... I was just thinking. I think I need to buy me some more tongue rings. I mean, I already have some, but I need some new ones. And I need ... er, want... a bigger gauge. Nothing too drastic, just one size bigger. I also want to gauge my ears again. I wrote about it when I first did them, but I've had them for a while, and I want them bigger. Just one size bigger. Then I'll be done. I won't go into single digits. Oh well. I'll gauge them again evetually.

Anywho, I don't know how long I'll be awake. I'm probably going to be laying back down again in a while. I'm just glad I don't have to go anywhere today. I'll be able to stay in PJs all day.

Alright I don't have anything else to say right now. I want to thank all of you guys who have wished me well. I appreciate it. And thanks for the suggestions on what to do to get better sooner. Most of them don't work or I'm just too stubborn to try, but its all appreciated.

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Home for rest
Monday. 1.8.07 6:04 pm
I was so close to calling out from work today. I actually called my boss, but changed my mind at the last minute cuz I'm stubborn like that. I told him that I would be there to work, but I don't know how much good I would be. I told him I'd do what I could and do as much as I could.

I'm thankful that today was a slow day. And that there wasn't a whole lot of prep work to do. I didn't get it done as fast as I would normally have gotten it done, but under the circumstances, I managed to get it done efficiently enough.

When there were only a few things left to do, easy things, I asked Gary if I could go. He asked me what was left, and when I told him, he said yes. So I left work about 3 hours earlier than I normally would for a Monday, or any day for that matter.

He kept smiling, smirking and surpressing laughter whenever he came around me. At one point I asked him what was so funny and he told me that I looked horrible. I felt horrible though, so I guess it didn't suprise me that I looked that way also. My sinuses are so swolen, it feels like my eyes are wanting to shut without my permission.

My throat is not bothering me as much as it was, but now my nose is just so stuffed; I woke up periodically during the night cuz I couldn't hardly breathe and I had trouble breathing while working.

I feel miserable. I'm sorry that I'm pouring all this out for you guys to read. But that's what Nutang is for right? To just simply write out your thoughts, opinions, and such. Well, right now, my thoughts are simply on getting better... and before Wednesday cuz that's when I have to work again.

So I've been sitting here for about 5 minutes now, watching E! True Hollywood Story: Johnny Depp. I absolutely love him. He's so hot! And he's an amazing actor. I don't mean to be cliche, but I would have to say my favorite movie of his, is Pirates {both one and two, and also probably when it comes out, three}. I love him in other movies as well; Edward Scissorhands, Secret Window, Blow, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, Sleepy Hollow, Corpse Bride {he's the voice of Victor}, From Hell, The Ninth Gate, etc. There are so many movies that's he's been in that are good. I think there's only one movie I saw that he was in that I didn't like: Finding Neverland. As much as I like Peter Pan, I was not at all into this movie. Whatever. He's still an awesome actor.

Anywho, I don't really have much else to say right now. I haven't written anything on either of my other two names lately so I might do that later this evening, granted I'm not sleeping. That's my plan for tomorrow. I don't have to go anywhere, so I'll be sleeping most of the day. Hopefully that'll help my immune system do what its supposed to and get rid of this damn cold. Till then...

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Sunday. 1.7.07 9:11 pm
When I mentioned yesterday {and this morning} that it was just my throat that was bothering me, I think I jynxed myself. Cuz a few hours ago, I started sneezing and now my nose is all stuffy and I can't bend over or look down without it running.

Work felt slow, but according to the numbers, it wasn't all that slow. I was glad it didn't feel busy cuz I was in my 'I don't give a flying fuck' mood. I had a somewhat decent crew today, so I didn't have to pay too close attention to what they were doing. Everything got done and got done fast. So that was good. Overall the work day was alright, but with my lack of energy, and lack of caring, it could have been much better.

*sniff**cough* Ugh!

I went to the store again, after I got off work, and bought more gatorade {gatorade was on sale, I can't afford Orange juice ~at least not the good kind~} and some Tylenol cold to take to work with me tomorrow. I want to see if that'll do any good.

I'm very, VERY anti-medication cuz 99.3% of the time it doesn't work with me. All Nyquil does is help me sleep, but that's why I take it. Advil, Alieve, Tylenol, Midol, Asprin, none of the normal medication that people take on a normal basis, have any effect on me. I figure if I take the medication, and it still doesn't work, I can complain without reprieve.

When I got home, I took some Nyquil {I can feel the fog starting to roll in}, took a hot shower and commented on people's blogs as promised. I'm now sitting here, obviously, writing my own blog and I've got the movie French Kiss on TV. Its a really funny romantic comedy.

I plan on taking more Nyquil right before I go to bed so that I can sleep through the whole night. Don't worry, it'll have been the 6 hours required between doses. I only try to OD on Halls, hehe {they actually say on the back of the package: repeat every 2 hours as needed; that's crazy cuz the cough drops are only effective the 30 maybe 45 minutes before they dissolve completely} Whatver.

I want to rip out my throat and now I want to remove my nose as well. I can't taste anything, and I can't smell anything. Coughing hurts, talking hurts, sneezing is annoying and its not recommended eating cookies {soft, chewy ones are okay} whenever you have a sore throat.

Alright, the fog is starting to take over and I'm having trouble concentrating enough to write much more on this blog. I'll be back on tomorrow to write.

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Saturday. 1.6.07 9:01 pm
I'm officially sick. I don't have a fever and I'm not sneezing, but I'm coughing like crazy and my whole body is just blah.

