I'm going to be a Godfather.

No, not like an italian.

Like a "if we die, here's our kid" type deal.

I got the invitiation today to my nephew and Godson's christening. I had been asked by my brother months ago to do it, but it didn't really set in until today. This kid is somewhat my responsibility now. Jesse Frietas Dorman... the poor little bastard. He has me as his non-father guy to look up to. And I'm gonna be seeing a LOT of him since I'm going to Massachusetts for grad school. In the formative years, too... should be fantastic.

Anyway, at least one things for certain. He's a Dorman who lives in Boston.

He'll be a Red Sox fan.

But on to the now. Currently I'm doing.. nothing. I'm gonna collaborate on some songs with this guy in the next couple of days. Hopefully I'll get some good ideas so I can add to the weak repertoire I have. I just don't know if the band I've been talking to currently is willing to play what I want to write. And that's faster more upbeat alt rock. Don't get me wrong, I love their stuff. I just think a lot of it is too slow for me. I don't know, we'll see what happens.

Oh man. I thought a lot about Millersville today, and how much I wish I was back there. But that's already been said, so I won't go into it too much. I just REALLY wanna go back.

Also, now I'm gonna try to figure out who's gonna be running for President in 08 and see if I can't work on their campaign. I'd prefer it if Hillary Clinton didn't get the Democratic nod. If she does she'd have to be running against Newt Gingrich for me to want to work for her. But if Giuliani or McCain go for it, I'll be with them all the way.

Anyway, that's my life for the moment.

Enjoy.

Love,
Chris

Comment! (5) | Recommend!

So I went and played basketball this morning for the first time since my surgeries.

Shit, it's almost been two years. I never even noticed how much of an effect destroying my leg, being wheelchair bound for 3 months, and then learning to walk for the third time in my life would have on my mind.

It was almost sad having to teach myself every bit of technique involved with a jumpshot or left handed layup again. I used to be a hell of a basketball player. I could play strong defense, had good inside offense, and could shoot three pointers with relative ease.

And I'm a pretty athletic man... I have played a LOT of different sports and all of them came to me with relative ease. So it was astounding to me how much I'd forgotten in my two years of absence from basketball.

I don't know, maybe today needed to happen. Maybe it'll be my kick in the ass that'll make me want to overcome my piece of shit ankle... freakin' so much metal in my leg I'm more machine than man anymore.

And yes... I have been watching way too much Star Wars lately.

SEE IF THAT STOPS ME, BECAUSE IT'S ON ALL DAY TODAY, TOO!!!

Anyway. Cheer me up, folks. If it weren't for this great series of movies filling my life for the next 15 and a half hours I'd be a very, very, very depressed individual.

Love,
Chris

Comment! (1) | Recommend!

So Cinemax has done it.

They are playing all six episodes of Star Wars.. back to back... all weekend.

This is insanity for me. I am on sensory overload right now... why? Because I am a HUGE nerd and Star Wars means a lot. And seeing all six episodes back to back brings a new respect for Episodes I,II, and III.

Honestly. It makes you realize just how shitty of a director George Lucas is.

In Episode I, he had Liam Neeson, Ewan McGregor, Ian McDiarmid, Hayden Christensen, Natalie Portman, Kiera Knightley, Sammy L. Jackson... the list goes on and on.

Let's break it down here.

Episode I: The Phantom Menace:
Pro's:

-A Cast to be reckoned with
-Darth Maul
-The introduction of Darth Vader, perhaps the most evil sonuvabitch in the history of film as a child, innocent and wise beyond his 9 years, but in the end still a child.
-Symmetry between it and the original Star Wars
-What do I mean? The Duel of the Fates sequence shows Darth Maul slaying Obi- Wan Kenobi's master, Qui-gon Jin. To which Obi-Wan let's out the distressed "NOOOOOOOO!!!!!" that Luke Skywalker will give years later after watching Darth Vader slay Obi-Wan.
-The Pod-Racing sequence, over done as it may be, is still freakin' sweet.
-The introduction of Senator Palpatine, the man who would be the Emperor, and it shows a light side of him, until you look back and see that he is merely setting himself up to be the mover of the pawns in the chess game in episodes II and III.

Cons:
-Gungans. They are to Episode I what the Ewoks were to Return of the Jedi the only difference is that they have a fucking spokesman in Jar Jar Binks. Or as fans like to call him- "The Anti-Christ".


