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Went to read some of my old posts again. I was much more liberal in my usage of exclamation marks, I've noticed.

What else? I've become more serious. Don't know when that happened, exactly. There was a point where I decided to change my life and mode of thought, but as time went on everything drifted and I stopped caring so much and trying to be different than before.

I lost the reason.

There is a little bit of delight in finding something that completely applies to you, but it quickly dissolves into despair when you realize what that means.

I am caught between wanting to be unique (which is a silly goal in itself but one must have something to strive for) and wanting to be able to be related to.

Here again is the battle between my views that will always and can only end in silence and supposed neutrality.

I feel a million different ways at once and hence nothing at all. They cancel each other out and to favor one side would be to trivialize the other's validity. I'm caught in a seemingly eternal loop of wishy-washiness.

I'm tired of seeing these ads made for people who are too lazy to do simple things like buy laundry detergent and dryer sheets separately, but at the same time I know I'm probably just like them.

Won't I buy something to save time when I don't do anything with the time I already have?

Time, there's a thought.

Buy a microwave so you don't have to use the stove.
Buy a dishwasher so you don't have to wash by hand.
Buy a vacuum cleaner so you don't have to sweep.
Buy a TV so you don't have to read.

What will you do with the time you've saved? Do something productive. Why don't you work a few extra hours to pay off all your timesaving devices? Cut back on a little sleep... sleep is a timewaster anyway. Nothing productive gets done when you're lying in bed. You might as well be dead or a rock. Not even a useful kind of rock, but the kind nobody really wants, like the lumpy ones you dig up when you're gardening.

I dislike a lot of things. Love is reserved for special occasions.

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Well, after pancakes with Lucy and Varsha.



I have... twelve more videos or something. XP

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[random stranger] has entered the room.
[Angie]: varsha?
[random stranger]: Who me?
[Me]: new SN?
[Lucy]: hey varsha?
[random stranger]: I'm just a random.....but lets gossip about ZSuttonPhoto. Yes?
[Angie]: um...
[Angie]: who let you in?
[random stranger]: ahaha
[Lucy]: i'm confused
[Me]: wtf
[Angie]: well you did pick a common room name
[Me]: I didn't realize other people could invite themselves to chatrooms?
[Lucy]: nice to meet you new person
[random stranger]: Pancakes is probably the most common room name ever
[Me]: we were actually talking about pancakes
[random stranger]: Ello [Lucy]a
[Lucy]: hello
[random stranger]: Oh snap. Whats everyones fav type of pancake?
[random stranger]: Catch me up to speed
[random stranger]: I have alot to offer
[Angie]: well we did stop talking about pancakes..
[Angie]: but i like banana
[Me]: uh...
[random stranger]: I'm a fan of Blueberry, call it old school, but whatever
[Me]: I don't have a preference...
[Lucy]: butter and jam's good
[Me]: um, but anyway
[Me]: cherry picking
[Angie]: right
[Me]: did you guys want to go?
[Lucy]: sure!
[Me]: I was looking at a list of places
[random stranger]: No, seriously though, a couple hours ago, a few photography friends of mine started a chatroom with the title being 'pancakes', they obviously have since left. I am just late to the party
[Angie]: ah
[Angie]: that's funny
[random stranger]: I'll let you be, take care everyone
[Lucy]: bye!
[Me]: alright... bye
[random stranger] has left the room.
[Me]: that was f*****g weird

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Well, I got a video of some squirrel haps.


(I trimmed it down quite a bit... my Flip was recording for awhile before the squirrel decided to show up)

We're thinking of new obstacles for the squirrel. Any suggestions?

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I made dinner tonight (again). Pesto salmon with Israeli couscous and Caesar salad...

The salad isn't pictured because I'm pretty sure everyone already knows what that looks like.

It actually looks like someone threw up on it, doesn't it? XP It tastes awesome though, I promise.

I saw the Tillamook Loaf Love Tour bus today, but didn't take any pictures, sorry. It's a really cute little VW van, and they gave us a $1 off coupon for cheese. :D

Yesterday I went to visit my favorite high school teacher. He actually recognized me, which made me happy. I was worried he'd say something like "oh hi Erica!" (It's ONLY happened TWO or THREE times before...)

But no, he remembered me. Unfortunately he was busy, so we didn't get to chat much, but it was nice to see him. He had a sort of a buzzcut, and I was afraid to ask about it in case he said something like "oh I have cancer and I had to go through chemotherapy"...

Last night/this morning I hung out with Alice. My mom dropped me off at her house around midnight and we walked around and talked a bit. I stayed until a little after four. New record!

We're kind of worried she'll grow dependent on me. I mean, I'd like to believe that won't happen, but it kind of already is... at least she's got a psychiatrist to talk to as well.

My parents bought a big bag of peanuts, so we've been throwing them outside for the squirrels. Sometimes we hide them under pots and the like to see if they can get them. So far all the peanuts seem to have been found. Fun fun.

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(As I usually am when I'm not just depressed?)



I went ice skating with Alice today, which was not much fun. One of the local high schools was having a fundraiser there, so there were a bunch of people just standing around on the ice and hanging out. I only fell down once, but I was worried the entire time that I'd bump into someone.

We also looked at the furniture/shower setups in a Eurbana, which was cool.

After that we went to Barnes & Noble, where I got a book about interior design (it was on sale!). I didn't know they had a whole section about interior design, but it was an awesome find.

So... I might possibly major in that? I have to research it a bit, but it's definitely something to consider.

---Edit---

Me: would you rather date a girl with no legs or three legs
Dude: three
Me: what if the third one was coming out of her shoulder
Dude: still better then pushing around a wheel chair

Me: okay what if it was just that in the womb she had a twin but they merged in a really weird way so she also has an arm growing out of the back of her knee
Dude: well shed probably be really insecure and let me get in bed with her really early on
Dude: and then i'd cut that fucker off
Dude: id be doing her a favor
Me: gross
Me: you'd get so much blood on your sheets
Dude: my sheets? fuck that, her bed,
Me: I think she'd break up with you
Dude: yeah but in like 3 weeks she'd come back to me when she realizes how great life is without that extra arm
Me: what about the leg growing out of her shoulder?
Me: and that would hurt like a mofo
Dude: id do the same thing
Dude: maybe id drug her or something
Me: boy, you sure are cold hearted
Dude: I WOULD BE HELPING
Me: WITHOUT HER PERMISSION
Dude: only because she doesn;t know any better
Dude: parents do it all the time
Me: that's kind of different
Me: this girl would be like, the same age as you
Dude: but i'm a man so it doesnt matter
Dude: i mean
Dude: wait
Dude: what


Well... after a few amateur surgeries...

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