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Monday. 6.21.10 6:12 pm
Disclaimer: This entry will be about woman stuff. It's not bad or anything, but you can't say I didn't warn you.

I went to the gynecologist for the first time today. Technically I should have gone and seen one at least a few years ago, but I never had insurance or money. They say you're supposed to see one within three years of becoming sexually active or when you turn 21, whichever comes first. Well, I just kept putting it off.

It was definitely a different experience. Nothing bad. Just different. I already knew what to expect because I'd heard stories and read up on what would be happening during the procedure. I was there for an hour, but the exam itself was only maybe 15 minutes. Most of that time was just waiting and filling out the ever-annoying first time patient paperwork.

I think what helped make it a more comfortable experience was the fact that I already knew who this doctor was. He was my sister's OB/GYN and the doctor who delivered her baby. I'd been referred to this guy by her and her friend so I knew that I was going to be dealing with a good doctor. And he was. He explained everything and I already knew that he was friendly and a nice guy.

However, I am glad that I only have to deal with going to a gynecologist once a year. Even though it's a short process, I still don't like doctors.

Right now I'm just waiting on the bill from the doctor's office and the results of my PAP test. He said that everything looked normal and he didn't see any kind of abnormalities so I really shouldn't have anything to worry about.

He also told me some good news. Due to the fact that breast cancer does not run in my family, I shouldn't have to worry about getting a mammogram until I'm 40. So that's definitely a good thing. I still need to check every month, but as long as nothing suspicious pops up, then I should be good.

I think another thing that also made the experience easier was the simple fact that I'm nearing 24, I'm a grown woman and this is something that I have to accept as a part of life. It was a little weird getting naked in the room and wearing just a gown during the exam, but hey, that's just something else I have to deal with. It's not like he can exam my lady parts with my clothes still on.

This really isn't for anyone but myself. I just kind of wanted a record of it for the future. It'll be fun looking back and reading about my first GYN experience.

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huh ... this could go either way. it's entirely 50/50 {message for PW}
Wednesday. 6.16.10 9:27 pm
Be it extremely emotional, controversial, messed up, or whatever, this entry has been password protected.

If you know it, enter it; or, ask me for it.

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day four (EDIT}
Sunday. 6.13.10 3:26 pm
Objective failed.

Oh well. I made it through three days without texting anyone unless prompted.

But I gave in today and sent a couple texts. Did I receive a response? No, of course not. This is exactly why I need to not text people. I don't like being ignored. I'd rather wait until they're available to talk and let me know that by texting me. I'm always available to text back so it's not like they'd have to wait for a response from me.

I saw Splice last night. It was weird. Not bad; just weird.

I go back to work tonight. Fuck work.

I can feel myself starting to go back into that state of depression where I just want to shut the world out. I probably shouldn't let it get to that point, but that's the thing with depression. You just don't care.

I think I made a mistake last night. I guess time will tell how big of a mistake it was.

Things have just taken a turn for the strange ... possibly the better, but right now it's just very unexpected. More on this development once I get things a little more figured out and can word everything correctly. So be patient Nutangers ... it could be a little while before I update again.

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day three
Saturday. 6.12.10 8:28 pm
Resisting temptation has gotten a tad harder. Especially since I want to ask a bunch of my friends whether I should go see Splice or Get Him to the Greek tonight. Oh well. I want to see both, but I'm leaning more towards Splice at this point. I wasn't in the mood to watch horror earlier, but now that I've thought about it, I don't remember the last time I saw a horror movie in theaters. The idea of a human/animal hybrid that terrorizes people ... kind of tempting at this point.

Besides, if the movie is too scary for me to handle, I can always come home and watch Planet 51 to get the frightening images out of my head before sleeping lol.

Last night was interesting. I ended up seeing Jacob after a two week separation. He wanted to go look at the stars, but didn't want to go alone. I didn't mind as long as he drove. It was nice to momentarily get away from the city. The wind made it cool out and we layed on the back of his car for about half an hour just looking up at the sky. When we started hearing noises, kinda like someone was walking out of their house to see who was parked in the street, we got back in the car and left. It's got residentials, but it's far enough outside the city that it blocks enough of the light to allow people to stand outside and see the stars clearly. It was nice seeing him too. I was missing him.

