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I know it's been like, over two weeks since my last post. I am not sure what to say about that. There are things I've been reading that seem interesting to write about, but not in short enough posts that I feel I can manage them with the level of energy/motivation I have.

So then... I end up writing nothing because I'd rather not write about something that doesn't seem worthwhile. On my own blog. Hah. Oh well.

I do have some images I'm terribly late in sharing.

Kyle sent me some things as a gift to commemorate 10 years of friendship.

There is... an obvious theme. Similar to that bird package gift he got me awhile ago where all the things had the word "bird" in them somehow.

I needed an onion for a recipe I was making and we somehow didn't have any in the house, so I went out and bought a single onion and then drove with it on the passenger seat, with no seat belt because I had no regard for its safety.


One of my new birds has been warming up to me! Sort of. He'll jump on my hand for food now. :)

He won't come near me otherwise, but it's very cute that he'll eat out of my hand. He's so eager that when I bring out the food bag he hops over to watch me, and sometimes he'll jump on the door and hang there or run over to the corner of the cage nearest me. My other bird doesn't want to have anything to do with me though, haha.

I've been sick since Sunday. Not sure what it is, but I don't usually get hit so hard by sickness, or at least I haven't in awhile. Started off with a sore throat, but it's mostly just congestion/coughing and that kind of... mental fogginess you get from being sick, now. Standard fare I guess. It hit at probably one of the worst times it possibly could have, though, because I'm right at the end of the semester and I need to write my final papers. Have been incapacitated enough that I haven't done any real work on those papers, but I'm hoping I'll be able to finish them in time. Ugh.

Despite that, I'm not really in a bad mood or anything. It's inconvenient but it's not bothering me all that much. Just hope I can get everything done.

My dad gave me some old Sudafed, the strong stuff that's pseudoephedrine HCI. Together with my prescription codeine cough syrup (since I'm allergic to dextropmethorphan) I have two meth ingredients. I don't know what else goes into meth. Bleach? If I drank some bleach to wash these down would my body become a meth factory? I mean I'm 85% sure I'd just die but what if, instead, I underwent a superhero transformation and my superpower was being able to make meth with my body. That would be probably one of the worst superpowers I can think of, but I feel like someone could write an offbeat comic about it.

In other meth-related news, I've been chatting with someone who lives in Australia and he said that in Australia, meth doesn't have the same stigma it has here, and it's just a party drug. That's kind of crazy to think about. I know that psychology/culture factor into people's subjective experience of drugs, but that's a bigger difference than I would have expected.

Anyway, that's your fun fact of the day I guess. Meth is a party drug in Australia. Remember that if you get roped into a very strange game of international amateur Jeopardy somehow.

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"Different This Time" by Cornelia Murr.

This spot, this spot
It’s all for you
And even if you don’t come tonight
It’s still for you

Keep wanting to listen to this song recently. I wasn't that impressed when I first heard it, but then for some reason it just grew on me immensely a few months later. It's so lovely and soft and sincere. Sort of an unusual love song, I think.

My semester is almost over... and then I'll have a few weeks off. Whew. Really hoping that I can audit a class over the summer to fulfill a requirement... I took an equivalent class at my previous school, but my academic advisor/other faculty decided that they want me to have the experience of the class at my school, so my advisor suggested an audit. -Sigh- Have to get permission from the prof teaching the class to audit it, but they haven't responded to my email yet, so... ??? I guess I'll try to send another email? I dunno. I'm really hoping to audit so that I don't have to go to all of the classes/do the assignments. That way I can go to Hawaii with my family... July 4th is a holiday, so maybe I can manage to take the 11th off as well from class and get away for a couple weeks? Will have to discuss it with my mom.

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"He-Hello" by WYRES.

Really into this song right now. Very catchy. I guess it fits with the type of thing I like-- bouncy sound but sad lyrics.

Going to finally meet one of my internet friends on Saturday morning, so that'll be cool! We have been chatting for some number of months and playing Titan Quest together, but haven't met in person because he lives a few hours away. Not sure what it'll be like to hang out. We're just going to get breakfast, so maybe we'll just eat and talk about... whatever, I suppose. Looking forward to that, in any case.

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I have... a problem(?) with not speaking up enough in some of my classes, I guess. My Transpersonal prof asked me to meet with him today after class to talk about my participation and encouraged me to share more. Or well, he asked me why I didn't share more and I gave some reasons, and then he encouraged me to share despite that. The class discussion turned to the interconnectedness of all things in some philosophies (e.g. Buddhism) at one point and I had some thoughts related to that, but didn't raise my hand. I ended up telling him in our little meeting, though. I told him about how I took a lot of different classes in undergrad, in different subjects, and it was interesting to me to see how things related even though they were under such supposedly separate headers. Like, Oceanography and Astronomy. These are classed as totally different sciences, but they do have things in common. The moon influences the tides, for one. And well... all the ingredients for everything on Earth came from space in some way. The intense gravity and heat in stars fuel the nuclear fusion that creates the elements that make up the world.

I don't care much for that whole "we're made of star stuff" thing, even though it's true, because like, basically everything is made of star stuff. It's cool to feel that connection with the universe but it's also not exactly unique.

But yeah, so, the point of all this is that so many things are related, and it seems odd in a way that we break things up into different disciplines and fields of study when the boundaries between them are not that solid upon close inspection. I understand that it's more convenient to study this way, but this type of compartmentalization also conditions us to think about the world in that boxed-up way. The world appears to us as a series of discrete objects, but that's not all there is to it. It's just a matter of scale. At the atomic level, where is the boundary between my hand and the keyboard I'm typing on? Zoom out far enough and my individual body disappears among the masses, and from space almost none of the details of our human constructions are visible. There's a relief in that, in thinking about the scale of things. It lifts a burden, decreases the weight that this one life I'm living has. It's easy to feel like your life is the center of the universe when your perspective is always from a vantage point where you can only see yourself as some kind of distinct solid object, rather than something constantly in flux and inseparable from other things.

Magnification matters immensely.

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