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Saturday. 4.29.17 9:21 am
I didn't mean to go almost an entire month without writing. It just kind of happened that way. Though, this has been more of a busy month so perhaps that's why? I dunno. Either way, let me see if I can catch up a little.

Earlier this month, the week before Easter, I had probably the busiest week that I've had in a while, especially considering most of the activity occurred during the actual work week. I ate at a new place, saw a movie I probably wouldn't have seen on my own, went out to lunch with a coworker, went out to dinner with someone I've not seen in over two decades, saw another stage production. I ate out 5 of the 7 days that week, and was definitely feeling it that weekend.

I also had a dentist appointment scheduled for that Saturday prior to the busiest week, but I ended up making poor life choices and was sick the morning of the appointment so I had to reschedule.

I rescheduled that to yesterday, and had it tacked on to the afternoon of my annual appointment, since I was already taking time off from work. I don't like the dentist; I never have. And the last time I went was just as horrible as from when I was a kid. Yesterday's appointment however, though still not all happy fun times, was a much better experience. I'm not looking forward to going back in 4 weeks, but I am really hoping to make the improvements that I need so that I can just stick to a basic every 6 month cleaning. I am super thankful, however, for the fact that this dentist doesn't seem to think I need surgery. Unlike what I was told last time and hence why (part of the reason anyway) I put off going back for so long.

Oh, I got a new phone last weekend. It's the newest Galaxy model and I'm liking it so far. It's nice having a battery that lasts me a couple days. I also bought a smart watch to go with it. It's not as awkward to wear as I remember watches being. Perhaps it's because it syncs to my phone and doesn't exactly feel like a watch? Who knows. But I'm happy with the purchase altogether. I have yet to really test out the camera and get some new pictures. I've mostly just kind of taken the same shots that I've recently been taking, rather than going out and exploring. Something I know I will need to remedy soon.

Anywho, I'm probably forgetting some things so if anything comes to mind, I'll just add in an edit. Otherwise, that's all I got for now.

Until next time. . .

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Fourteen
Saturday. 4.1.17 6:04 pm
Well then ... I think back in Sept/Oct of last year I'd said something about maybe trying another 'entry every day' type of thing for this year. Considering today is April 1st, and this is only the 14th entry of the year, I'd say I've done quite horribly in really any attempt at trying to write every day.

I suppose it's more because of where I'm at in my life. I don't feel like I need to get things out as much as I did the year I wrote *almost* every day(I think I missed 7 or 8 in the entire year). It's not that I'm particularly busy; kind of the opposite, in fact, but there's just no real pull to write anything.

I still have the same car I've had for the last almost 8 years. I still have the same phone number that I've had for almost 10. I've even lived at the same address now for over 5 years. I've been working at the same location for over 6 years (though the job title has changed.) Life has kind of taken a rather consistent turn for me; one I'm very much not used to. Even though I still have the urge to move on a regular basis, (I think I've talked about this before) there's really nothing pushing or pulling me away at the moment.

I feel like I'm in this weird limbo of stability, but without really being stable. It's kind of hard to explain how I'm feeling, and the more I think about putting it in to words, the harder it becomes to really even understand it inside my own head. It's almost like I'm in a place where I've become comfortable with the consistency, and yet I'm always expecting that sudden change. Something to throw it all off. I lived that way for so long that I was terrified at just the simple thought of settling somewhere.

However, one of my biggest fears is of getting stuck. Like, I could never live on an island. Even if I don't go anywhere, the idea of not being able to go anywhere, whenever I wanted, makes me very uncomfortable. The last time I went away, I didn't have a rental car, and that made me quite uncomfortable. If I'm staying as a guest at someone's home, even if I know that I don't have to keep a schedule, it makes me uncomfortable in the knowledge that I might be judged for keeping weird hours. It may not completely stop me, but it makes me uncomfortable.

It's irrational, especially since I usually stay put. I guess all of the moving around has affected me, even though I've been in one place for longer than I've ever been before, and have become very used to the every day normalcy of it all. Though I don't remember the last time I went out for a drive, just for the sake of getting away, it causes me anxiety at just the idea of that not being an option.

Anwyho, this kind of went off topic, I suppose. There's really nothing new and/or exciting going on in my life as of the current moment. Hopefully this holds anyone who actually reads this over enough until the next entry.

Until then. . .