Episode II: The Attack of the Clones

Pros:
-Take the juggernaut cast from Epsiode I and add Christopher Lee
-The development of Anakin Skywalker from an innocent child to a teenage Jedi apprentice, full of angst and the pent up frustration of being a slave from when he was born.
-The turning point, where for the first time you see what will become Darth Vader in Anakin. He loses his mother, and then goes and slays an entire village of Tuskan Raiders. They may be sand people, and they may deserve it, but the Imperial March playing in the background as Anakin sees what he has done is simply brilliant.
-YODA LIGHTSABER FIGHTING ASFHJWHGIKBNVSN!!!!
-The first showing of strain in the relationship between Obi-Wan and Anakin. You can tell that they love and respect each other like brothers, but Obi-Wan is of the old school and wants Anakin to show patience, for he knows that he is the chosen one who will bring balance to the force. However, Anakin is itching for something more, and wants to speed the process along.
-Boba Fett as a child, developing his hatred for the Jedi when he watches Mace Windu behead his father, Jango.
- The romance between Padme and Anakin grows, which is totally necessary to show why the transition from peaceable Jedi to evil Sith is had.
Cons:
-Darth Tyrranus (Christopher Lee) replacing Darth Maul. Although it was a necessary action, who wouldn't want to see more of Darth Maul?
-Jar Jar Binks is given responsibility.
-Lucas starts to overdo it with the epic battles (the first sign that he knows he's in too deep).
-He also starts to overdo it with symmetry.

Episode III: Revenge of the Sith

Pros:
-Darth Vader, people... Darth fucking Vader.
-Jar Jar Binks says one thing, and he's sad about it. The only way that could have been better is if in the opening scroll, after the story was told it said "P.S. Jar Jar Binks tripped over his own stupidity and broke his neck".
-The complete and total emotional struggle it shows Anakin going through. He doesn't want to betray his mentor Palpatine, but he doesn't want to betray his Brother from another mother Obi-Wan, he is frustrated with council, but knows if he is patient his work will pay off sooner than it has for any Jedi. Yet at the same time, the most powerful Sith ever is manipulating his mind to believe that the Jedi are out to get him.
-Mace Windu fucking the Emperor's face up, so we understand why the hell he looks like that.
-THE FINAL BATTLE BETWEEN OBI-WAN AND ANAKIN.
-THE FINAL BATTLE BETWEEN YODA AND THE EMPEROR. And here's why. While they are fighting, the platform they are on rises into the middle of the damn Senate with Duel of the Fates (the best of any of the songs from the series) playing in the background.
-Irony. Anakin tries so hard and does everything he can to make sure Padme survives childbirth... but then he freakin' kills her. I love it.
....Nothing on the Irony?
... see Irony is an incongruity between what was expected... and what actually happened.. see by him killing Padme when he was trying to save her it's actually quite different....

....movin' on!
-Closure. Freakin' closure. The series comes to an end, and we know why Darth Vader is so evil. Because when it comes down to it, the series is ALLLL about him, not his slimy offspring that sucks at aging (Luke).

Cons:
-Juggernaut cast increases with Jimmy Smits.
-The acting, good God the acting. Everybody in this damn movie is good at what they do for a living, but George Lucas must go up to them after they did a scene like an actor would and say "okay... now that was great.. but try to say it like a special effect would".
-Darth Vader: "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO". Fucking stupid.
-Not to mention the movie tries way to hard on a whole.

Episode IV: A New Hope

I would do Pros and Cons. But the Pros are way too many to count, it was a revolutionary film. And the only con is that it left people in suspense for years before Empire was released.

Episode V: The Empire Strikes Back

Again, not going into pros and cons because cons would merely be nitpicking.

This movie is incredible, and when you watch the movies from I-VI, it's better because Yoda is introduced again, you missed him through Episode IV, and you know it. Not to mention Lando Calrissian.

Oh by the way, Han is frozen in carbonite and Vader is Luke's father.

....ouch. I wanna strike back like that one day.

Episode VI: The Return of the Jedi

Finally one we can do Pros and Cons.

Pros:
- Almost the whole damn movie. Lando is back in full force, Han is unfrozen and Luke is finally showing what it takes to be a Jedi. Strong body and mind.
-Ewoks dying.
-Yoda dies. Ushering away the old-school of Jedi, and thereby ushering in Luke's new-style.
-The entire scene with Luke, the Emperor, and Vader on the new Death Star. "Strike me down and your journey to the dark side will be complete!"
-The end of the series. And yet it's still a cliffhanger, because SOOOO MUCH MORE HAPPENS IN THE STAR WARS UNIVERSE. Yet at the same time, it gives you the closure you needed. Obi-Wan, Anakin, and Yoda stand there and Luke sees them all.. because he can control the damn force!! Seriously, I still think that Qui-gon and Abe Lincoln should've been standing there. But whatever.

