Hello my beautiful people... sorry for the inconvenience of those who went to my page to see an updated entry but was dissappointed to see that i haven't been updated for 10 days... the reason for that is... my comp (that is to say my aunt's comp...) has been in the shop... and we just got it back yesterday! and now here i am again free to roam the world wide web once more! and it has been a pain in the ass w/o internet... ive been missing out on a lot...

Shall i bore you guys recalling all the events that took place on the place in the last 10 days?

Something say that i shouldn't but there's something i feel that i should mention... it seems as though there's 2 certain people who had created themselves a xanga account to criticize, or more to say "trash", on the sophomores that attend my school... and its even more frustrating to know that all those people that they trash on are my friends... and they don't even have the guts to identify themselves... and i know for a fact that i know this person because the people that they trash on are from my "group" of friends or the people that i talk to... their insults are so inaccurate and full of envy... they talk about posers... and just generally the people that they apperently have problems with but are just to afraid to come out the say it to their faces... they haven't mentioned me... yet... but im sure my name will pop up on there soon enough... ugh... those bitches... if i no who it is... its WAR... war i tell ya... they've even insulted conan and alex!!! arg... i loath the people who made that account... just wait till i find out it is...

On a happier note... i went to one of my friend's b-day party yesterday... it was quite fun indeed.... seeing as how it has been snowing the past three days... and the roads were icy... ah.. the snow ball fights... and food.. the cake... ah... the cake.... quite good to the taste i might add... and i get to see cj!!! yay! up till yesterday i didnt get to see him for like... 14 days! it was ver sad... i missed that guy...

For pics of the party please go to CARA'S site...

Alex_ is wearing pink
Conan (cj)_ is the one wearing earings... black hair... the cute one
Ash_ the other dude
Cecilee (b-day girl)_ has permed hair
Cara_ has black hair
Me_ o u no

Been cramming myself with homework today... it's a wonder how i can pull it off cramming 2 weeks worth of hw into one day... no wonder i wear glasses... (looking a smily that wear glasses... ) <--- eh.. close enough

I found this on alex's site...

The Perfect Mate
// Hair color - Brown, blonde, or black... (im not picky)
// Eye color - Hazel, blue or green... or brown
// Height - tall... very tall...
// Six pack - yes plese? but not those bulging ones...eek!
// Long or short hair - eithers fine
// Glasses - If they can work it =)
// Piercings - eyebrow... oooh baby...
// Scars - hm.... not those ICKY ones...
// Eyebrows - they just have to have one... but not bushy please...
// Big butt or little - as long as they have one...
// Chest hair - as long as i dont have to see it
// Buff or skinny - somewhere in the middle
// Straight teeth, gap, or braces - Straight.
// Funny or serious - BOTH...
// Party or stay at home - i guess... home... to be wit me... couch... yea... thats good... lol
// Should he cook or bake - dont care as long as it tastes good
// Should he have a best friend - of course
// Should he have a lotta girl friends - yeppers... as long as he only have ONE "girlfriend"
// Outgoing or shy - both. shy is cute tho
// Sarcastic or sincere - Sincere
// Should he love his mother? - if shes worthy
// Should he watch chick flicks? - yes he should... its good for u... i'll make him
// Would he be a smoker? - NOOOO!!!
// Would he drink? - hm... tough question... i guess its up too him... depends on the occasion... but not too much
// Would he swear? - as long as its not his whole vocabulary
// Would he play with your hair - teehee... braids... CONAN....
// One or more girls at a time - One. me. der.
// Would he pay for dates? - he pay... i pay.. does it matter?
// Does he kiss on the first date? - IF he wants
// Where would you goto dinner? - McDonalds... or Jack in the Box
// Would he bring you flowers? - eh... dont like flowers
// Would he lay under the stars with you? - yay!!! yes he would
// Would he write poetry about you? - if he wants to... (hooray for conan!)
// Would he call you hunny, sweetie or baby? - *ahem* as long as its not cheesy
// Would he hang out with you and YOUR friends? - of course DUH
// Would you hang out with him and HIS friends? - of course
// Will he walk you to the door at the end? - haha no penises in the house... my dad wit a shot gun... but when im allowed to date... then he should walk me to the door
// Holding hands - yep definitely
// Baseball - how does this Q apply to anything? im confused...
// Basketball - ^^^^
// Football - ????^^^
// Water polo - wtf
// Surf - although guys who surf has the best tan...
// Skateboard - OOOO!!! now i get it... wat sport should he play... sk8 board... sure
// Snowboard - hot. sexy
// Sing - DUDE YES... o baby...
// Play guitar - yes
// Play piano - sure
// Play drums - sure
// Clean his room - lmao... w/e...
// Paint, draw, sculpt - sure
// Writes his own music - yes
// Use the word dude - yep i use it... somtimes
// Use the word tight - wat the... no...
// Would he watch the sun rise with you? - im usually up wen the sun is like... above my head... but sunset... that i like...
// What kind of car would he drive? - don't care as long as he HAS a car...
// How old should he be - older than me

i WAS tryin to keep this entry short... but i guess i passed that border long ago... o w/e...

later days.

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YAY do u guys like my pretty page?!?! heehee its all thanks to KE... she sent me the codes of her last page.. and i just changed the colors and numbers around a little... so my page look the way it is right now is all thanks to KE! **bow** yay! love ya bud!
Your soul is bound to the Solitary Rose: The
Alone.

"When I wake up alone, the shades are still
drawn on the cold window pane so they cast
their lines on my bed and lines on my
face."

The Solitary Rose is associated with loneliness,
melancholy, and patience. It is governed by
the goddess Merope and its sign is The Sword,
or Unrequited Love.

