Phoebe IMed me with some relationship troubles, and we discussed taking it slow and not being too aggressive about starting anything. Then I admitted that I didn't feel like I had a right to give that advice, since, well... if you've read my previous entries you know.

So she said "yeah but at least you guys will last," to which I responded "we don't know that."

I guess we were typing at the same time, because about half a second later I got "don't forget to invite me to your wedding!" from her. X|

This of course led us to the subject of weddings. I want to get married in my early/mid twenties so I can get a headstart on family matters. My parents got married in their early thirties, and even though that promises more financial security, I feel like the age gap between us is pretty noticeable. This is especially evident when it comes to my dad; he rarely has the energy to deal with us... and my mom seems to be going through some sort of mid-life transitional phase? I'm not even sure.

I want to try to do the best I can to make my future home and family comfortable (assuming I have a future home/family, that is). My mom has this habit of foisting chores onto me that she doesn't want to do, and I've always resented her a bit for that. I think that if my kids do chores other than the standard stuff like cleaning up after themselves/neatening their rooms, it ought to be voluntary. That way when they do decide to help out, I'll know I've done a good job raising them. I would rather have them work of their own free will than do things because I force them and then resent me afterwards...

A lot of the time I feel like I need to be the best person I can in the shortest time possible. I guess this could be due in part to the fact that I always get the sense I'm going to die young. For some reason I tend to obsess over this, and if people are going to say "she was such a good person, it's a shame she died so young," I want them to actually mean it and not say it just because that's what you say when someone dies at a "young" age.

Because really, what's the point of lying about someone if they're dead...

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Well, I bought something online today. This wouldn't be a big deal, but there is that little detail of me living in this dorm where the mail service f***ing sucks. (I'm trying to limit my swearing, but you can't deny that it sounds better when you drop the F-bomb next to 'sucks'.... it's the rhyming)

What did I purchase? Why, these boots:


I need some footwear for winter, since I realized that the shoes I currently have are far from waterproof. They are also far from cozily warm. This is not good when it is chilly outside.

When I was looking for boots online, the phrase 'chill, still air' popped into my head, and it reminded me of Edgar Allen Poe's story, The Cask of Amontillado.

It's a pretty decent story, although I don't know what else you could expect from Poe. (He's a favorite in my book :D)

Okay, I'm going to stop being stupid and typing an entry at one in the morning when I have freaking CLASS in like five and a half hours (oh SNAPasaurus rex!).

End!

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Is mainly due to my inability to find something to write about.

Well that's not quite it. I've tried to type something out several times over the past few days, but in my current mood all I can come up with is overly serious babble about life philosophies and such... and none of it is any good.

I don't like writing entries where I just detail the events of the day and include no commentary. It seems boring and impersonal to me... and anyway isn't that what Twitter's for? :P

There are a few things I usually post about:
-Events in my life
-Thoughts/musings
-Something humorous I found and want to share
-Poetry/stories

And I've had nought to speak of, really, as far as any of those go. I just haven't felt like anything was worth sharing...

This amuses me though, and distracts me from missing him for a minute when I watch it...

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My day was somewhat unexciting, but it went well.

I decided to actually learn in my classes today, and I managed to stay awake through both of them...

Ate lunch... they had mozzarella sticks. :0

Napped.

Went and participated in a psychology study, which was quick and easy.

Napped?

Had dinner with Casey and Saeedah. The grilled cheese was really good... (I get it pretty much every day, but it's not usually good :|)

AND THEN... Casey and I decided to have a dance party in her room, so I grabbed my iPod and we danced to my music for three hours, just the two of us. :P It was fun stuff. We also assembled a Halloween costume for her that makes her look mega cool, and turned out the lights and waved around a flashlight and her iTouch for a better dance party effect. It was pretty swell.

In less fun news, still no letters. :/ I should call his parents to see if they've gotten anything, I guess... but I'm kind of afraid to. D: I'll try it tomorrow after Casey and I buy more dance party supplies...

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(Wow, a title that's actually relevant?)

My camera ran out of batteries, and apparently it's more broken now too, so the videos I took have no sound. :/

Anyway, here's the ever lovely EA:


And again!


The acrobatic Captain Maggot, whom Casey proclaimed to now be her soulmate.


And later on in the show, on the other side of the room, the Contessa performed some interesting feats with a... sheet or something.


I think at least one in three people had a camera out at any given moment.


Neat-o!


It was a really great concert. There was a lot of interaction with the audience, and it wasn't boring at all. At various points during the show, they threw cookies at us. Me and Casey both got hit, though unfortunately we weren't able to catch any.

Dancing to Dominant, although you can't hear it because MY CAMERA IS BROKEN.


The lack of sound saddens me. :( Of course, you don't know what you're missing since you weren't there, so it's probably just a minor inconvenience to you guys.


