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it was a good day
Friday. 4.4.08 2:24 am
It is almost 2:30am ... I didn't want him to leave. Unfortunately we both have stuff to do later today {since it's technically already Friday.} One of these days he'll stay the whole night and it's going to be amazing falling asleep with him here and waking up with him still here.

Anywho, the day was good. I woke up when I wanted, called him to let him know I was up and within half an hour, he was here. We chilled out at my place for a couple hours, surfing the net and watching vids on YouTube. Then we decided to go over to his place.

We were supposed to go swimming, but it was still a little on the cool side. Maybe in a week or so.

Instead we drove up to Blockbuster and rented Alvin and the Chipmunks. He agreed that it's a cute movie. I still can't wait until Wall-E comes out. I'm already planning on seeing that one twice. Once with Lori and once with Jacob. Who knows if I'll be going to see it a third time.

I'm not looking forward to the remainder of the day. I have shit to do in the morning {picking up my check and cashing it} and then I get to play chauffeur later in the day. I was planning on going to the gym, but ma wants the car right around the time I would have been in the middle of my workout, so it just won't work. I'm looking forward to when Steve has his car re-insured. It'll be a little easier on the rest of us.

I work Saturday; I have no idea what the rest of my schedule will look like. I'll be finding that out tomorrow when I go to pick up my check. I'm seriously hoping for some good hours this week. I need it.

Alright, I need to get some sleep. If I want to get up when I plan on it, I should probably sleep now so that I can get a decent amount of rest. I shall write tomorrow. . . or later today. depending on how you want to look at it.

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finally finished
Wednesday. 4.2.08 4:23 pm
I finally got my taxes done today. I only had two weeks left before they were due so I decided I'd better get them done today. I'm getting back a little over $500 between federal and state. Which is confusing the hell out of me.

The last two years, I owed Arizona State. So this year, I was automatically expecting to owe the State. Instead, I'm getting money back. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy about it. I'm just incredibly confused. Since I never changed how much money was taken out of each check, I have no idea how they owe me rather than vice-versa. It's weird.

Oh, I'm also getting a $300 return check from the government. So that'll help a bit with the move.

Anywho, I caught up on my sleep last night. I slept for 12 hours and I think I only woke up once during that time. I also slept for about an hour while Jake was here last night {I know, I'm such a boring host.} He shut off my TV and my computer while I was asleep so that when he left, I wouldn't have to worry about doing any of that.

See, we were supposed to hang today, but then he had job stuff going on so he made sure to see me last night instead. We're supposed to go out tomorrow. We'll be going to his place to swim and then I'm not sure what we'll be doing afterwards.

I wanted to go to the gym tomorrow morning, but Steve is taking the car to work. Unless Yvonne doesn't mind picking me up, I won't be able to go. I need to call her later.

Uhm, I think that's it. Today has been a chill day. The only thing I did that involved leaving the house was to put gas in the car. And the only reason I had to do it rather than mom was because the money was on my card. Other than that, all I'm doing today is laundry.

I shall write again probably tomorrow.

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Tuesday. 4.1.08 5:36 pm
I was on my last sentence of my blog and the screen froze. I lost everything that I wrote. Fuck.

Basically what I had written was that I'm sick of the shit in this house. I'm more ready to leave than I ever have been before. The tension that has settled over this house is like a tornado cloud. Everything is being tossed around in crazy-weird directions.

About the only good thing that happened today was that I joined the gym. I spent money that I didn't have, but it'll help me in the long run. The thing is now, I won't be going there to just have fun. I'll be going there to work out. No more eye candy. I'll be watching the people who are there, but nothing more. Besides, I'm basically taken. Flirting unnessecarily would jeopordize what I have with Jacob. Soemthing I don't need right now.

Right now my attitude is set to whatever. There's no food? I don't eat. There's shit to do? I don't sleep. It's just whatever at this point. Working 4 very different schedules around one vehicle is not easy, but whatever.

Everything right now is just one, big, fat whatever.

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can't sleep yet ...
Monday. 3.31.08 6:21 pm
My day is almost done.

It started at 3:15am when my alarm went off. I had only gone to bed 3 hours prior. And though the hour nap I had at Jake's house was nice, it wasn't even close to helping in me catching up on my sleep.

I get to work at 4am. For the first half of my shift, I just couldn't seem to wake up. The first two hours, I had to stop every so often just so that I wouldn't fall over from exhaustion. I ate a muffin on my first break and that woke me up enough that I didn't have to worry about falling over, but I was still energyless.

On my lunch, I walked over to the gas station and got two cold bottle of water. That woke me up some. I started moving quicker and got a good amount done the remainder of my shift.

When I finished my shift, I needed to buy some things so I did that and then headed home.

