The meeting went great. Even though I was in an hour and a half meeting with my boss, the CEO, CFO, COO, and about 6 other people that make at least 60 grand more a year then I do. I only felt a litle uncomfortable with the whole thing.

Other job is going well. I should have enough money to pay off one credit card this month.

My car is broken :( I am taking it to get fixed tomorrow. Luckly it is under warranty so I have to pay $100 and that is it.

I have a test tomorrow that I haven't studied for. I plan to study tonight and then tomorrow on lunch and before class. I failed the last test and I can't believe it. On the last two test I scored 108% and then 94%. On the third test I scored a 52%. Ugh.

Oh on a related subject I am changing my major. I am dropping nursing. I can't spend 6 years working on my associates. I am going to apply at Websters and Lindenwood. I am thinking about changing to Public Relations. It is something I had considered before but now I think I can get my Bachelors in about 2 or 2.5 years if I really bust my ass. I am going to do some research and go from there. I figure if nothing else I can just change desks in the building and go from support to professional...

Well I am going to study and research... Nighty Night

PS I made a dollar!

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Ok so I meant to post this on the last entry but I forgot.

I have a meeting tomorrow. Nothing unless in a business you might say but I as a secretary don't typically go to meetings. This meeting includes my boss, several of the Directors and a hand full of other important people, and then me. I am a little worried about making a fool of myself. I don't wanna go but it might be cool.

Plus, I think I might drop the nursing major and get something I can a bachelors in. I don't want to spend the next 4 years working on my associates. I am thinking business. I need something I can do online and it doesn't really matter becuase I can become a professional at my current job with any degree. Anyway.....

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Today just kind of sucked at work. It was a Monday what more can I say. Everyone was just kind of on edge. But I only have 12 days left to work this month. I have a week of vacation and then of course Christmas.

I need a cigarette.... I'll post more later.

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Ok so again sorry about the long time without an update and I should probably update you on this past week.

Ok so the snow hit hard on Thursday. I still went to the hockey game. I went with a coworker and since our office shut down at 3 because of the weather we decided to just eat and hang out and then head to the game. Well the Blues ended up losing 4-5 and when we left we had to wait an hour for a Metro train. Then when we finally got one it ended up stuck and well eventually we made it back to the office, half frozen of course.

I broke up with Gray. I barely have the time to take care of myself let alone spend time in a relationship. I never really got to see him or talk to him that much and I felt bad about it. I am just so messed up right now. I still care about him but I can't right now. I wish I could just be happy and sttill be with him. I love him but I don't love myself that much.

My car is in need of repair. My fan has stopped working. I need to call tomorrow and get my warranty information. I really hope that this will be covered by my warranty but I don't know. The good thing is that it is a problem that can wait until at least March. As long as my engine isn't overheating I am ok. But I am worried about how much it is going to cost me.

I need to pay my tuition blah....

My friend and her dad offered to help me out financially but I want to do what I can myself. If nothing else I can wait to take care of my car problems but I do need to pay my tuition before tomorrow night.

Well I need to get some stuff done. Night all...

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Ughh I don't even want to talk about it but let me give you a few hints.

I am not speaking to my mother, I was supposed to go to a Blue's game with a friend on Thursday and he just texted to say he can't go, and well many other things that I don't want to get into but are driving me to a nervous breakdown....

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My my. I have gotten bad at posting here lately haven't I? Please forgive me. I have barely touched my computer this week. But let me give you a little update on the past week, which I must add has had its ups and downs.

So I made a pretty big booboo at closing time at the Full Time job on Tuesday and got very flustered and just told my boss there that I had to get to my other job cause I don't get paid to enough to deal with this sh*t and that since I am salaried at that job that I wasn't getting paid to stand there and figure out why the darn computer wasn't working right. I had myself all worked up when I left the FT job to go to the PT job and was prepared for a big reprimand at the office on Wednesday. Never happened... I had decided to go in early and talk to my supervisor and just explain how sorry I was and that I got flustered and that I would try to not let it happen again. When I got there I went into her office and held out my hand and said "Go ahead smack it, I know I messed up and I am sorry." She looks straight at me and says "It wasn't your fault, it is Peter's (IT guy) and if he doesn't get down here to fix it pronto I am going to find him and wring his neck." Oh happy day!!! I didn't for once get blamed for something... Even though this was more my fault then Peter's, I had taken the fall for his screw ups on more then one occassion so I let him have this one to make up for the ones before. Then later on Wednesday when one of my coworkers and I started trying to figure out when the last volunteer had called or come in (we figured more then an hour) the big boss called and told everyone to go home early! I did a happy dance and headed to school.

