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the beginning (a simple seed) ~the classic crime
i left my heart in a plastic box
on the bedside table, it will be locked
til i get home

i'm growing feeble and tired of the world
tired of constantly missing my girl
and i long to smell the sea

the sea...
the sea-yeah

i miss the Pacific Ocean
and the northwestern air
and run each of my fingers
through the strands of her hair

ive been over this country lately
but i've been nowhere it seems, nowhere

but ive found the cure to my landlocked blues
its coming home to you

you

if a simple seed
gets just what it needs
then a redwood tree can grow
up to a hundred feet
and endure the sleet and the snow

but if my whole life
was wrapped and priced
i wonder what the tag would show
cuz everytime im close to the holy ghost
i let her go

i let her go...

i left my heart in a plastic box
on the bedside table
it will be locked, til i get home
calendario


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quotes i'd like to save...
-=How happy is the blameless Vestal's lot! The world forgetting, by the world forgot. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd=- ~Alexander Pope

-=ur the sunshine after the rain, the tylenol to my pain=-~me

-='I'll love you till the ocean
Is folded and hung up to dry=- ~ W.H. Auden

-=live ur life, make ur heaven=- ~me reflecting upon stuff i learned at yfc

-=life isnt measured by the breaths u take, but moreso the number of breaths u take away=-~meggyo's profile
Wow is an understatement.
Thursday. 7.30.09 1:01 am
my last entry was September of 2007.*breath*...needless to say. a lot has changed since then. looking back at that entry...i had just finished my first week or 2 of teaching. and here i am only a couple of weeks away from starting my third year of teaching. lets start with what's the same.

-other than teaching...
-still with meghan. she hasn't gotten sick of me yet, heh. and i her.
-still decently close with most of my maryland friends.
-family still good, no big changes there. my pop is still a bit of a mystery, but i got a phone call recently so he's alive, and relatively well so i'm glad to know that.


and that's all i can think of that has stayed.
instead of just spanish 1&2..i'm getting a section of spanish 4. that should be cool getting an upperclass group of kids.

meghan and i live together in an apartment, and are engaged to be married. during a trip to canada...with a ring entrusted to me by her parents, i proposed at night next to the niagara falls, under fireworks, on one knee. we plan to buy a townhouse and then have the wedding in 2011. no kids in the near future plans though. we do have a dog. cali aka girlie- the hotdog. short for caliente. (perro caliente is hot dog in spanish)

im cool with my friends but the dynamic has changed a lot since our usual days in mikes basement. couples have parted, gone through hell, and are going through much strain. new approaches to life for them have developed, and are still developing. california folks are a sad distance away physically and personally, but i did try to reach out to a couple. mixed results so far, but i guess i'm just...i dunno. curious i guess. or something like it. i half want a pessimist to confront me about whats up. so i can put myself to the test. do i want what i have? do i have what i want? i want the test, because i desire to backup explicitly to myself why i've made the decisions i've made. i don't need the proof per se, i just want to spell it out. getting engaged to meghan was a feeling, an instinct, a notion that needed to be solidified, officialized, and real inside of me. mind, body, and soul. i know the only way i'll be truely happy is if she is. and that's the absolute truth. and when i proposed, meghans jaw dropped, her eyes lit up brighter than the fireworks, and the following days of her absolutely gushing happiness to her friends and family as the news was relayed through text message, and phone call. this...this joy that i incited.. hopefully is only a glimpse at wedding happiness, and the cumulative pleasures of spending a lifetime together. i feel this is my purpose in life. to bring about positive-ness in general. with meghan i can do that the most.


there was a question once i read where it was like..if a plane was crashing and you could either save your significant other or a hundred strangers, who would you save? i guess at a time in my life, i wanted to bend the rules and just "save" everyone i could. but if the question were different, if it were if you could make 100 people generally happy, or 1 person ecstatic who would you make happy? now i know in my heart, i'd have to dedicate myself to that one person to truely make him/her(in my case-her) fully, and whole-heartedly....and this is how "why im getting married to meghan" is spelled out.

