so according to my last entry, i was pretty heated and had some problems with friends. well i still do, i find out new things everyday.

since ever since i can remember, i've almost always had more guy friends than girls ,besides my sisters and their friends. they're grown and gone and so are their friends, leaving me with nothing but the guys i've grown up since i was born. so i'm used to it and i adapt easier to them and stuff.

well towards the end of my junior year (last year) i started to be good friends with a boy and hes still like my best friend and so i hung out with all of his boys and stuff which is also the guys in my class, so it was no suprise to them and stuff. so over the summer they were all i ever saw n kicked it with.

now since the incident in my last entry i felt like i've lost all of those guys! the girls are ok, but theres nothing better than smoking a blunt or drinkin a beer with all the guys, just chillin and stuff. i guess i messed up on my own, but i know that they dont see me as innocent teresa drinking a beer and smoking weed, they see me as slutg irl teresa who's goal is to get with the whole class. NOT TRUE!! .. and to believe that one of my own guy friends said that about me.

i was shocked to hear it, but i dunno. friends are hard people to trust.

lately i've just been really depressed .. and i dont know why. i guess its just people who i thought were my friends were talking about me. it changes my input in a lot of ways and how i see myself.

i guess it's true, the one thing in people that we hate is the things that we hate about ourselves. something like that..

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so the past few weeks has been pretty hectic for me. i've learned the some people really AREN'T that afraid to tell on you. maybe it's just me though, i shouldn't have done anything that people would tell on me for, right?

for one, i got ISS last week because my teacher snitched on me. i was pretty mad.. and another thing is that girls aka bitches really do anything to ruin your lives to make them happy. dont you think that if you told someone a secret when you were friends, you'd have the decencey to keep that secret even if you hated them with a burning passion? i mean, i can't guaruntee that i could keep it to myself, but i'd gossip and shit about it, but i wouldn't tell the person straight up about what that person said about them. get it?

i wouldn't flat out say 'blah blah blah said this about you' .. unless they were my BEST FRIEND and they deserved to know at that flat out moment. not so many months later when you KNOW for a fact that they said it just to piss you off and start drama.

life has been really rough lately.. and it's making me so nervous.

my cousins 12 year anniversary from his death was this sunday, i went to see him and it looked like i was the only one who had gone to see him. i was hoping that it'd work on my karma and stuff. maybe it didnt maybe it hasnt came around yet.

i'm not making a big deal about these happenings though, seeing how i'm just going accept the things that happen to me and not deny it or try to argue. things happen for a reason, ya know?

.. school tomorrow, i hate it.

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i'm happy to say that i officially quit stealing. it's bad karma altogether! when i don't steal, i get really good luck with guys and i think i found the right one.. ALMOST!! its just secretly undercover.. ahh when things come down to that though its hard.. to not jinx it yet still do enough to know that there's an attraction between us.. BLAH!! its crazy.. but i love having crushes, dont you?

so yes i quit stealing but im startin to do other things more. i still have to figure out how that karrma is going to work out. who knows though :S

i will leave you with this quote..

"if reefer really makes you happy.. nigga blaze it.."

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school began on monday and i already LOVE IT! teachers love you because you are a senior and they're happy that they dont have to see you again after 4 long years!
friends are the shit, and some really do treat you like shit. well not so much but everyone has their ups and downs right?

as for work, which i got hired at walgreens because I PASSED MY UA!! yea yeah! its been pretty good, very easy and not too bad. i hope i can stay there long enough. people there seem alright. i just dont like getting on peoples bad sides and have them talk shit on me because i didn't do something right.

and for partying? i think i've turned in my party card for a while or something because im too tired to be doing anything. plus it's hard to trust friends at times but o well. life goes on!

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well happy late birthday to jeffery, shana, and liyah! i'm sure there was more birthdays yesterday but i didnt know.. crazy huh! i read somewhere that august has the most birthdays or something too. :D

well i had my UA the other day and im scared i didnt pass it. >=( i'll be highly disapointed if i didnt get the job LOL.

the fair is in town also! debating when i want to go to meet friends up and stuff. it's expensive for the wristband and other junk.. the rides arent as fun and stuff.. not so much worth my money.

clay is in town and im SOO excited and happy haha i love it! friends have been weird lately (mostly just the boys) so i dont really care. guys arent my problem right now anyways'

school starts MONDAY!! AHHH

one of the school staff employee teachers people thingy called me yesterday, asking if i wanted to come in early at 9am instead of 11:30am to help with the freshman orientation. i was trying to think of an excuse to say no, but my principal refferred me to her so i felt kind of cool haha because i was that much of a good influence or something! :)

dont forget to vote for me in the template contest!!

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you should all probably put a vote in for me for my template. it is cute, plain, and simple!



oh yeha, i got an interview at walgreens!!!!!!!!!

so its about 12AM now.. today i just helped my cousin move outta her house. had some nice bonding time. we are going to the chris brown and neyo concert in september.. hopefully. shes going to be living with me, her and her dad until her mom gets settled in their new home in Arkansas.

i also babysat my other cousins kids today.. i guess my nephews is what they'd call it? haha. well i babysat their friends kids too.. so 4 children all together and 50 bucks total. thats alrite i guess.. from 7pm to 12am! i dk.. pretty late. plus one of them was a 6 month old also. its ok though. made some dollars!

i have a date tomorrow!! im very excited ;D

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