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I knew I was forgetting something
Saturday. 9.12.09 11:48 am
So about a week ago I decided to write down all my bills. Just so I knew how to separate them between paychecks. After doing the math in my head and checking it on a calculator, I came up with having more money left over than I felt I should. I had a feeling I was forgetting something, but looking over my list of bills, I had gotten everything that I wrote down to come out of this paycheck.

Today, however, I happened to glance down at my floor and noticed my NV Energy bill lying there. Shit! The electric. If I didn't pay that, it'd be bad. That was the thing I was forgetting. So I've paid it for this month and I've added it to my list of bills. Now the amount of left over money makes more sense. In other words, I'm still very broke.

Anywho, went and saw "9" last night. It was good. Not great, but worth seeing.

I was so nervous, though. I haven't seen or spoken to Jacob's mother in 4 months. Not since the day I left her house. I went over there last night before the movie and she and his grandmother were both there. It was interesting. She seems to actually like me again; just as Jacob said she did. I don't know how his grandmother feels about me, but she didn't seem to show any dislike towards me. From what I've been told, I'm sure she would have if she didn't.

I don't know when I'll be going over there again. But at least now I know what to expect. I have a feeling it won't be any time this weekend. Which I guess is okay. I planned on being insanely bored over the weekend anyway. I only had the plan for Friday night.

I can't really go shopping until Tuesday because that's when everything seems to go through my bank account when transactions are placed over the weekend. I don't know why it doesn't go through on Monday, but whatever. I really need to go before that, but I don't know exactly how much money I'll have left over until after all the transactions go through.

I guess that's it for the day. I'm bored and broke like there's no tomorrow. And I'm just not feeling up to much today.

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October is when I start my yearly countdown
Wednesday. 9.9.09 3:22 pm
I don't actually have a "yearly countdown," but it just sounded good. I do look forward to October for two reasons {my birthday not being one of them.} One, because that means Halloween candy is out. The odds of finding nifty, creepy, proper Halloween decorations, though, have gotten lower and lower each year. Its still fun to scout.

And two, because that's the month it finally starts to cool down. Or at least we hope so. Sometimes out here it doesn't start to get cool enough to wear a jacket until mid-November. Either way.

Today is the beginning of a very long 3 months. Jacob's grandmother is in town for the next two months to help out at home with Jacob's recovery. After his surgery, he will not be able to be left alone in the house, just in case something were to happen to him. I have no problems going over there every day to help out, but I can't take the time off from work in order to do that.

According to what I've been told, his grandmother is harder to deal with than his mother. And if you've remembered anything I've mentioned about his mother, it's not an easy task dealing with her. She's nice and all, but still.

Our time spent together is going to severely diminish as of today. I'm still going to try for getting to see him once a week. Hopefully his guardians will allow me to be over there more often, as long as he wants me there anyway. I won't just randomly show up.

Gah! A development at work today has managed to aggravate me. They've added more designated carpool parking spaces and it includes the spot that I've been parking in since day frickin one. I now have to park elsewhere. It's such a pain in the ass! Its not even like a whole ton of people at my job carpool. The six spaces they had were more than enough.

I also managed to come very close to getting in trouble today. I took a lot longer than I should have to do one of our patrols ... because I stopped to talk to someone and I lost track of time. I just hope that because this is the first time I've done something like that, they won't care enough to do any kind of video review to see why it actually took me as long as I did. I guess I'll find out tomorrow if/when I get talked to about it.

After sleeping for 6 straight hours yesterday, I'm still awake. I have a feeling it's going to be pretty hard for me to fall asleep tonight. This is one reason I'm thankful for my lack of sleep. The less straight, solid sleep I get, usually, the easier it is for me to fall asleep when I need to. I don't stay asleep for very long, but it still gets me to sleep when I should. Perhaps this weekend I'll stay up all night Saturday just so I'll be able to sleep Sunday before going back to work.

Hmm, my blogs have been getting longer. I wonder why.

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a little tmi, a rant and other things
Sunday. 9.6.09 6:29 pm
I haven't had any kind of alcohol in about a month and I wanted to drink today. So at quarter after 11 this morning, I took my first shot of Jagermeister. After about 10 or so minutes I did this again. And over the course of the following 45 minutes I ended up with 5 shots of Jager in me. Not a lot if you think about it, but enough to definitely make me feel it.

So what's the issue? I had just finished eating a fun size Three Musketeers bar prior to taking shots. I find out the hard way about two hours later that Jager and Three Musketeers don't mix. I don't feel quite as shitty as I normally do when I've sobered up after drinking, but I still don't feel too good.

I'm going to rant, again, about how sick of this place I am, again. Nothing has really triggered it this time, which is odd. Usually something happens and then I want to leave. This time, nothing really, but I still want out.

Have you ever wanted to get away, but there was literally nowhere on Earth you could go that would make you happy? I want to escape to the stars. I want to be up there, out there looking down on the Earth. Looking over at Venus or Mars, depending on which side of the Earth I've managed to escape on. Is it even possible to see Venus or Mars from just outside the Earth? I don't even know, but in my own fantasy world, you can.

Over the last week I've been working as best I could to keep myself calm. Ever since finding out that Jacob will be having his surgery this month, I feel like I've been working overtime to not freak out. The thing is, even if I found out two or three months in advance, I'd still probably be exactly the same way.

