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You're unsure if I am a loose end or a strand
that waits for you to mend or understand
A few words
"When we describe the Moon as dead, we are describing the deadness in ourselves. When we find space so hideously void, we are describing our own unbearable emptiness."
~ D.H. Lawrence

"Is the meaning of life defined by its duration? Or does life have a purpose so large that it doesn't have to be prolonged at any cost to preserve its meaning?"

"Living is not good, but living well. The wise man, therefore, lives as well as he should, not as long as he can... He will always think of life in terms of quality not quantity... Dying early or late is of no relevance, dying well or ill is... even if it is true that while there is life there is hope, life is not to be bought at any cost."
~ Seneca

"People will tell you nothing matters, the whole world's about to end soon anyway. Those people are looking at life the wrong way. I mean, things don't need to last forever to be perfect."
~ Daydream Nation

"All Bette's stories have happy endings. That's because she knows where to stop. She's realized the real problem with stories-- if you keep them going long enough, they always end in death."
~ The Sandman: Preludes & Nocturnes

"The road now stretched across open country, and it occurred to me - not by way of protest, not as a symbol, or anything like that, but merely as a novel experience - that since I had disregarded all laws of humanity, I might as well disregard the rules of traffic. So I crossed to the left side of the highway and checked the feeling, and the feeling was good. It was a pleasant diaphragmal melting, with elements of diffused tactility, all this enhanced by the thought that nothing could be nearer to the elimination of basic physical laws than deliberately driving on the wrong site of the road."
~ Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita

"It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend."
~ William Blake
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12:12 AM
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
I got Book One of Cucumber Quest in the mail today. It is a very beautiful book, I must say. I'm not sure I've been so taken with any of the others in my collection.

Very rich colors on the cover, and the pages are sturdy and glossy.

Quite a contrast to say, Bayou, which was printed on terribly cheap, low quality paper. The kind of paper they print grocery ads on. And I don't mean Target grocery ads that are white and shiny, I mean absolutely the cheapest paper you can get.

Going to go to sleep now to hopefully not be incredibly sleep deprived again. I had the worst time trying to comprehend the lecture in my math class today because of that (although, to my great joy, he delayed the math exam we were going to have until Thursday).

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Oh, 3
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
It is 3... 3:01 AM.

Oh.

Oh dear.

I have school in the morning. And a test at night.

Oh dear me.

I played Sims 3 for six hours instead of doing my math homework earlier today. I kept telling myself, "okay, just a bit more, just refill the energy bar and then save and quit."

Oops. I don't think I even started homework until maybe 9?

I really ought to be in bed. Really. But I'm not tired enough to sleep.

Eep.

---

I used to dream of having a giant stuffed animal to sleep with at night, back when I was loneliest. Something I could wrap my arms around, that would get warm from my body heat, that I could hang onto just to feel secure until I reached a dreamstate.

Sometimes I still want one, though it's not a deep yearning like it was before. Not like a body pillow though... For whatever reason those things creep me out too much. Also not one of those creepy Japanese pillows with the printed on anime girls, or the boyfriend arm pillow thing.

Just a big stuffed animal. Preferably given by someone close to me.

This came up in a conversation with a friend, and since this entry had basically nothing in it I thought I would add it here.

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It's Presidents Day...
Monday, February 18, 2013
Probably one of my greatest triumphs today will be managing to transfer all my Chrome bookmarks over from my old computer to this new one. The internet did not help very much with that one. They're all "yeah just rename the file with a .bak!" That did not work at ALL for me. >:( Luckily I realized I could just show hidden folders in my new user folder here and I replaced Chrome's bookmark file on this computer with my backed up one from my old computer.

Saved me trying to add tons of pages over again.

Gotta do math homework today and probably write something for Psych. It's 3 AM right now but I'm on the computer because I've been trying to fix all my settings so they're the same as on my old computer.

Also downloading Sims 3 from Steam... Not sure when I'll get to play it though.

My emulator isn't working now, so I can't play Pokemon. :C

Trying to fiddle with the monitor settings because the colors that are showing up look awful.

Bleghghghgh this was a nice gift and all but it is SUCH A HASSLE.

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Forgotten assignments
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Nothing like a dream about showing up to class having forgotten to do an assignment to set a stressful mood for my day. >_>

Not sure if it is better or worse than having a dream about being late. Maybe they are about equal.

My new computer still needs some setting up... we had trouble with the Windows 8 installation because my boyfriend couldn't find the key for it (the key was online and he didn't know his username for the site, and they didn't have any username recovery options except for emailing the help desk, which was unresponsive).

He got very stressed out. I fell asleep.

I'm feeling kind of off. Don't entirely know why. I don't think it was just the dream, but I don't really know. :|

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For all its futility
Saturday, February 16, 2013
I keep trying to figure out how the architecture in this tower in my dream worked.

