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*yawn* ugh, why am I so tired?
Monday. 8.16.10 3:06 pm
So my exercising has gotten off to a late start ... meaning I haven't done anything yet. I walked a patrol at work; the one that takes 45 minutes to do and involves stairs, but somehow that doesn't seem to be enough. I was supposed to come home and get on the Wii Fit today, but I was tired so I layed down. Instead of forcing myself to stay awake and do the necessary exercising I need to be doing. Jacob exercises at night when he gets home from work because the house is quiet and it gives me the time to sleep before work. Maybe I should just start going to bed earlier and wake up when he gets home so that I can exercise with him.

I need to stop sleeping so much in general. This past weekend I got more than enough sleep to last me the whole week. I just don't seem to understand why I'm suddenly so tired. So that's it. I'm here right now to say that I'm going to stop napping when I get home from work. Naps are good on the weekends to help replenish so that I can stay awake later into the night, but starting next week when my schedule changes at work, I won't be able to nap. I'll be getting home too late in the day; it'll feel weird laying down at 3:30, 4:00 in the afternoon. So today was the last day I'll be napping when I get home from work. Except maybe this coming Friday, but that's part of the weekend and it'll be aiding in me staying awake later.

Tomorrow I start my exercise routine. My goal? Lose the ten pounds that I've gained over the last two weeks or so, by the time I leave for Washington. So that gives me about a month and a half. If I happen to lose anymore, then so be it. An extra 5 or 10 pounds won't do me any harm. I keep joking saying that I'll lose weight just from shivering once I'm up in WA.

Anywho, I need to shower so that my hair will be dry before I need to sleep. I'll be finishing 3rd Degree tonight. Maybe I'll start on the fourth. Maybe not. It all depends on when I sit down to read and how long it takes me to finish.

Until next time NuTang. . .

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hypocritical me
Tuesday. 8.10.10 5:07 pm
As I sit here and contemplate what I should do in the way of exercising so that I can lose my slowly growing midsection, I am indulging in a pint of Ben & Jerry's Chocolate Fudge Brownie ...

I've decided that I'm going to start working on this starting Sunday. This way I can start at the beginning of the week and make sure to work on keeping myself motivated through the entire week. If I were to start tomorrow, it's already halfway through the week and I've already blown it by eating a bunch of junk food. For now, I'm going to eat my ice cream and once it's done, it's done. I'll be doing what I can to avoid buying any kind of junk food.

Simply eating healthier doesn't entirely do the trick. Sure, it'll help build up my immune system, but as far as losing pounds? Exercising is what does it best. In Tucson, I still ate all kinds of junk food, but maintained a steady weight of about 133. I was walking everywhere that I needed to go. Probably not even half a mile a day, but I was still walking every day. I was drinking a lot more water and also working in an environment that kept me on my feet and moving constantly, helped.

If I had the money, I'd join a gym again. But unfortunately I need to save up whatever money I can so that I can get to WA. In the meantime, I'll be working on the Wii Fit, attempting to do the P90X with Jacob and I'll be motivating myself to do some walking at a nearby park. I'll probably drive to the park, but still. Once I'm there and get into a nice pattern, it should help.

This pint of ice cream is really good, by the way.

In other news, I'm coming close to finishing the second book in the James Patterson series that I'm reading: 2nd Chance. This way I can start on the third one: 3rd Degree. It's a good series. I really do enjoy reading, I just don't do it near as often as I used to. Perhaps in Washington on the really stormy, rainy days, I'll be able to catch up on books I've lost out on.

Alrighty, I'm going to finish this pint before it melts. Once I'm done with it, though, I will start my "scarce junk food" plan ... minimizing chocolate intake, as well as pizza/fast food/ other unhealthy items. More fruits and veggies. As well as healthier sandwiches and snacks. I heard graham crackers were actually really good as far as being healthy. Perhaps I'll check into that.

Until next time NuTang. . .

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small changes
Sunday. 8.8.10 3:17 pm
After two years of working at this place, I am finally getting the shift that I want. Go figure that it's a month and a half before I plan on leaving. This will start on the 19th of this month. Instead of working 3am-11:30am, I will be working 6:30am-3:00pm. It'll be nice because I won't have to wake up until 5:15am instead of 1:30am and in the afternoon, I'll still have time to do things. The only downfall is that I'll only be seeing Jacob at night. We won't have those couple hours in the afternoon between the time I get home from work and the time he goes to work. It'll be something to get used to, but it'll work out.

