W00t W00t!!!!!!!!!!! I did all my French in 2 days! Yay! 21 pages of boring shit, down the toilet! And I'm done all my english too! YAY! W00t for procrastination! It's hot, man, you know it.


Procastination is like sex. It's all fun and games until you realize you're screwed.

Anyway, I'm tres happiful. Ontop of meh stuff being done, I just have to get all the math answers from Gary (Oh yeah, I'm a hoe) , then I get to go to Busch Gardens with Elaine and Liz! WHOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!! Fri-Sun with Michael and the Psychic Girl! That'd be hot as shiznits! And I'd meet Cosmo.. and drag him into my unmarked van with the lamp in the back and give him the 3rd Degree! MWAHAHAH! ....okay, I'll stop now.. -goes and sits in her corner-


Myeh... I made some buddy icons, one for Liz, and some other random ones, like 'Sing it Again, Faye'.. It's a quotation (Tony, you're taking over my mind! STOP IT!) from Casablanca, but I think it's kinda Cowboy Bebop-esc and Faye esc...

Anyway, off to eat dinner with Nee-chan! Ja ne.

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Sorry I haven't written recently. It's sorta a mix of forgetting and not being in the mood. Nothing has really happened anything.. I got some manga, I got _aid...

And now my life has changed
In oh so many ways
My indepence seems to
vanish in the haze

But every now and then
I feel so insecure
I know that I just need you
like I never done before

Help me if you can
I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate
You being 'round

You all were expecting laid, weren't you. >_< It's paid, not laid. Though I do get both sometimes ^_~; heh... anyway.. -sighs and mopes around the house- I've been kinda.. myeh feeling lately. Not super cheery but not super down... black. White is all the colors, when you're full of life, and you have everything... and black.. when you have nothing.. no fury (red), envy (green), hate (brown), love (pink), happiness (blue), etc... Just kinda 'hollowed out'. I'd explain it, but my hands fail me.

Again.


-sighs softly and kicks the floor a bit- This week-end I got invited to go out of Cosmo's (Liz's moms boyfriend, rich, hot and in love with Li'z mom (who is the coolest shit in the world) ) yacht, and meh and Liz will chill together.. get me out of this fucking house and away from that fucking bastard and my fucking mother. (pointless obscenities are beautiful things).


-sighs and looks at the floor- I'm sorry.. i couldn't stop.. I told you a lie Gary, and Siro.. I said I wouldn't cut, and I did.. I'm sorry.. I didn't mean too.. i just.. had too.. don't place your trust in me, i'll lose it...


Help me if you can I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being 'round
Help me get my feet back on the ground
Won't you please, please help me?


I don't want the pain I associate with loving you.





I told you lies you didn’t believe
And you said nothing
I told you I didn’t want to breathe
And you did nothing
I slit my wrists and bled all night
What did you do?
I ran away, right out of sight
And where were you?
I wanted to curl up, right there, and die
And you turned away
I saw you smile and watched you cry
And you ignored me
I wanted you to be proud of me
But you never were
I wanted you to love me completely
But you never did
So all I ever really tried to be
Was perfect
But it’s sad, that you never noticed me
Until I cried



Oh but we are beautiful creations.. On that note, I shall take my leave. Good night my friends.

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watching: Everyones IM windows blink cuz I'm ignoring them
listening to: Midnight by Trans-Siberan Orchestra (TSO)
mood: Tired e.e


And in the dark, he sits alone
To watch his final hours bleeding
And unconcerned upon the wall
The clock, it ticks away the time

No need for words
For in the dark, all words have long since lost their meaning
Still when they whisper in his ear
He tries to read between the lines


I'm confused.. or as Psychic Girl would say "Cornfruzzled!" >_< Gotta be the stupidest phrase out there...

But someone half-left a comment of 'Thought provoking ending there" Bad memories -.- And I'm guessing it might be Pawel or.. someone... But I don't know.. I don't understand it.. >< CONFUZZLED!