I can only imagine how much clearer the sky would be if I were literally in the middle of nowhere, with no sign of lights anywhere around. See, out in Calico Basin, there's a good view of the sky, but one half of it is still obscured by the city lights over on the other side of the mountains. I don't think there's anywhere out here that you can go without having some sort of lights being in the way. Las Vegas is a very bright city and it's almost sad just how bright it is. When you're driving back to Vegas, whether you're coming from the north or the south, you can definitely tell, even 50+ miles out, that you're closing in on the city. Oh well.

Maybe in Washington there'll be places where I can go look at the stars and be completely away from lights. The only problem I might encounter ... it rains a lot in that state so the odds of the sky being clear enough for me to see the stars might be an issue.

Anywho, I have a few more hours before I have to be anywhere. Maybe I'll attempt at napping for a couple of those hours. Or I might end up going back on to Kongregate and playing more games. Until tomorrow ...

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day two
Friday. 6.11.10 8:52 pm
Today was, in fact, harder than yesterday. I responded to a few texts, but I didn't initiate anything.

The day isn't over yet, but it's pretty damn close. I'll probably be heading to bed in the next couple hours. Boredom will overtake me and I'll be able to sleep for at least a few hours.

I told one of my coworkers about my plan to not initiate any conversations, except I didn't word it like that. Before correcting myself, I just said that I wasn't going to text anyone. So he took my phone number from one of my other coworkers and told me that he was going to blow up my phone until I answered him. So far, I've only gotten one text so I really don't think I have anything to worry about. One text is easy enough to ignore. Especially if I'm trying to prove a point.

Anywho, I've got a couple movie to watch. Don't think I'll get to them tonight, but I've got two more days to occupy.

We shall see how they go.

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some thanks & a new task for myself
Thursday. 6.10.10 3:30 pm
First of all I wanted to thank Zanzibar, The-Muffin-Man, randomjunk and fakebil for your very helpful advice in my last entry. I don't know if this weekend I'll be buying those books from Barnes & Noble, but I have College Board on my bookmarks so that I can do at least the SAT question of the day. They also have a practice test and other questions that I can work on besides just the one on the day.

My task is temporary and has nothing to do with the SAT or colleges of any kind, but it's something that I want to test myself on. I'm trying to kick a bad habit as well as putting towards what I'm supposed to be avoiding.

Day One:

I decided while I was at work, that I wasn't going to text anyone for 4 days. Starting today, through Sunday. I'm not going to be initiating any kind of texting conversations. If someone texts me, I'll decide then whether I'm going to answer or not. My sister is the exception. We text each other things when we don't feel like actually getting up to vocally ask what we want to ask the other one.

But anyone else? No. Number 1: I want to see if I can do it. I don't think I've gone that many days without and I think it'd be a good challenge for me. Number 2: Simply not getting any text messages from Jacob is better in the long run, emotionally, than sending him a text to try and initiate conversation and be ignored. Number 3: I want this weekend to focus on other things besides how much I feel I need to be around my phone. Pretty much anything counts ... I know I'll be watching Hulu at least a few times this weekend.

So yeah. This is day one. I've not sent any text yet today to start up a conversation. I responded to one text from a friend, but that's it. The first day will be easy. Tomorrow will be almost as easy, but just a little harder in the evening. Saturday and Sunday when I don't have even just the 8 hours from work to distract me, is when I'll really be putting myself to the test. I tried to go a whole week, starting on a Monday and I think I got in as far as Tuesday ... I either wasn't trying very hard or I just gave up because of the flow of incoming texts. I can't remember why I did't succeed in going from Monday to Friday. Oh well. That was then; this is now.

Wish me luck ...

And I'm glad that I have Nutang. It's helping me keep myself occupied while trying not to go out of my mind. As crazy as the SB can get at times, this website really does help me keep my sanity ... on a less insane level ...

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