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Saturday. 3.17.07 7:03 pm
Today was so hot. My apartments are gay cuz they haven't turned on the AC yet. I called the office this morning to see when it would be turned on and she said Monday, Tuesday at the latest. That's ridiculous. It should have been turned on a week ago. But whatever.

Because there's no air flow going through my apartment {even with a ceiling fan and a window open} I just kept drinking water. I've drank 5 one liter bottles of water so far and I'll probably go through another 2 before I go to bed. At least I know I won't be dehydrated.

Gary just called me three times, twice to go up there tonight and then once to tell me not to worry about it and to see if I just wanted to switch shifts with him tomorrow. I really don't want to open tomorrow cuz I want to be able to sleep in, but I made the decision up to Gary whether he wanted to or not. He's going to get drunk tonight and doesn't want to go in to work hung over. Whatever. I guess it doesn't matter either way. Stuart isn't working tomorrow and that's the main reason why I like working Sunday nights. Soo I have to open manager tomorrow.

I can't complain enough about this heat. I don't hardly ever put my hair up when I don't have to, but it was just too hot to keep it down. I've been wearing my swimsuit all day too. Clothes are too hot. Ugh!!!

I have nothing to write about. I guess this means this entry is done.

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Friday
Friday. 3.16.07 8:18 pm
Today started out good. I was a little hung over, but nothing too bad; nothing I couldn't handle. After a couple hours my hang over was gone.

Everyone was in good moods, so that helped the atmosphere. Gary was being very talkative after not having worked the last two days. It was kinda funny.

The day got even better around 3:30. I was standing at the register helping a customer when my phone started ringing. I silenced it before they could hear it and a minute later I heard my phone alert me that whoever had called left me a message. I was confused cuz everyone who calls me knows that I work on Friday and they know that I work all day and into the night.

So after I finished with the customer, I went in the back to see who called and to listen to the message. I opened my phone and looked at the missed calls list. It said Stuart. Stuart called me! And he left a message! My face lit up.

I got permission to check my voicemail {cuz we're not supposed to be on the phone while we're working} and it was a pretty long message. Basically Stuart wanted to call out cuz he fucked up his leg earlier today while playing hockey. So I called him back and told him that all he had to do was come in for a couple hours cuz he was training someone and that he didn't even have to move around; he could make his trainee do all the hard work.

He said okay and for a few more minutes we talked about his day. I loved every minute of it. Then about 15 minutes later he called back to ask something about coming in early so that he could leave earlier than he usually does. Gary and Erin were fine with that. So he called me twice. I was so happy.

That was the end of the happiness, though. The night shift started and everyone's attitudes went down, like they usually do. Stuart came in {sort of limping around, but not too much} and I was happy to see him. I asked what he was doing after work and if he was up to calling me, maybe we could hang out. He said no and all I said was okay. I didn't bother to hide the tone in my voice nor the look on my face. I was upset by it, but I wasn't going to push my luck so that was the end of the convo right there.

I hate not knowing. I hate how one minute it seems as though it might go somewhere, and then the next I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle. Its starting to bother me. I realize that if its meant to happen it will and that patience pays off and that time will tell, but I'm starting to run out of patience and time. I leave in 4 months. 4 months from now, I'll be leaving for Vegas and a few weeks later, he'll be leaving to go into basic training. So I'm starting to run short on time. But I don't want to push my luck and its hard for me not to call him or text him just whenever I feel like it.

Fuck. I hate situations like this. I wasn't even supposed to get myself into a situation like this; where I like someone. But now that I'm in it, I'm having trouble getting it to go somewhere or to just simply get myself out of it.

Alright, I'm done. This entry is long enough anyway. I'll probably write some on either Bug or Blackfire later on. If not then I'll just write tomorrow.

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Alcohol is great
Thursday. 3.15.07 11:14 pm
So work tonight was pretty busy. Nothing we couldn't handle though. I got to work with Erin again and it was decent.