Cons:

-Ewoks. I fucking hate Ewoks.


Anyway, I love these movies. So much. The original three make you think it's all about Luke, when really it's all about Darth Vader. Tricky, tricky senile Lucas.

And yes I'm a nerd.

P.S.-
Wedge Antilles.

Love,
Chris

Comment! (1) | Recommend!

Alright... here's my lack of shame. This song has a copyright on it by me... so don't get any funky ideas... not like you'd really want to anyway, it freakin' blows.

It's the result of 8 months of anger and frustration mixed with lack of sleep and a pen.

Ladies and Gentlemen... I give you Your Choice ...

keys only

When it all came down to it
Was it ever all that hard
My heart in your hands
Their thoughts in your heart
keys continue, enter light drums
So now I'm ripped to shreds
And strewn across the ground
You didn't even look twice
Didn't bother to turn around

Enter guitars and drums pickup

You walked away from me
With your head held up so high
Such disregard for me
Is no excuse to whine
I never saw it til the last time you looked at me
It was the first time I realized you were meant to be
The Death of my soul's trust for any pretty face
Or maybe everyone this entire God damn race

Chorus

It was your choice to make
And it was my chance to take
But no matter what you're thinking now
It was never your heart to break
Take
Leave unloved for all the world to see
Leave it in the dust and forget about me
Leave it all behind
All the love
And wasted time
Just throw away everything we used to be

You walked away from it
Everything you'd ever need
Left it all behind
Just to satisfy their pleas
Now your friends are so happy
They don't care that he treats you like shit
But you bear it just to please them
So unselfish it makes me sick

Chorus

Instrumental break

Finally pulling myself to one
But off in the distance here you come
Can we fix it all you ask?
Forget about our shattered past
It was so convincing til I saw your eyes
Saw it all
The deceit, the lies
(The deceit, the lies)
You almost had me there dear
A few more seconds and a few more tears
But now I see through all the lies
So go to Hell
How's that for goodbye?

Chorus


Ohhhh man. That was fun. I can hear it, it sounds AWESOME in my head. Thoughts?

Love,
Chris

Comment! (1) | Recommend! (1)

So, not many people who have read this blog yet know a lot about why I'm here at ten to two in the morning writing about my life.

Well, I'm in Doylestown, right now. Going to a community college and working at the Cocaine Industry (hopefully I can get a better paying job and get the fuck out of there in time to get some cash for the holidays).

But last year, I was at Millersville University.

Now, if anybody knows anything about the Lancaster area they'd say "that's nothing to miss" or "do you need cows to moo you to sleep or something?"

Fact of the matter is, for the most part the first statement is true. Lancaster is a less than spectacular area, save the Amish school shooting every now and then, then it's the center of national attention. But it isn't the place I miss. It's the people.

Last year, I started off living in Bard Hall. I had a GA room that I shared with some guy I'd never even known, but we were the only room with air conditioning, a bathroom, and a walk-in closet. So I dealt with the possible serial killer sleeping about 10 feet away from me every night for about a month. However, after that something had to be done. So my best friend since middle school, Eric, kicked his roommate out and I moved into good ol' Gaige Hall.... where my college experience would begin.

I wasn't long after that move that I would go to my first TKE party. It wasn't much compared to what I'd seen, but I got to meet a few of the guys in the fraternity, including Scott Shenk, a liliputian-type man who took me aside and bullshitted with me about Politics for about an hour and a half, and then played me in beer pong. Needless to say, I went back the next night and got a bid to pledge the fraternity, and within a week I was initiated with 3 guys, getting ready to go through pledging for God knew how long at the time.

Within two weeks, Tom, one of my original pledge brothers had dropped, giving Liam, Dave, and I -- the three eventual survivors of the Alpha Beta pledge class plenty of doubts of this being the right thing to do.

Well when I felt that champagne touch my lips after getting in, I knew it was the correct choice. I now had about 20 extra brothers in my life at Millersville alone. Not to mention the thousands internationally who belong to the Largest Fraternity in the world.

Well that led to me coming back to Doylestown for winter break and realizing that it wasn't my home anymore. Millersville was. And that feeling would only grow stronger over the next semester.

Over the next 4 months, I would fall in love... be crushed, go to parties... come back happy, and watch 7 more guys go through what I had just done before them. And through that, gain 7 more brothers.

And that's before we even got to Dorm life.

