sometimes i feel i wont ever be able to understand what love is really about, whats the big deal about it? why ppl yearn and longed for it so much? is there something seriously something wrong with me??? or am i just born this way?

sometimes my frens said i had too high of a standard when it comes to guys. or is it because of the high expectations i set for myself, my beliefs that discouraged me from going into a relationship? or m i just using my expectations n beliefs as an excuse just not to go into one? i seriously have no idea...

sometimes i admired those people who have the courage to love and be loved, go into a relationship and making themselves vulnerable... will i ever have tat courage to love and be loved, to go into a relationship and make myself vulnerable... i seriously doubt so...

yet strange enough... sometimes i simply loft people who gets into and out of relationships so easily... people who treat it like child's play...

so wats is love all about in the end? to me now, its just the act of raging hormones...

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today turned out to be a rather BAD day i guess... cos my "supervisor" who left me n my fren TSJ to work @ the store came down tis morning! so u guys must be tinking so wat the BIG deal!? bcos by right, TSJ n moi is supposed to report for work everyday @ 830 but bcos we r working @ the store. we onli need to cum in @ 930 (haha!!! exactly ONE hr later!) n she doesnt noe abt tat. so today she CAUGHT us totally offguard ! to make things WORSE, there was practically nth to do there. so in the end, she dragged my veri UNWILLING ARSE along with TSJ back to the OFFICE!!!

i cant help but tink to myself WHY cant she dragged me back after lunch so i dun have to subject myself to TORTURE again by eating the food there!!!

back @ the office, TSJ n moi were given the SERIOUSLY MIND-NUMBING task of data entry (entering the particulars of the customers found @ the back of the coupon = BORING) we were given a quota which was to key in at least 800 entries a DAY!!! mind u ! its 800 entries for EACH PERSON n not 800 entries as a group!!! STRESS ME man!!!

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see tis is my two younger sis! CUTE as HEll right! and the one in the background! is the one tat i said u dun wanna noe! muahaha!!!

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watching: MTV
u saw it for yrself the "food" looked simply HORRIBLE!!! so after i forced myself to take a few bites. all i can say tat there is SIMPLY NO WORDS to describle its UNIQUE taste...

just a few bites required me to go under tremendous amount of self- induced brainwashing, i just GAVE UP on lunch altogether tat day. so i just attempted to make myself feeling full on feeding on SPRITE!!! its AMAZING how a 45 minutes lunch break pass so much faster than a typical 45 minutes lesson!!! i reluntantly dragged my BIG BUTT up tat flight of stairs leading up to the office!!! and to my horror...

my collegues were having a buffet at the office as they were holding a farewell party for one of the seniors there. so while they were still having a balll of time and busy stuffing their mouth with common fare like beehoon...

i cant help it but feel rather AGITATED!!! cos i was just sitting behind a desk located right in front of them busy... guess wat? TEARING ENVELOPES n RETRIEVING COUPONS!!! its was until then i realised how hungry i was... so as i watched them take a mouthful of tat dessert and beehoon and began tearing the envelopes in a rather... (hmm... wat is the right word?) lets just say... in a rather PSYCHOPATHIC manner! haha!!! thank god! a kind-hearted AUNTIE offered BIRD n i each a pac of tea!

so after i got offered tea, i got sent off to one of the company's minimarts which was located in Jalan Bukit Merah to learn some of the processes involved in setting up a store... its was quite fun helping out at the store, i got to use a pretty cool gadget! voila! the PDA! to scan the barcodes of products n make neccesary changes to the product description and price when required.

so tis was practically wat i did for the 1st day of ITP, tearing envelopes and retrieveing coupons like there is no tml for the first 4 hoursand doing price audit for the rest of the day! quite cool! now i m just hoping tat i wont be send back to the office anytime sooner! cos its so BLOODY BORING there and most importantly... the FOOD SUCKS!!! n wat else can i do there? TEAR MORE ENVELOPES!?

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listening to: Æ’oo Æ’ighters
i never thought i will create a webblog cos i m not the kind of person who has the patience to keep a journal. but wat the heck after reading my fren's blog and getting brainwashed by the same fren, i decided to make one.

i for one must clarify something! i m NOT a BITCH!!! haha! i used "BITCH" for my username cos i thought it thru, tis blog will be my main channel to bitch abt life and ppl! hee hee! once in a blue moon, i will TRY to write something nice. pls dun expect too much, like i said i will onli TRY!

damn! creating a blog is TOUGH!!! i m practically a COMPUTER ILLITERATE who onli happens to know how to switch on n shut down the computer. WHY! did i let my fren convinced me to create one!!! DUMB!!! people! tis is wat a moment of folly does to u! look at me now! i CREATED a BLOG!!!

okay. i went thru a lot of suffering n confusion just to create tis blog of mine. so i shall finally embarked on my endless journey of BITCHING ard!

first thing first, the company tat i m attached to... the food SUCKS big time!!! i dun even tink it look edible. i even have proof! FEAST your eyes on tis hideous thing! even i a person who doesnt have a gift at cooking a decent looking meal tink tat i m capable of cooking up a better meal. so from yesterday onwards, my fren BIRD* n I even my fellow school mates had arrived at a decision together. tat is to BRING our own food! (meaning tat we will most probably survived the next two months on BREAD) so if u find me looking pretty malnutrious, its the food's FAULT!!!

tink better stop here... shall continue to complain some other time! salut!


NOTE: the name of the person had been modified to protect them.

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