I hate this. The weather always screws up my internet. Grrr.

Earlier this week, it was nice and warm for a change. I think it was up to the high 70's once. But you know what? I opened the service entrance this morning(it's my shortcut) and I got hit in the face by thousands of icy li'l pellets. Yup. It was snowing. What happened to SPRING?! Y'know, flowers 'n butterfies, ice cream, pastel colors, and whatnot.

So I couldn't go online last night cuz it rained a teeny bit during the day. However, it makes sense to the universe to let me go online when it snows, non-stop all day. I suppose I have to look at the bigger picture to understand, it's a part of God's plan. Who am I to question it?

**My apologies to all religious.**

the Dot

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I was watching Pussycat Doll's new reality show: the Search for the next Doll and abc7's Outsiders series tonight. Both happened to show very...sexy scenes.
--Pussycat Dolls? Female empowerment/sexuality.
--Outsiders? A thing about the porn industry.

To the latter: quite informative. Plus, I like the series very much because it opens our eyes to all the different people/lifestyles out there--mainly, America. Too bad tonight was about porn, but I watched it anyway.

My ma wasn't really paying attention. Her eyes were glued to the flatscreen monitor, her hands poised over the keyboard. Suddenly, she looked over to see what I was up to, er, watching. She sees a censored photoshoot of a porn star on channel 7. She gets riled up. "Hey!" I flip over to channel 11, right when the girls are doing their little thing inside clear boxes infront of an audience. Now, I know they said this challenge was about confidence, but no duh, PCD + confidence + clear boxes w/ sofas = nearly pornographic moves to music. So that was a no-no.

"Hey! Turn to channel 13 or 25 or turn it off!"

Hmm, I wonder. What if National Geographic was on?

As if I wasn't mature enough to handle these things without going "Ewww!" or soo mature/bad girl-y to go "Ooooh!" wide-eyed. Like I would watch these girls and get the bright idea to imitate them and become a prostitute or porn star myself. Great job, Mom. You know me so well. (^-')=b

Ugh. I finished all my rice a few minutes ago and there's none left over to go down with my chicken. It's leftover from my dinner at gran's last night. The meat's incredibly salty and it's scratching my throat. *makes a face* Wish I had some soda in the fridge. Oh, wait! I have some dry milk on the kitchen counter; my gran gave me that, too! How wonderful. I can have warm milk. >.>

Eh, I'm outta here. Queen Nag has gotten her naggin' fever on. Yeah!
Nighty-Night.
the Dot

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So...nothing happened tonight. When I said 'happy-go-lucky', it wasn't supposed to mean she had a surprise for me. Sure, she's a happy-go-lucky person at times. Her voice was fake, careful, bordering on curt once. I could tell(there was a difference), not because I know her so well, because God knows I don't. I can tell when something is wrong, out of the ordinary and not in a good way.

She started out with a line that was joking, but her face was serious, dark. I didn't get what she was saying and had her repeat it. She seemed to have something to say during that soft, confusing exchange, but she seemed to chicken out. I'm not sure she did, but her belated repeat didn't sound right.

The scene: My gran had gone down to jiggle the building's heater and it was rude to start without her. The two of us were making funnys with her reaching for a dish and turning pretend-guiltily away when I looked. A bit akward cuz I knew it wasn't natural. I pointed to an empty space in her bowl and jokingly said that gran would know. She hadn't really eaten any rice. She laughs and quickly says she didn't eat any.
Then...

Her: *leans over* You're lying.
Me: *puzzled* What?
Her: You're lying.
Me: About what? 0.o What?!
Her: *a pause* This is where I think she chickens out. *leans back into her own chair* You said I ate my rice!

What the heck was that? I don't what it is, but I'll find out eventually. The night went on and everything feels back to normal now, so...*shrug* Who knows? We'll see. She was acting all weird, but she's fine now. I mean, it's only the two of us in the house and if it's fine now, it's gotta be okay. For now, I mean. *sigh* Whatever.

Anywayz, I found this blog that these pretty pics of Chinese Paper-Cutting. I guess that's the name...it's what I've heard my ma call it and other people, too. Not sure if the person would want me to show the pics so here's the link to the blog: CLICK!

Ay, I'm tired...and I'm thirsty. My neck 'n shoulders are hurting again. Latah! ;)
the Dot

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I just called my mother to tell her about this person calling our house non-stop and never leaving a message. And thus, telling her I was home. Heh. Anyway, she didn't respond to me except for a 'No, it was me calling'. Then, she told me to go to Chinatown. Told me to go to my gran's place. I asked her if we were going for dinner. She didn't say anything. I asked her what special event was today/tonight. She said in a happy-go-lucky voice that I was going to go see my grandmother.

Something's not right. Her voice was not right. I'm pretty much a hundred percent persuaded that something's wrong and she's lying. Something wron, something bad that has soemthing to do with me. Like something bad's going to happen to me. Just this pit of the stomach feeling that I just can't get rid of. Like butterflies except I'm not feeling cold and shivering on the wings of a stage.

Not feeling very well. Gotta go.
the Dot

p.s. Wish me well. Wish me luck! ;(

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