I had something new tonight. I had a mamosa. Actually I had three 25 ounce mugs of mamosa. I wasn't supposed to cuz I was drinking underage out in public... at work none-the-less.

They're yummy! But I have a small promblem when I drink. I have trouble stopping. That's why I had three. I was only supposed to have one. But when I was done with the first one, I poured myself another and then I had a third. Then when I got home, I had a 12 oz Smirnoff Twisted. But that's it {cuz I don't have any more alcohol} I should have no problem sleeping tonight.

I'm pretty buzzed right now. Its awesome. I haven't had alcohol in me since Thanksgiving so this is nice.

Alright, I don't have anything else to say. I'm in a pretty good mood right now, but its mainly cuz of the alcohol. I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be that happy if it weren't for the alcohol.

Alcohol is a great thing.

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Blah!
Wednesday. 3.14.07 7:32 pm
Heh, I actually have nothing to write. My mood was off and on today, but it never became too sour or too happy. I guess it was just the usual for me.

After work, I stopped at the dry cleaners {its on my way home} to chill out with Allie and Brittany for a bit. Then Davan showed up and I was like 'I'm out!' Davan wouldn't be so bad if he wasn't a drug addict. But whatev. That's his choice. And I choose not to be a part of it.

For some reason I'm in a decent mood right now. Maybe its cuz I can sleep in tomorrow. I work tomorrow evening with Erin. It should be a pretty decent night.

Haha! I'm all kinds of 'stay the hell away from me' right now. I'm wearing a shirt that says 'Practice Safe Sex. Go Fuck Yourself,' and I've got Pink Panther pajama pants on that say 'Paws Off' all over them. I just thought that was pretty funny.

Alright, I'm out of stuff to say. So I'll write again whenever.

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Damnit! I missed it!
Tuesday. 3.13.07 11:32 am
Last night {er, rather very early this morning} at 2:30am, the StarDust Hotel/Casino was imploded. That hotel was one of the original Hotel/Casinos on the Las Vegas Strip. It had been there for 48 years.

And I missed the implosion! Damnit!!! I found a YouTube video of it and the countdown looks pretty damn cool. Now I have to watch the news to see if they show any kind of live video from it. I wanted so badly to be there and witness it live. Grr.

Here's the video:

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*sigh*
Monday. 3.12.07 9:06 pm
So I wasn't going to post anything, but I changed my mind.

I have been exhausted all day. I think I'm still worn out from this past weekend. But I had a fairly good weekend. It ended kind of sourly, but the whole rest of it was pretty good.

Last night when I got off the comp I turned my stereo on and layed down to sleep. A 3 minute song came on and I don't remember it ending. I passed the eff out. Even though I slept through the whole night, and I didn't dream, I felt like I hadn't slept at all. I woke up this morning still tired. I worked all day, tired. Not even the sleepy kind of tired, but the exhausted kind of tired.

Since I'm off work, I'm not going anywhere tomorrow. I might {and that's a big maybe} check the mail, but other than that, I'm staying inside all day. I'm not even going to get dressed. I'm stayin in PJs all day. The only way I'm going to get dressed and go out is if Stuart were to call and ask if I wanted to go out. But since I doubt very much its going to happen {entirely possible, but not probable} I'm stayin in tomorrow to catch up on rest.

Even though I have my doubts, I still can't help but smile whenever I think about him. If someone were to ask me about him or our date the other night, a big, huge ass grin appears on my face. I really like this guy. I feel about him in a way that I haven't felt about anyone in a good long while. And honestly it feels good. I just wish that life were a little easier than it actually is in situations like this. But since life doesn't work that way all the time, I just have to deal with what I've been dealt.

Anywho, I guess my last entry was so exciting that no one even knew what to comment. Haha, sorry. I was extremely tired and I wasn't thinking clearly. I was upset about something; I don't even remember what I was upset about. But its mostly gone now. I'm just very tired-exhausted now. And I'm also out of stuff to say so this'll be it.

BTW, y'all should go check out Ikimashokie's latest blog about the Nutang TOS. Its a good one.

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