Crazy and wonderful antics, performed ever so gracefully by Captain Maggot.


It took a bit longer to get back than we had hoped, since the E train wasn't available. It's always the E train these days... really inconvenient for us when we have to get back to school, you know. Sure we can take the R, but then we have to transfer to the F at a later point and it's just more trouble... -sigh-

Sixty four more days, guys. :/

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Even though I have a midterm tomorrow and supposedly I should be at least attempting to study.

I just can't focussssss. :/

Yesterday I went to bed at 6 AM and woke up at 9 AM. CRAZY STUFF HUH? Heh.

Had brunch with Casey, and saw Nathan, so I waved at him. Then, because of the state I was in, I ran over to him and asked him if he wanted to hang out. He said alright, so the three of us hopped on a bus and went to the city.

Casey spent about twenty minutes in a comic shop with us, then had to leave for a play she's required to see.

Ummm after that... what did we do... oh, we saw Zombieland in a pretty posh theatre. The tickets were horrifically expensive, but well, it is Manhattan so I dunno what to expect.

It wasn't a bad movie, but it didn't make much of an impression on me in any way. 'Twas a bit gory for my tastes in some parts...

After the movie we walked around, sat and talked for a bit, then ate at some place. He admitted that yes, he does have a crush on me, but no, he won't try to make a move on me. We agreed to just be platonic friends, even though he says long distance relationships very rarely work.

Mm, headed home on the subway, and then went up to his room and ATTEMPTED (key word: ATTEMPTED) to play The Darkness. I failed oh so miserably. Like, I died twice in the first ten minutes. After that I just gave up. I think we talked about some other stuff, but I was getting sleepy so I went back to my room and got ready for bed, ate an orange, and slept.... at 1 AM. (Had to be on the computer for like two hours first... X|)

That sounds bad, but it does prove that I can go to bed five hours earlier without much trouble. Although if you take into account the fact that I had a full day on three hours of sleep..... but we're not.

Hey guys, I have some of those things called "pictures" today.

This is Saeedah's massive bubble of gum.


PANTS AND. Supplying all the pants and nothing you could ever need.


This typo is only made more hilarious by the fact that this is a Catholic school.


Keep off the grass, guys. Even if it's a tiny patch, and it doesn't look like anybody really gives a damn. Hell, the LEAVES aren't staying off the grass, and you'd think they'd be more sympathetic to the grass's plight, being plant brethren and all...


Dunno if you can tell since this picture is a bit blurry, but there's a dude creepily and conspicuously doing some o'er-the-shoulder readin' there.


Penciled rejection.


Annnnnnd that be it I methinks.

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This picture makes me so sad.


I used to watch The Princess Bride all the time when I was younger. Cary Elwes was like, the ultimate Prince Charming dude to me.

AND HE GOT FAT?!?! (And old, but that's beside the point)

Every other day, another piece of my childhood is shattered. Damn you, Reality!

Anyway, enough about things that are not really important to anybody... Actually, this is probably annoying to some people. (Supposedly I should be able to say what I feel like on my own blog, though :P)

I didn't do a whole lot today... Casey showed me the uh... frightening looking hickeys that she acquired last night. This girl sidled up to her in a bar and apparently they had some pretty intense make out sessions. Casey doesn't want to get into a relationship though, since the girl is way too aggressive for her in that respect... and I can totally see where she's coming from. (Yay, we can relate!)

Ehm... waved to Nathan, ate an unfulfilling lunch at the dining hall... later had an equally unfulfilling dinner... (One piece of broccoli + swiss pizza, a banana, and juice, in case you were curious... oh yeah, and of course Cheerios with a dollop of ice cream :3)

Still no letter... But I've gotten along fine for twenty days without him so far, the next... sixty... seven? shouldn't be so bad. (Yes I'm counting... but I count a lot of things)

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I shouldn't be up at 4 AM, but there's no school today or tomorrow and my roommates are both gone. I've been reading webcomics [Out There and Ugly Girl, linked in the KtB module] with lengthy archives and I just don't feel like changing into my pajamas.

I'm not depressed, or happy, or anything, really, right now. Although I guess I ought to be tired... I dunno. I have a few pictures on my camera, I'll post them later.

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Today has been pretty peachy, if I do say so myself. :D

Talked to my new friend again in the library café, then went to my history class and the professor was all "turn in your papers and then you can leave."

Everyone in the class was like "WHAT NO WAY" and she goes "YEAH WAY I AM TOTALLY SERIOUS"

-Much rejoicing-

So yeah, my weekend started like an hour earlier. :P

And uhhhhh three day weekend, woo. Except next week there might be some midterms so that's kind of like, suckage, but you know, you can't win at everything.

Now whatttttt...

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