What is your name?: Sarah Courtney Mills (a.k.a. clara 'detox' mills milk)
Are you named after anyone?: there are like a million sarahs in my family.
What's your screename?: i would tell you, but then i would have to kill you
Would you name a child of yours after you?: nope
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: wow, that i so weird... this person that did the survey said they liked the name sarah... interesting... i dont know what my name would be... sorry dudes
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: annnd the person who did this said scott. this is too weird. lets see... switch names with christine. and thats britt (roomie) or clarke, there is just so many things you can do with that name.
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: i thought not till i was called clara... and then ashley thought it was a hoot and kept callin me clara. fuck that shit mann.
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: sarah. hmmm... no i would have to change my name if i was famous.... like i think goggles is stickin to me, and ppl remember me by them... the goggles.

Basics
Your gender: Female
Straight/Gay/Bi: straight... as far as i know, but ppl seem to think otherwise... whaddup mama
Single?: nope. im not. boyfriend is here, playing those stupid video games and talking about how he hates women. all of us.
If not, who do you want to be with?: guess i cant answer this
Birthdate: 6.15.85
Your age: 18
Age you act: anywhere from five... to... well anywhere
Age you wish you were: 5 with not a worry in the world, or 21 with an ID
Your height: 5'9:"
Eye color: brown or hazel to g unit
Happy with it?: i want green eyes. thad be wicked cool
Hair color: well, now its brown with fading pink highlights, but johnny harrigan seems to think that i need to go back to my "real color" which is "brown with those blonde parts, it was like that forever!" says johnny
Happy with it?: no... hate brown like wow.
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: righty
Your living arrangement: Merrimack College... so, that means dorm
Your family: aww man... okay: micah 13. kris 20... then three step silings... and their kids, and my mother, and my father, and my step mom... and thas all for now... key words for now...
Have any pets: me and the captain make it happen
Whats your job?: you know the newtown turnpike intersection? yea... thats my job... MY CORNER DUDES.
Piercings?: too touchy about this. losing too many and not allowed to get the ones i want. sigh...
Tattoos?: heart on wrist and star on ankle... want more...
Obsessions?: mack hockey... and money being organized in wallets
Addictions?: dont even get me started
Do you speak another language?: me and other languages dont go well together
Have a favorite quote?: too many
Do you have a webpage?: nutang... thats it

Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?: at times
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: thats such a joke
Do you hate yourself?: ... sigh...
Do you like your handwriting?:nope... got sloppy
Do you have any bad habits?: i love bad habbits
What is the compliment you get from most people?: youre a slut. oh wait? thats not a complement?? (scott says its that im hot)
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: JOke.
What's your biggest fear?: so many fears.... being alone.... being poor... not succeding... dont even get me started
Can you sing?: when im drunk... and with my friends... thhhats just about all the singing youre going to get out of me
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: dude, i am the person that people pretend to be to BE cool.
Are you a loner?: used to be
What are your #1 priorities in your life: scott says sex sex and more sex. i say things like school, and being happy
Are you a daredevil?: at times
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: everything. the hate thing... everything.. oh well... oh, and the fact that i cant type.
Are you passive or agressive?: AGGRESSIVE!
Do you have a journal?: hellllooooooo
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: stregnth: ummm drinking weakness: drinking
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: my body like whoah
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: i used to be
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: lara said not to regret.
Do you think life has been good so far?: such a rollercoaster
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: guys... are all... the same! ... but im working on not thinking that way since scotty is different... im learning to accept that.
What do you like the most about your body?: nothing
And least?: everything
Do you think you are good looking?: AHHHAHAHAHAHAHAAA
Are you confident?: read the last three questions then tell me what YOU think
Are you perceived wrongly?: yea, a lot...

Do You...
Smoke?: IIII QUIT! but i do smoke sometimes when im drunk, but nothing like i used to
Do drugs?: i quit... look at what sarah mills did for her bf.oooooooooh snap.
Read the newspaper?: nah
Pray?: oh please
Go to church?: i would burn if i tried to go in
Talk to strangers who IM you?: hmmm to see who they are
Sleep with stuffed animals?: when i sleep in my own bed
Take walks in the rain?: if its warm... but i hate the rain, so its gattah be a good reason
Talk to people even though you hate them?: sometimes
Drive?: when i have a car
Like to drive fast?: not anymore... coughcough ashley oh no!

