In my office I have no window to the outside. Therefore I really dont know what is going on unless I walk down the stairs and exit the building. In a way it is good but in most cases it is bad. If I were a plant I think I would be dead by now. I usually have to ask the students that come into my office, "So, is it hot outside?" "Is it raining?" just to find out what the weather is like.
I was just helping a student that asked me, "So, did you hear what is going on in the math building?" The Math building is adjacent to the building I work in. I heard the alarm go off but I thought it was just a routine check. I responded, "NO. I dont know. What happened?" He replied, "There is a gunman in trenchcoat loose in the Math building. Police are on the scene."
I was reading that it is good to vent your anger and frustration. The goal is to be optimistic, positive, and enthusiatic. But you cannot get to that level until you deal with your anger and frustration. I just noticed that everything out of my mouth lately has been negative or mean. I keep saying, I hate this or I hate that or I just complain about every little thing. This has really caused a lot of problems between my bf and I so I really want to change it.
At first I was just telling myself not to speak unless I have something positive to say or dont begin sentences with the word "I". That worked for a little bit but I came home so frustrated and angry. Then I read that in order to feel good you must go through feeling bad. You cant skip in between.
Therefore I am going to create an anger blog. hee hee! I dont know where yet. Maybe I will create it on blogger or better yet I will use my livejournal as my anger blog.
So bottom line... to feel happy you must also feel anger, pessimism, depression, loss etc.. Live, Love, Laugh
Summer is coming and we all want to look good. Well, most of us do. So, I subscribe to this lifestyle magazine to read up on health tips and guess what I find? That is right... the 8 weeks to a beach body article. There is alot of helpful tips on there.
I exercise a lot but I feel as if my weight keeps fluctuating. I dont know if I am really losing or not. I think I need to get on a set schedule.. this article helped.
Bid4prizes is a very unique site where you can bid for the prize that you want. It is a lot of fun. The object of the “game” is to have the lowest unique bid. The starting bid is one cent. The wining bid could be any price as long as it is unique. For example if you bid $1.03 and your bid is the lowest unique bid then you win.
The BEST part is that if you win the prize, you do not pay the amount of your bid. You get the prize for free! That is right. If your bid was $500.23 for a brand new BMW you win that BMW for FREE!!! Bid4prizes even pays the shipping!
I have my eye set on wining the RED BMW 3 series. I want a new car that is sporty and classy. The BMW 3 series will satisfy both needs. I am tired of driving the soccer mobile! I want STYLE!!
mood: depressed and in tears
I did NOT get the job and I feel like such a loser. I packed my stuff up at my desk last week with hopes of starting a new job by the end of the month. I took the time to "ask" the universe for this job and put my belief in it and I still did not get it. I had faith that this job would be mine. But now look?! I feel like such a loser! I cant believe it. I cant believe myself. My bf said that I made him second in my life for about a month and now he is just not happy with me. We got into an arguement on friday too. I just want to QUIT school because my education isn't getting me FUCKIN anywhere!!!
I am so upset I just cant sleep! I want to stay up all night like an insomniac.... and I have to work 10 hours tomorrow and I job that I just hate!! I have been such a good person and I always help people. Why is it that when I need help that I just feel so alone??
There I was.... waiting and waiting... anticipation building. I was so nervous that my stomach started turning. I was waiting to take my 2nd degree black belt test. Before me were students that were taking their brown belt and 1st degree black belt tests. I was taking my test with two men.
As time drew near we stood up and began to stretch. Unfortunately my stomach was turning and causing me to build up with gas. In my mind I was more concerned about avoiding the possible most embarassing moment of my life. If I were to punch or kick and do it with speed and power, the gas just might decide to give its own speed and power.
Just before our names were called I paused for a moment in the corner to meditate and push the gas out. Ahh... much better. I took my test, free of embarassment, kicking and punching and shouting like an awesome karate person.
I PASSED!! I PASSED!!! Unfortunately the two men who testing with me did not do so well. But I am now a 2nd degree black belt. I cant even begin to tell you how much this means to me!!!
