I feel like a complete failure with keeping promises. I should just never promise. I like the fact that people actually invited me to their graduation parties, but I hate how I'm constantly leaving them or arriving late. I'd rather have a different party each day than having two parties a day for 3 days. Okay so yesterday's first party was a family party... but still. I just wish that parties were on different days.

I feel this obligation to go t everyone's party. I feel like shit when I don't stay for a long time because I don't know when I'll see these people again. I don't even know if I'll ever see these people again. I just hope so. I've met a few great people... they were friends, but then they started to grow apart. And now I'm friends with them. So I constantly have to hear them talking behind eachother's backs. Honestly, I don't want to deal with this shit at the end of the school year.

WTF

In my own perfect world, no one hates anyone. No one talks behind others' backs. No one ruins my life by "coincidentally" having a party the same time as someone else's because [insertnamehere] doesn't like [insertothername].

I know I'm not the only person dealing with this... but whatever.

I'm sorry you're even reading this. Don't read anymore because I'm just complaining about useless crap.

Anyway... I just don't want my friends to constantly have these unspoken conflicts. Maybe some people were just meant to hate some people. Who knows? I'm just-- I just don't want these people to go to college. I can't even believe that a whole year just passed by. After weeks of holding it in, I'm ust crying right now. Yeah. Me.

I mean, I know I'll see these guys, but it's not gonna be as often. It'll be like 6 times a year. Those 6 times will turn to like 1 the next year.

And I'm the worst person to try to keep in contact with. E-mails are probably better for me than IMs, since my IMsaren't even that great.

And I'll end up seeing a couple of these guys several times during the year... but I won't see them in school.

i can't right anymore without just thinking about the year.. I just want to spend as much time I can with them... because we won't be able to do that as much.

This is probably a girl thing... they have to cause drama...it affects everyone. For some reason I feel like it's affecting me the worst right now...I guess it's because I don't know if it's happening to anyone else.

I feel like I shold end this...but as I continue to talk to myself, I decide to write more.

The thing is that while growing up you may hate a certain kid for 10 years. All of a sudden you graduate, and you never see that kid again. You go the west coast. The kid stays in the east coast. Sure you're finally away from the kid, but what are the chances you'll see him again? What if he goes to Florida? Maine? Kentucky? Oregon? You don't know! I guess I'm such a clingy person who tends to let go of grudges. I'm just saying that many people have made an impact in my life...many were hard to face, but I've learned to face them with courage. And I thank everyone. I just wish that people would keep in contact or something

I don't know. I can't think straight anymore. I'm sorry. I swear I didn't drink the punch.

Comment! (0) | Recommend!

So I never updated about the Honor Society Induction.

It was just plan creepy.

So we're playing in a quartet while the adults come in and sit. We played all of our music twice. Then comes Dr. Brandy. He enters the auditorium and just stares at like the ceiling and the seats and whatnot. It was like he didn't know where he was. So we start playing. We still have five minutes... It's either we play another song for the third time, or someone runs to the orchestra room to get Arlington Sketches. we play Brandenburg No. 5....again. Then the Handel piece. The students start walking in one straight line. We played Brandenburg No. 3. They're still coming! We play Brandenburg No. 5. Right in the middle we're told to stop. Monica's whispering over to Victoria because she wouldn't stop. Monica and VIctoria jolt out of there. Yara runs with her cello and leaves her music because she thought that Monica and Victoria left theirs. I'm struggling wiht my viola (an oversized violin), grab my music, grab Yara's music, my bow, and my rosin.

We come back in five minutes to sit down. Dr. BRandy starts talking. He praises the Brandenburg Concertos. Then he starts saying, "Now if you hear Beethoven's fifth. Ba ba ba baaaaaaaaaa. Ba ba ba baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. "
slight pause
"What does it mean?"
Monica just starts laughing. She tries to stop but it's just so hilarious.

Then he starts saying, "Being part of an honor society means that you need to have a strong will. You need good leadership. You know blacksmiths? They have that hammer and an anvil. You know what an anvil is? Well the blacksmith pounds the hammer against the anvil. Don't be the anvil. Be the hammer!"

Then he says, "just like in Michaelangelo's Sistine Chapel, you have to touch it." He starts *touching* the air as if he's poking something.