Airsoft wars in the middle of the hallway, Madden Tournaments, the STOOP OUT FRONT! Good God, I don't know where I'd be without that stoop. It was the place where I could go at any given moment and realize just how right it felt to be at that school.

However, my brain was on overload, and with pledging first semester and the excitement of second semester, it was just too much to juggle my Social Studies Education major. And so here I am, back in Doylestown. Feeling more like a square peg being put into a circlular hole every day. And growing more and more frustrated that the damn four year old that's trying to make me fit there just isn't figuring it out.

...And what's worse is, I know he won't figure it out until next year. When I'm back at Millersville. This time as a Government Major minoring in Political Economics.

Once a month I get a chance to go up there and remember what it was like all of last year. And when I'm up there I get the vibe from those around me that it hasn't been right since I left. And it breaks my heart every time I turn onto route 30 to head back east to the "home" I grew up in.

Sure I have two of my best friends in the world home right now. But with gas prices, and my shitty pay at Cocaine 'R Us, not to mention a 30 minute drive to Newtown and back every other day, I can't see them nearly as much as I would like.

So the best I can do is just grit and bear it through the next 10 months until August rolls around and I am packing my car to move back out to Millersville.

Back to where the cows can moo me to sleep if they wanted to.
Back to where I can be with my friends
Back to where I can feel home.

Love,
Chris

Comment! (1) | Recommend! (1)

So, yesterday I was supposed to be working for the Cocaine Industry (which is what Circuit City may be referred to as from here on out). For about 8 hours, but ladies and gentlemen it was election day.

And since I have been working on Patrick Murphy's campaign for the past few months.. I had to help out. So I called Nat, the head of the district for the campaign, and he told me if I wanted to help out, to come over to DelVal.

So I did. When I got there I was given a kit to go door-to-door to get people out to vote.

Possibly my least favorite thing ever, knocking on doors. Especially when it's 6 o'clock and they have 2 hours to do what I'm suggesting. But I did it, and went to about 150 homes in an hour and a half asking people to go out and vote, most of them said they'd already had, a few said they were on their way, especially when I mentioned that the race was almost DEAD even between Fitzpatrick and Murphy.

In this area, that's unfathomable almost. Our campaign had NO money, everything we gained was from volunteer work who helped get donations from enough people to outraise Congressman Fitzpatrick.

So after all that was done, Nat told me the victory party would be at the Sheraton in Oxford Valley, so I hustled out there, and arrived around 9:45.

The first returns we saw had Murphy up 56% to 44%. CHEERS ERUPTED! I couldn't believe it, but as the night went on, it would get a whole lot less cheerful.

Next returns: 51-49 for Murphy...

Then it happened, at about 11:30. 50-50. Murphy ahead by about 1,000 votes.

Unbelievable, it was all falling apart. Amazingly, however, Murphy held on to that 1,000 vote lead and kept it going until 1:00. With all precincts reporting, Murphy was up by over 1,000. We'd won. The Murphy chants ensued, it was absolute pandamonium. When would the man come out and talk to us about it?

Wouldn't be for a while yet. So the head of the Bucks County Democrat Society came out and filled time, then finally we got what we were waiting for.

Congressman Elect Murphy came out and spoke. He thanked everybody who deserved thanking, ranging from President Clinton to the volunteers on the campaign.

Then he mentioned three issues that he would work on while in Washington.

-Stem Cell Research
-Medicare Part D
-A new direction in Iraq.

The place was going nuts. When it was all said and done, I walked up to the stage and shook Patrick's hand once again, he thanked me for helping, and I thanked him for the opportunity to help such a cause.

And then I went home... it was a much different trip than the one to the Hotel. I felt like I could finally rest. The 8th district elected a Democratic Congressman. That just doesn't happen. But yesterday was different.

The whole time it felt like 2004, when I was watching my beloved Red Sox win the World Series finally. I had waited my whole life for that to happen, and I had waited 12 years for the Democrats to be in control of the House and Senate again. And yesterday, it happened. And I couldn't have been happier than I was, surrounded by people who wanted the same exact thing.

However, even after all of the hitting on newsladies, bullshitting about politics with people I'd never met, hearing the Democrats won the House and were going to win the Senate... seeing Rick Santorum's kids cry...

The best part of the night was still just shaking Patrick Murphy's hand, and realizing that this young guy, only 33 years old, just got his foot into the door that could one day lead to him being Senator.. maybe even President.

Amazing.

And now I have to go into the Cocaine Industry to pick up my schedule for next week.

Hopefully I go unnoticed.

Love,
Chris

Comment! (1) | Recommend! (1)