so tired. dunno mentally or physically. mayb both. wadever.

not a very good Saturday i had. seriously, stil dread gg home. ha, tt shouldnt b de wae, but i noe i stil hate coming bk home. =( yes, very much. sigh~

i tink i nid a short break. to break myself free fr everythg. work. family. etc. i wld very much look forward to de cruise wif dearie. shall go by de tix prolly tml! *yay* at least thats sth im feelin happy bout.

if im gonna tink bout how ppl is gonna feel.. how ppl gonna react if like tis, if lidat.. den i wun b happy! im not living a life for dem hur! so yup, i decide my own path i wan. after de short cruise, can work, den start studying liao! cant wait to grad even wen i haven start! hee. glad dearie's by my side supportin me.

-at times i get pissed at small little things, but i stil do care, and love you, miss u baby-

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hehe, im back wif more pics. =) 2 only, in fact. *smiles*

the ppl hu kept me moving on in life..


was browsing thru yahoo images, searching for hello kitty, to do tis...tadah!


hee. sending the picture files to June now, and she was askin if i stil rem how we met. heh gal, of cuz i do! =) hee, it was in de lift! a Saturday somemore! her first day here, i was aldy on MC having high fever. i was expecting a new gal by den cos i heard it fr my officer. b4 she came, i was hoping de new gal wil b doin de same stuff as me, den hopefully, hav de same lunch time (since i dreaded eating lunch wif tt gal P).

de first dae we met coincidentally in de lift, she wen "you are jacqueline huh?" gee, guess other colleagues had told her of my existence. =) we din tok much cos how long can u stay in de lift? (LOL. unless lift breakdown la, CHOY!) all i knew was, she had 10 yrs of exp! n a bit of how she ended up here in SCB.

the following wks, we din exactly sit side by side tho we were doin similar stuffs. all i realise was tt my previous officer kept askin her to type letters! grr~ de officer stil had de cheek to ask her if she cld stay (after office hrs) to help out. clever her declined her! i tink if its me, i wld b afraid to defy her orders tt i wld agree lo. :/

come June, i was having lunch alone liao. din had a choice, cos of de job scope. =( as much as i wish i cld join her togeda wif her fren, Elaine for lunch, i couldnt. de whole of June was pretty saddening. so hard to pass time inside office, as well as outside office lo. *sob sob*

some changes took plc in de office soon after. Belle was transferred to another side, OTC, leaving June and me at de QCD area. yay~ tis was de right time to get to noe each other better. =)

June was always de early bird. hee. tho our office hr starts at 830, she'll always come like 8.10, 8.15 etc. super early, not like me! haha~ and togeda wif her, its always breakfast! hehe. not for herself only, but also for me! *grin* we tok, we gossip, but we do our work too! we share de workload, and it feels reali gd to see de pile lesser n lesser. only wen its lesser, den we'll pop to de pantry for a drink. hee. de usual routine ya? *smiles*

everyday of small chit-chats brought us one step closer. some stuffs bout my life which not many ppl noe, i actually conveyed it to her. i din see de nid to tel every single person i knew, but surprisingly, i din even consider much, n jus tok it to her. =) heh, see she's like my 'big sister' after all. hehe.

lunch time is everyone's anticipation. no nid to work ma! hehe. we'll crap our way thru lunch, continously suaning her bout being the richest gal. hee. i guess we cld jus click well wifout any barriers. :)

gd times always end fast. she was actively lookin for other jobs, and come July, a company was willin to wait for her for a mth! *cries* tears of joy+sadness. happy for her indeed. =) she cld start counting dwn to her last day, while Joanne and I were still struggling. lol. :p

1mth pass so fast, its time for a new envt for her. im sure you'll excel in ya new area! =) bring more tissue, ltr u ah choo many times, cos we miss u! *hugs hugs* rem to contact us hor!

-thank you for this treasured friendship!-

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so tired after a day's work (as usual). yesterday's chq were horrible. it broke de record, reached highest of 700 posted chq~ omg~ yesterdat also marked de last day for June @ tis horrible plc-SCB. haha. a small celebration, we had dinner at TM's Fish & Co. the 'rich gal' ordered her sambal fish, Joanne & Elaine had fish n chips while i had my usual Terriyaki Salmon. we ordered an extra side order, calamari! hee, yummy.

it was a nite of takin pics, and not forgetting gossiping.lol. guess tis plc wil hedged a bad experience for all of us, but definitely not a bad memory ya? im glad i met some nice ppl. =) b4 June left, she did buy some cakes as farewell, but of cuz she din giv to everyone. lol. apparently, while she was giving out de cakes to selected ppl, tat dog, hu was (of cuz) not included in June's list, was staring at her all de wae. LOL.

