Well, I've got 2 days to go until the end of this week, and believe me...I'm looking forward to tomorrow when I can get on my jeans and t-shirt (and sweatshirt...because it's cold) and come to work. I love casual Fridays :) They're worth going through the whole week for...

I woke up this morning with the worst charley horse imagineable. If you're not familiar with a charley horse, here's the definition:

a painful, involuntary cramp of an arm or leg muscle resulting from excessive muscular strain or a blow.

In other words, one painful cramp! I had talked to the doctor about it before since I had been getting them a lot a few months ago and he said it was a calcium deficiency and that I should take calcium suppliments (i.e. Tums or Caltrate or something), but they went away shortly after that...now they're back...with a vengeance.

It has to be the cold weather. I've got the heat on in my house, but it was colder than crap in there this morning...Did I mention I hate the winter? I am starting to worry if the baby is going to be cold. Since I have vaulted ceilings in my living room and I live on the second floor, on a corner...my house does not retain the heat very well. My worst fear is that he's going to be so cold...and I don't want that to happen at all.

I'm really getting these crazy fears and worries about being a mom right now...will I be a good one? Will I be the worst mom ever? It's so nerve-wracking sometimes. I know it's nothing to worry about, but it being winter and all, so many bad things could happen when the baby finally gets here. I was worried last night about my kid being in entirely hand-me-down clothes. I really wanted to wait to have kids when I was financially set and stable and here I am, poor as dirt, having a baby. I just don't feel adequate and I feel bad already because he's not going to have anything. My boyfriend reassures me that it's okay that he has hand-me-down clothes and he's not going to be this poor little baby, but ahh...it just concerns me.

Okay, that rambling is over with...it just depresses me.

I was wondering why there were so many bikers on the road on Thursdays, but then it hit me. Denver has adopted this alternative transportation thing on Thursday and they encourage people to carpool or take something other than a car to work on Thursdays...BUT, to be honest, there was some guy out there riding his bike in 34 degree weather. I don't care how much riding a bike may warm you up...but no...I'd rather sit in my nice heated car and pollute the air on Thursdays than freeze my ass off riding my bike to work. If I had someone to carpool with, I would...but I don't, so I'll just drive by myself. Don't get me wrong, I'm all about being eco-friendly, but I'm also realistic about it. I need to get to work, I live 30 minutes from my work in my car, I'm not going to NOT use my car to save the environment. I would hope that the need to survive would outweigh that...

But yeah...I'm done doing my bitch bitch about everything this morning. Drinking my cocoa, have my bag of chocolate (oh yes, a very healthy breakfast) and now...I've actually gotta start doing something productive.

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I was so good at getting a daily post up right in the morning, but eh...screw that. Today was different.

I woke up again at 5am! Damn internal alarm clock. I don't know if it's because I've got the heat on at my house and I'm just warm/hot or something in the middle of the night, but it's been a consistant thing the last two nights. I don't mind because when I eventually wake up to go to work, I feel more refreshed and not completely, HORRIBLY, tired.

It was cold again this morning (big surprise)...one more day of this chilly weather and it's supposed to heat back up in the 60's. I was reminiscing with my mom yesterday about when she was out in Denver last October and even though I didn't remember that it snowed, she remembered that it did snow when she was out here. Go figure...then I totally remembered because my friend was also visiting from Washington and she was like "OMG...this is probably the only time I'm going to see the snow for the entire year!" My poor mom had to drive all the way back from Denver to Seattle too...I can't remember if it snowed all the way through Wyoming or not, but eh...she had a 4x4 car...she could make it.

Other than that...nothing too exciting with me. The same usual stress about how I'm going to pay my bills (why do I have so many bills that are due on the 15th of the month?) with the no money that I have...lol...I wish I could get a second job, but honestly...I thought being upfront about my pregnancy and attempting to get a job in the field would be the right thing to do, but it didn't work. I applied for this job in the accounting department at my friend's work (at the time...she doesn't work there anymore) and I told them I was pregnant...would they have a problem with that. They said no...so, since I had interviewed there before, they had my resumè on file and they said they would look at it. I get this wonderful e-mail about 3 days later that stated that I was not the type of person they were looking for because I didn't have enough "phone skills." I'm thinking to myself...phone skills, eh? I used to work in a call center, customer service is basically my middle name, I talk on the phone all day at work as it is right now...what the hell? You know...she could have at least looked at my resume and made up some other excuse other than phone skills. She basically gave away that she never even looked at my resumè...pissed me off. She should have just come out front and told me she didn't want to hire me because I was pregnant. I would have accepted that over the lame excuse she gave me.

We'll see what I can do after the baby's here...maybe I'll be able to get something in the field, but at the same time...I don't want to do that either. I might just wait until Brian can get something stable making buttloads of money...and then go looking for something else for myself. If he can get a job in his field like he's practicing to do, it might be doable, ya know...who knows...who knows.

Either way, after the baby's here...both of our piddly paychecks are all going to that baby...I hope he's happy about it...lol

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Wow...tonight, I feel beat. I wonder if it's because it's so cold outside...or maybe it's this baby. All I really want to do is bundle up in a blanket and be warm. I think I might just do that in front of the TV and watch some news or something.

Tonight was $.35 wings night again...so we went to eat more wings. My friend had a beer (oh how I envy her...but my turn will be soon) and I ate some wings this time. The UFC fight was on (Ken Shamrock vs. Something Ortiz...I honestly don't remember his name) and Ken Shamrock got his ass handed to him. I think the whole fight lasted about 2 minutes or something...big waste of time. The hockey was on...and the baseball game...so it was boring after that.

