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You move forward, I move backward
and together we make nothing at all
A few words
"When we describe the Moon as dead, we are describing the deadness in ourselves. When we find space so hideously void, we are describing our own unbearable emptiness."
~ D.H. Lawrence

"Is the meaning of life defined by its duration? Or does life have a purpose so large that it doesn't have to be prolonged at any cost to preserve its meaning?"

"Living is not good, but living well. The wise man, therefore, lives as well as he should, not as long as he can... He will always think of life in terms of quality not quantity... Dying early or late is of no relevance, dying well or ill is... even if it is true that while there is life there is hope, life is not to be bought at any cost."
~ Seneca

"People will tell you nothing matters, the whole world's about to end soon anyway. Those people are looking at life the wrong way. I mean, things don't need to last forever to be perfect."
~ Daydream Nation

"All Bette's stories have happy endings. That's because she knows where to stop. She's realized the real problem with stories-- if you keep them going long enough, they always end in death."
~ The Sandman: Preludes & Nocturnes

"The road now stretched across open country, and it occurred to me - not by way of protest, not as a symbol, or anything like that, but merely as a novel experience - that since I had disregarded all laws of humanity, I might as well disregard the rules of traffic. So I crossed to the left side of the highway and checked the feeling, and the feeling was good. It was a pleasant diaphragmal melting, with elements of diffused tactility, all this enhanced by the thought that nothing could be nearer to the elimination of basic physical laws than deliberately driving on the wrong site of the road."
~ Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita

“It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend.”
~ William Blake
TICoSME
Musicalities!
Online Radio
Soma.fm

More Fun Shtuff
Newgrounds Audio Portal
Pandora
SoundClick
Kill that boredom!
Binder Paper Comics

Web Comics and Such
A Distant Soil (Some nudity)
The Adventures of Gyno-Star (Some explicit stuff)
Aquapunk
Axe Cop
Basic Instructions
Bear Nuts
Beeserker

Blue Milk Special
Bobbins
Broodhollow
Bug
Buttersafe
Camp Weedonwantcha
Chainsawsuit
ChannelATE
Cigarro & Cerveja
Conspiracy Friends!
Crunchy Bunches

Curia Regis
Cyanide and Happiness
dead winter (has some explicit stuff)
Devilbear: The Grimoires of Bearalzebub (PG-13?)
Diesel Sweeties
Distillum
DUBBLEBABY
Dumm Comics
Eat That Toast!
Ectopiary (Some nudity)
E-merl.com
The End
Evil Diva
Evil Inc.
Existential Comics
The Fancy Adventures of Jack Cannon
For Lack of a Better Comic
Forming (Explicit)

Girls with Slingshots (some explicit stuff...?)
Mirror
Hark! A Vagrant
Head Doctor Productions
Hollow Mountain
IDK Comics
Inscribing Ardi
The Intrepid Girlbot
JBabb Comics
The Last Halloween
Last Train to Old Town
L.A.W.L.S.
The League of Evil Genius

Legend of Bill
Living With Insanity (some nudity)
Love Me Nice
Married to the Sea
Meaty Yogurt
Medium Large
The Meek
Metacarpolis
Monsterhood
Monsterkind
The Moon Prince
Moon Town
Moth (Some nudity)
Mr. Lovenstein
Muddlers Beat

Natalie Dee
Nedroid
The Non-Adventures of Wonderella
Optipess
Out There
Owen's Uncles
Phuzzy Comics
P.I. Jane
Political Cartoonists Index
Poorly Drawn Lines
Powernap
The Property of Hate
Red Meat
Rice Boy
Robbie and Bobby
Rosscott, Inc.
Safely Endangered
Saturday Morning Breakfast Cereal
Savage Chickens
Scenes from a Multiverse
The Secret Knots
Serenity Rose
Stand Still. Stay Silent
Stinking Hellebore
Strong Female Protagonist
Subnormality
The Super Fogeys
Tales of Pylea
Three Word Phrase (some nudity)
Tiny Kitten Teeth
Toothpaste for Dinner
Trying Human (Some nudity)
Two Guys and Guy
Mirror

Witchy
xkcd
Yellow Peril (PG-13)

Infrequently/No Longer Updating Web Comics
The Abominable Charles Christopher
The Adventures of Dr. McNinja
The Adventures of Ellie Connelly
American Hell
Bag of Toast
Bear in Mind
Bobwhite
The Book of Biff
Brat-halla
Brightest
Bullfinch
Chain Bear (Some explicit stuff)
Daisy is Dead
Dream Life
Edemia
Edmund Finney's Quest to Find the Meaning of Life
A Fine Example
Finn and Charlie are HITCHED
Floodmud
Freaks!