Joanne, June and Elaine:


June, Joanne and me:


that's Elaine wif her Fish & Rice, hee:


Presenting Joanne and June:


heh. Joanne and me:


see the happy smiles we have after work? *grin*


the purrfect 'J's! [Jacqueline-June-Joanne]


June celebrating by squeezing the lemon! hehe..:


Joanne the-noisy-gal, wif her Fish and Chips, hee:


June the-rich-gal, wif her Sambal Fish:


June and Elaine! dey were ex-colleague, from AMEX. and they met in SCB again! hee, thats fate ya. =)


a grp pic. :) the nicest ppl in SCB! hehe.


today, morning's QCD was so boring. esp wen there's no khaki for me to tok to! *sob* daddy brought mummy to SGH, but grrr, dey sae de doctor not rdy yet! *crap* they jus took blood test fr her, den sae de operation is postponed to nex wk! *faint* how can hospital b lidat? grr~

work was quite siong today. having 650+ posted chq. officer got so kan chiong. sigh~ im so happy, i left on de dot at 530 today, hee! even if tt dog grumbles or say anythg.. im turning a deaf ear liao.. her words wil hav no effect on me. she isnt my officer, for goodness sake. HAHAHA.

dearie's havin his range test, thus wun b able to cor. *sob sob* felt so gr8 to b able to receive his msg tis morning, hee. he muz hav sneakily msged me. =p glad to noe he's worried if i was back home safely. =) dun worry dearie! *smiles*

anyway, a meaningful story to share wif u all:

My mother used to ask me what is the most important part of the body. Through the years I would take a guess at what I thought was the correct answer. When I was younger, I thought sound was very important to us as humans, so I said, "My ears, Mommy." She said, "No. Many people are deaf. But you keep thinking about it and I will ask you again soon."

Several years passed before she asked me again. Since making my first attempt, I had contemplated the correct answer. So this time I told her, "Mommy, sight is very important to everybody, so it must be our eyes." She looked at me and told me, "You are learning fast, but the answer is not correct because there are many people who are blind." Stumped again, I continued my quest for knowledge and over the years, Mother asked me a couple more times and always her answer was, "No. But you are getting smarter every year, my child."

Then last year, my grandpa died. Everybody was hurt. Everybody was crying. Even my father cried. I remember that especially because it was only the second time I saw him cry. My Mom looked at me when it was our turn to say our final good-bye to Grandpa. She asked me, "Do you know the most important body part yet, my dear?" I was shocked when she asked me this now. I always thought this was a game between her and me.

She saw the confusion on my face and told me, "This question is very important. But today is the day you need to learn this important lesson." She looked down at me as only a mother can. I saw her eyes well up with tears. She said, "My dear, the most important body part is your shoulder." I asked, "Is it because it holds up my head?" She replied, "No, it is because it can hold the head of a friend or a loved one when they cry. Everybody needs a shoulder to cry on sometime in life, my dear. I only hope that you have enough love and friends that you will always have a shoulder to cry on when you need it."

Then and there I knew the most important body part is not a selfish one. It is sympathetic to the pain of others.

**People will forget what you said...People will forget what you did… But people will NEVER forget how you made them feel.**

tml's Friday, look forward to de wkend ya? *happie*

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wanna noe who'e the nicest pple in SCB..?


make a guess...?


huh...?


...?


ah hur...?


bah, its these pple!


tadah!




hehe..all the best to u June. may u get de nicest officers in ya new company! =)


kinda tired after compling all de pics. wil post de single pics tml k? den u can get it fr here too. =)

the sentosa trip wif dearie:


love u dear! work's so boring! oh no~


tml's Thursday, but its gonna b a lengthy one, cos June isnt ard anymore! boring work liao. sigh~ hav a few upcoming interviews nex wk, hope i get sth! :p shitty officer, dun allow me to tk time off on Friday. sigh~

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today feels like Sunday to me. lol. good tt its aldy Tuesday so fast. yay~

my wkend was pretty well-spent, i tink? ha. was wif my parents on both Saturday n Sunday. had a late lunch on Sunday. mummy had tus Marriot Hotel voucher which is expiring soon, so we wen to check out their cafes there. sadly, de buffet one is full hse le, so we wen ahead to de Garden terrace, which is ala-carte. v nice view. pretty pretty~ we set by de pool, n took pics, hee!