I've been sleeping most of the day. Lance called, apparently from work, to ask me about something I forgot to order, and I stayed awake for a couple hours. After sitting here in front of the comp, I started having trouble keeping my eyes open so I layed back down. I slept off and on for another three hours.

I would call someone, but I can't hardly talk. It comes and goes. And when its here, its all scratchy and hoarse. Whatever. Its just one of the things I have to deal with when I'm sick.

Tomorrow is not going to be fun. I am the manager tomorrow and I already know I'm not going to be better. And that no one is going to cover for me either. I'm not hospitalized so its not bad enough to have covered. Whatever. I'm stubborn enough to go and work.

I've got laundry on right now. After its done I'm going to take more Nyquil and let it take its affect. Hopefully I'll be able to wake up to my alarm tomorrow.

Alright, I haven't commented anyone yet today and honestly I don't think I will. I can't focus enough to read all the way through the blogs. So maybe I'll be better focused tomorrow and I'll read through them and comment as best I can. Till then... I'm off to drown myself in blankets, ramen, a movie and some Nyquil.

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not feeling so well...
Friday. 1.5.07 10:36 pm
The cold/flu/virus that was going around my mom's house while I was there on vacation has finally caught up to me. My throat is sore, I've been caughing all day, though I'm not really sneezing anymore so that's sort of good. I've had cramps all day too. So overall, it wasn't a good day for me, physically anyway.

Work was slow for a Friday. I left early, around 6:30pm, cuz I really started feeling shitty. I started getting chills and I was freezing. I couldn't stand for more than a few minutes without my abdomen yelling at me. Even though I clocked out at 6, I stayed for half an hour just to see if they might still need me, but then I decided that it wasn't worth it.

I left wok at 6:30, went to the store, bought some Nyquil {my best friend when I'm sick} and some Ramen to chow down on tomorrow. They had black bath towels on sale there, so I bought two. I also bought a black plush/fleece blanket so that I can keep it wrapped around me while I'm on the comp. Its working very well right now, I might add.

Anywho, I have off tomorrow, and the only thing I have planned that involves leaving my apartment is laundry. Other than that, I'm staying inside all day. I'll stay curled up in my new blanket and watch movies or read or play on the comp... I'll probably end up doing all three at some point.


Food is yummy... except when you're sick and everything tastes funny.

I'm losing my voice again. This stupid cough has taken such a toll on my vocal cords that whenever I get sick, or get my chronic cough, I lose my voice. Yet I can't stop talking. Its weird, but very very annoying.

Alright, I don't really know what else to say. I did have plenty of other stuff that I planned on writing about, but I can't remember any of it. My mind is a cloud right now. And I'm lucky enough to have all of tomorrow to continue to allow it to stay fogged. Alas, the fog is taking over... and the TV is taking over the better half of my attention. {Must Love Dogs is the movie I'm watching if you're curious}

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My mantra
Thursday. 1.4.07 10:36 pm
Today was not as hard as I thought it would be to keep from crying. Although I have a feeling my tear ducts were still pretty dry from last night. Oh well.

I think I'm getting sick. My throat is sore. It hurts to swallow and I'm coughing and sneezing. Everyone in the house was sick at one point or another and now that I'm back from my vacation, the cold is catching up to me. Ugh. I guess I'll be buying some Nyquil tomorrow after I get off work. Luckily I have Saturday off so I'll have the day to rest and do nothing {except my usual laundry}.

However, tomorrow is Friday and it'll most likely be busy. Fuck. I really don't feel like re-living my vacation by having to explain how it was and what I did to all the people who I didn't see today. It'll get me all depressed again.

Joey did exactly what I thought he was going to do. He tried to provoke me. He did, however, sound somewhat sincere when he told me he missed me. Whatever. And when Gary showed up he decided since it had been two weeks, he was also going to piss me off, but in his words "messing around".

Which brings me to my mantra. Whenever I come across something that pisses me off or someone that I want to punch, I will repeat these words over and over in my head "6 more months". The number will obviously change as July draws near, but you get the idea of the mantra.

~~> okay, if you're looking at the time I started this entry and compare to the time its been posted, I took a shower. I just wanted to clarify that it doesn't take me that long to write an entry <~~

Anywho, after I got off work, I went to the bank to cash my paycheck. Last Thursday was payday, but seeing as how I wasn't here, I had to wait till I got back to get my check. Normally, when I get my check, I deposit most of it and get some cash back so that I can buy food and such {I hate using my card}. This time, I just deposited the whole thing. I got a good amount of tips this week {or I guess it was from last week, not sure} so I'll be able to survive off of that until I get paid again.

There was one thing that happened today that was pretty funny. Ya know that department store Guess? Where you can buy clothes and stuff? Well, Tori was talking to Joey about how she bought this pair of jeans. This is the exact quote from her and Joey's exact response: Tori: "I bought a pair of $118 jeans from Guess." Joey: "Uhm... I dunno?" He didn't realize that Guess is an actual store! It was pretty funny just how clueless he was. If you didn't find it that funny, just think about it. Put it into a scenario with you and one of your more clueless friends. You'll laugh.

Alright, I ran out of stuff to say. My eyes are still dry so I don't know if tears will flow as easily tonight. Besides, with my throat feeling the way it does, I don't think crying would help it all that much. Oh well.

Like my mom said, I just need to get through one day at a time. I'll manage. I'll hate it, but I'll manage. I'll write again tomorrow.

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