Oh well... I got 201.56 cents for caddying! I originally got 200 bucks plus 10 bucks in tips, but I spent the 10 and found 1.56! W00t for meh! Lotsa manga I'm supposing.. or something. -shrugs softly- Anyway, I think I might have to wear the skintight jean thing tomoro... the lace..not my style, ya know? >_< According to Liz I 'have a style'. Red shirt with drapey sleeves is 'not my style'...What the fuck. WHY DO PEOPLE KNOW THINKS ABOUT ME THAT I DO NOT! Curse it!

"Hey, are you two twins?" (about meh and Sarah)
No miss

"Aw, you girls twins?"
Just sisters, miss

"Wow, what 2 pretty red head girls"
-reachs for spork-
Sarah- RESIST URGE TO MUTILATE!
-the man wanders off confused-


GAAAAAAAH! Do I look like Sarah? With my hair in a ponytail and with glasses, maybe, but other than that, NO! You think the lip ring would tip 'em off! Probably too blind to know what color their skin is. Fuck them >_<


What I see, what I feel
in your heart
All your dreams, all your lies
Can you tell them apart?

See the hands on the clock
Are you watching them turn?
For your candles quite low
We've been watching it burn!




Anyway, talked to.. Tony online, Edun, Gideon, Catherine, Tyson, dunno-her, Jason (ALFREDO!) and Collin at Edun's bar mitzvah. That was funny shit. There was some whiskey and meh and Tyson took some and started drinkint the shots.

Tyson- This takes like shit
Meh- Yep
Both- -downs two more-


Garydwnlds: oh fuck
Garydwnlds: burning stuff
Garydwnlds: not good
BluBerryEyeLiner: >_< probably not


Thinking is an overrated concept online, like counting at work and clothing at the dinner table! Well, the clothing thing is my fault.. -giggles-

Meh Dad- SUSAN! DINNER!
Meh- -comes down in a towel with white gloves on-
Meh Dad- -looks at me and puts his head in his hand- Oh Gah..


:-D A couple of days ago. That was really weird.. I love scarring my dad! He's so spiffy and fun to torment! -dances-

Meh- Dddaddddy... can I have a collapsible rocket launcher?
Dad- Within the week

Meh- Daddddyyy
Dad- Whatever it is, no
Meh- Can you drive me downtown?
Dad- No!
Meh- Pplleeaasseeee
Dad- -sighs- get your coat

Meh- Daddy!
Dad- Oh dear. What do you want?
Meh- How conditional is unconditional love?
Dad- It stops at felonies
Meh- Shit.

Meh- DADDY! WHERE'S THE SOLDERING IRON!?!
Dad- ..not going to ask.. IN THE BASEMENT!

Meh- -walks by in thigh high tights, supergirl undies, high gloves, goggles, a plug-in cord strapped to meh ass and a green nightie-
Dad- ..she could have been a boy...

Meh- Daddy, when we're in London, I need to buy a dress.
Dad- -chokes on coffee, spewing it all over the other two empty seats- A WHAT?!
Meh- --.-- Underneath all this, I am a girl you know! And 'sides, Mother says I need one for confirmation
Dad- Oh, for a moment, I thought you were, realizing your gender or something like that
Meh- How absurd

Meh- Mother! WHERES MY THONGS!
Dad- -silently weeping-

Meh- Yeah, I owe you 189 bucks for all the anime in total
Dad- I need to get you the bumpersticker "Anime = Crack would be cheaper"

Meh- Daddy, what would you do if I became a lesbian?
Dad- Who would tell the difference?
Meh- :-O! DADDY!
Dad- I'm kidding.

Meh- How many laws to thermotechnics are there?
Dad- -goes into this huge speech-
Meh- o.o;; how many?
Dad- 32

Meh and Dad- -having a debate on the greater other, Steinback or Tolstoy (him Steinback, meh Tolstoy)-
Mother- George, do remember how old our daughter is.
Dad- ...12?
Meh- 13!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dad- Right, anyway, have you finished War and Peace yet?