my dear mummy and daddy:


a photo wif me in it, hee:


the appetizer dey gave us, bread wif sauces (yummy!):


huge oven-baked prawns:


sour & spicy thai mango salad:


tiramisu! hee, love it to bits! *grin*


daddy n mummy:


lovely mummy and me:


hee, a picture by de rooms:


heh, dearie cld come out, so i wen off to mit him in de evening while my parents walk (lol) to PS. i was early, so i waited for dearie at de interchange instead of de usual, Whitesands. omg, i reached thr.. everyone looked de same to me! lol... army guys always has de same look. haha. felt so paiseh standing thr, den wen i saw him (like finally!), he was busy tokin to his fren tt he din c me! LOL. *ah bish*

drove to his hse, for him to settle dwn, den we headed for dinner togeda wif his dear mum. at Boon Tong Kee (Bukit Timah)! hehe, yummy food! *grin* ordered so much, i was soooOooo bloated! gosh, dearie's mum stil sae i eat v little. oh my~

Monday evening, dearie n i headed to town for dinner, at Taka Breeks! while waiting for our food:


another shot w/out flash:


hungry dearie wif his delicious meat pattie:


hee. my 2nd time thr wif dearie. den we started tokin bout our 1st time thr togeda, hee, back den we were stil frens. we signed up for helpin out at de Chingay thingy, den during lunch, he recommended tt plc. so paiseh at first, cos he insisted on paying. *wide grin*

we shopped a short while in town, took some pics n sheesh..my nite was disturbed by tis phone call. some frens wld noe hu im referring to. tt bloody person. damn~ so irritating can. crap, dun wanna tok bout him ltr my blood boil. grr~ dearie said he's not been to town for VERY VERY long, thus, muz tk pics wif orchard lightings, faint! lol:



headed to Breko @ Bugis for short coffee session after tt. de Tiramisu din taste tt good, but stil, thanks dearie for treating me! =) pics at Breko:



bah, ya, de same pic, but wif de aid of flash, lol:


heh, thats my Mocha! so long since i drank coffee! *smiles*


Tuesday, yay, dearie woke up fr his precious bed to pick me up for breakfast. hee. =) muz b tough on u, dear aka pig. hee. drove dwn to West Coast Mac. gosh~ it was soooOoo crowded! we had our usuals, Hotcake w/sausage for dearie, and Big Breakfast for me, hee.



our walk @ West Coast Park..




1st shot..oops, not clear


2nd shot, yay nicer! =)




tis cute little boy...


lookin for his partner! lol, dearie took it! =p


come afternoon, we headed to Sentosa! hee, *excited*. nv been to Sentosa wif dearie b4. lol. entering de entrance of Sentosa...




yay, reached! -SENTOSA


a quick shot by de beach:


walkin to de other side of de island:




dearie fideling wif de binoculars, lol:


hee, US:


leaving sentosa soon..:


sob, it rained! sigh~ we were thr for like prolly an hr only? quite sad, but its ok, shall go thr another time! =)


we had lunch @ West Coast market. din had much appetite, while dearie was hungry, LOL. rested at his plc (since it was raining, so nice to slp). i felt so hot, even tho de fan was on. dearie had to slp on de floor bcos of me. =( cos he gave de whole bed to me. :X

we left in de evenin after resting for so long! lol. *pig snore* dinner was at PS Pastamania. yummy-yummy. hee. caught an eye on a black-white tube, hee. shopped at Carrefour as usual, to buy dearie's stuffs. back to home swt home ard 7+. worn out, but happy. thank u for de time dearie. =)

work's gonna b quite bad fr now. dey've been ill-treating us. sigh~ checking out de MOM webbie now. feel bad tt ive to do such things, as in checkin out de rules stated in MOM to protect myself, but reali, its my last straw. sigh~ if nt, dey'll jus contniue takin advantge of Joanne and i. damn~

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time flies, tml's National Day aldy. now tt i stepped into de workin society, public hols means a lot to me. treasure it ppl! =)

things hasnt been gg well for me at work. ppl thr pretty fucked up. i cant stand them anymore. dey r jus being unreasonable. today, Joanne told me tt sth in her tooth dropped out, some metal thingy..and instructions fr her dentist was tt, in de event it drops out, she has to visit de dentist immd. wad a timing, it dropped out today in de afternoon. she had no choice, but to ask for time off. officers werent happy of cuz, but everythg happen too abruptly.

cmon la, Joanne din do it on purpose anyway. so dumb if someone actually tks out sth fr their own mouth rite? crazy~ heard tt dey were pretty angry wif her, cos de office was quite short handed aldy. ha, in de first plc..even wif us ard, de office is aldy shorthanded lo. dey nv tk any actions, cant blame us, if we arent there leh.