The tower was small, rough, and crude, and the levels got smaller as you went up, so that the third wasn't tall enough for me to really stand upright or even lie down. The whole structure was made of a dried light grey mud, like a very large termite colony.

The inside was bare, but well-lit because each floor had big windows covering three of its walls. The fourth wall was the one that had the ladder/door opening to get to the next floor.

I entered it with a companion whose face I don't remember, but she was wearing pink.

I was going ahead of her, and while I was climbing up to the third level, a swarm of bugs-- they looked kind of like spiders, kind of like beetles, rushed into the second level. I had reached the third level by the time they got close to me and held a couch cushion against the door opening so they couldn't enter, but they got my companion. I don't know whether they carried her off or devoured her, but she disappeared. I could see over the top of the cushion as the bugs tried to enter-- for whatever reason they couldn't climb vertical surfaces, so as long as I held it there the gap didn't matter. When they had moved away from the door I began to smash them with the cushion's corner, until none were left.

The ceiling was low, and I was sitting with my legs in front of me, knees bent a bit, to fit in the room. Behind me the wall was a large clear pane of glass, and I realized that I could be seen from below because I had moved away from the door in front of me in order to stretch out a little. I looked down and a band of black-clad people were there, watching me. The leader of the group had black hair that hit just above his shoulders and seemed angry that I had thwarted his attempts to get me-- he was the one that had sent the bugs. I climbed up to the fourth level, the final level, where the ceiling tapered up to a point, and looked down upon them. This level only had one window, and it faced them, and the door was in the floor instead of one of the walls. I thought it would be safe there, but he called up to me that I could either come down or he would have his dragon destroy the tower.

I lifted my gaze from the ground and saw a humongous dragon staring at the middle of the tower, where it was going to fly through and break it apart. The dragon was charcoal colored and had a hard-plated armored look to it, and spikes protruding back from its face. Its eyes were cruel and its thin sharp teeth were exposed in a horrible sneer.

Realizing that my choice was to climb down or die, I silently exited the tower and walked to the man, who promptly handcuffed my wrist to his and declared I would be his slave.

I don't want to describe the rest.

---

My boyfriend built me a new computer for Valentine's Day. We haven't set it up yet because it only has Linux on it, and I need Windows to play the Sims 3, but hopefully we'll get that all worked out and transfer all my files from this computer over soon enough.

Right now I'm playing A Rabbit Fable. It's a confusing and surreal game but in a way I like it.

---Edit---

A better (but text-based) game. Moonlight by Jonas Kyratzes

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Bebbehs [2P]
Friday, February 15, 2013
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If you know it, enter it; or, ask me for it.

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Thursday, my longest day this quarter
Thursday, February 14, 2013
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History midterm
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
The history midterm I've been stressing over for awhile was today.

Surprisingly it was not panic-inducingly difficult. I don't know how she'll grade the essay portion of it though. Fingers crossed? :\

I'm trying to remember what I dreamt last night.

There was a building... it was on its own platform branching off of a pier set right on top of the water. The top of the pier was only perhaps six inches from the surface of the water, which felt both like a lake and the sea at once. The building was tall, and grey, with a couple crates along the edge of one of the sides. I walked around it, idly wandering, then looked at the water beyond the pier.

It was calm, calm to the point of looking like glass, it was so smooth. There was some sort of creature slumped over the middle of this boat... or was it a raft? Well, watercraft of some sort. I walked over to it out of curiosity. The creature looked a bit like a large dog, that shaggy kind with the fur that grows over its eyes, but it was light grey and had smooth skin like a seal. Its head faced away from me.

I said "hello?" tentatively, and it-- he-- told me he had been there so long, and hadn't seen anybody in that time. He controlled the ship, he told me, but it had been so long since anybody had accompanied him... He felt rusty. I offered to ride along, since I had nothing else to do. That seemed to breathe a bit of life into him, and he told me he would take me somewhere.

We glided through the water, barely rippling it, and reached a house built on stilts as it was getting dark. There were platforms with stairs leading up to it, so I climbed up to look around. I got the impression that I was going to live there, with the creature, for some time.

He told me he was going to leave to get some things, and I assumed I would wait there for him. He was having trouble getting his craft to move though, and when I walked over to look, he was a man... I was standing on the highest platform, the one that supported the house, overlooking the smaller platforms leading down to the ship/dock, and I held onto one of the beams supporting the overhang, and called down words of encouragement. His vessel started working, and he smiled at me and left. I felt a peculiar sense of closeness to him...

The feeling of this world was kind of strange. It was very empty, but calm, always late afternoon hovering on the edge of night. The sky was always cloudy, but I knew it wouldn't rain. And there was no sun.

I don't think there was anything below the water, either. It was inconceivable, the idea of something below that glassy surface. All I knew was that I could not touch the water, and I had no desire to.

Yeah...

I'm very sleepy.

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