- Kid at heart.NuTangmember since July 15, 2003
- Movie junkie.
- Selective hearing.
- Easily amused.
09/25/17 - 11/28/08
I love you grandma.
Anberlin - Dismantle.Repair.
"Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers. You just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed, but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more."
"Forgive and forget. That's what they say. It's good advice, but it's not very practical. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled, old wombs never heal, and the most we can hope for is that one day we'll be lucky enough to forget."
Sunday, 7/20/03 - 11:25 am
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!
My dad's getting old. xP Anyways my family just went to dinner at Hungry Hunter at 4. I remember because we got there right on time when it just opened. Haha. There was this really gorgeous waiter. Man, I swear he's a model or something. He's hott. Well I got really full, the food is good. After we went to go get some sushi to give to my uncle because he just got out of the hospital. =] So we wait forever because my mom ordered the wrong kind of sushi. Haha. Sushi's good. Yum. ;) Then Jen called and said to go to the store to help out, so about 15 minutes later my mom takes me home to change because we get all smelly at the store. I put on an old t-shirt and some jeans that I needed to wash anyway. When we get to the store we just help out and stuff. Hm this one customer guy was like "you guys have a lot of help, but they're not even moving." to my uncle in tagalog and Jen and I were listening. We were just sitting there because we didn't have anything to do, so we just wrapped peanuts in a bag and he said he'd get one bag. Haha so Jen scoops up the peanuts and takes a whole handful out so that he gets less than usual. Hecka funny. I was laughing. It was super hot in the store. I was dehydrated, BIG TIME. We left the store at 10 or something. When we dropped AJ and Jen off, Janice and I talked about all of us going to the mall on saturday at 2 because she said that it would end at 1 or 1:30 and that i'd go to the swap meet around 9 and my mom said we'd treat them to lunch since it's my dad's birthday. So it was a plan. Yeah?
I ended up sleeping around 6 AM because my parents rented this filipino movie and I wanted to watch. So yeah I didn't get enough sleep and I was too tired to go to the swap meet at 9. Then my mom woke me up at 11 because I needed to take a shower and that we had to go to the bank first. So yeah I take my shower and my mom's all pissed for some reason. I forgot why, anyways we leave around 12 and we're at the bank. I call up Jen to see if they're at the swapmeet, but they're not. She's like, "we waited for you." I told her that I slept late and that I didn't want to go, but that we'd go for sure at 2. So they were in a car leaving for somewhere, but they don't know where. So here I am looking dumb and my mom gets back and she's listening. They don't even tell me who they're with, they just say i'm in a car. WOW. Great huh? So I ask who's driving? They said Ate Joan, and I ask where they're near at or where they're going. I guess they were going to Costco or something. So my mom's driving while I talk to them and she's mad because I don't know where to go anymore and we can't pick em up at the swap meet because they're not there anymore. So the plans were just wasted and they didn't even care to inform me. My mom gets mad and I swear she was making me feel 10x worse. It's bad enough when you're already left out, but her constant reminder made me want to cry. Like yeah this isn't a big thing, I don't really care anymore, but my mom. Gosh. She was making me feel really bad, like she kept saying, "How come they didn't call you? They should've at least called and cancelled instead of just not saying anything. They didn't even invite you." BLAH BLAH BLAH. My mom said she remembered Ate Joan saying she wanted to take Aj and Jen to City Walk. MAN. Words cannot express how I feel. Literally. It went on until we got to Marshalls. My mom was no longer mad at me, but them. She wanted to go find them and tell them something because she was so mad, but I was like, "Mom, don't! You're just going to make everything worse than it already is. Just leave it alone already. Forget it." BLAH BLAH BLAH. We finally got to Marshalls and just looked around. After we headed home. We waited until my dad got home and my mom told my dad. MAN. I just want to forget about it and here my mom goes and tells my dad. My dad gets mad, but here I am feeling bad again. Feeling unwanted, rejected, etc. Those are my cousins, I mean if they were my friends I wouldn't happen to care as much, but them, we're blood related. no matter what they'd still be family. = It's hard enough for me to just want to think about it. So we go to church at 5. I get some quiet time with God. Enough to clear my mind, in the mean time. After church I think we rented some other movie. It was about an angel on earth. Haha like unfinished business. Cogie Domingo was in it. Cute guy. Haha. I fell asleep though and around 1 AM, I woke up. Darn. I went online. Boy there were a lot of people online. Haha it wasn't just me and Maria anymore. Well I tried to go back to sleep, but then I was thinking too much. Like too many thoughts in your head that you can't sleep. I was so angry, but I didn't want to tell anyone. It's bad to keep it hidden. I wanted someone to talk to, but no one was up. So instead I wrote a poem. Cheesy huh? Well I finished it, but when I proofread it, I just got even angrier, so I threw it in the trash and I finally fell asleep.
I woke up at 11, but too lazy to get out of bed. My uncle comes over to get his mail. I get up around 12 and take a shower. Then just got lazy again. We went to Costco at 4. I bought a pack of 1/2 in binders and a pack of binder paper. Now all I need is mechanical pencils and other stuff. I also bought some potstickers, sushi, and brownie mix. Haha MmMm. ;) Well let's see when we get home we had spaghetti for dinner and garlic bread. No rice this time. Haha. That's it. Tomorrow's monday and wednesday I have to go back to school for Link Crew. Summer school starts on the 28th. Damn. Ok i'm tired. Oh yeah before I forget, Amy wants me to put her in my journal entry for today
. Hahaha. Ok there you go! Happy now? Well aright Later Days !!
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Thursday, 7/17/03 - 5:06 pm
Haha. I'm still getting used to this. Sorry, i'm kind of slow. Oh well. I'm bad at these things. I tend to leave things behind when i'm frustrated and just come back to it later. I really don't understand html and junk. At least I try. Ok i'll update more later.
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