i guess i don't really need that test afterall...thanks anyway pessimists. i'd still like to talk though. i'm kinda short on conversation with anyone other than meghan so... here are a few thoughts that you can comment on if you feel an urge to:

i was buying a jacket, and some random guy behind me said he'd give me his gift card to pay for it instead, and i'd only have to pay him half of what got taken off the card with my purchase. an on sale $90 dollar jacket ended up only costing me 31 dollars. go figure.

i was almost fired from being a teacher because i didn't take my praxis tests in time. ever heard of a praxis? its kinda like SATs for teachers. i ended up passing them all though. the first time around, and on time. pretty vindicating experience considering how close i was to being shit outta luck.

im going to an orioles game in the end of august, but don't own a single piece of clothing that says baltimore or orioles on it. i recently saw a picture of a californian wearing an orioles hat. i never knew cali folks liked the O's. unless the pic was actually in baltimore...


good night everyone.

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its just a matter of time
Monday. 9.3.07 8:25:34 pm
wow. much has changed. i read that last blog and noted how i slightly anticipated a 'plateau' in my life......and for this year....that plateau is me teaching.

i've been fortunately hired as a high school spanish teacher. im responsible for the grades of 159 students students. this first week was tough, especially the first day of full classes. but it got a little better each day after. and so im hoping it follows this trend...and i gain confidence bit by bit.

meghan is in her last year at slippery rock...but i visited her this weekend, and drew an immense amount of positive energy from being with her for just the long weekend.

i miss meghan more and more every day....



...right now its currently 2:47am on saturday, september 8th, and i shall continue this blog. hmph. i can't really sleep. i had a few cups of coffee at about 9 and i hadnt had coffee all week so it really got to me tonight. i tried to lay in bed for a couple hours but i couldnt fall asleep. so i thought i could shoot for some of that late night phenomenon...maybe stumble across some sort of zen...happen upon a bit of enlightenment...

at school on friday i met up with my mentor teacher. she paralleled my experience being a new teacher to that of an intern doctor, whom had just graduated from med school..but had to have a couple years of residence, under a mentor type figure. and i dont know about anyone else, but this definitely made me think of grey's anatomy. haha. and my mentor teacher certainly isn't going to be around as much, but the analogy was interesting. im going to need guidance and support if i wanna survive teaching, im just so glad theres plenty of options to get exactly those things. my department chair is very helpful. she seems almost motherly.
the other teachers are so welcoming very open to teamwork and cooperation.

anyway...this weekend. it'll be my first weekend where i'll be hanging out with my friends. last week i was lucky enough to have a 3 day weekend to regroup with meghan. so this time i can just relax with the gang here. maybe spend some time organizing my things here at the house. i need to get a transcript from aacc...pay a credit card bill....*shrug* i should prolly get to sleep before i wake up and half my saturday is gone.

i think ive become a little more concerned with time management. planning is becoming something that eases my mind more than ever before.

good night.

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who i am
Monday. 6.18.07 23:10:47(in spain) or 5:10:47 pm
so ive been thinking....

when i came upon a new environment..for awhile...or indefinitely...i saw each time as a chance to become someone new, someone 'cooler'. i moved a couple times between elementary school years..moved to a new town for middle school....moved to the other side of the country for high school.. and each time, i thought 'this years gonna be different, im gonna be smarter, more outgoing, more likeable.' i went away for college to slippery rock...i think this is when i beganto slow down a little bit. i wanted things to stay more the same. as i type this...im sitting in spain, thinking....im on the verge of a plateu in my life. a plateu which i need to set up where i keep the people i love close...and my life can just play itself out like cruise control. no more crazy turns, (maybe when i become a dad), just ...smooth sailing. haha...what an optimistic point of view..but hey...im an optimist.

