I took a placement test for math today. In all the years I've been at the community college I'm at right now, I never did, because of my aversion to math. (Bad idea, by the way)

So, this past week I've been trying to study for the test. I needed to get a high enough score to place into Statistics, since that's what I need to transfer.

The test was at 9 AM today. It was computerized and multiple choice, so technically I had about a 25% chance of getting each one right.

Unfortunately, I didn't know how to do about 80% of the problems contained in it. At several points I just ended up sitting there and staring blankly, trying not to let panic overwhelm me.

...I drew a walrus saying "it's okay" on my scratch paper. Not sure it helped.

There was a LOT of geometry stuff that I just did not remember. Or well, it felt that way. There were only twenty questions on the test.

By the end I had just about given up on transferring to a four year anytime soon. When the proctor came over to pull up my score, I whispered that I didn't think I did very well and laughed nervously.

But it turned out I got just high enough to get into Stats.

Remember how I wrote an entry awhile ago about feeling lucky?

Yeah.

Still, even though I did well enough, I was so tense afterwards that I could barely breathe. I walked the ~3 miles home, which might have helped a bit.

Yeesh, though.

---Edit---

Boyfriend trimmed his beard!

Isn't he cute? :3

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So I mentioned a few entries back that I watched babies at my parents' church, I think. Well, I've been doing that for a few weeks now. I'm kind of just a sub, so I don't have a static room. Last week I was with two year olds, and the two weeks before that I had one year olds.

Today I had babies again. I hugged babies for money!

I just realized that the first sentence in that line makes it sound like I gave birth, but whatever, you know what I mean.

Getting to hug babies for money is kind of awesome. It's not high paying, but I don't really mind. I make little enough that I don't have to bother with taxes. Woooo. My first paycheck came last week and yeah, that was kind of cool.

I'm also volunteering at school at the child development center with I think three to five year olds, so I'm getting double the experience, I guess. Still kinda awkward, but I'm figuring it out, slowly. Some of them will hold my hand now and actually talk to me, so that's good. >_> (It was my first week this past week, and I see each group of kids at school an hour a day Monday through Thursday)

I like babies. They got my clothes really dirty, though.

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This song feels relevant to my life.


Bumps in the road remind us
The worst of the best behind us
Only good things will find us
Me and you

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Nothing super outstanding happened to me today, I just feel like I'm a lucky person in the grand scheme of things.

So many things could be going so much more wrong in my life, but they're not!

For instance, I am absolutely horrible at parking (still working on getting that license...) but I haven't hit any cars yet!

I took the bus today and accidentally left my bag at the bus stop, but someone noticed and asked if someone had left a bag there before the bus really went anywhere. I certainly felt lucky then.

Also, although I do still love New York and want to go back, I guess it's pretty good that I'm not there right now. Reading some of the reports on what's going on with Sandy, I'm much better off in California at the moment.

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I went trick or treating with friends (eight of us in total) last night, which was fun. We barely got any candy though, and didn't trick or treat for very long. I dressed up as Manny Calavera from Grim Fandango and a girl high fived me on the street. After getting candy we went to In-N-Out and... had... food. Well, I had a milkshake. I kind of regretted drinking the whole thing though, because I felt sick afterwards.

It was me, my boyfriend, Jasper, new-ish friend Jackson (Angie introduced him to the group), Gwenny, and three of her friends. We drove back to Gwenny's house after the food (took two cars-- in the one I was in, Jackson and Gwenny's friend Anna sang Disney songs together for the whole ride) and played Reverse Charades, which was pretty awesome. Basically you have teams, and one person guesses while the other three act out the phrase on the card. Some of them were ridiculously hard (4th of July? Really?), but overall it was a lot of fun. We also played this game called Moving Statues where one person walks around and everybody else has to try to move into different positions when they're not looking, and this other one called Ultimate Fucking Ninja that... confused me. The way it was explained was that the goal is to try to karate chop someone next to you (everyone stands in a circle) in one swift move, and you take turns going around the circle. I didn't really enjoy that one much.

Anyway, it was a really good night, I thought.

Oh yeah, and my boyfriend apparently thinks I'm extroverted. o_o

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I just looked at OKC, and I got this long (looooooooooooooong) message from a guy who used to message me, telling me that I influenced him a ton even though I was like, "detached" and had a "lack of openness."

It's interesting to see all these weird positive perceptions he seems to have of me.

He also mentioned that he still listens to a song I linked him to.

Seriously guys, this dude wrote me an essay of a message.

I'm not even kidding, it's like 800 words.

THIS DOESN'T EVEN FEEL LIKE REAL LIFE.

...It's taking me a really long time to get readjusted to life without depersonalization. >.>

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Was watching this guy's videos on Youtube... couldn't tell if he was a troll for awhile, but I don't really have any doubts now.

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