I knew this surgery was eventually going to have to happen. And for some reason I don't think I'd ever be ready enough. No matter how much time I had to prepare myself. . . Wait!!!

What the hell am I saying? I'm not the one who's going under the knife. I'm talking like its me! Maybe this is my issue. I don't know. I'm still nervous about it, though, because it's someone who I deeply care about who's going in for a dangerous surgery. If all goes well he'll be healthier than he has been.

We just don't know the exact date yet. All I know is that it's soon.

So yeah. I feel like ish. I want to leave planet Earth. And I'm nervous about Jacob's upcoming surgery.

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I got a nice surprise today
Friday. 9.4.09 11:46 pm
Work was the same as always. The only good thing: it was Friday and there's a long weekend ahead of me. Labor day is Monday and the warehouse is closed so that means no work.

After work, I called up Jacob to see if he wanted company and I ended up going over there. After about an hour or so, I heard something outside. It was either rain or strong winds. Since it was sunny and hot on the way over to his house, I assumed strong winds.

Boy, was I wrong.

It was pouring!!! I don't know where it came from, but it was amazing. We both rushed to put shoes on and went outside to play in the rain. After about 10 minutes of standing in the rain it began to hail! Amazing stuff.

We were out in the rain for a good 15, 20 minutes before going back inside. Our clothes were completely soaked so we threw them in the dryer.

It was nice putting on warm clothes after getting rain-soaked.

Tomorrow I get to see Tim. It'll be the last time for a while. I'll explain later when I have more details. I'm going to tell him in the morning that I'll be seeing him so he can remember to bring the pictures from Germany.

I'm so glad we have a three day weekend. I need a break from work. Even if it is only just an extra day off on the weekend. It's a much needed break.

No big plans for the weekend; just hanging out. But still. I could get some much needed rest.

Damn you cravings! I really want McDonald's right now. Do I have the money for it? Not at all. Am I going to get a sandwich anyway? Possibly. I don't know. Probably not. I'm getting food tomorrow. It can wait 12 more hours ... I hope.

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yeah, I'm bored
Wednesday. 9.2.09 1:34 pm
Wednesday. As if you guys didn't already know that.

Obviously I seem to have a lot to say. Heh.

I suppose I've managed to start a rumor and the two people I've told {in confidence so I guess it's not really a rumor if it's not being spread} have completely agreed with me. There are these two characters at work who appear to be very much in a relationship. And if they're not, then they should be. The way his face lights up when she walks around the corner. The way they interact with each other; how they both are always in laughing, smiling moods around one another. It is pretty cute. They even park next to each other in the parking lot, though they come in and leave at different times from each other. I guess it's just the idea of parking next to the person you like. I can understand that. I did it for months. I still do when the opportunity arises.

I want to run into them in public just so that it can be confirmed. It's the type of situation that even if true, when confronted, it would be denied. Rules are rules and this would be breaking them, but its just so darn cute they way they are around each other. I wasn't the only one who noticed. I was just the only one who came out and said something.

Gotta love work drama. No matter where you go, you won't be able to avoid it.

Anywho, I'm so glad that I can eat normally again. Stuffing my face with a sandwich from Jack-in-the-Box this morning was wonderful. I was also starving so it was gone in a matter of about 5 minutes. I bought three and ate two this morning. I'm saving the other one for tomorrow's lunch. I dunno what I'm going to do for lunch on Friday.

Alright, I'm pretty tired. I think I'm going to nap. Or play a video game. Either way.

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and so it begins again
Sunday. 8.30.09 7:32 pm
The only benefit to having a job like this is that it's routine. The money is the biggest reason anyone has a job, but the routine of it gets me out of my house on a regular basis. Otherwise, I'm pretty sure I'd end up as a semi-hermit. I only say "semi" because I do tend to leave my house on weekends. But during the week, I only really go to and from work.

Monday is always the hardest day of the week. Or just the day in which you happen to go back to work after more than a day off. For example, next week Tuesday will be hard for me because I'll have just finished a three day weekend {due to the building being closed for Labor Day.}

Anywho, I can eat actual food again. The blister is still there and it's really sensitive to hot foods, flavor-wise. I ate some buffalo wings from Wendy's last night {really good, btw} and every time the sauce hit my blister it stung. Same thing with the flaming hot Cheetos. Either way, I'm happy that I can eat normally again.

There is a catch ... I can't afford to buy anything. I really, really don't like using my credit card {especially since I only have a few hundred left, total} but in this type of situation, that's all I have. As soon as Blockbuster takes out their money for the month, my bank account will be negative and there's really nothing I can do about it right now.

I'm trying to think of something that I can buy that I can cook that will last me the whole two weeks until I get paid again. Nothing is really coming to mind. Besides maybe spaghetti salad ... I might have to make that. One pound of cooked spaghetti should be able to last a single person two weeks, shouldn't it?

I really want Carl's Jr. I just want their jalapeno chicken sandwich and some chili cheese fries ... maybe for my birthday ... if I have the money. I'll probably just settle for the cake. Something no person should be without on their birthday.

Uhm, so yeah. It's almost quarter till 8 right now. I should probably sleep. My alarm is set for 2am.

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