Would or Have You Ever?
Like your voice?: not at all
Hurt yourself?: too many times.
Been out of the country?: yupp
Eaten something that made other people sick?: im sure i have at some point
Been in love?: and every time i ask myself what im getting myself into... oh, that means yes.
Done drugs?: so many... oh well...
Gone skinny dipping?: why yes i have... once when i was like thirteen... and well, last spring break.... canadian anyone?
Had a medical emergency?: yea
Had surgery?: yup
Ran away from home?: AND ive gotten kicked out!
Played strip poker?: LOL sure have lost bad too... but, we werent allowed to take our clothes off, so it wasnt reallly strip poker (hallbrooke)
Gotten beaten up?: by my brother
Beaten someone up?: i try
Been picked on?: oh yea
Been on stage?: yea
Slept outdoors?: sure have.
Thought about suicide?: ... no comment
Pulled an all nighter?: so many... insomnia anyone?
If yes, what is your record?: too many nights
Gone one day without food?: yea
Talked on the phone all night?: to burnz
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: sure have! go meee go mee!
Slept all day?: i love it
Killed someone?: thats what i told people that i got sent away for... gattah love mental hospitals!
Made out with a stranger?: ... terrace club anyone? ... and does chris count... cuz he tured out to not be a stranger
Had sex with a stranger?: ... canada anyone? ... not so much a stranger after a while though.
Thought you're going crazy?: sure have.
Kissed the same sex?: few too many times
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: nope
Been betrayed?: too many times...
Had a dream that came true?: dreams dont come true
Broken the law?: every weekend
Met a famous person?: i dont think they count, but i have
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: CHIPMUNK!
On purpose?: thats my brothers game
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: i think.
Stolen anything?: steal? once in a while... from my best friends at merrimack! ohhh snap!
Been on radio/tv?: uhh yea
Been in a mosh-pit?: yea.... got whip lash too
Had a nervous breakdown?: too many to count
Bungee jumped?: gimme time
Had a dream that kept coming back?: yes


rest later ppl... the boyfriend has put up with enough.

out like whoah

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So, its monday night RAW time, and the end of the weekend.

Hmmm... i think ive caught you up to saturday night... sunday i chilled all day with the girls, they woke me up when i was passed out like fuck, and we went to brunch, and then slept and chilled all day. we werent going to do anything, but ashley got really really bored and was like im b to thr o to the r to the e to the d... wanna drink to get rid of the bordom? shiiizzah. so i got all ready and we cracked open some drinks. ... thennnn scotty called. he was home mad early.. and i went to go see him. he got me beer tops that say "i am" over a maple leaf... mmm canada... and a medium sized handle of parrotts bay that has french writing on it! whohoo... so im with scott, and ashley and kori decide to keep calling me like the drunk fucks that they were till i came outside... those two were soooo wasted "sarahhhh icant seee you whereee are youuu" so eventually i came back, and played a little catch up with myself... and after almost getting caught we all ventured to my room.... got dressed, and met scott outside... we didnt really know where we were going but ended up at tewks and from there went to duprees apartment off campus... yea... what a weird night. the cow was there, with "little big cow" and friend of them. bert who is a phi kapp, james, colin, e$$$, nancy, danielle, kori, ashley, scott, justin, anderson, dupree, and then a whole bunch of really random guys and girls... oh... and HOCKEY. yea... blake stuart like whoah. hmmm ashley and i were wasted and holding eachother up, and appearantly that means we're lesbos now. oh well... we came back at like 230, no kori though, she was with little big cow... i talked to kath when i got back, she was with mikey... ... she stayed over... ohhh yes she did. so slept with scotty... so nice to have him back... i didnt really think i missed him until he was back and sleeping with me again. i dont know... <3 luff.

such a good random fun weekend with the girls, even though we spent all day saturday veggin inside... megz came up for the whole weekend and it was really fun to have her actually living with us on campus for a few days.

well, i have to go watch sean michaels now.... but you know... ill be back when im back.

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... cuz all i feel is pain"

so... what a weekend... what a night... what a life...

friday night was most excellent. lil megz has come up to stay the weekend and party it up, and frump during the day... its been good. We pregamed in ashleys room... as usual... then ventured off to campus. Started at Tewks with the Phi Kapp boys, then we all went over to b... finally got to point out hot colin to ashley and the girls... what a good lookin boy that is mmm... then we all went to F but bounced shortly after, walked around trying to find a party, but it seemed as though everyone has left merrimack and we didnt get the memo.... sigh... always missing those stupid memos... well, i went back to F because danielle wanted me to come in with her.. those girls are really nice to me, and i feel bad that im always leaving them... the other girls went back to Tewks... hung out with E$$$ colin haze and anderson.... played and lost beruit with e$$$, said goodbye, and called kori... who was in ashleys room, now i wasnt planning on going there but i did... ran into megz and kath on the way back and we went up together... drunken madness in ashleys room till we crashed after a fish fight and somme peanut butter gooodness... now: picture this: me and megz foot to head on the spare bed... ashley in hers, kori face down on the ground... in her clothes "i dont even care, im not moving, im sleeping with the fish" went to bed with the world spinning...

