A few words
"When we describe the Moon as dead, we are describing the deadness in ourselves. When we find space so hideously void, we are describing our own unbearable emptiness."
~ D.H. Lawrence
"Is the meaning of life defined by its duration? Or does life have a purpose so large that it doesn't have to be prolonged at any cost to preserve its meaning?"
"Living is not good, but living well. The wise man, therefore, lives as well as he should, not as long as he can... He will always think of life in terms of quality not quantity... Dying early or late is of no relevance, dying well or ill is... even if it is true that while there is life there is hope, life is not to be bought at any cost."
"People will tell you nothing matters, the whole world's about to end soon anyway. Those people are looking at life the wrong way. I mean, things don't need to last forever to be perfect."
~ Daydream Nation
"All Bette's stories have happy endings. That's because she knows where to stop. She's realized the real problem with stories-- if you keep them going long enough, they always end in death."
~ The Sandman: Preludes & Nocturnes
"The road now stretched across open country, and it occurred to me - not by way of protest, not as a symbol, or anything like that, but merely as a novel experience - that since I had disregarded all laws of humanity, I might as well disregard the rules of traffic. So I crossed to the left side of the highway and checked the feeling, and the feeling was good. It was a pleasant diaphragmal melting, with elements of diffused tactility, all this enhanced by the thought that nothing could be nearer to the elimination of basic physical laws than deliberately driving on the wrong site of the road."
~ Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita
"It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend."
~ William Blake
Think about it
Kill that boredom!
Binder Paper Comics
Web Comics and Such
A Distant Soil (Some nudity)
The Adventures of Gyno-Star (Some explicit stuff)
Blue Milk Special
Cigarro & Cerveja
Cyanide and Happiness
dead winter (has some explicit stuff)
Devilbear: The Grimoires of Bearalzebub (PG-13?)
Eat That Toast!
The Fancy Adventures of Jack Cannon
For Lack of a Better Comic
Girls with Slingshots (some explicit stuff...?)
The Intrepid Girlbot
The Last Halloween
Last Train to Old Town
The League of Evil Genius
Legend of Bill
Living With Insanity (some nudity)
Love Me Nice
Married to the Sea
The Moon Prince
Moth (Some nudity)
The Non-Adventures of Wonderella
Political Cartoonists Index
Poorly Drawn Lines
The Property of Hate
Robbie and Bobby
Saturday Morning Breakfast Cereal
Scenes from a Multiverse
The Secret Knots
Stand Still. Stay Silent
Strong Female Protagonist
The Super Fogeys
Tales of Pylea
Three Word Phrase (some nudity)
Tiny Kitten Teeth
Toothpaste for Dinner
Trying Human (Some nudity)
Two Guys and Guy
Yellow Peril (PG-13)
Infrequently/No Longer Updating Web Comics
The Abominable Charles Christopher
The Adventures of Dr. McNinja
The Adventures of Ellie Connelly
Bag of Toast
Bear in Mind
The Book of Biff
Chain Bear (Some explicit stuff)
Daisy is Dead
Ectopiary (Some nudity)
Edmund Finney's Quest to Find the Meaning of Life
A Fine Example
Finn and Charlie are HITCHED
Hark! A Vagrant
Head Doctor Productions
Hello with Cheese
Kyle & Atticus
Lesbian Pirates from Outer Space
Letters to a Wild Boar
Lovecraft is Missing
Meat and Plastic
The Nerds of Paradise
No Reason Comics
One Swoop Fell
Pictures for Sad Children
A Redtail's Dream
Roy's Boys (PG 13?)
Run Freak Run
The Super Gay Adventures of Ross Boston
YU + ME
Pure Flash Awesomeness
Die Anstalt : Toy Psychiatry
Clients from Hell
Creatures in My Head
Damn You Auto Correct!
Jhonen Vasquez's site
Overheard in New York
Passive Aggressive Notes
Wednesday, April 23, 2014
So, I'm getting paid $20/hour to talk to this guy on Skype and help him with his social skills (specifically, talking to girls). The way he acts, I suspect he might be autistic or something. I've never met anybody who was so awkward. He'll interject random responses into the conversation that break up the flow and in some cases make things uncomfortable. For example, we did a roleplay in which I was a girl in a nightclub and he approached me, and it went like this:
Him: I like that red dress you're wearing.
Me: Oh thanks, yeah I saw it on sale and it was just so cute I had to get it.
Him: I can already TELL you're a daddy's GIRL.
(He puts emphasis on words when it doesn't make sense, so a lot of what he says ends up sounding really forced)
I was trying to explain to him that it would help if he could show genuine interest in the girl. People really notice when you sincerely find them interesting and generally are flattered by it. When I mentioned genuine interest though, he said "yeah my old teacher said I was a bad listener too." (No kidding! He didn't even understand what I just said)
Anyway, I felt like this applies to the relationship I just got out of. I rarely felt like he was genuinely interested in me or what I had to say. Whether or not he was interested was debatable, but if he was interested, his actions didn't show it. He didn't really seem to care about any of my interests, or the things I learned at school. I also gave him the link to my blog and he never bothered to read it outside of one or two times. I often felt like there was nothing about me individually that was special to him. Of course, when I asked, he would talk about how I was special and he couldn't just replace me, but he didn't really have reasons for what differentiated me besides "you're intelligent" and "I like the combination of your idiosyncrasies" (that doesn't tell me anything???). There are lots of people who are intelligent. That by itself doesn't mean a whole lot. I think compliments mean more when they really can't describe a whole lot of other people. So, things that are both sincere and unique.