going off to spain..i was set in a foreign country with nobody but a handful of complete strangers. so i guess i kinda had the opportunity to be whoever i wanted for these folks....but in retrospect, i didnt really try hard to be any 'cooler' or anything like that. i was just myself. i absorbed as much as i could in classes and had good times with these fellow travellers. as a group we've developed a decently tight knit group..but i dont think ive treated anyone any differently than from the start. i havent shifted myself to appease or impress anyone. i keep things cool, make sure everyones having a good time, sacrifice my personal comfort for the small needs of everyone else...to me, it sounds like what i do at home, for the gang in maryland. a quote came to my mind...originating from casey embert...it goes like something along the lines of...'you're someone who would do anything for anyone.' meghan composed an awesome poster comprised of good times and praise from awesome people, and that was one of the many jewels that i took to heart. here i've given up my sheets and pillow for people to sleep over comfortably, paid for a few meals at restaurants, carried grocery bags, mopped floors of melting freezers, washed dishes, left parties earlier so one person wouldnt have to go home alone, and i've slightly been a human dictionary for people('keith whats that mean? ')...

so im thinking....
1 i am going to miss my group here.
2 im feeling good about the next couple years of possible future.
3 im happy.

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¡¡¡ E S P A Ñ A !!!
martes, 5 de junio 20:23:02
oh my freaking god its amazing here. the classes are amazing. the people are amazing. i have pictures. im taking more pictures im sorry i cant keep everyone up to date. but im alive and well. and im enjoying spain as much as i possibly can. to my friends, i miss you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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a thousand mile long spring break
Monday. 3.19.07 10:06:49 pm
ladies and gentlemen...boys and girls all around...gather 'round...feast your eyes...tis keith beginning a blog entry. whoopie. heh

so yeah. i thought i'd reflect on my spring break. considering it was possibly my last "spring break" as a student, i think i should use this entry as a commemoration to this ultimate spring break...it was really quite the tremendous occassion i'd say.

i didn't travel anywhere overly exotic, and i didn't go to the bar, or to huge parties. instead, i spent 99% of my free time(apart from meghan)with my friends, and on the road, driving literally about a thousand miles over the course of break. there wasnt a lot of time to just sit and relax...but if i had too much of that i'd prolly complain about not doing anything over break, so id say its better this way.

driving from slippery rock to hershey while listening to the audio book "Bend in the Road" by Nicholas Sparks was the fastest 4 and a half hour drive ever. twas a truly memorable experience to have with meghan, and im really glad we did it.

my day and a half spent in hershey was an invigorating break from school in itself. watched v for vendetta with meghan and nick(meghan's brother did everyone know she had a brother?). which was of course cool due to the movie's degree of sweetness. meghan and i then took a walk around the neighborhood commenting on the architecture/overall visual feel of the houses we passed by. i personally loved it. i guess i'd be pretty happy to have a house of my own one day. kinda interesting cuz...i imagine myself as being a mr calianno of sorts. pretty big house, wife and kids, friends of kids practically living there too. heh..maybeh one day.. so yeah. the morning after...pancakes were had, and coffee was sipped. meghan, her mother Mrs. Michelle, and i all sat down at the table and talked. i think its really cool that i can sit with them and just chat about stuff. i guess it was slightly therapeutic(sp?), having a talk with the mama dukes de meggyo. and after my cup of coffee was done...i reluctantly left hershey. i however did get to shake nick's hand when i said bye. we're sloowwwly getting to be cool with eachother. maybe next time we'll play some sort of video games....

so yeah. i left hershey, and drove to maryland. and i'll be honest, i dont think i've ever driven as fast overall. like i must have averaged like a lil over 80. andddd yeah. i arrived in maryland, greeted my brothers and grandma..and my madre wasn't home just yet, she was grocery shopping. but yeah..once she got home i greeted her and eventually...i went to mikes of course! high five/hugged sank/niki/mike/brett there..and then left later to watch 300.

and if you didn't know, 300 is pretty righteous.