Okay so the details aren't exact...but you go the picture...right?

Mrs. Small tried to not laugh. She had that face where she needs to laugh so bad but knows she shouldn't. Everyone in the audience was laugh. There were people filming this. ...seriously...

When Mr. Swenning started to talk... I was told that Dr. Brandy was was falling asleep or something. I don't exactly remember.

Well... that's Comsewogue for you. ha. later.

EDIT//
And I forgot to say this. Brandy said that he doesn't like reading from a paper when he makes speeches. So he basically improvised.
I mean, I understand his point of view.... how it doesn't seem like he would be talking directly at us if he spoke from a piece of paper...but he should at least make good explanations that everyone would understand and not just what he would.

bleh bleha blahb
chem regents today. i'm sick of regentsseseseses.

Comment! (1) | Recommend!

I messed up as usual...but I don't care.



I hate taking regents....ugh...i should study some...or a little bit..i guess i will

Comment! (0) | Recommend!

SmarterChild (5:03:57 PM):
+------+
|
|
|
|
|
+-------+

Category: Places

···· ···a··
lifeseems bleh (5:04:04 PM): e
SmarterChild (5:04:04 PM):
+------+
| |
|
|
|
|
+-------+

Category: Places

···· ···a··

Wrong letters: e
lifeseems bleh (5:04:05 PM): i
SmarterChild (5:04:06 PM):
+------+
| |
|
|
|
|
+-------+

Category: Places

···· I··a··

Wrong letters: e

>>> White Stripes Merchandise - Exclusive T-shirts, CDs, DVDs Posters & more (sponsorship)
lifeseems bleh (5:04:08 PM): o
SmarterChild (5:04:09 PM):
+------+
| |
|
|
|
|
+-------+

Category: Places

·o·· I··a··

Wrong letters: e
lifeseems bleh (5:04:12 PM): b
SmarterChild (5:04:12 PM):
+------+
| |
| O
|
|
|
+-------+

Category: Places

·o·· I··a··

Wrong letters: e, b
lifeseems bleh (5:04:13 PM): g
SmarterChild (5:04:13 PM):
+------+
| |
| O
|
|
|
+-------+

Category: Places

·o·g I··a··

Wrong letters: e, b
lifeseems bleh (5:04:16 PM): m
SmarterChild (5:04:16 PM):
+------+
| |
| O
| H
| ^
|
+-------+

Category: Places

·o·g I··a··

Wrong letters: e, b, m
lifeseems bleh (5:04:18 PM): s
SmarterChild (5:04:19 PM):
+------+
| |
| O
| H
| ^
|
+-------+

Category: Places

·o·g Is·a··

Wrong letters: e, b, m

>>> Free Enjoi Skateboard - Rasta Panda Skateboard. $120 Value. Free Shipping. Complete Survey. (sponsorship)
lifeseems bleh (5:04:22 PM): r
SmarterChild (5:04:22 PM):
+------+
| |
| O
| ./H
| ^
|
+-------+

Category: Places

·o·g Is·a··

Wrong letters: e, b, m, r

>>> Free Laptop - No Joke - Answer our 5 question survey and we'll ship you a free laptop! (sponsorship)
lifeseems bleh (5:04:26 PM): l
SmarterChild (5:04:26 PM):
+------+
| |
| O
| ./H
| ^
|
+-------+

Category: Places

Lo·g Isla··

Wrong letters: e, b, m, r
lifeseems bleh (5:04:28 PM): n
SmarterChild (5:04:28 PM):
+------+
| |
| O
| ./H
| ^
|
+-------+

Category: Places

Long Islan·

Wrong letters: e, b, m, r
lifeseems bleh (5:04:30 PM): d
SmarterChild (5:04:30 PM): Puzzle solved: Long Island.

Check it out. You're the 223rd person ever to solve this puzzle.

Type again to start a new game.

and there are categories now! NuTang gets more high-tech each time I come back =)


oh and this:
SmarterChild (5:13:31 PM): Puzzle solved: Frank Zappa.

Check it out. You're the 38th person ever to solve this puzzle.

Type again to start a new game.
that's right....38th person to get that right. woot =) this is unhealthy.

Comment! (1) | Recommend!