Green Wake
Gun Show
Hello with Cheese
Helpful Figures
Intragalactic
Kyle & Atticus
Lesbian Pirates from Outer Space
Letters to a Wild Boar
Lovecraft is Missing

Manta-man
Meat and Plastic
Minimalism Sucks
Mis-
Moe
The Nerds of Paradise
Nimona
No Reason Comics
Odd-Fish
One Swoop Fell
Patches
Pictures for Sad Children
Raymondo Person
A Redtail's Dream

Riotfish
Roy's Boys (PG 13?)
Run Freak Run
Saint's Way
Shortpacked!
Sin Titulo
Snowflakes
Split Lip
Spooky Doofus
SubCulture
Super Buzzkill
The Super Gay Adventures of Ross Boston
Thermohalia
Troubletown
Ugly Girl
YU + ME
2815 Monument

Pure Flash Awesomeness
Aardvardkbutter.com
Angry Alien
Die Anstalt : Toy Psychiatry
The Frown
Hoogerbrugge

Other
Bogleech
Clients from Hell
Brian Despain
Creatures in My Head
Damn You Auto Correct!
Jhonen Vasquez's site
Overheard in New York
Passive Aggressive Notes
Submarinechannel.com
Superdickery
UHpinions
Whirled
Looky here
free counters
Silent devotion [2P]
Wednesday, October 25, 2017
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Hate/love
Tuesday, October 24, 2017
I heard once that you could only hate someone as much as you loved them. I don't think that's true, but I think you can only hate someone as much as they are important to you. Similarly, you can only love someone as much as they are important to you.

In my personal life, though, I knew when I'd never really loved someone if I couldn't hate them after they were gone.

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Trial period [_]
Monday, October 23, 2017
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Words [DP]
Sunday, October 22, 2017
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Calmer day...
Friday, October 20, 2017
I forgot to note that I got back to the gym yesterday. Managed to run a mile, slowly and rather uncomfortably (chest hurt-- I'm not completely better yet), and walk half, then do Turbo Kick. Tried out some new weighted gloves that I got, and they worked well. I need to adjust to my new shoes, though. They're significantly more comfortable in the toe area but the way I run and my general standing/walking positions aren't adapted to these shoes, and I felt it.

Was hoping I might get to talk more today to the person I reached out to last night, but it's getting late and I need to go to bed. He said he had been working on some music he wanted to show me, so I'm looking forward to that.

Speaking of reaching out, James (Fro's friend) messaged me tonight saying that he thought we were talking at the party last weekend and got cut off, so we talked for a bit and now I have partial plans to see Rocky Horror Picture Show with him next weekend. Just need to talk to Fro to see if she's going that night, so we can coordinate...

Having been talking more regularly with Kyle recently and it's been nice.


It hasn't always felt like I can talk to people I would otherwise consider close friends lately, so I'm grateful to have him.

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Reaching out [4P]
Thursday, October 19, 2017
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BFF
Wednesday, October 18, 2017
I think Kyle might be the only person outside my family who I finally trust to not abandon me because of my depression.

(Thank you)

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IYAHTWIWTB
Wednesday, October 18, 2017
The lyrics of this song swim around my thoughts often.

"See Spaces (Dreamtrak Diamond Sound Remix" by TEETH.


I guess it's that time of year where I get to struggle to resist giving into self-destructive thoughts and urges. It sometimes helps if I have someone around I can talk to in person about stuff, e.g. a therapist or close friend, but neither of those options are particularly available to me right now. I know I'm spending too much time alone, but it's hard enough to get dressed some days, let alone coordinate with people to try to hang out.

Even though I know it will end, and that nothing lasts forever, good or bad, in the moment, it feels endless and inescapable. It feels like this is all there is and this is all there will ever be, and anything else is just a fluke, an error in the code, a typo in the story of my life.

Guess it's hitting me harder this year than some of the past years. Could be lack of exercise/in person socialization. I took my vitamins (including extra iron) today, drank some water, ate some food, maybe slept an okay amount, and got sun. It could also just be the accumulated weight of various unresolved issues in my life, though. I'm not exactly having an existential crisis, but I feel like I'm at the point where I would be if I were letting myself think too much about it.

I miss Pictures for Sad Children.

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