There is no way to explain how i feel... Wednesday. 4.7.04 6:49 pm It seems i was missed...
Atleast thats what i've been told.
Well. Im back from Spokane with an energy drink for Kevin... when i see him again. Omg I miss them all so much. Them as in my friends who i havent seen for a while.
I feel so stupid though. So incredibly stupid. But i dont want to talk about that. I've just had too much time to think. Right now, if i could cry, i would. Everyone seems so sad, even if they arent. I feel so distant from everyone... even if im not. Mabye i should just write a poem... then burn it to get all of my emotions out.
I've determined... thinking is bad for me. For the past two days, or so, all i have really done is think. I had a dream that turned into a hallucination. This one frame (from my dream) keeps running through my head. This one sentance keeps running through my head.
Well. I can go to Will's BBQ... yayers.
I dunno. Comment! (1) | Recommend! Sunday. 4.4.04 11:33 pm Im sort of confused right now... 
There is this guy i like... a lot. I dont really know exactly what to say... Im slightly scared... of a lot of things. Im scared of getting too close to him because what if something happens? Im scared of getting ripped away by my parents (call me crazy o.o). Im scared of hurting him without even trying. I dont know if that makes any sense... but its partly how i feel.
But now that i know more.. i think... i prolly wont act exactly the same. You know who you are. Im sorry (once again) for being the way i have, but hey, like i said... im scared of a lot of things.
I could try to write a poem... but still... too shy. I hate that. I wish i wasnt so shy.
then again... this entry prolly only makes sense to me... because i've kept a lot inside... Comment! (2) | Recommend! Wednesday. 3.31.04 10:53 pm YOU KNOW WHAT SUCKS RIGHT NOW?! EVERYTHING!
I'm not sure i want to go into it, but i have this stupid internet block on the computer because my mom doesnt trust me. She thinks im going to do something... wrong... Comment! (2) | Recommend! Saturday. 3.20.04 10:05 pm 
Hehe. So hungry. I added more lines to my poem below. Ickies. I still feel sick. My nose is all red, but im happy. I started a tune to a song. Sad thing is, i dont know how to play guitar. Anyhow, it starts out with C#... but i dont know the names of the rest of the notes... hmm...
Anyways. I finished part of my hw. Thankfully. Now. All i have to do is the bigger half.
I'd better go. Must... finish... hw... ack. Comment! (0) | Recommend! o.o Posting HW here... lol.. Saturday. 3.20.04 6:02 pm Dont piss me off... Somehow, this is a poem >.< Thursday. 3.18.04 12:09 am | 
