Sunday. 4.1.07 3:13 am
I went to my childrens performance tonight. It was a good show. I am just glad t
that I didnt have to run into people that I did NOT want to talk to. You know how
that goes. Well, anyway their father was the MC for some parts of the show and he
gladly says.. "this is my oldest son Josh" and then when Jake goes on he says, "this
is my younger son Jake" Then when Jordan has to sing a verse by herself he does
not say that his daughter is singing. That bothered me. Why not recognize
of our children?
Well, your fat ass doesnt support any of them so I guess what is the difference?
It makes a difference to me because I dont play favorites. A father should always
feelmore for their daughter because she will be loving and caring.
Well, he is screwing himself over. Growing up, thanks to my mother, I have learned
that negligence is the number one sin!
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What the heck am I taking
Saturday. 3.31.07 3:17 am
Ok I trust the doctor like most patients and I just go to the pharmacy to fill the prescription. Just the other day I noticed that I get really loopy or silly when I take them and I am awake. So, I took the meds the night before and went to bed. (as prescribed). Then I dropped my son off at school and noticed that I had no more gas. I went to the gas station and was concerned about the pain in my back and leg... sat down, started the car and procedeed to drive home.
I heard this loud sound and discovered that I forgot to put the pump back. The hose ripped out of the pump thing and was laying on the ground.
I told the attendant "hello.... the thing is on the ground. Uh, excuse me. The thing
came out and it is on the ground... just put it back in. " I proceeded to put it back
and the guy said, "no you cant. It is broken. You need to fill out a report and pay
$100 minimum. I told him, What? Just put it back. you see that hole right there
just put it back in. That doesnt cost a hundred dollars. I cant reach it but you can.
He said no you broke it. The paper work said to provided my car insurance info. For
what? I didnt hit anyone..so i proceeded to give my insurance info and so I gave
him my expired car info. I didnt think it mattered because you know, for what?
I just looked up the info on the net and found out this about the muscle relaxer...
What is Soma?
Soma is a muscle relaxer that works by blocking pain sensations between the nerves and the brain.
Soma is used together with rest and physical therapy to treat injuries and other painful musculoskeletal conditions.
OK, I UNDERSTAND, THAT BLOCKING SENSATION MADE ME FORGET TO TAKE THE THING OUT OF THE GAS TANK.
You may have withdrawal symptoms
when you stop using Soma after using it over a long period of time. Do not stop using this medication suddenly without first talking to your doctor. You may need to use less and less before you stop the medication completely. Soma can cause side effects that may impair your thinking or reactions
WHAT?? WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOMS!!! I AM A DRUGGIE!! LORD HELP ME! SIDE EFFECTS MAY IMPAIR MY THINKING OR REACTION? NO NOT MAY HONEY! DOES IS THE WORD.
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Friday. 3.30.07 9:42 pm
Today is friday and my daughter stayed home from school to spend time with me and help me. It meant a lot to me because after the surgery I will not be able to walk around or move. They said I will need assistance during the first 24 hours after surgery. That is a pretty long time.
The marvelous part about post surgery is keeping the sutures dry! How will I shower when my lower back is the part that gets wet ALL the time. The technician said, "oh there is this band aid thing that the doctor can put on to help keep them dry but you just cant go into the pool or anything... but I don't think he is going to use that procedure on you." Me
- "What!? Why not?"Him
- "Because they may not have the materials at that facility that he needs." Me
I also got to laugh and sit through "BLADES OF STEEL". It was entertaining. I laughed. I had fun. It was good to be laughing with my daughter. It was such a marvelous day.....
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Friday. 3.30.07 3:39 am
You know how when someone does something bad to you, you try to forgive them. But when they do it over and over again you just get so pissed. Well, I had a friend like that and I told her, "you are really pushing me to the limit and if you dont stop now, you may just lose me as a friend." I mean I was really understanding, patient and forgiving but she was being a persistant ASS. She pushed me so far that I try to avoid places that I know she will be and also I have not talked to her in over 4 years.
