mood: sad
listening to: everything
watching: tv, spots
today I almost broke up with my boyfriend... It was really weird because he seems to be very convinced that he wasn't wanted to be with me anymore.... It was very sad, and I was thinking if that could be the best thing for us, and I realized that it isn't... I love him very much, I could not handled with another sad separation. Eho knows, everything could happens, unless, I died first (that is another thing that could happens)

I realized that no one has the right to put him (or her) your shoes your shoes are yours and noone else could put them or throw them away...

you know, at this time, I have to go to bed, cuz next week I have to work 12 hours a day,... hope not being so bad doing that... or that it will no being that much for me... I have one hour to ate whatever I wanted, so I'm going to make some drugs hahahaha it's a joke... see ya around

lale

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I can't find the rhyme in all my reason
I've lost sense of time and all seasons
I feel I've been beaten down
By the words of men who have no grounds
I can't sleep beneath the trees of wisdom
When your ax has cut the roots that feed them
Forked tongues in bitter mouths
Can drive a man to bleed from inside out
What if you did?
What if you lied?
What if I avenge?
What if eye for an eye?
I've seen the wicked fruit of your vine
Destroy the man who lacks a strong mind
Human pride sings a vengeful song
Inspired by the times you've been walked on
My stage is shared by many millions
Who lift their hands up high because they feel this
We are one We are strong
The more you hold us down the more we press on
What if you did?
What if you lied?
What if I avenge?
What if eye for an eye?
I know I can't hold the hate inside my mind
'Cause what consumes your thoughts controls your life
So I'll just ask a question
What if?
What if your words could be judged like a crime?

My words have been judged always like a crime, I dunno what I have to do to make people understand what I want to say... Is sad... It seems like no one in the world can see what I try to say .... or hear... whatever... I'm sad. I can't say nothing

lale

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watching: how to loose a guy on 10 days
listening to: alice on the wonderland (audio book)
mood: none
this stupid way to live, keep thinking that everything in life is bad or that something it will be wrong, in some way... today my boyfriend says "I'm sick of you" and he was right, all that I want was fight (he feels so) and I felt that he only wants do what he want without think of me... it wasn't a common week, wednesday I went to look for a place in where we can do therapy (our mentionated bussines) and thursday I back to my old work... It seems that something was on my favor 'cuz I have another job... it's about talking by phone and answer questions about windows in english... I'm ... as always not very sure of my experience in english.... first of all if we knew that every contact that I have with english is by reading or writting (not so well by the way)

anyway... I dunno what i'm going to do...

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listening to: VALENTIN ELIZALDE AJUA
mood: HAPPY

TODAY, MY HOROSCOPE SAYS:

Your natural tendency to be pleasant is replaced today a deeper desire to seek the meaning that you previously couldn't find. Don't be afraid to sink beneath the surface, even if you are tempted to avoid intense emotions. Take any opportunity to explore what makes you uncomfortable, instead of doing the socially acceptable thing and keeping interactions non-confrontational.

WHAT A TRUE READING!!!!!

TODAY I WILL BE DRIVING AS A CRAZY WOMAN, AND I'M GOING TO GO TO A FIGHT... OR FIGHT MYSELF... THAT CAN HELP ME TO FIND WHAT I WANT TO FIND... WHATEVER IT IS... BECAUSE I DO NOT KNOW

LOL

LALE

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listening to: rancheros
mood: anxious
today I was chatting with my friend P. she wants to make a group of psicologhyists that do therapy (obiously) but in groups. She invited me, and we are having reunions every week, as part of her study, she is evaluating every member of her group (incluide me) and this week, we are going to see if this is working, (in a personal way) and I'm nervious, everyone says that one of us has to abandone the ship, and we have a candidate.
I dunno why did I have to worry about the feedback, cuz that person is not me, but, anyway, I always have been worried about others think of me, or if I'm doing thinks well. I don't belive so, that's why I'm worried.
yesterday, and the day before, aren't the best days of my relationship, we are having problems with jelous... hate being jelous, but if there's something that makes me angry, is that kike have them for NONE reason...
today was fine, he is in el paso, and I'm here, with my family, and my friend monica is with me... everyone has a computer here in my home and we are happy to can write on nutang... :D

cheers

lale

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mood: angry
almost the most comercial month, feb, when love is for sale...

today I have to say... love is for all days in life, for all the persons in world no matter what, even if some people did not understand... today, almost january 31 I wanna send a hug for all my beloved family and friends, include all persons that pass around here... not much, I supposed...

to my love, the owner of my capital... love you, and I hate myself when things like today or yesterday happens...

lale

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