den she told me, many ppl are unhappy wif us, tt we're leaving aldy. OMG! for goodness sake. kind of ridiculous leh. not tt we giv 24hr notice leh. we gave 1mth notice, accoring to de contract wad. isnt tt ample time for dem to find replacement? if dey cant find, its their own prob aldy rite? damn~ dey stil hav de cheek to sae dey're disappointed wif us, but hello, did dey tink of de reason behind our decision? are dey dumb or stupid?! crap! y r dey unhappy? more like bcos dey are angry dey cant tk advantage of us aldy hur? siao!

we're young, but not to de extent tt we'll let others bully us. u wan me to help out wif other work, can, im most willing to do so, but if u start takin advantage of wad im giving..and all these while, you're takin fr me, and not giving, den sorry! no such thing as free lunch in tis world ok! we're all her to learn new skills, gain exp and earn some $$. not for u to make use of us. *angry*

fr now, til my last day, definitely, life wun b tt smooth, quite sure bout it. plus June is leaving tis Wed. feelin kinda sad actually. i mite hav protray a strong image, but deep dwn, i feel kinda lost wif out her. feelin teary tt she's leaving. sigh~ she's always like a big sister to me. ignoring the age gap, she's one person hu constantly giv me gd advices, always askin me to stand up for myself, and not let others bully me. sometimes, i dun wan to b so calculative, cos im afraid ppl wil hate me for having such attitude. but ive learnt tt, if u dun help urself, no one wld help u. :/ isnt tt true? sigh, tts de reality i guess.

prolly, i shld get rid of negative toughts in my mind. i always care how ppl tink of me, how ppl wil tink if i do xxx thing. wad ppl wil sae, if i do xxx thing. so at de end of de dae, i wld end up not doing anythg, cos im scared of ppl's comments. sigh~ im so useless.

de mths in SCB, ive tried to b accomodating, always stayin bk wen dey asked me to etc. but i nv felt de appreciation. to dem, of cuz its a benefit. but now come to tink of it, i feel reali stupid, to b made use of. de number of hrs i cld hav claimed as overtime, i didn't. i wasnt aware of it. i wasnt even told tt i cld claim! cos dey sae contract staff dun hav. =(

July, i recorded de daes i stayed, and my officer has to doubt me. see, dey nv made me feel gd in tis company. i stayed bcos of dem, yet dey can doubt me. bloody hell~ dey are driving me crazy lo. im tryin to claim time off tis Friday as mummy is gg for a minor operation. i tout de best i cld do is to spend more time wif her, cos i dun hav many leave to tk also. =)

sad to sae, dey cant cfm de approval yet. tis is so infuriating. June told me, i dun hav to giv dem a reason, since dey're de ones hu owe me de time. i shld jolly well tel dem wen i wanna claim, and tts it. reasons for claiming wil b classfied as personal reasons. i tink its v true, cos i dun hav to report everythg to my officer rite? wad has my family issues gt to do wif him? he ask me so many questions, i feel as if im a prisoner! damn it.

i wanna learn to b firm n strong fr today onwards. not gonna let anyone bully me anymore. yes, dey are officers i noe, im suppose to show dem respect, but i seriously cant bring myself to respect dem wenever i tink of de things dey did to Joanne and i. dey giv me de feelin tt dey r using their position/authority to do such things, which i feel shouldnt b de case. arent we suppose to respect each other? even as 'small staffs', we've our own privacy too rite? i feel as if dey're intruding my life, questioning me my every actions! fuck~

im here to learn, why does SCB has such 'nice' ppl? its such a sad case, for a bank to hav such reputation. very very bad image aldy. pls frens, dun apply for any position thr k. dun wan ur to end up in de same state as me. reali, its tortourous.

i always depend on ppl. like now, i feel as if ive been depending on June to help me wif most of my prob at work. feelin v thankful to her. wifout her, i mite b crying every nite aldy. Thanks for coming into my life gal. if u ever see tis, im reali glad to hav u as my 'big sister'. ur life exp also impressed me! i'll miss those times we chat during QCD. time pass so fast wif u ard. de laughter... de funny jokes.. times wen we tel each other bout our life.. our r/s .. and not forgetting our lets-go-get-a-drink-togeda break, i'll really miss you. =) may u hav better job advancements in ya new workplc! *hugs*

ha, de tout of her leaving, made me tear a little. sigh~ thats life. ppl come and go. why cant de not nice ppl leave! sob! hope tml wil b a better dae! gg to Sentosa wif dearie! hee, kinda excited. will post pics up tml, if im nt tired. swt dreams ppl! *get rid of sour dreams*

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