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Sunday. 6.15.08 11:57 pm
I think I'm crazy.

Not like "lock this hoe up for life" kind of insane...I just can't get my brain to stop. Is there a disorder for hyperactive brain activity? Every time I'm sitting alone with ample time to contemplate, my mind starts flying at a thousand miles per hour, trying to analyze random thoughts and "what if" scenarios that lead to an infinite number of equally puzzling circumstances. Memories and emotions only complicate it. I feel like I'm drowning in a mental tidal wave, and my mind is somehow melting into the flow.

By that description I'm sure it sounds like I am off my rocker. I swear I'm not. I'm completely comprehensive of the world around me. I don't have thoughts of homocide or crazy shit like that. I just can't stop thinking...and it only happens when I'm not preoccupied with something else. Surprisingly, my dreams are pretty docile if non existent, so sleep somehow tranquilizes my psyche. It comes and goes in rushes, I have no idea how else to explain the feeling .

It's happening right now as we speak, and thinking about it only makes it worse so I'm going to try and focus on something less...unnerving.

But I can't. Damn. Happy father's day? I made this for part of my dad's card...The Incredible Dad.

Tomorrow I'm going shopping with SOME of the $1200 I got from graduation...the rest is heading to the bank where I will never see it again .

Muffy over and out!

Edit: In hindsight, this was perhaps not a very smart entry to make. I was going through one of my psychosis freakouts when I wrote it...so I sound thoroughly disoriented and just plain crazy. Whatever. I like being weird.

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And the fun continues
Saturday. 6.14.08 2:49 am
Lake Chelan was some of the best fun I've had in a very long time. Three days was waaay too short, I felt like I was only there for one. The minute I got home I was bored. That's how badly spoiled with partying I've been this past week. I hate to use the term "partying" because that almost implies drinking in any other context, but I assure you I was completely sober the entire trip. Too bad I can't really say that about some of the other grads that were there. Everyone that stayed in the condo was clean, but the campsite people were...smashed. I don't really understand why anyone would want to get shitfaced "for fun." To me that says "we're boring and don't have anything else to do."

Anyhow, aside from dealing with some under-the-influence former classmates for a few hours, the trip was amazing. The tie for most memorable memory goes to the late-night running around Wapato Point or our beach time. I'm really wanting to go back, it was a blast. I don' t know what I'm going to do without my peeps next year, it's gonna be tough.

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On a more serious note, I'm getting apprehensive about the future again . Stoopid jobs and money always causing so much pain in the brain...I'm second-guessing my dedication to journalisim because I realized that:
1.) It doesn't pay
2.) I only liked journalism in high school because I was a page editor and had a leadership position. Not going to happen in college

I'm still going to look into communications and psychology, but my focus has gotten all blurred again. Not to mention my ridiculous paranoia of the oil crisis. Sheesh. I'm going to forget about all of these while I travel over the course of the next month, but I'll inevitably have to come to a decision eventually...curses.

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Class of 2008
Tuesday. 6.10.08 8:38 pm
The events that have transpired since my "temporary post" a week and a half ago have been...amazing.

I don't know where to start. Maybe the beginning.

Traditionally, at my high school we have an assembly every year called Moving Up, which literally has each grade level move up to their new designated section in the bleachers for next year. The cheerleaders do a just-for-laughs performance with Senior guys (I got to do it this year, and it was sooo much fun; maybe video later), and the dance team also peforms. But what made that day special also follows tradition: at the beginning of our high school careers, as freshman, the class of 08 entered Federal Way High School through a line of teachers, and fittingly, on our last day at FWHS we left through the very same line. Everyone was crying. I was crying, my friends were crying, my mom was a comlete mess...it was on that day that it hit me: I would probably never see many of these people again in my life.

Of course, the ones who really matter to me, I will be seeing again. I'm going to make sure of it. But just the fact that I'm leaving so many amazing memories behind...it kills me on the inside.

I graduated Monday. It was the strangest thing, to be dressed with cap and gown, shaking hands and recieving my diploma...I don't think it's really hit me yet that high school is over. I was walking through the halls this morning to drop off some stuff to my former teachers when I thought to myself, "I don't go here anymore." It was weird.

Anyhow, after graduation the fun picked up with Senior Grad Night, which was essentially a 7-hour party till 5am this morning, housed in 2 different locations around Seattle. There was bowling, Wii, Segway races, sumo wrestling, gambling, all-you-can-eat buffet, dancing, a hypnotist show (I'm a believer now), bowling, pool, drinks, etc.. I had a pretty damn good time too. It was nice to be able to party it up with the class of '08, because I know I won't be seeing many of them again .

On the bright side, I leave for Lake Chelan tomorrow for another 3-day party up at my friend's condo, which his parents are so kindly renting out as his grad present. It's going to be sweeeet, if the weather permits . And it probably won't, but whatever. I'm going to make some fun out of it.

Nationals is in two weeks, I spend the night at the UW for Advising and Orientation, I leave the 4th of July for the Indiana, and then leave for South Africa at the end of July for Worlds. Basically, summer is going to kick ass.