Just the other day I get phone call saying that she was in the hospital because she had a heart attack. I could not feel any remorse for her. The things she did to me were beyond unforgiveable. One of them was pulling out a gun and telling me if I turn around and walk out the door she would shoot me or herself. What a psycho, nut job!
I was brave enough at the time to turn around and walk out. I did not want any part of this psycho trip. She use to do drugs so I dont know if there was any brain damage done. What am I saying?? That behavior was NOT normal.
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Thursday. 3.29.07 2:36 am
First of all, thank you to everyone for your kind words on my last blog. I greatly appreciate it.
I saw the back surgeon today. He is the one that is going to perform the surgery. I was a little nervous but he was very nice. He gave me three options... 1. Live with the pain for the rest of my life. 2. get a shot in my back then when it wears off either get another shot or live with the pain. and 3. surgery.
Well with these options which would you pick. The surgery is only going to take one and a half hours and I will get to come home. I was like what did you say? I am going to be an out patient? In a way that is good. I just go in, he makes a little incision in my back and pulls that piece out. He said I should start feeling 100% better within 24 hours. That is amazing!
Surgery is scheduled for next week monday. Somehow I am feeling guilty about not being at work. Why do I feel this way? I should not feel responsible for my job right now and I should be concerned about my health. What is wrong with me?
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Tuesday. 3.27.07 5:31 pm
I went to the orthepedic surgeon today. He took a look at my x-rays and it was not good news. I have a large pertruding disc in my lower back that is pressing on the nerves. Normal to average disc problems are a slipped disc, herinated disc or ruptured disc. My problem is a large disc that is protruding into the nerve.
So what is the end result? SURGERY.
I called a family meeting tonight. Being a single mother I need to talk to my children about taking care of the home while I am in the hospital. My oldest son needs to be in charge and everyone has to do their part. I am really sad right now because I think I am more affraid than anything. I have NEVER had surgery before so I dont know what to expect. I am young and I am sure that I will make it through the procedure. I just worry about my children and my home while I am gone.
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I got kicked out TWICE in the same night
Monday. 3.26.07 3:54 am
I went out tonight and had a great time. Now it was time to eat!! Other than dessert, dinner is the best time of the night. I know! Get a life! So anyway... My bff and my daughter and I go to Lucky Strike. It is a nice restaurant with some bowling lanes and good food. We walk up and the guy says that after 7pm you need to be 21 to get in. I got rejected and turned out!
So we now decide to go downstairs to PF Changs. They have good chinese-american food; nice ambiance and linen. So we all order tea and get our own teapot. It was really nice. We order our food then this loud siren goes off and lights are flashing. No, we did NOT win a prize. That was the fire alarm. We thought that maybe someone didnt want to pay their bill so that pulled the alarm.
Shortly after that, the manager comes over and tells us that there was a fire in the kitchen and they cannot cook anything else for the rest of the night. So sorry for us... we will have to leave. WHAT?? We are getting kicked out again!? This is the second time in the same night. Now where are we going to eat? Maybe someone was trying to tell us something!? We were lucky enough to get 10 each to come back on another night and we did not have to pay for the tea.
I have been rejected before but not twice in the same night! ha ha! That was just too much. We ended up at a Yakitori place and we had nice meal. Everything turned out just fine!
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Sunday. 3.25.07 5:38 pm
A TRUE STORY...
She had a rough childhood
She survived starvation, neglect and lack of affection.
These things made her resilient to rejection.
Her fears became her strengths.
As she aged, lonliness set in. However she was never fearful of it.
Living each day as if it were her last, never fearing death.
Times passes on and she is feeling abandonned once again.
Told by someone who is suppose to love her, "No knight in shinning armor is going to come and save you!"
She waited and waited until she believed the previous statement to be true.
Then like a character in a story she sees him. He is strong, brave, kind and caring.
Could he be the knight she was searching for?
He falls for her, as they do in fairy tales...
As years pass by... I finally get to tell him,
"I thought I was going to die, never finding you."
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