I don't have a definite date set yet, but I will most definitely be going up to Washington in September. It'll most likely be more towards the end of September, but I will be in Washington before my birthday. I really wish I could go up there now, but it just can't happen.

I honestly wish that my job would fire me. I can't collect unemployment if I quit. The way we're treated is completely unfair and none of us deserve it, but there's nothing that we can say to have it changed. But they won't fire any of us unless we really fuck up because they don't want to have to pay us unemployment. They'll just keep treating us like shit until we're forced to quit. Now, I will be quitting, but it'll be when I'm ready to leave. Between now and then, I'll need to keep having the income.

Other than my shift changing and September not coming soon enough, not much else has happened.

Until next time NuTang. . .

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I'm adding one more to my 100
Friday. 8.6.10 5:50 pm
Number 101: I get very cranky when I'm too tired.

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stepping up to the challenge: 100 random facts about myself
Tuesday. 8.3.10 5:52 pm
Thanks to dilated there seems to be a trend. And due to the fact that I've been tagged by randomjunk I felt I should step up to the challenge. . . as well as being a part of the crowd at the same time.

1. I'm competitive by nature, but my laziness tends to get in the way sometimes.

2. Instead of a dictionary, I now use Google to find words that I don't know how to spell.

3. I started NuTang because physically writing about how much my life sucked at the age of 18 wasn't enough for me.

4. Until I started receiving direct deposit, I always hated using my debit card.

5. I just realized this is probably going to take longer than I thought.

6. I do believe I have found the love of my life. Even with all the problems we've had in the past, I don't have to question why I love him.

7. I'm more excited and more scared about moving to Washington State than I ever have been about any other move I've made. Including the one when I was 18, moved on my own to a place I had never been to to live with a person I had never met.

8. I describe moving as a bad habit. I know that I should stop and eventually I will, but right now I just can't.

9. As much as I love to read, I seem to focus my attention more on the computer.

10. I love the Twilight novels; I own all four of them.

11. I refuse to see the Twilight movies simply because the actors they chose piss me off.

12. I have major trust issues.

13. Even though I was never very close to my mom or sister, it makes me sad to know that they're not involved in my life the way they were a few years ago.

14. I'd wanted tattoos since I was 8. I have three and I plan on getting many more.

15. My father died when I was 8. After 15 years, the memories are getting harder to hold on to.

16. I absolutely, without a doubt, love the rain.

17. I have the best blanket in the world ... but it wasn't mine to begin with.

18. I prefer dogs to cats. I'll only put up with cats if I have to.

19. Every time I think about my current job, I get a nasty taste in my mouth.

20. I'm afraid of failure.

21. Even though I try not to, I like to brag about accomplishments in my life.

22. My dream car is a Mini Cooper S. Don't ask me what the specs are ... I'm not that car smart.

23. I like to tell people when my birthday is about a month in advance and then don't say anything at all the day of just to see how many people remember.

24. Since I can remember, I've never been a fan of my birthday.

25. I still have nightmares. Most of them end with me suffocating in the dark. I'll be startled awake from not being able to breathe.

26. I like how the sound of someone hitting the backspace button is very distinguishable.

27. I have an intense fascination for scars. Even though I don't like how he got them, I love that my boyfriend has two major ones.

28. I don't think I have ADD or ADHD, but I have a tendency of becoming very interested in something {ie: learning Japanese, playing certain games} and then losing interest just as quickly.

29. I have a minor case of OCD. Certain things just need to be in certain places.

30. My favorite color has been black since the age of 4. My mom told me that was the first year I was allowed to pick out my own Christmas dress and I picked out a black velvet dress.

31. Jacob is the reason why I like sushi.

32. Most older siblings want to be married and have children before their younger ones. I've wholly accepted that my younger sister will have both before me. She already has a child.

33. I don't ever want children. There's about a 1% chance that I'll change my mind, but I honestly doubt it.

34. I'm a self-proclaimed adrenaline junkie, though I really don't do much to give myself that fix.

35. I've always loved roller coasters. The bigger the better.

36. My favorite part about myself is my eyes. What makes that ironic is that I'm inching closer and closer to becoming blind.

37. When people ask me what I see when I take off my glasses, I compare it to looking at a very out-of-focus picture.

38. I've been to the Atlantic Ocean and the Gulf of Mexico, but never the Pacific. That will soon change.

39. I'm not afraid to tell people how much I weigh.

40. With each new job I have {I've only had three, by the way} I seem to dislike them more and more. For once I would like to have a job that I actually enjoy. One where I don't mind going.