School royally sucked this week. I had a group project due and a test. The test I probably got a low B on which is ok. The group paper was supposed to be finished by one of the group members (final edit and that kind of stuff). Well supposedly his computer crashed. Do I believe him... ummmmm, NO! So I had to convince our professor to give us a 24 hour extension and then I (in case you didn't get that) I had to rewrite the entire 10 page paper, with only the other group members notes to help, ON THANKSGIVING!!!!! It royally pissed me off and I am still not happy about it but oh well. I hate group projects because I am anal, antisocial and obsessive complusive. Oh and bossy. I want it my way. If I fail I don't want it to be because I got teamed with the ditzy blond. Anyway it is done and was submitted.

Thanksgiving was good. I had a good excuse to not deal with my family all day and I came down for dinner and hung out a little and then went back to my room to type my little heart out. I did some day after Thanksgiving shopping but I couldn't bring myself to get out there at 5 am this year. I have 12 people left to buy for, including my mom, sister-in-law and boss. I love and hate shopping for those three. I like to get things that are really personal and perfect but they are three hardest. My mom is hard because she doesn't really care I always hear I want my babies home for Christmas and that is it. Plus she is really antimaterialistic. I was thinking about finding all the pictures I took when we flew out to San Diego to visit my brother and his kids and picking out a few really good ones and having them enlarged and framed for her. I don't like shopping for my sister-in-law because I don't like my sister-in-law plus she is very materialistic which I am not. I love shopping for my boss because we have a lot of common interests but I am worried 1. He already has it. 2. That I will spend way more or way less then his secretary. (I always ask her how much she is spending and she just tells me that we should be spending different amounts because we have different jobs. I am his assistant, she is his secretary and yes there is a difference in our jobs.) 3. That he won't like it. I don't think he liked last years gift but then I am not 100% sure. He is difficult to read sometimes.

The pt job is great. That guy that was supposed to be training me didn't. They actually left me by myself for the most part. I actually feel bad now because I said I didn't like that one person that much. We walked out of the building together (we have to go in groups of 2 or more after hours just in case) and got to talking and smoking and well I found out we have a lot in common and we ended up talking for like 45 minutes. He is a really nice guy and I like him.

I have never posted this before but I have a couple of sayings, or mantras, if you will. I thought I would share them with you because I have found another one to add to the list....

This too shall pass
Love and pepperoni
*NEW* Just becuase I have a to do list doesn't mean I have a life

Finished the scarf for work. Went out and bought Stitch and Bitch Nation and Happy Hooker today and I am excited!!! I can't wait to sit down and enjoy them!

Well I must go becuase it is 3:50 AM here in the lovely city of St. Louis and I have to be up at 6:30 to get ready for mass.

Nighty Night

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Ok sorry it has been a while since my last update but here is the low down on what is going on in my life.

I have officially started my second job and I am getting close to busy finished with my training. I have to work next on Tuesday and I will training with the only coworker that I truely don't like so far. So blah! I got assigned a little project for the store. We just got these beginner knitting kits one comes in a slurpee style cup with a set of wooden needles the other comes in a chinese take-out box with the wooden needles and I was given one of the slurpee style ones to knit so we can display what you can make with the set. I get to keep the needles which are a lot nicer then I thought they would be and once the holidays are over I get the scarf, so I guess it is cool. Plus I get that whole team player thing.

I had the stomach flu for 2 days and overdosed on Maalox. It says not to take more then 8 teaspoons or something like that in a 24 hours and well I took the whole bottle in about 35 hours. I called poison control just to be safe...the guy told me to get a lot of fiber over the next couple of days and then chuckled at me. I said thanks and hung up. I felt retarded but it says that if you take more then 8 whatever in 24 hours to seek medical attention and I had taken the whole bottle...I think the laugh could have waited until I was off of the phone. Anyway...

The full time job is ok. I had a review and it went well. Things have calmed down for now and my next big event isn't until January.

Other then that I am trying to get by day to day and I just keep remembering why I am working my self to near death right now. I am doing it short term to have a better long term...

I am off to knit, study and get a little creative... (with a pencil and a sketchbook, in case you were wondering)

Oh that reminds me...I am trying to start getting some more artwork done and then I might put my name in to hang my stuff up to sell at a local coffee shop.

Ok now I am going... peace, love & pepperoni

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i just realized that "Sandy Frink" from Romy and Michele's High School Reunion is Ben (aka Henry) from Lost....

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