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New-ish
Saturday. 3.25.17 9:49 pm
They finally went through the process of upgrading out internet. It's not nearly as good as if I were to pay for my own plan, but it's 4 times better than it was before. I wish I was exaggerating, but really, the numbers went from 20/5 mbps to 100/100 mbps. I can stream *most* videos on YouTube in HD now. Still not 1080p, but at least 720p. Although, even with great internet, if the computer isn't built to handle a lot of things happening at once, it still slows down or skips on videos where there's a lot going on. Still, though, it's nice having faster internet.

I got my hair trimmed up today. After that last post, even just a couple days later, I kind of started to like the length that it had gotten to, and so I was hesitant to cut it back to the shortness that it was before. I wasn't much a fan of the way it looked during the 3-5 month mark post-original trim, but at the 6 month mark, it was starting to look nice. Especially with the layers that she'd put in. So going in today, I told my stylist that I wanted it somewhere between the original cut, and the 3 month mark (I had kind of a collage of progression photos) so that it'll take less time for me to grow it to the length I want it. The plan is to let it grow, get it trimmed at 6 months, have the layers touched up, then cut it short again in about a year. We'll see how that goes.

I got new bed sheets, and deep cleaned my comforter so now everything smells nice. And the sheet is actually staying on my mattress. The one I'd been using had been old and so the elasticity wasn't really there anymore. I had to adjust the fitted sheet at least once a week. Hopefully I have better success with this new one.

I'll be getting a pedicure tomorrow, likely with Spring/Easter/pastel colors this time around. Afterwards I'll be seeing Beauty and the Beast. I'm looking forward to seeing this movie. There will be food at some point in the day, just not sure what or in what order in regard to nails and the movie. That's something that will just get played by ear.

Next weekend, I think the plan is to get together with the best friend to help her paint, but I'll have to double check with her when the time gets closer. Coordinating with them is always challenging, and has become slightly more so with the addition of her adorable little Miss. Which is fine; makes total sense. Just means it's nicer when we do finally get together.

Okay, I'm fading fast from a sushi coma so I'm gonna knock out early.

Until next time. . .

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Adulting
Monday. 3.13.17 9:49 pm
This past weekend was the first weekend in a while that I'd not had any set plans. I did go out and get pizza with a couple friends, but that was kind of a last minute thing, and that's the only time where I actually let my pod. It was really nice having a weekend where I didn't have to go anywhere, or do anything, or see anyone; aside from the pizza, of course.

After work on Friday, a friend of mine and I went out and got sushi. We're both addicts, so if one of us suggests sushi, the other one will always agree to it. It's the one and only food that I will overeat and not even feel the slightest bit guilty. It also surprises people as to just how much I'm able to eat when it comes to sushi. Oh well. I guess everyone has that one thing, right?

Because I spent the weekend just mostly hanging out, being lazy, I had to adult today. I needed to go grocery shopping for the next two weeks, as well as make a Target run for toiletries that I'd run out of, and fill up my tank as well. I spent more money at the grocery store and way more money at Target than I'd originally planned, but the things I got were *mostly* necessary. The new bed sheets, tiny crock pot, pens, and Reeces eggs I could have probably managed without for a while longer, but those are all things that will be put to use. I also bought two giant mugs for ma for mother's day. I know it's a couple months away still, but I saw them and just knew I had to get them for her. She loves giant mugs.

Tomorrow all of the money that I've spent since Friday should have fully gone through my bank account so I can see exactly how much I have left, and then figure out how much to put toward the reminder of the bills I have for this month. It's nice knowing that I can afford all of these things without having to worry about sacrificing one thing or another. I even afforded myself an extra couple luxuries in the form of tickets to another touring stage production, as well as putting money aside for the hair cut I have scheduled next weekend. It's been 6 months since my last cut and it's starting to get on my nerves. I'm really not sure how I managed to deal with it being below my elbows. Although, I didn't like the short cuts I'd gotten back then; the stylist I have now makes my hair look good short so it makes me want to keep it that way. It also makes me look a little closer to my age, as well as it being much, much easier to maintain.

Anywho, I'm working toward getting in to a new sleep pattern in hopes that if I stay up later, the frequency at which I've been waking up during the night will lessen. It'll also be better for once we get in to the significantly longer daylight hours; going to bed at 9 when it's still bright and sunny outside is quite challenging.

Until next time. . .

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Finisher
Sunday. 3.5.17 7:16 pm
On top of the activities previously mentioned in the prior entry, I forgot to include last Monday and Tuesday's dinner plans. Monday was sushi, Tuesday was a belated birthday dinner with the best friend. Both of those evenings were quite enjoyable. It always helps when you hang out with super chill people.