When I really care about someone, I want to know what they find interesting and what they think about things. I guess that before, I took for granted that my partner would reciprocate that. It's more important than I realized, so I hope that the next time I'm in a relationship, I have that. Genuine interest.
Tuesday, April 22, 2014
I'm helping a guy improve his social skills through Skype and he's paying me $20 an hour! We just had our first session (half an hour) and so far so good. It's going to take me awhile to get that hat though, at this rate... The other gigs I'm doing are taking kind of a long time to happen so I guess I'll just have to wait. -__-
Nothing really happened today I think? Except that I gained ~1 lb since yesterday. >_> Probably water weight I guess. Never thought I'd be disappointed to weigh 113 lbs. All that ice cream and mac and cheese and candy!
I feel like I generally just feel pretty good when I'm 115 lbs or lighter. I wish I had a workout buddy though. My arms need some toning... I'm supposed to be training for a 9k run in autumn with my mom and we haven't started yet. >_> I know it's not really that long, but I never run anymore, only bike, so I should work on that.
Oh, I almost forgot! An old... friend(?) got back into contact with me, so we might hang out. My recent ex and I went hiking with him and his now-ex girlfriend some time ago. Gotta find something to do...
Sunday, April 20, 2014
Easter was pretty uneventful I guess. We had lunch with my aunt's family and my mom's friend's family and hid eggs for my mom's friend's two kids.
I found out my gig didn't actually fall through, but it needs to be rescheduled. Sooooo yay for that?
I JUST REALIZED I HAVE A PACKET OF GOLDFISH IN MY BAG!! Yay, now I have something to munch on while I do my reading for school. :D
Saturday, April 19, 2014
I think my gig fell through, the person isn't responding. >_>
BUT I have others lined up, so it's all good.
Saturday, April 19, 2014
At 8 AM my parents woke me up to ask what color orange they should paint the hall. I just pointed to one of them grumpily and tried to go back to bed for the half hour I had left. Couldn't sleep.
On my way to the nursery, my bike's tire went flat, so I had to walk the rest of the way. Work was fine though. We didn't have too many criers.
After that, I went home and had split pea soup for lunch. Went with Lucy to meet a Craigslist person at the mall, then to Goodwill to find some shoes for her. I also got a cute new top for about $5 and some fleece-lined leggings for $5.
We then went to Baskin Robbins and got a free quart of cookies and cream ice cream because I had a coupon from donating blood...
And... hm... I took a nap, then did my last shadow shift at the crisis hotline. Now I can start doing shifts on my own! I felt like it went really well and I really feel like I helped people, which makes me happy. I talked to the guy who was training me about a few things in my life, including the breakup. He told me about his life as well. He's 47 and his wife might leave him to become a Buddhist monk. It sounded very interesting and kind of sad. Oddly enough though, he didn't seem too beat up about it. He was very quiet overall, though.
One of my gigs is tomorrow! I hope it goes well.
Thursday, April 17, 2014
During lunch today I showed a couple of my classmates the environmental building on campus where I used to spend a lot of time. We walked around the er... environmental area (it's this sort of secluded place that has a bunch of native California habitats in it)
After our last class, when I was packing up, she put a note on my desk when I wasn't looking. It basically thanked me for showing her the "secret" area and said I was smart, humble, and had a lovely voice.
...And that I have sexy curves. >_>
So that was... nice...?
I have some gigs coming up, so hopefully I'll be able to buy that hat soon.
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
At the nursery where I work, there's this old couple that comes in and volunteers with us. They have some health problems, so mostly what they do is sit and just hold babies on their laps.
Today I got an envelope in the mail from someone whose name I didn't recognize. I opened it and it turned out to be a card with $10 in it! The wife sent me a card to say happy Easter. It's so sweet. I'm writing a thank you card back now.
...I accidentally wrote their address in the wrong spot on the envelope. >_< Covering it up with stickers and hoping it doesn't look too weird... I would just get a new envelope, but this is a special cute envelope that goes with the card. :\
The gala is next week!
Reality behind frosted glass
Tuesday, April 15, 2014
Are you reading this? I read your letter.
Fro suggested that I write about a happy thing every day, and I have been doing that. I think it's helped a lot, because I generally feel good. I'm not ignoring the negative things, but I'm focusing on the positive ones.
I'm not going to try to reply to all the statements you made in your letter. I still care about you, and I did not cast you out of my life, you cut me out of yours. If you haven't thrown away the house key we gave you and my dad's wrench set, please return them.
Perhaps you don't know, but I tried to find someone to spend time with you on your birthday because I didn't want you to be alone. I didn't plan to break up with you right before your birthday, but unfortunately it happened that way. I tried to find a way to contact that coworker of yours who invited us to dinner, but I was unable to. I also asked Jasper if he could do something with you, but he said you were busy. There wasn't much else I could do.
I hope that you can heal and that we can be friends someday, even though you're hurting a lot right now. I wish you the best and I'm sorry things happened this way.
Today my good thing is that my second class was canceled, so school ended early. Also, I'm mostly pleased with my weight at the moment.
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