Dad- Well, I found out about the V2's while looking up rocket fuel
Meh- O.o;; only you Daddy
Dad- -evil smile-

Dad- Yeah, you sit there with your kid and listen to them randomly bitch in nonsensical sylabels and then you here "DADA!" And you go "SAY IT AGAIN, SAY IT AGAIN!" and they kind of blankly stare at you.


Meh- -on cellphone to meh dad- Daddy....
Dad- What have you done? One moment
Meh- Ehh... okay
Dad- Okay, I'm back. I had to check the white house was still intact
Meh- HEY!

Meh- Daddy! There's a DOLL on my BED! REMOVE IT!
Dad- Are you sure you're a girl?
Meh- I havent checked recently, maybe I'm lying -sarcasm-
Dad- You do that


Meh- Daddy, there's blood all over the floor
Dad- Every house member accounted for?
Meh- Ha ha, I mean, i'm bleeding
Dad- WHAT!?!?!
Meh- I thought you don't like blood... i accidently cut my arm.. and it's bleeding... and I'm scared Daddy
Dad- I don't like blood, but I love you and am your father! -starts working on cleaning it up-

(^ isn't he spiffy ^)

Meh- 'morning.. -grumble grumble-
Dad- -takes hand, checks wrists- Morning
Meh- >o< You LOSER!
Dad- Well, I am your father.

Meh- Daddy, can I have a-
Dad- No, the answer is no. now what did you want?



:-D That's my DADDY! Smart, British, spiff-spacular Daddy. Beats my Mother, 2000000000(more 0's) to 1! ^^;

Do you lie here awake
As the shadows look on
Should they cry for your sake?
Should you sleep in their arms?


Anyway.. off to go wrap up my wrist or something... Lemme a Comment


^_~<3



For the shadows see all
And they rarely forget
All the dreams that you've had,
Every act you regret!

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Dress - Made by a man
Corset - made by a man
Girdle belt - made by a man
Bra - made by a man

>_< This has to tell you something about our lives. Dresses are Satanic, I'm not kidding! EVIL DOM! Dresses! Scary crap! It's either wear my skintight jean one that makes me look disturbingly large in the breast area, or one that's basicly transparent with 'strategetically placed' lace. >_o

Oh well.. Gotta try and unfuck my blog >_<


TODAY iS MY LAST DAY OF WORK! YES! W00t w00t! Like.. 200 bucks or something! WOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But I dunno...>> I might work the 7 game and get extra money or.. go home.. and get a decent nights sleep for once... -weighs her options-


anyway there ish still the dress thing...-whines-...I think I may plead death.. >_<


Gotta go to work now

Ja Ne, ^_~<3, lemme a comment!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



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You…

Who are you…?

What are you…?

What do you want with me…?

You can help me…? With what…? What is wrong with me…?

Where are you..?

I can’t see you….

You’re not real are you…

You’re not real…

I can’t see you. Get away from me

Stop it, don’t touch me.

Don’t take me anywhere…

Where are we?

No.. I don’t want to.. I want to go home

This isn’t home. I want to go to my home

Stop it

Stop it right now!

GET AWAY FROM ME!

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-dances- Oh dear me, my darlings! Isn't it ironic? Our car got stolen! -giggles- And the crappiest one too! The '89 Oldsmobile that refuses to start sometimes... -giggles- Oh well! No skin off my back! But there shall be a problem. Meh mum needs to go to work, so she needs a car. So does my dad for work and my sister needs one for school!! -giggles- Meh, I can walk to my school, or I get driven before meh mum goes to work!!

-dances-

-collapses into giggles- This seems rather cruel, but we had just been talking about getting the bumper sticker "Answer my prayers and steal this car"! And besides, that car wasn't going to last that long anyway! I don't think my dad knows... -contemplates calling him- Daddikins! The car got stolen! Then he'd probably blame one of my friends... -contemplates against it- Yeah, I shan't do that.


