My grandparents live out in Egg Harbor Township, which is about a couple minutes drive from AC. June 2nd is the one year anniversary of her death. I'll be going out there to pay my respects. Perhaps then I'll be able to get my head back together.
If not then, then perhaps after I start seeing a shrink.
Hopefully my agency will be able to tell me if it's covered.
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Enough with my yammering... here's something for y'all.
I forgot how much shit your body goes through when you start taking a new diet pill. The level of caffine in these pills are supposidly the thing that keeps your energy up, however those who know realize that caffine, although it does give you a good level of energy in the begining, also makes you crash; hard.
But that's not what I'm writing about. Even though I've been plagued by exhaustion by these pills, it's not what annoys me the most. Mood swings and the jitters top my list in regards to bs side effects that are prone to come about when using this stuff. When you can't seem to keep your hands steady and while I'm typing this, I have to admit my typing speed seems rather faster, however so are the level of my mistakes. *shurg*
This weekend with everything that has been going on in my life, the whole chemical imbalance issue finally came to a head when I broke down a just cried for about three minutes then came back to myself again. My friends didn't know what to think, however neither of them knew that I was on a new pill. I can only imagine how I'm going to be like when I start taking birth control >.<
Yes, caffine keeps you peppy for a little while, but it also makes you on edge. I just finally crashed in a very bad way. I should have stopped taking it after the weekend, but hoped it was an isolated incident. Maybe I'm right, maybe I'm wrong, but I know I won't go postal, so I don't have to worry about an extreme.
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And now, for a classic for those maybe as old as me...
