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Monday. 2.11.13 6:40 pm
I will have some serious catching up to do on everyone's blogs over the next few days. My brain is completely fried {I just typed friend ... case and point} from all the busy activities I've been up to over the last few days. It's hard enough trying to comprehend what I'm typing let along what everyone else has typed.

I'll be picking my friend up from the airport tonight so I will get to sleep in my own bed again, without the fur babies, so hopefully it'll be a good night's sleep. I really don't mind dog/house sitting. I just think it would have been easier if that hadn't been my first time ever sleeping at her place. I'll be house/dog sitting for another friend next month, but I've been to her place a bunch of times and have stayed over so it won't be much of an issue.

Anywho, this is about it for now. I think I am going to take a quick hour nap before I need to head out. I will catch up with everyone, hopefully tomorrow, but if not then at least within the next few days.

Until then. . .

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Sunday. 2.10.13 8:01 pm
I had mentioned a few days ago that I was house/dog/cat sitting for a friend that is out of town this weekend. It's really not that bad, but I am really uncomfortable with sleeping in someone else's place until I've done it often enough that I become acclimated to it. Well, Friday was pretty much my first time being there besides a real quick, "I'm here, you ready to go?" type of visit a few months prior.

The dogs are very well behaved, no excessive barking and the cats pretty much keep to themselves. The issue is that every little, tiny noise I hear wakes me up and then the noises that woke me up keep me awake. Such as the dog's claws clicking across the hardwood floor. Unfortunately this happened a lot because they're not used to me being there so every time they heard me move, they thought I was getting up and started moving around.

I think I got a total of 3 hours of sleep last night. Not all together either. Tonight is the only other night I'm doing this so I'm hoping it's not the same as last night. I'm hoping that, despite the nap I took once I got home earlier, I'm still tired enough to sleep through some of the noises. But if I don't, I will be back to sleeping in my own bed tomorrow night so by Tuesday, Wednesday at the very latest, I should be back to my normal level of tiredness.

Anywho, last night we went to a Roller Derby game and the second half was just sad. It was bad at first, but you know how when you have a situation that looks bad and just keeps getting worse and worse it just becomes sad and pathetic? Yeah, that's what happened in the bout between one of the Rat City teams and a team from Vancouver Canada. It's bad when the audience starts cheering for the out of state team. The final score was an incredibly painful 284 to 68. C'mon Canada ... we know that you're a typically non-violent country, but Roller Derby isn't that violent. Although they did have to call 911 for a girl who appeared to have suffered a lower back injury on a fall. I should check their site/blog/Facebook to see if there's an update.

Alright, I have a little over an hour before I have to leave to go back to my friend's place so I am gonna browse the net and get myself ready. Wish me luck; you'll find out tomorrow whether I successfully slept better than 3 total hours.

Until tomorrow. . .

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Saturday. 2.9.13 9:09 am
This is going to be very quick as I won't be home for much longer. As I said it would be difficult to keep up with these entries this weekend as I won't be home much and that's already started. I left home yesterday around 10 in the morning and 23 hours later I am finally getting back home, but only for a little bit.

Yesterday was full of errands and other random stuff that kept me out of the house most of the day. The other part was the fact that I didn't sleep at home last night. If that had been the case, there most definitely would have been an entry.

Today will be pretty much the same, except not quite as busy. I'll actually be home again for a little while in a few hours, but then it's back out again.

This counts as an entry for the 9th just in case I don't get the chance to write anything later on. Tomorrow after work I will be home for a while so I will be able to update you on why my weekend was so packed. I hope everyone is having a good weekend of their own!

Until tomorrow {hopefully}. . .

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Worn out
Thursday. 2.7.13 5:46 pm
I'm not only physically exhausted, but emotionally as well. Unfortunately there's no way to turn it off. Sleep seems to be the only escape at this point which is something I'll be doing very shortly.

The jog today went a little slower than last time, but I was able to keep going for longer. We'll see how Sunday goes.

Work was annoying. Work is always annoying. I can't wait till I find a new job. I haven't looked in a week or so. I need to start searching again.

This is shorter than the recent entries, but with it being the start of my weekend and the fact that I have all of $.97 to my name until tomorrow there's no reason to stay awake.

Until tomorrow. . .

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The mind works in weird ways
Wednesday. 2.6.13 7:10 pm
Last night I went to bed early, around 8:30-ish and was wide the fuck awake just after 11. My brain seriously ran wild with thoughts. I started looking up different things on Google. Random things such as pet friendly apartments ... I don't have any pets. I was also looking up prices of two bedroom apartments ... I live alone. Why would I need all that extra space? And I don't have anyone to live with ... nor do I know anyone who would be a roommate for me. Nor would I be able to afford a 2 bedroom on my salary. Hell, I'm nearly a two bedroom's rent in debt right now! I wanted to keep looking up more things, but I had to fight the urge so that I could sleep for work.

I finally hid the phone and forced myself to try to focus on the rain in the background or the hum of the heater. I think I fell back asleep sometime around 12:30 or 1. Then I was awake again, but I refused to look at the time in case I only had a short period of time before my alarm went off. If I knew how much longer I had, I would have been focused on that and probably wouldn't have been able to fall back asleep.

I was feeling better today than yesterday. Just tired, which is normal for me. With the exception of a couple hours at a time, like last night, I am almost always tired. And yes, I've had my iron levels tested as well as my thyroid and both tests came back negative for any issues. It's probably due to the depression, but hey, if that's one of the only daily side effects, I think I'm okay. The extreme sadness and/or mood swings don't happen on a daily basis.

I will probably be going to bed early again tonight; I sure as hell am tired enough. I didn't go running, but the lack of sleep from last night and the lack of a nap is aiding in my being super tired. Hopefully tonight I'll be able to sleep through.

This weekend will be a busy one, but I shall still find time to update! I cannot miss a day this month; not with there being a NuTang challenge on top of my personal one!

Until tomorrow. . .

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The hardest part...
Tuesday. 2.5.13 4:48 pm
... about writing an entry is figuring out what the title is going to be. Hence the reason why I used so many numbers over the last month.

Today started out shitty. I felt so tired/drained that I seriously could have just cried. Since I was at work, however, I didn't get the opportunity. So instead of crying, I broke out my defense mechanism and started being antisocial and snippy with the people whom I had to come in contact with. It's not exactly the best way to deal with a problem; I admit that, but it's better than crying while on the clock.

Toward the end of the shift, I started feeling ever so slightly better, but as soon as I got home, the feelings came rushing back and I just felt emotionally exhausted. I started to almost cry again. I called Jacob and he went for a jog with me. He was nice enough to get out of bed so that I wouldn't have to go alone. I told him he could go back to sleep, but I think he could tell in my voice that I needed someone to be with me.

The jog helped a little more. I figured out that I need to work on my pacing more. I am apparently improving enough that my body automatically wants to go faster, but then I get winded more quickly. If I keep my pace level right from the get go, I should be able to continue on without getting winded as quickly. Thursday I will test this theory.

I'm in the middle of watching Bones right now, but I paused it so that I could write this. I may go to sleep after I finish watching the episode {I can already feel myself starting to fall asleep} and I didn't want to risk missing out on writing an entry.

The weather is going through the same kind of mood swing I am ... it's gone from raining to cloudy to windy to sunny back to cloudy and windy and back to rainy. I think the sun came out like 6 times today. It's ridiculous.

Anywho, I think I will finish watching the episode and depending on how I feel either go to bed super early or play a game to pass the time and go to bed early. I'll let you know what ended up happening.

Until tomorrow NuTang. . .

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