I get home, call Jake and fix myself something to eat. I still wasn't able to lay down because I needed to go up to the gym, get ma to work by 4pm and then pick Steve up at 5pm.

After I pick Steve up I came home, took a quick shower and cooked dinner. Which brings us up to this point. Right now, I'm eating dinner and waiting for my hair to dry enough for me to lay down.

Some good things happened at the gym today. I didn't work out; I was just too tired. But I did manage to get another 2 week long pass. I felt bad about not using my other pass, but my life suddenly took a rather busy turn and I was having trouble balancing it all out. I should have a better grip on things now. I plan on going to the gym at least the next three days. My eye candy was also there today. We've made eye contact; he knows I'm watching him. Now all I have to do is work on my strategy to make actual contact.

It appears that I won't be getting much sleep tonight either. I completely forgot New Amsterdam was on tonight ... until my sister said something about House. New Amsterdam is on after House. I will be getting at least 3 hours of sleep. Which will bring my total sleep hours up to about 10 in the last 72 hours. Jake wouldn't be very happy with me if he knew I was staying up to watch my show.

Believe me, though. Tomorrow after I'm home from the gym and have showered, I plan on passing the fuck out. And not waking up until I wake up. No alarms, no waking me up for food, nothing. I'm okay if Jake comes over, but that probably wouldn't even wake me.

Alrighty, I have, yet again, managed to write a longer-than-expected entry so I shall end it here. I'm sure there was other stuff I wanted to write about, but I'm just too tired to remember.

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more hours + a life = far less sleep
Sunday. 3.30.08 12:04 pm
I'm happy that I've finally got something of a life outside of work and my bedroom. I'm happy that I'm being given extra hours that really aren't there to give. I'm incredibly tired because of both.

I used to come home after work and nap. Now? I come home, rest for a short bit and leave again. I get home in just enough time to get a few hours of sleep before having to work again.

Take, for example, this past few days. Thursday I was off; I actually don't remember what I did. Friday I worked for 7 hours, came home, changed and relaxed for a little bit. After dinner, we headed out to the movies and went straight to bowling from there, with a quick stop at home so I could change clothes.

I get home Friday night at around 1am; I finally go to sleep around 3ish am. I get about 8 hours of sleep. Yesterday I was off again, but as you may have read, I was incredibly pissed so when I got ahold of Jake, I asked him to come get me. I left the house around 2ish{?} and was gone until 9pm. Jake stayed until shortly after 10pm and I didn't lay down until 11pm.

My alarm went off at 2:30am, I got up, got ready for work and worked until 11am. I'm home now, relaxing and waiting for Jake to come get me. I have to work tomorrow at 4am, but I probably won't be home tonight until sometime between 10 and 11pm.

Tomorrow after I get off work, I'll be going to the gym because tomorrow is the last day I'll be able to use it. I also want to thank Ryan and Allan for helping me out with getting the pass and I want to thank Ryan for extending it from a week to 11 days. That was very nice of him; even though I feel a little bad for not taking advantage of the extra 4 days.

I don't think I'm going to see Jacob tomorrow because I have to work at 4am Tuesday too and I'll need sleep. Even though I can sleep with him here, I stay up because I'll feel like I'm wasting the time we have together by sleeping it away.

So that's how my life has been over the last few days and will be over the next couple days. I'm happy, but I'm very tired and probably will be until my next day off when I can just sleep the day away.

Right now I have Lotus out and she's curled right up against my backside. I can feel her breathing and it's kinda cool and weird at the same time.

Ugh, I was going to write about yesterday too, but this is already long enough. Okay, quick review. He took me to Club Charleston {a billiards place;} we got a few drinks and I played darts for the first time ever. Lemme just tell you how much I suck. I'd score awesomely if hitting the floor counted. After we were done, we went back to his place and I later met his mom. She was nice and he was surprised by how nice she was being. It's slightly amusing and slightly unnerving. I'm not sure how to take it.

She's invited me to dinner tonight ...

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unsure which to write about
Saturday. 3.29.08 12:18 pm
I'm not sure whether to write about how pissed off I am right now ... or how much fun I had last night.

Ugh, I'll go for the latter.

Last night Jake and I went to see 21. It was good. Some of the terms I remember and I'm sure that if I studied it, I'd be able to count cards with very little issue. It's just simple math with some strategy.

After the movie we met up with the group at the bowling alley. It was fun. The first game sucked. The second game was slightly better, but it still sucked. All that matters is that we had fun, though.

Jean was pretty excited about meeting Jake. She was having some fun with it.

Blah. This entry would have been more exciting if I wasn't so pissed off.

I can't fucking wait to be out of my family's house.

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