i could have waited for it to come out on dvd, but then i couldn't have made fun of all the french names during the credits! so...yeah. it was worth it.

due to the nice weather, monday i believe i went to play basketball at the calianno residence with sank, nick, danny, and chris (dannys lil brother). niki and brett later arrived and we ended up going to bretts to play hearts...or was this wednesday?! man its all a blur really... *shrug* i do however know that tuesday, sank and i ventured to UMBC to challenge people to smash. we found parking and walked the campus. there was a surprising amount of asians it seemed to me.we found mike, he showed us where to smash, and there we began our day of smash! sank had an especially good day at umbc. i had an mild day. glad to have smashed with other people.hmm...what else did we do over break.. played pop culture cranium with nick being on a team consistent of 3 of my little brothers.. walked around the security square mall with sank (they have a sweet food court)....had chili dogs at the denison household...i got my passport applied for (and meghan saved me)..
and last but not least....the party.
beer pong on the surprisingly large ping pong table
kings
pass out- the board game
wii bowling
scottness getting slightly obliterated

good times.


this spring break was truely amazing. and i'm eternally grateful for everyone who made efforts to ensure that it was. you guys rawk.

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a quickie before work
Wednesday. 2.28.07 4:18:46 pm
so i should be leaving in like...11 minutes and 14 seconds to get to work but i kinda dont have anything to do so...here i am. i've been in a sort of funk recently. kinda saddening. i think its been since i went to duquesne and got my ass beat in smash. i mean i had a good time, and i got a lot of people to come along and they had a good time too but....i dunno. i guess i was planning on faring a lil better with these guys...but nah. high school kids destroying me at this video game. and obviously it makes me consider how important the game is, and it really isnt at the top of my list priorities in life. but i guess i've become quite overconfident here in slippery rock whenever it came to smash. at home its always close amongst my friends...but here i feel i come out on top. so away from home...and losing, makes me feel homesick in a way. cuz like i'll be fine losing to my friends, but i guess losing to complete strangers without my home buddies there to say "worth it" or...."tricked ya" ....*shrug*..its not the same.

but i dunno. maybe i can get better, and make a better showing at this duquesne thing. i need a vacation. *breath*. i'm off to work.

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the number is lesser in value..and easier to swallow
~'would you like something to drink'
if your stomach feels weak, then my work here is done
~'the words "best friend" become redefined'
if theres no one beside you when your soul embarks, i'll follow you into the dark
~'i'll follow you into the dark'
i'll be floating out at sea, waiting for periscopes to spot my warm body
~'no ace, just you'
this is the part where i'll admit i'm getting what i deserve
~'lost and found'
lets sleep tonight on a bed of nails, so that every other night doesn't seem so painful after all
~'beter than sex'
if it were up to me, you're gone, i've been dying to get it into you somehow
~'histrionics'
hours pass, and she still counts the minutes that i am not there, i swear i didn't mean for it to feel like this
~'bruised'
wanna fuck up my life?-i'll let you.
~'knotes'
this is the rhythm i was signing to the beat of my feat as i walked away
~'i fought the broad (and the broad won)'
ur stomach's filled up but ur starved for conversation
~'soco amaretto lime'
if i could, i'd only want to make you smile
~'make you smile'
the past is only the future with the lights on
~'baby, come on'
morning always comes too quick when you're around..
~'still breathing'
i beg not to escape permeating my pores, whetting my appetite for more
~'amanda's poem about unicorns '
ur stomach's filled up but ur starved for conversation
~'soco amaretto lime'
love me gently with a chainsaw
~'tie her down'
smiles and her laughter, its the only thing that ive been waiting for
~'emily'
so many high points on this last leg, i cant wait to recount them- it seems like nothings happened until ive shared them with you
~'shirts and gloves'
ur lips, ur eyelashes- ur skin, these are the parts of ur body that cause my comatose to begin
~'all hail the heartbreaker'

lets start out-by starting over... ~'lovers and liars'

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