I don't know how else to chronicle what's happened over the past 1.5 weeks. I can only explain the activities I have partaken in...the emotional side is way beyond me and I don't think you want to hear about it anyways. Pictures from my last day of school are located in the gallery, as well as pictures from graduation. Having fun stalking.

Until Muffy can get his brain figured out...over and out!

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Almost back
Saturday. 5.31.08 7:18 pm
First of all, let me say that I am impressed by all the consistent bloggers we have here on Nutang.
Secondly...I was this close to posting an actual blog. Give me a few more days...Muffy shall return.

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WEfroiuo pozmoisf oiwuper!!
Monday. 5.5.08 1:26 am
Eoiruwo woeu ppoijol wpoiue pr ouoiuoi!! oiejro??
I'M BORED. It's 1:30, I should be tired...I sort of am, but I hate sleeping. If it was possible for human beings not to sleep I would most definitely have it be that way. Although, that would make cuddling incredibly difficult...hmmm...

Anyways, I saw Iron Man. Yeah yeah, I'm going to be go along with the general public and say it was a pretty damn good movie. True, it takes FOREVER for Robert Downey Jr. to get suited up in the Mark III armor (sweeeet stuff), but that's pretty much how all origin movies are. I'm already anticipating (and speculating upon) a sequel...
My list of need-to-see movies:
  • The Happening

  • The Incredible Hulk

  • Wanted

  • The Forbidding Kingdom

  • Hancock

Nifty little movie place here.
Ok I'm going to try and put this boundless energy to other, more productive uses...like homework.

Muffy over and out!

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It's the Day After Tomorrow...today
Wednesday. 4.24.08 10:50 pm
Ok maybe not today, but this weekend it was going global warming on all of our asses up here in the northwest. Snow, hail, rain, sun, and lightning, all within a 2-day time span...I'm still waiting for that aptly timed hurricane or tornado to show up to wrap it all up. For crying out loud, it's late April...

Speaking of crying out loud, Prom is getting to be ridiculous. And it's not even about how much it costs either...it's about who's going to dinner with who. On one hand you have the people who are getting pissy about being constantly harangued as to why they aren't going, and then on the other hand you have the people who are getting pissy because "so and so isn't going in our group because so and isn't on good terms with so and so." And I'm getting pissy because it's JUST dinner, it's trivial, and you're all going to end up in the same place 2 hours later. HEAR MUFFY ROAR

I fear that college may only be a small escape from the drama of high school. I went to a dorm last month with some friends to visit a sibling...and it was bad. I had to seriously question how some of these people got into the UW. "Like totally, like omg I know." And you're in college?? *shudders*

Yay our school paper is in the top 3 for some journalism compeition we entered...I can't remember the name but it sounded very official.
Also, I like Serj Tankian's music and respect his instrumental skills.
Also, I like pie.

That is all, Muffy over and out

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Victory
Sunday. 4.20.08 1:20 am
R E G I O N A L S R E S U L T S
  • 1 minute speed: 2nd place

  • triple unders: 2nd place
  • 3 minute speed: 2nd place

  • relay speed: 1st place

  • double dutch relay speed: 3rd place

  • double dutch pairs speed: 4th place

  • single rope freestyle: 1st place (New Years resolution accomplished again)

  • single rope pairs freestyle: 2nd place

  • double dutch freestyle: 1st place

  • double dutch pairs freestyle: 2nd place

The highlight was definitely beating Jesse at singles...and for the second time, I might add . Right in the nick of time too, because I'm just now sensing the creeping feeling of a sore throat. Oh well, better to be sick now then when I have to deliver.

I need to go to sleep...and work on my Spanish project. No me gusta la tarea *whines*. I may post a video and pics at a later time, if I can steal the camera away from my possessive and technologically handicapped father. Muffy over...and...Zzzz.....

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Can't stop this
Thursday. 4.17.08 11:30 am
GAH. I've been sitting here for the past 10 minutes trying to decide whether or not I wanted to blog. It's really quite a tiring process you know...it's never as simple as just "writing a blog." I have to take the time to construct my thoughts in such a way that they manifest themselves in understandable language. This is generally the most energy-consuming part, and right now I'm dead-tired...but fortunately, I don't effing care about language, because I'm so excited

Life is too good right now. TOO good. I have that lurking feeling that something is going to pop up and throw off my groove...but it hasn't yet, and until then I'm going to enjoy being this happy because I haven't been for a loooong time. Let's make a list, shall we:
  • I'm going to college. Hooooly shit I'm going to college.

  • Nationals in 71 days. A week of jump roping

  • Worlds in...a little longer. 2 weeks of jump roping!

  • I got accepted onto the elite staff for the Northern Camp in Indiana, meaning another week of jump rope

  • I am obsessed with my sport, as you can tell

  • 3 parties in a row after graduation (no drinking, thank you)

  • I love my piano, because it lets me make music and just relax

  • I love the WASL (Washington Assessment of Student Learning), the easiest, most pointless test in existence, but also a test that lets you sleep in till 11 for this week

  • The list could go on...

...but typing all this code is a pain in the ass. I cannot believe that at the start of this year I was afraid of growing up. Little did I know that it would be the most fun I've ever had in my life

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