Today was the most involved plan of all the activities I'd had planned: the Hot Chocolate 15k. I've never done anything more than a 5k, and the best time I ever had, I think, was 42 minutes. I was also overweight during each of those. It's definitely more involved when doing a 15k (9.3 miles for those of us here in America) and I'm already feeling it. Luckily, the only really steep hill was right at the beginning and it was going downhill. The rest of the hills were decent inclines, but nothing steep; just seemingly never-ending. The good thing about the inclines is that it would eventually become a decline, and those are much easier. You have gravity working in your favor. It doesn't do nice things to your joints, but it helps with speed.

My goal was to complete it in under 2 hours. I finished it at 2 hours and 9 minutes. Which, in all honesty, is better than I expected to do considering I really didn't train. I was on top of it for the first 3 weeks of the 8, and then went to the gym maybe 3 times over the following 5 weeks. It averages out to about a 13:51 min mile. I definitely couldn't jog the whole thing, but I alternated between walking and jogging. There were several people still behind me when I finished, which made me feel better.

It was incredibly cold and I didn't realize it was possible to be warm/sweaty/swollen AND cold at the same time. I understand that we sweat to cool our bodies down, but the wind that was blowing wasn't just a light breeze, and whenever the sun dipped behind the clouds, it got cold. My fingers were numb for at least half the time I was outside. My toes finally warmed up, which was nice. It made moving forward a little easier.

I'm quite proud of the simple fact that I followed through. Getting up early this morning, going out in the cold, and jogging/walking 3 times farther than I've ever gone in a run before was not an easy feat. But I have the finisher medal and the record online (along with super sore joints) proving that I accomplished this and I'm proud of the fact that I did.

February of last year, during the vacation bidding period, I knew that I'd wanted to do this. I requested off March 6th in anticipation of needing a day to recover, and I'm really thankful for past me for thinking ahead, even though I didn't actually register for this run until 10 months later. On top of needing an extra day to allow my hips and knees to heal, tomorrow is the first official day working for Kaiser, now that they've finally acquired Group Health, and I'm glad I won't be around for the chaos. I'm still going to be sore on Tuesday, but at least I can go back in to work and ask everyone what I have to do, rather than learning with tomorrow's trial and error day.

Alright, I'm going to zone out and probably head to bed early tonight. When I wake up tomorrow morning, and get up for the first time, I already know that just going to the bathroom is going to be a bitch. But I have Advil and bananas so I'll just take it easy and work through it.

Until next time. . .

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Busy
Saturday. 2.25.17 7:50 pm
Things have settled at work with my coworker finally having gotten over all of the ailments that had kept her home for two weeks. Things at home have gotten back to normal as well. I am still looking for another place to live, however, I may not be moving until May/June.

This past Thursday a friend and I went and saw Rent at the Paramount. I've loved the movie since it came out back in 2005, and this was the first time I've seen it on stage. As much as I loved the movie, I love the stage production even more. It would have been amazing to see the original cast on stage, though. It was worth it to be out late on a work night.

I had plans today to go with a few work friends to visit our mutual friend, and our coworker, who has been out on maternity leave. She came up to work on Thursday for an appointment, but ended up spending about 3 hours just visiting people in the clinics. She had the baby with her so everyone wanted to see, and ask her about how she was doing and how the baby was doing. Today was much nicer in the fact that we all met up at her house, and brought food with us so she was able to stay comfortable in her own home. We each took turns holding the baby; based off photographic evidence, I apparently have only one position in which I hold newborns. At least the second photo was of me laughing; that one looks a little less serious.

Tomorrow the plan is to stay indoors. It's supposed to snow overnight again so I'm curious to see how much it'll actually snow. There was a tiny flurry a couple days ago, and then again for about 5 minutes this morning. Just super small flakes, without anything really sticking.

Since I didn't get much sleep Thursday or last night (since I had to be up early this morning; I had plans before meeting up with everyone) I'm not sure how much later I'll be able to stay awake. I may actually go to bed as soon as I'm done typing this up.

Next weekend is going to be busy, leading in to a busy week afterward. I have another burlesque show to go to, a 15k run to do, and two medical appointments. And then this coming week is looking to be incredibly busy at work. We've got a well above average volume of patients this coming week, for some reason, starting with Monday having more patients on the schedule than we've ever had. Ever. So that should be fun. Two weeks from now I'm hoping to have absolutely no plans so that I can spend time recovering from the amount of sudden activity that has sprung up in my near future.

Anywho, I wanted to type something up so that the most recent entry wasn't just a bitch-fest. This is at least a little more lighthearted.

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