I got work starting at 1 and again at 7 with like... very little time between. -shrugs- Ah well. I'll get home around 12, get online for a bit, drop into bed and have to get up for Eduns bar/batmitzvah (I dunno which it is, so sue me). -groans slightly- I might try and leave early, at like 12:30 so I can get to work at 1. I really don't feel like sitting in a hot synagog, listening to some old man moan about how great it was that Edun was becoming a man (for some reason, I still don't think he is. Maybe the maturity level and the fact he seems to let his hormones run wild could be part of it?!?!) while wearing a DRESS of all heathenistic things! -sulks- I have better things to be bored doing. But I think Mary and Zile may be there...

Mary and Zile are my bitches. Mary, by far, is almost exactly like meh (crazy, needs serious medication, etc.) only she's much cooler! And Zile.. that guy lives with a boner. And that's just funny. :-D. But he's pretty geeky, so he fits rrriigghhtt in with us. I dunno who else will definately be there, but I might go just for everyone else. I mean, honestly, I think Edun only invited me so I would be forced to intermingle with his bastard friends and him. Oh, and definately see me in a dress.. Ewww... I might cheat.. -giggles evily-

Hey! Teacher!
Leave them kids alone

Mm... alright. I go, I stay 'til 12:30 then flee from the synagog and go to make money. Excellent. Now I just need a ride.. curse them people stealing Sarah's car!!! Mm..... Oh well. >_> Life goes on!


^_~<3 Lemme a Comment, BITCHES! :-D

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Lookie! I'm home before midnight! Is that not the spiffist shit out there? It is, so nyah. :-P! -giggles- It's 7:27 right now.. -sulks- But I have nothing to do. Everyone is so boring. I was discussing the morality shown in Dantes Purgartory, Inferno and Paradise with Siro, but then she left meh. Pathetic, I find it distictly annoying.

Quotes from todays work-

"You are a bitch!"
"So are you! I wish I'd never married you" (They've been married and haressing each other for 30 years! >_<)

"COULD YOU GET THAT POLE ANY FARTHER UP YOUR CUNT?!?!"
"ONLY IF YOU SHOVE IT THERE WITH YOUR SHIT BIDDING!" (Best friends)

"Her spirit would zezasporate! I mean, er, disapate!"
-Susan checks Sarah's drink for Cocaine-

"I hate people who cut. It's so nasty."
-Slips her hands into her pockets and walks away to collect score cards-

>_< Pretty weird people out there. Anyway, I have made the 'Rules For Caddy Treatment'

1.We are people too.
2. We are NOT psychic! We need visual and audible symbols that you are requesting our presences.
3. Just because we do not know where your hand sewn hanky with the light purple/pink rose petals is, does not qualify us as idiots.
4. Caddying tripping is a SIN!
5.Tapping our rear-ends is not a good way to get our attention. We haves names to call out, or ELBOWS to tap.
6.It is rarely the caddies fault.
7.Caddies usually know how to play Bridge. You can have them play your hand as you use the bathroom. You do not have to start yelling about your bladder habits to anyone within a radius of 30 miles.
8.Caddies are not skinny enough to slip through the 3 inch space between your chair and the person behind you. We will get you an annorexic caddy if you want one, but until then.
9. Just because you have been waiting 30 seconds, does not mean that a caddy is not coming. This does not mean that you need to continually scream.
10.You may not slap a caddy.
11. Caddies are not your personal slaves. They can get things for you but if you verbally abuse them, they don't have to.
12. 'Do The Carpets Match The Drapes, hun? -laughter-' Is not an acceptable means to get the red-haired caddies attention. You will be ignored.
13. Just because one particular caddy (you know who) has a smaller form of a mohawk and wears black, does not mean she is not equally capable.
14. You may NOT pick and chose your caddies.
15. Tipping is not ONLY a city in China.

Holy crap, I'm listening to Limp Bizkit. And I'm enjoying it! -horrified- Oh well :-D


It's all good. -dances- Oh, at Caddying today, we got rreeaallyy bored, so some of us had a breakdancing competition to 'The Police'. How sweet shit is that? 'twas very fun.. -sighs lightly and lays her chin on the edge of her keyboard, staring at the screen placantly- Now I'm depressed... and i think it's mostly coming out that I'm bored and I've thought about some things too much by now... -closes her eyes-

Before I make this entry need prozac, ^_~<3 and lemme a comment.

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