The title is explained HERE.

Hehehe.

I... hung out with Alice today. We went to the place where she goes horseback riding and saw her horse, then walked around the grounds of the ranch. The smell of horses and horse droppings was strong. Oh so strong. D:

After zat we went to Peet's and got some cold beverages. Yum yum. We enjoyed the air conditioning for awhile then hopped back into her car and drove to her house...

You know, she has a Bop-It Extreme 2. Unfortunately the batteries were pretty close to being dead and it was also very dusty. Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...

Oh but uh, she gave me some of her art, so that was cool. I have to find some wall space for it though. :S Right now my walls are pretty crowded.

Also: Virgil's diet soda = the only diet soda I am willing to drink. No crazy artificial sweeteners! Meaning I am slightly decreasing my chances of getting cancer! How can you argue with a slight decrease?! AND IT'S GOT LIKE NO CALORIES AND I MEAN COME ON WHAT IS NOT TO LOVE. Except if you don't like rootbeer or cream soda, I guess. Then it is just a tragedy.

Lastly, I think I'm going to see my boyfriend this weekend! :3 Alice's family will drive me down south, then I'll stay at a relative's house and we can hang out. Yayyyyyyy. (It's been a couple weeks since I last saw him, and chances are it'll be a long time after that before we can hang out again...)

My mom keeps expressing disapproval at my decision to start another long distance relationship, but whatever. It's my life, and if I want it to be full of misery and suffering, so be it!

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I wonder if you'd ever notice how sad this song is?


I've been going to bed earlier and getting up at the same time. It's not enough. I wish I could stay asleep the entire time, but I guess my body isn't up for that.

Last night I went to bed around 9:30 PM... woke up at two, then went back to sleep until six... eight... ten...

No matter how much I sleep, I just want to stay in bed longer.

I'm not sure if this has happened before. I mean, of course I didn't want to get out of bed, but the longing to return didn't used to plague me all day.

Eh well. I guess wanting to lie in bed is better than wanting to lie in the middle of the street...

I wrote a poem. Shall I share it?

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New bike picture time...



It would stand out more against a lighter background but I didn't really have one available so this is all you get to see.

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Out sniffin' your soul,
Here's a star nosed mole:



Aw yeah.

We bought me a bike today. Neatorama awesome sauce and all that. No pictures because we're not picking it up until tomorrow...

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IM windows, apparently.

I finally caught up with Casey! I can't even tell you how happy I am to talk to her again. If we were hanging out in person I'd totally hug her out of excitement.

She's got a girlfriend now! Eek! I wish I could meet her. Word on the street is that she's awesome.

Man, I miss her so much. Her and New York. I've never been as classy as I was when I was with Casey. XD Maybe I can go visit over Spring Break? It's so far away, but it's better than nothing at all.

Fer realz, guys, Casey is like, my friend equivalent of a soul mate.

Also, some 80% of my Twitter updates are just Tillamook retweeting random praise people give to them. And I love Tillamook and all, but come on. I don't care if Betsy in Oregon is orgasming over birthday cake ice cream. I don't need that stuff spamming my Twitter.

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My tower of daydreams cracked and crumbled earlier today. It's all gone... The only thing I wanted... It used to seem like time was the only obstacle to my ascent but now there's nothing at all... Just a heap of rubble...

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I'm drawing something for my boyfriend... just a page of doodles, but while trying to figure out what to include I ended up drawing one of the girls from Cabaret instead.

She looks a lot friendlier here than in the actual video.

I have to register for classes tomorrow, aaaaaaaah...

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Guys, I don't even know how to explain this.


Honestly, I don't. I was trying to find a Hoss Delgado video and... well, you get the point.

I don't even... I don't... that's it, no more Youtube for me tonight.

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I'll be nineteen...

Every birthday that comes feels unexpected. Not in the "I didn't know this was coming" way, but in the "I didn't think I'd make it" way.

Did I tell you we went to Filoli a while ago? I took pictures but I didn't post them...

First, though:

We got a new screen door. Guess why! (Hint: That is not it.)

Flowers!


And... more flowers!


Alice in Wonderland, anyone?


Moss-eriffic.


Uh... garden stuff.


And a tree. A pretty natural tree, too.


Bigger is better?


More detaillllll.


I really like stairs.


Did I tell you there was this creepy dude who was sorta watching me and taking pictures of everything I took pictures of right after I did? Because there was.


CAN'T GET ENOUGH O' THEM FLOWERS LEMME TELL YA.


I wish I could've gotten a picture of the Love's Promise roses for you. They were really nice. If I have a garden if/when I have my own house, I'm going to put a rosebush in it. Probably. Well, I'd like it, assuming it doesn't take too much maintenance.

I had a dream last night that Alice drove me somewhere and then got out and told me I had to drive myself home. I didn't know how to drive, so I was trying to steer and figure out which pedal was the gas and which was the brake and it was all going awfully so I got out and tried to skateboard or scooter on the road or the grass. There were these other people around my age who were also trying to get somewhere, and I get it turned into a race.

We were on an office building, HP I think, and I was in the lead. I was far ahead of all of them, and I slipped down a rope ladder to a platform near the bottom, then leapt off and onto a trampoline. There were maybe six or five trampolines on the grassy ground, and they were all big ones... I jumped back and forth between a few, bouncing higher into the sky each time. I had to get over to a giant... well, it looked kind of like if you took a wind turbine and laid it flat on the ground. Jumping on the... arms... of that charged them up, and they moved and turned into a large white ring pulsing with electricity. This opened up a safe, in which there appeared to be giant Flaming Hot Cheetos. Apparently there was supposed to be Red Bull in the safe (I guess the Cheetos were the Red Bull), and that was supposed to give me the energy I needed to get home.

I woke up after everyone else caught up to me at the safe, though.

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There's still nothing. Just nothing. And it's all clear, it's not hazy at all, but it's clear nothing and it's confusing and I don't want it...

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