41. I have this thing against even numbers. I'm not sure what it is, but when I eat cookies or am told to pick a number at random, I always chose an odd number.

42. I absolutely love chocolate. Though I've cut back quite a bit, I still go through withdrawls when I go too long without some kind of chocolately goodness.

43. I didn't know how to use chopsticks until I was about 20.

44. I purposely avoid sleep as much as possible on my days off from work, even when I'm tired, because I feel like I'd be wasting my time by sleeping.

45. I cherish naps. Young people don't realize the importance of a nap until they're older. It's even more apparent how nice they are when you work a grave shift.

46. I sleep with a regular pillow and a little pillow. I always have.

47. I hate wearing a watch. If I don't have my cell phone, I will find someone who can tell me what time it is.

48. I can cook. I just usually don't.

49. I sometimes wonder if I'd like gambling more if I had never moved to Las Vegas.

50. I used to drink a lot more alcohol when I was under 21.

51. I've never, ever like green beans.

52. I don't like to go shoe shopping. I can never seem to find a pair that I like without a lot of searching.

53. Freshman year of high school, I was enrolled in two different schools, in two different states, for about a month. My mom forgot to unenroll me from the school that I was supposed to have gone to if we hadn't moved.

54. I've been painting my toe nails black for so long that when I take off the nail polish in order to redo them, my toes just look weird.

55. Misspelled words irk me. Sometimes I just can't help but correct someone who spelled something wrong.

56. I stopped drinking soda because I was too lazy to carry the bottles home from the store. {this was in Tucson, when I didn't have a car}

57. Between the ages of 18 and 20 I didn't know what size shoe I wore in women's because I only bought men's shoes.

58. I have no regrets ... just a lot of mistakes that I hope to never make again.

59. I like to joke with people saying that I'm a natural born procrastinator because I was born two weeks past my due date.

60. I'm not looking too forward to my 24th birthday, but for some reason I'm looking forward to being 25. I have absolutely no idea why.

61. I've been told that I wash my clothes "like a guy" because I don't serparate out the loads. I just throw everything into a cold wash.

62. On average, I tend to be in an all around better mood when it's cloudy. If there's precipitation, it makes it that much better.

63. I'm all for supporting people who recycle, but I'm not going to walk half a mile around a warehouse looking for a recycle bin for my paper or plastic.

64. Before the internet, I remember how annoying it used to be to look up information. *cough-encyclopedia-cough*

65. I love to drive.

66. I love to drive fast.

67. I make fun of myself for being as white as I am. Seriously ... I glow in the pool.

68. Bugs don't freak me out; I just don't like them around me. Except bees, wasps, etc ... I'm actually afraid of them.

69. Thanks to what I call "the diry minds of America" I can no longer hear or see this number without my mind diving into the gutter. I think I was also in high school before I actually found out what it meant.

70. I don't do my best to keep everything clean. I just work to keep it at an organized mess.

71. I'm one of few women who actually likes spiders and snakes.

72. I didn't own a purse until I was 17 years old. Even today I still hate carrying that thing around.

73. I miss having a female friend that I can go have a girl's day/night out with. I only seem to have female acquaintances.

74. I've been using a hair towel for so long that I don't know how to wrap my hair up in a regular towel.

75. It's taking me a really long time to do this.

76. It's not that I'm afraid to speak my mind. I'm just afraid that I'm going to speak my mind to the wrong person.

77. Whenever I get a new phone, I really enjoy it ... for about 3 months.

78. I'm a very emotional person. Except when it comes to movies.

79. When I was younger I refused to see a therapist because I didn't see the point in paying someone to pretend to care about you. Especially when you have friends who will listent to you and who actually care. Now that I'm older, I still won't see one, but I understand that they do actually help you in ways that a friend can't.

80. The smell of fresh cut grass always makes me think of when I was a kid and my dad would be out on the riding mower cutting the yard.

81. During my excrutiating pre-teen years, my acne was so bad that kids in school would give me Clearasil bottles and creams. I even when to a dermatologist and got prescription medication and face wash. After three months of pills and creams, it had actually gotten worse. You know what eventually worked? Simply soap and hot water. My face has been mostly clear ever since.

82. I stopped watching TV back in early 2008. If the show that I want to watch isn't on Hulu, then I just don't watch it.

