my mom just told me we might move to miami at the end of the school year. i dont wanna start over again, its hard, no friends, no gurl, no nothing. i hate it!! this is bull!!! my mom says its for the best economically, but i have feelings, and i am willing to actually stay here at kissimmee,were i have almost everything i need, at my aunts house, or friends house, doing chores to help around and get a job actually help pay bills as soon as i can work. this is not fair, i dont wanna start over, i would be loosing everything i worked my ass for. its just not right. what about my feelings don i get a say in this situation? all she says is " its what is best for us", "where ever i go you will go!", thats all she tells me, i dont want to go, what about my friends? i dont wanna loose them, beba, lahore,natasha, daphne, justine, brandy, angel, dereck, veronica, lacy, amber, justin, steven, josh, brad, yeleine, etc... i cant leave them behind! OH this is frustrating!!!!

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this is getting realy tiring already, no one to trust, to go to. i have all this emotion brewed up inside and no one to listen. i wanna scream to the top of my lungs. the reason as to why i feel this way is beacause i miss all my close friends and family from dominican republic. aside from all this i have alot of stress on me and i got homework, and my lil brother still is annoying as always. i have a girlfriend, but i dont even trust her to tell her my inner most fears, and emotions.Sad, aint it?i cant trust my friends either and they are the people i go to when i am feeling down. I need an emotional outlet, someone who cares, my mom who loves me most of all, i dont even touch that subject with her, its useless... i dont trust her. but who should i go to for these things?.....

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my little brother is so annoying i get a headache just talking to him. he asks me questiond to which he knows the answer to, and he does stupid thing for no appearent reason. like last night he couldnt sleep at all so he decided to be loud and keep me up again, seriously this is how he made me feel like doing . oh well i guess it all part of the little brother rules to annoy the older brother, i have come to this conclusion because i use to do it to my older brother, but at least not to his extent. i mean my little brother just does it to do it, who does that? at least i did it to get back at my older brother, but i m never bad to him, so its just frustrating on my behalf. i hope my friend lahore is having a good time....

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yesterday i called my dad.i havent talked to him in a long time so it was really weird.he hasnt been an important figure in my life because he is not involved in it. I dont blame anybody for his mistakes, but it doesn't mean it doesnt hurt.he told me over the phone about how it means a lot to him that i am calling him over christmas eve. I told him about how well i was doing in class, then he just started crying asking for forgivness because he hasn't been in my life.he said he was sorry and that he loves me a lot. that just because we dont talk a lot over the phone doesnt mean that i m not in his heart. He said that he really needed to talk to me because i m a part of his life.But aside from all this he told me that he will always love no matter what, that he wishes me all my desires to become reality. He also said that i was special, he's been telling me that for as long as i can remember it always made me wonder, what he means by it. Most people think is nothing, i would to if it wasnt for the way he says it. to come to a sudden conclusion, the future looks bright between my father and i.

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yesterday i was told my mom about the dual enrollment (honor classes that give both high school credit and college credits) classes being offered to me. she filled out the application and all i have to do is take a test to qualify. i'll take that test on monday. i hope i past that test, it would mean alot if i passed it. aside from all this my concert is tomorrow and i m feeling. i hope nothing goes wrong. i dont wanna be the laughing stalk of school.what WILL happen? find out next time in another episode of Luis's boring life ( or at least as boring as it gets).........

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mood: over drugged
listening to: chris playing his guitar ( the instrument)
watching: myself typing
on friday i got a chorus concert for school, i hope i dont get sick and that everything works out.I m feeling different somehow as if something bad happened. i dunno y i m feeling this way but i m. i should be happy but i m not. is that normal to feel depressed for no apparent reason."be happy" said lahore, as if it were that simple. wat can i do to get better? this is really frustrating!! i hope something interesting happens soon so i can get my mind off this situation. it feels like as if i m missing something, or someone. who knows maybe i ll find that someone somewhere else other than in my dreams.

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