5 things that scare you:
1. being alone
2. falling in love with someone else
3. the dark
4. rejection
5. not having someone to hold me when I cry.

5 things that make you laugh:
1. Jenny Lou
2. When someone gets hurt…but not seriously, like choking on a skittle.
3. when I do something stupid
4. Ryan in his odd ways…sigh
5. hah, a lot of thing’s make me laugh…kinda, easily amused

5 things you love:
1. Allie
2. Ryan
3. Jen
4. Lori
5. salad and pizza.

5 things you strongly dislike:
1. being alone in the dark…at my house
2. getting my heart broken
3. Michelle Blackwell
4. Fatty foods
5. rude, insensitive, or stuck up people…and judgmental

5 things you don't understand:
1. love
2. life
3. Ryan
4. Me
5. and pain

5 things on your desk:
1. A picture of Ryan
2. a glass of ice water
3. my depressing folder
4. tape
5. a convo with Ryan

5 negative facts about you:
1. I’m whiny
2. I complain to much
3. I don’t handle pain well
4. I’m judgmental
5. I’m…me.

5 positive facts about you:
1. I’ll tell you the truth, whether you like it or not.
2. I can usually make people laugh
3. optimistic usually
4. Different
5. surprising…

5 things you plan to do before you die:
1. go sky diving.
2. Find someone that’ll love me
3. Go find Allie n run away with her
4. go to NYU
5. go water skiing!

5 things you can do:
1. cry
2. laugh
3. talk
4. whine
5. and bytch

5 Things You Can't Do:
1. Tell him how I feel about him…
2. Be content with myself
3. Love without regret
4. skateboard. =(
5. siiing =(

5 People You Want To Meet:
1. no one really.
2.
3.
4.
5.

5 songs you think are cool right now:
1. I drove all night
2. Truly, Madly, Deeply
3. Stacys mom
4. Iris
5. When I come around

5 things that turn you on about the sex of your choice:
1. personality…
2. nice eyes
3. woooah gotta have the body. ;)
4. he’s understanding n caring
5. happy trails…sigh, heaven.

5 movies:
1. The Good Girl, sigh I really like that.
2. American History X…makes me think
3. Banger Sisters
4. Minority Report
5. I love the American Pie’s. :=)

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::Sigh:: When I was a little kid, my life sucked...I mean, it sucked...my parents weren't exacatly the best parents, but atleast my life made sense then...i mean, i didnt understand why they were so mean to me but atleast i never hurt this way, atleast i had my sisters to laugh with n cry with n fight with...now, i got noooo one. Life is odd...it never turns out the way you expect it to. you think you know everything and have it allll planned out, then...it jus changes, so quickly...you can't stop it. you try, you scream, you beg, you cry...nothing...nothing can make your life go back to the way it once was.
...sigh, i keep looking at the clock, jus waiting for the day to end...jus waiting...because I know I'm about to be dumped and yes this breaks my heart but, i can deal with it. I don't like seeing him hurt and if this will make thing's better for him, i guess its gotta be. I'll be ok...I don't care. it doesn't matter to me! God damn it, I do care! I care more then I'll ever be able to let on...I'm going to get on the bus tonite and cry...so hard...and jus cry...and be mean, and I'm going to go home n cry...i wish i could make myself not cry, i wish i could be stronger then i am!

life hurts, maybe someday it won't...

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hah, today on the bus...Chris Becker n I were bored n I was throwing skittles into his mouth n I kept missing and then Chris was like, "hahahaha it'll be so funny if you actually get one in my mouth and it goes down my throat and I choke." and lol, sure enough...next skittle...aim, throw and...choke! hah Chris, yer sucha dumbass.

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I hate this class, it gets worse n worse, now i can't even listen to my cd player...I wanna die. it snowed today, I was in shock...and then I realized...winters coming closer and closer...and I'm dreading it more n more...every day. ::sigh:: I'm going to miss that kid when he's gone...I mean, I know right now we're really close to breaking up but jus not getting to see him is going to rip me to pieces. I wish I was stronger then I am. There's only so much pain a heart will take and I think my heart is jus a lil tired of being hurt n beat up... ::big ol sigh:: my poor poor jenny lou, I love her. I hate seeing her go another way, jus to avoid seeing them....thing's will get better, don't you worry. ...I've decided that when he breaks up with me, I won't let it be online. If he tries, I'll sign off...I've watched him become more n more of a man over the last year, and I want him to be a man about this...::sigh:: i'm going to miss him. Cameron, you're a stupid woman beater and Ima beat yer ass if yah don't knock it off. :p Miranda...sigh, she's so great. weee well, mr picks coming...he's so mean. more later.

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*Sigh* I love Ryan with all my heart...and more, but that doesn't matter to him anymore. He doesn't care what happened with us and god, it breaks my heart. I love him n don't want anyone else but him, so why is he doing this? I thought thing's were going to work this time, I thought there was hope for us, I just had so much hope for us and he's given up...I guess all's well that end's well...I love you still.

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