83. I could probably go a week without a computer. I would just need a lot of books and paper and pens.

84. I love fire. It's always fascinated me. Probably because my dad was a firefighter.

85. I am one of the rare few today that can honestly say that I've never smoked anything in my life.

86. I haven't been to the dentist since I was 9 years old. I already know that I'll need surgery on my jaw, but I'm still afraid to go.

87. I want to get lasik surgery done. And I will, someday ... when I have the money.

88. I'm by no means close to germophobic, but it bothers me when I'm in a public bathroom and watch someone walk out without washing their hands.

89. I hate getting my hands dirty. I'm still not sure how I was able to work in a restaurant and a warehouse without this bothering me.

90. The one thing I very much enjoyed about having a gym memebership was the spinning class. I would like to get back into it some day.

91. Sometimes I take the advice from the comments on my NuTang page above the advice that I'm given by the people I actually know.

92. In my opinion car dealers should not be allowed to have the option to have cars available in pink or puke green.

93. I don't like telling people what happened to my father. Not because it's upsetting, but because it causes an awkward silence to eminate from the person I just told.

94. I've never had a nickname and I don't care to have one either.

95. When I was younger I couldn't wait to turn 18 because I wanted so badly to change my middle name. Once I turned 18, though, I had gotten used to it and no longer disliked it.

96. I hate wearing dresses, but whenever I'm in a department store, I secretly want to go over and try on a variety of dresses.

97. I feel weird when I put on heels. Not because I'm not used to wearing them. I'm just very used to being short.

98. I honestly don't know what I would do if I were to win the lottery. About the only two things that come to mind are paying off my credit card and paying off my car.

99. I've been cracking my joints for so many years now that it actually hurts if I don't crack them.

100. My hair is long and I like it that way. Right now it's down to my waist. Having it cut any shorter than to the bottom of my shoulder blades, I consider to be too short.

Well, there you have it. They're not as exciting or creative as the ones from Dilated or RJ, but they're all random facts about myself. It also took me two days to think of all that I wrote.

Since the-muffin-man and thaitanic have already been challenged, then I shall challenge Sank's girlfriend, sporadicfunk and lazypuppy ... even though she's not around anymore. I may have to message her on facebook and give her a heads up about my challenge.

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if you're nodding, I can't hear you. you have to nod louder
Saturday. 7.31.10 5:14 pm
The title is completely unrelated to what I'm going to write, but it was something I said earlier that sounded like a good title lol. Perhaps, if you're lucky, I'll explain later what caused me to say it.

I've moved back in with Jacob. Long story short, my sister, having not found a job yet, was unable to afford her half of the apartment and with me barely being able to afford just my half, I wasn't able to take over the whole thing. So, having nowhere else to really go, Jacob had me move back in with him. It's only temporary until we move up to Washington ... which at this point will probably be in about a month and a half. We'll be able to save up money living here, since his mom is charging us next to nothing to live here. It's a little cramped having four of us in a two bedroom condo, but it's better than being broke and it taking longer for us to move.

I'm sick and tired of the bullshit at my job, but I only have to put up with it for a little while longer. Hopefully I can hold on to my sanity and my tongue long enough to get through.

It's fricken hot here. What's sad is that the 105 degree weather we've had over the last few days is actually cooler than normal for this particular time of year. Normally it's up around 110-115. Anything over 80 is hot to me. This is yet another reason why Washington will be great. Rain, grass, trees, cool weather. All things I look for in the type of environment I want to call home.

Anywho, I suppose I'll explain the title lol.

Jacob and I went out earlier and while I was driving I asked him a question. Instead of saying yes or no, he simply nodded his head. Well ... with me driving I couldn't exactly look away from the road to see him nod his head so I joked with him when I didn't hear an answer. "if you're nodding, I can't hear you. you have to nod louder." I guess it was one of those things where you had to be there, but it's still funny.

Alrighty, Nutangers. I shall write again. Hopefully soon. I'm still in the process of moving my stuff over here from the apartment. It's going to suck the fact that I had to break my lease, but hey, it's not like its something I could have prevented. It' s not my fault the economy sucks and my sister hasn't been able to find a job since she had the baby. Plus, I think this is an advantage ... in the long run. This is the best way to save up money: by not having rent to pay. We'll see what happens.

I'll do my best to keep you all updated on things. It may be a few days in between, but I'll try to keep it from going more than that. Until next time ...

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