Couldn't understand why I am so tired?
I sleep a lot;
eat a lot;
read a lot of books.

Perhaps I need some exercises,
but I am too tired to do so;
and the weather is too cold.

I draw an archangel card, and it is Gabriel telling me to take care of children.
If my memory is correct, I draw cards about children quite a number of times.
Although I don't feel good with children, I changed part of my mind since I came Adelaide.

Children seems not that terrible in Adelaide.

The card said when I am helping children, I am helping my inner child in process;
I am teaching what I need to learn, whilst I talk to children and their parents.

However,
Archangel Gabriel,
there is no children in my scoial circle!!!!!

And,
I don't have the 'skill' to talk to children.
Most of the time,
they speak unclear,
and I play hard to understand them.

So, what I should know about children, or my inner child?
(my inner child don't know how to express itself?
my inner child wants to talk?)

The only children-thing that I could related is the child care day centre in my university.
I have passed by once, it is a little bit far away from the buildings that I go, and Goddess know how little time I spend in university.

Perhpas, I should find a time to visit there.
Perhaps, I should goto playground, haven't swing for long, not sure where I can find swing in Adelaide.

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Boring!!!

Why life can be bore like this?

Indeed, there is no reasons for me to be boring.

I have all the elements to be happy in life: I have books to read, I have music to listen, I have internet to kill time, I have so many clothes, I have lots of shoes, I have flute to play, I have tv to watch, I have ...

I own so much, but how come I feel not complete, something should be with me, and I don't have it at this moment.

What is it?

No one knows.

Desire is so ugly. It composed the ugly side of human mind, to what extend human world. We grab from others to fulfill our desire, but desire is a bottomless hole, it'll never fulfilled.

We are the only one to let ourselves be happy, with the mind changed, our inner child satisfied, we forget our desire. Everyone knows this truth deep down in their heart. But not everyone know the way to do.

Nor me.

I hate bore, but it never forget me, it always visits me when i really want to be happy. Like now, assignments handed, i have time to do whatever i like, but I don't have mood to do anything, and I feel bore.

I know I am complicated, in one hand I am lazy, no motivation to move; in the other hand, I am not willing to be stable, I want a exciting life, with lots of adventures.

I don't know how these two personalities combined to one, within me.

All I know is I feel bore most of my life.

When people feel bore, they shall find something fun. But i can't, i don't want to move when I feel bore, I don't even know what I want when this happen.

Magdalena said we have egos becasue we are human on earth, and we chose to be live on earth. Ego is not supposed to be fear, it is our friend, we need to face it.

Would it possible that boredom is my ego, I should face it, acknowledge it. I guess there must be some reasons for I often feel bore, it may be work with inner child, or emotion self, and I should find out.

anyway, all I know is Tomorrow is another day, I should have some sleep!!!

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	The Sorting Hat would put you in Gryffindor. You are bold, passionate, and brave. You have a highly-defined sense of right and wrong, and you are not afraid to speak your mind or fight for what you want.
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	You are Elmo. You are lovable and ticklish, and always inquisitive. Sometimes, though, your excitement about the world can make you seem childish, naive, and occasionally irritating to others.
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	You should live in Paris. The city of lights will appeal to your appreciation of beauty and romance. You are a lover and a poet by nature, and Paris' sensitive charms will be a perfect match for yours.
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Finally, I recoved from flu.

I had been sick for more than two weeks, and not realised that I was seriously ill until friend told me that I got fever. I thought I wasn't had enough sleep, so I got headache and tiredness. Alas, how silly I was? And I'll let you know.

I went home to check temp after skool, and find it was 38C¢X, so I thought, not-too-bad. Remembered that fever would be dangerous, if up to 108 degree. Oh, hang on, is that mean Fahrenheit? So I got up to internet, and check about Celsius.

So I really got fever, and what I should do? Little did I know what to do to a fever patient, that is me. I wonder I should go to bed, or shower, or some iced drink, or any other thing? But I was feeling so cold, and want to turn the heater on. Should fever patient stay in a warm place? I wonder. Coz I remembered that mum told me when I was an infant, got high fever once time, but there were no place for me in emergency room, so they took me home and turn the air-conditioning to lowest. AND I recoved.

Don't want to ask mum, so I check on internet, again (izdat means internet saved my life? LOL). Anyway, knew that I should took off some clothes, drink more water, that means keep the temp down. ar-ha ... it is winter in Australia. I better go to sleep.

Look!! This was the moment that I find I was ill. No any mum in the world'd be happy to read above, so my mum don't know here.

And the next day, I really wanted to do something to save myself, so I planned to see doctor. Well, you wouldn't understand how worried I was, I wonder fever'd make people stupid, so I kept pary to God that "please let me recover, I'm not clever enough, don't let me being stupid, amen!" ar-ha ... sadly, I went to medical centre at 9am, they were full appointment, and they don't have any vacancies until tuesday,that means today. That was a wednesday, and I thought, "damn it, I should recover when tuesday come". Yes, damn!! NO medical cert for being absent classes. I was really down.

So, I only attended tuts, sleep for the rest, and recoved. Yeah!!! Such a pleasure moment.

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