As a Solitary Rose, you may be summed up as a
hopeless romantic. You desire love and have so
much love to give, but thing just never seem to
work out the way you want them to. In life,
you can be very optomistic, even when things
are gray and nothing works out to your
expectations.


What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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Legolas
Please rate my quiz I worked hard on it thanks


Which Lord of the Rings person do you want? (many out comes for anyone plus pics to)
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YAY!!! Oh BABY!!! hes hot!!! oyea...


-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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WOW... that's weird... i dont think im perfect... and i do think i get on cj's nerves sometimes...


Congratulations! You're Sam!


Which Lord of the Rings character and personality problem are you?
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Your Heart is Red


What Color is Your Heart?
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Ha! and i thought it was dead... or maybe it is...

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Ha! thought that i should be like ash and take a quiz... on samurais...


Duty and Loyalty: You serve your purpose and do
what you must do. People would consider you
someone to rely on, and one who keeps his/her
word when he/she gives it.




YAY!! only two more days until X-mas! whoopee!

oyea and only 3 more weeks until i have my first drive in drivers ed! yes nina driving... thats a thought... i guess u guys should get off the road.. or else! haha

well g2g 'cause mom says so...

later.

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^^^thats a line from a song from a movie... can anyone guess what movie it is?

Shedding tears to the most relentless lines
It feels as though your hand goes through
the most heartfelt words punctured the eternal barrier
i've put up for so long
they say it's a lie
i say it's reality
the feeling that left untouced for so long
it wept to be uncovered
how can one person
bring such bliss to the immortal?

some people have the gift of writing... i guess that gift missed my mailbox a mile away.. i cant write worth shit... but heres something thats 500x better


the possibilities are endless
but the time just runs too thin
what happens when we grow up?
will you be there for me then?
the stars in the skys pale to the ones in your eyes
but a lifetimes just not long enough
im still the kid i hate to be
this song means just so little
lost behind a broken heart
afraid to lose again
things change
im afraid to say
the chances of this lasting
cant match the emotion that makes me whole
i found the girl...
i just have to find myself.

... wait for me on the other side....
i'll get there soon enough...

told yea its better... i got it from someone special...

thanks... it's been a while since ive been this happy...

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YAY! the holidays is here! and I'm on a break! yay! this is good... i really need a break.. even tho i have a butt load of hw to do, its still cool 'cause i dont have to see ms. stahl for 2 weeks!!!

i have a hotel b-day party to go to 2morrow! whoop! this is gonna be the best.. and next weekend i have another b-day party to go to... we're goin ice skatin!

yesterdat i passed out presents for ppl at skool.. it was cool... even tho only 1/2 the ppl i gave out presents returned their gifts.. it was cool...

lets see here... i got a cd player from cj... an all-american-rejects cd from alex... lotion & a big-ass candy from care... a hug from shelby.... a goot-long candy-cane from alex... soap stuff from tennetje... and two "last-minute" cards from chanyu and joel...

on x-mas eve my entire family is coming over to my house and we're gonna exchange presents yay! i love presents...

well thats it for now...

MERRY X-MAS!!!

later.

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I do care about ppl... hell... sometimes i even care for ppl i dont even no that well... but that's just it... why should i care about the ppl who are just there in ur life for a few weeks and then just walk out of ur life? figuretively speaking when i said i only care about 2-3 ppl... theres more than that... i was just saying a number... i didnt mean to offend anybody by saying that i dont care about them... like cecilee for example.... even though i dont talk to her that much.... shes one of the few that i can be myself around... i DO act like myself around my friends... but i didnt mean for u to take it seriously... this is just a weblog for ppl who dont no me that well... i only put up a cover for ppl who i just met... or if they're just an acquaintance.... i cant be "real" i front of them... i feel obligated to put up a cover so they would like me... i hate to admit it... but i hate it when ppl doesnt like me... doesnt everybody though...?

Frodos*Lover... im sorry if my last last entry made u misunderstood some things... its just out of frustration when i typed that thing... my family life isnt exactly perfect right now... i guess i should never write when im depressed.... but i do care about my friends... ALL of my friends... heck i even care about joel peterson.... and all the new friends i made this year... but its hard for me to admit that i care about ppl... because they can use that as an advantage and hurt me or something... i dont no if u no about the story wit me and a certain someone this summer... but when that happened i dont feel like i trust ppl nemore... but i always end up having SOME kind if hope in them neways... until they prove me otherwise....

As for the I should act myself around ppl... well i do... just an exceptional few... but i wont name ne names... but Frodo... i do act myself around u... and i DO CARE ABOUT U... i no that there are ppl who cares about me... that part of the entry wasnt about ppl at skool... it wasnt about my friends... it was kinda about something else... maybe i shouldve wrote it in a different paragraph... but i cant say who it is.... i like to keep that private...

but i do love all of my friends... all 88723641 of them... so dont ever feel like i dont care about u... and doesnt give a shit if something happens to u...

i REALLY sorry if my last last entry made everything sound so wrong...

cj... im sorry too... i shouldn't have said nething... well i shouldve talked to u about it first... actually i DID want to talk to u about it... i was suppose to call u but i couldnt.. and then the next day i called but u werent home... i guess sometimes i just feel frustrated... but yea... usually when theres a flaw in a guy im goin out wit i would break up wit them... but wit u i feel different... i willing to look past those so-called flaws in my head... 'cause i like everything about u... even the flaws... and i bet there are some traits of mine that bothers u sometimes too... but i hope we can work around those things... 'cause i really want this relationship to work...

I guess this is an apology entry to those 2 ppl... im sorry guys... and i love u... please dont kill me...

I guess thi

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