...and woke up with it doing the same thing... oh wow was i hungover. ashley puked.... slept... brunch... dead as fuck... walked to brooks... and vegged the WHOLE DAY we were so hurting... blllah.... watched movies and such, and at 1130 kori and megz were going to tewks so i went too... stayed for like an hour, talked to lidz a bit, but after being called a slut a bunch of times, and i think i was booty called by geoff ash... yea... he was like "so i hear you have a bf.... a real one?" "you would like cheat on him though wouldnt you? you wouldnt?" yea... that was time for me to go home... cant stand james when hes that wasted. go fuck your wife. get back to me when youre not going to call me a slut.

now im waiting for megz to return... kori is with heff and mega is with ashley... oh and if you girls from home are wondering where scott was in all this... hes in canada... till tomorrow night...

going to sleep all day tomorrow. fuck this shit.


its been fun ladies. i dont even know what else i was going to say right now. later

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CLARA "DETOX" MILLSMILLS IS GOING TO UPDATE:

see, i have a reason for not updating.. but ill save you the sob story and just get on with the show.

ONE WEEK AGO TODAY i went to a hockey game with my girls COMPLETELY wasted. now... this has happened before, makes me feel more okay about having everyone stare at me because im one of 'those girls' yea... well, i ran into johnny because i almost always do, and he thought that it would be brilliant to have me play broomball with him in between second and third period. the way i described this to christine is field hockey on ice... with a soccer ball... its like... a stick with a plastic triangle on the end, and you try to hit a soccer ball into a goal... ON ICE.... DRUNK. i fell... flicked off the whole croud in attempt to flick off my friends, and... well, made a straight up fool of myself. yea... thats how it goes. it was really fun though, the game went by so fast, and i didnt even like watch it, and... well, thats how its going to be tonight i think... vs. BU hey... i bet... that we lose!

friday... class breakfast with kstar and the commuta... went to the other dunkin donuts in search of a toaster that worked... we found one dont worry... it was really fun... errands and such... big black chocolate sticks... like that kath? picnic here... more class with ashley watching this really random subtitled movie about this gay chineese man whos having an arranged marrage to try to hide that hes gay... and pretending his partner is his landlord... whatver... jungwon yung you suck!

friday night party hopin like woah... chillin with RAgreg... and ashley is right, we can get more stuff now that we got drunk with him... like lock out keys for kori and megas room when were in ashleys room and we all watch the door shut cuz the door stop didnt hold it... adn then kori runs into the door...well i thought it was funny... anyway... we were here and there from tewks to b to j to b to THIS NIGHT SUCKS IM GOING HOME! ashley and i went back eventually and ate tuna and it was really amusing... kate had a sex face... I CALLED IT I KNEW IT! GO ME! ... at least someone got laid that night...

hmmmm saturday... frumped around all day... what else is new... then WENT TO SEE MIRACLE WITH MY GIRLIES! AND IT WAS AMAZING!! "GANG BANG ME PLEASE!" ... everyone should see it... even if you dont love hockey like i do.. the men are beautiful, and it is an amazing movie... we got back and i decided i didnt want to go out, everyone else stayed in too... we chilled... watched tv and ate... i dont know, its been sucking so much here lately that i didnt want to go out and get dissappointed again, i had fun in... watched some bat man... put mega and ashley to sleep.... chilled with myself cuz im an insomiac... until.... i started to smell smoke... mmmm fuckers smoking inside again.... aboutu 15 min later at 345 the fire alarm went off.... let me tell you how not fun that is... i guess it was better that i was awake, but anyway... i grabbed my jacket and my celly and went outside... ashely was standing there in her shorts and tshirt and reefers so i threw her my jacket, cuz she was crazy and it was cold. called hazell to see if i could come over with my friends... he said yes but by the time i tunred around my friends were gone... talked to the bird for a min, then went over to B12 myself. got there, and of course everyone is still up partyin... johnny harrigan is wasted and introducing me to everyone there who i already know... then decides that i NEED to have a beer... i said no and he started to tell high school stories, so i tool one just to satisfy the kid... nancy and danielle were there, scott, andy, eric, colin, deeks, burke, and hazell... i think thats it... well, at like 5 they decided to go smoke at tewks so scott and i went to ash to go to sleep... considered watching the sun rise... but opted for bed.