But anyway...rather than drag this on any longer than it has to be...I'll leave you with this interesting news story I found:

Will Adhesive Bandages Become a Thing of the Past?

Researchers at MIT and Hong Kong University have developed a biodegradable liquid that could eventually replace adhesive bandages as treatment for wounds. When the liquid, composed of protein fragments called peptides, is applied to an open wound, the peptides self-assemble into a gel that seals the wound and stops bleeding. Eventually, the gel breaks down into amino acids that can be used by surrounding cells for tissue repair.

To be honest...this would be so awesome! I hate bandaids...and I wouldn't mind using this :) Might as well see all of the wound rather than covering it up...hehe

Oh, check this link out...it's not for the weak at heart (it's body modification)...ONCE AGAIN, if you do not like gross things, I wouldn't look because there is a really icky picture...

http://forums.stangnet.com/showthread.php?t=664119

Don't say I didn't warn you about it...the finished product was sort of cool, but I wouldn't do that to get the final product.

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I have my weekly count down going. Only 4 more days (including today) of suffering and I'll have a wonderful weekend :)

They kept telling us snow for the Bronco game last night...well, there was no snow. Then they changed it snow down along the front range this morning...said it could be 2 to 3 inches on our lawns...whatever. I woke up, and it was still raining like it was last night. Big surprise! We'll see what they have to say tonight about the "snow" we're going to get. They said that yesterday was the anniversary of the first snow last year and that it was a coincidence that it was snowing again on the same day...to be honest, I don't remember it snowing last year this early...lol...we can just see how observant I am.

Oh well...it's my semi-slow day at work, but that doesn't mean I don't have TONS to do here, unfortunately. At lunch, I should go get a tank of gas. I'm so happy that gas prices are slowly falling...I'm gonna say in the next month or so, I hope the gas prices to be down around $2.00 :) At this point in time, they're around $2.25 a gallon, so I know it's coming!

I've got this week to sit through...and then parts of next week and I'm off to Seattle! Yay! I leave Thursday the 19th and I don't get back until the 23rd. I'm looking forward to seeing my family again...I miss them lots, so I think my anticipation for this trip is a lot more than it would be for any other kind of trip. It'll just be nice to be around people who support the fact that I'm pregnant and are willing to be there for me :) Not that I don't have people who are glad that I'm pregnant out here in Denver, it's just that my family is more supportive about it...and all of them know about it, so it's like I don't have to try and hide it or be embarassed about like I feel I have to be out here sometimes.

Well, I suppose it's time I go get my morning cup of hot cocoa and start my day. I have to finish my healthy breakfast of Runts though...hehe...I hope my baby does not have a sweet tooth :(

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I went to freakin' Target at lunch today to get a fan to put on my desk (because it's a blazing inferno in this office building...and I know it's just because I'm pregnant)...and I bought an mp3 CD player (because I have an mp3 CD that I want to play and I can't do it in my computer)...well, the damn thing doesn't work!

I tried it 4 of 5 times and the stupid piece of shit doesn't work...grr...

I spent $30.00 on something that doesn't work!!!! That pisses me off big time...I'm gonna go return it at some point and get my damn money back, but honest to God...WTF is up with that?

I suppose I could just find my stupid cable to my iPod or make Brian put all that stuff on my iPod, but I was too lazy...and I ended up wasting money in the meantime.

IT SO PAYS NOT TO BE LAZY!!!

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It was a wonderful start off to a probably crappy week (I don't know yet...nothing's happened)...It was all rainy and crappy this morning. We gets weeks of no precipitation and then it starts to be all misty and whatnot this morning. They're talking about snow flurries today, but I don't think it's gonna get that cold. My friend Melissa was like "Woo...snow for the Bronco game tonight" but I honestly don't think it's gonna get that cold. I bundled up expecting my hands to be freezing off this morning and I didn't even need to put them in my pockets. Said it was 37 degrees...but it sure didn't feel like it.

I went and bought $20 worth of candy yesterday for a variety for everyone and I was like, well...yum...I'll get to eat a lot of it too, BUT, the one candy I sort of wanted to eat (the Butterfinger Crisps), I ate one this morning and it didn't taste very good to me. Damn baby making my food taste bad!!! SO, I dumped that entire bag into the goody bucket...I got some sour and tropical things too, so maybe those will be better...and, of course, Hershey's Hugs (my all time favorite)...I don't think those will ever taste bad. Sadly, I also brought a bag of red seedless grapes and those sound more apetizing than the 10 pounds of candy I brought to work...haha

But, after work...gonna sit around for about an hour (I would imagine) and wait for my friend to get home from work (it's her first day at her big Interior Design firm job as an actual Interior Designer) and then I'm gonna go over to her house and we're going to watch the Bronco's game. Hopefully with it being all drizzly and crap (and cold like she says), we'll have a good chance. I mean, they're playing at Invesco Field at Mile High, so it's our home turf...

After that, I'll be home...hehe...doing the whole lot of nothing that I usually do in the evening.

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I like to peruse websites with strange things on them, and I came across this news article:

SALEM, N.H. — A dog trying to get a box of doughnuts is being blamed for starting a New Hampshire house fire.

Fire officials believe the black lab was home alone and trying to grab the box from atop a toaster oven, accidentally turning the oven on. That set the box on fire, and the flames spread through the kitchen and the front of the home.

The dog died, but no one else was hurt.

Aww...that's sort of sad. Would that dog have been considered smart, or dumb?

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