i slept until 3pm on sunday... very refreshing...finally got up... scott and i showered, and he and i went to dinner at bertuccis... it was really fun... we hadnt gone out in a while... adn thats my fault, but i had a really good time with him... back to the mack to chill with the ladies and watch the 3rd to last sex in the city... good show... so sad its going away... and i cant believe that big might come back and ruin this... whatever.... well have to see. after scotts pinning shit for the frat we went back to his place and watched big fish together, which i liked... sorry clarke... i did like it.

monday... lets see... this week has been totally crazy bad, and getting worse every day... swamped with work, and understanding that all i did was go to weston for college... its my own fault... but sigh.... some highlights:
seeing megz dance at the game
MILKSHAKES
yea, i went to wendys and baskin robbins with kori kath and megz, it was a good time, i love getting out of the bubble every once in a while, and we just like chilled out, it was good fun
lots of good oprah and chillin

i dont know... kath and i went to the den last night and we were talking... i said we should broaden our party hurrisons and then she pointed out that there are like 6 main party places that we cant go to because of the guys or the girls or whatever.... some examples: salem, georgetown, 2nd floor K, dracutt (sp?) yea, thats just some of them... boxford... whatever... i dont know, things will get better im sure... i was just kidding around, asked scott to transfer with me... and he took it seriously... he was like "baby, i cant go, the fraternity is here, and ive made too many friends... its not too small for me..." i said fine i would take my friends and he laughed at me... im not going anywhere... i do love it here... its jsut... i dont know, i was talking to heather on the phone last night... more like venting at her... but im like allergic to the school... im sick always, and 'people know things' dont they?????

drama. like. whaoh. all the time!

tonight as i said before is hockey and then an all new ER... so excited! scott leaves tomorrow for canada... oh joy... whatever... and this weekend... i better feel better... cuz honeslty right now i dont feel like doing anything. ill at least go out friday, i know that much... cuz there is a party at J... and then... well, drunk frumping around DW maybe... i dont even know... i never know anymore.

miss you buddies!

peaceoutttt

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i am so done...

done looking at people

done bitching at people

done sharing with people

done.done.done.

i just cant wait to sleep through tomorrow and get out of this bubble tomrrow night...

oh

my

god.

what

the

fuck.

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Sometimes you dont!

Nice new layout... thanks G unit! lookin good kindah like me and tha captain. For those who dont know yet the captain is my new super sexy beta fish... hes red and blak and makes kissie faces, and tries to bury himself. hes my buuuudy. Kate moneys died so she had her bf pick her up a new one and got me one tooo! hes looking at me...

So. today. Feb 5th... is my 5 month anniversary with scott... its also thursday... these two things make me think about how much time flies... honeslty..ashely and i cant believe that its already friday tomorrow... this week went by... these days go by so fast... WE ONLY HAVE THREE MONTHS LEFT. its insane... and 5 months... where did those five months go?? i dont know... maybe its just me... no, wait, lara thinks it two right... the weeks pass like days.... its so true... i dont know... im done rambling.

I have to find my birth control. I just thought about it in physilolgy today... and im pretty sure i brought enough to last me till march break... dunno where it is though... and this may be a problem.

Im done for the day! so happy right now! just had one class and dont have to go to the dreadful religion! so megz is coming at like 1215 and were gunna go eat, and then we're gunna go shoping... just like errands and stuff to mix my parrott with this weekend. Jeff (kates bf) is back... and hes 24, so... we're totally hooked up for the rest of the semester.... see... although i had a few hookups before... it was a little iffy at times, and also jeff goes to the NH state liqour store, which means everything is cheaper!! this handle should last me a while... i hope... and with the other stuff we still have... yea, this should last me the month, because we have so much shit... and i have to take one night off when mother is here, and we're going to be at kathys for two nights... canada might put me over a lil... anyway... i just didnt want to spend too much this month because daddy has asked me for a list of where i spent my money this month.... and i CANT say alcohol.... as much as scott thinks i can... and thinks it would be a good idea. no, scott... bad idea.

well, im off for now, gunna do some BC huntin... oh speaking of BC thats who we're playing tonight in hockey... and youre going to kill us... and heather, i am so very proud of you for going to the game ISNT IT FUN!?

MIRACLE THIS WEEKEND!!! WHOOTWHOOP

lata foos

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