"Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. He who looks outside dreams, while he who looks inside awakens." --Carl Jung
"Those who trumpet their sufferings are usually most deserving of agony"
-- Oderus Urungus of Gwar
"Love is one of those things that people seek to understand and know, when in truth it is something that you can only feel."
-- myself
"You may have created my past and fucked up my present, but you have NO control over my future"
-Unknown
"Don't think you are, Know you are"
-Morphous
"If it doesn't work the first time, it more than likely won't the second time"
- My father on relationships
"We are the music makers, the dreamers of dreams"
- Willy Wonka
"The more you sweat during training,
The less you bleed during battle"
-another stolen from Kushiel
"No man or woman is worth your tears... and the one who is, won't make you cry."
-stolen from Kushiel's page
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
-Dr. Seuss
"A good Commander will lead his troops to victory,
A great Commander will lead them home."
-Cover of Navy Times
"To live is to suffer, to find meaning in the suffering is to live"
- unknown
| Friday. 9.10.04 12:37 pm so i got some bads new yesterday and it brung up alot of old stuff... stuff which i thought i was done with and it turns out that my silvered tongue sweeted the past with lies ..ooo so many lies and half truthes... god it made me feel like shit...(sry to twy and hers... i never meant this to happen but it did...) now i have to tell mine tonight... i believe she'll still love me but the anxiety is killing me, as well as the ear infection i've got... damn, ac in the clinic blowing in my ears all day long. i feel like shit today,.. i hope that changes tonight..
damn, this is gonna be an interesting evening at least (note the sarcasim). please Spirit let it all turn out alright.....  Comment! (1) | Recommend! sick days full of love and semi-trust Wednesday. 9.8.04 10:07 pm its funny how when you finally meet that special someone that life just seems so much more than normal. all the problems that arise seem so much easier to handle. the days last alittle bit more when they're around. you find yourself smiling a little more everyday. hell even when you get sick, you get sick together.lol. its just a great feeling. you feel yourself willing to do anything for that person. i love this feeling.
but then again, when you know that person doesn't fully trust you yet. and you just want them to put they're full trust into you. but you know you gotta just wait and be yourself and they will soon enough. ::smiles and shakes his head:: its just a great feeling. to think for 2 instead of 1. theres no just me anymore, its an us that i think of now... i freaking love it. ..... ... good night everyone
Comment! (1) | Recommend! Thursday. 9.2.04 3:52 pm i'm coming to you now from my new laptot. the Dell INSPIRON 5150. i'm happy as all get out. i really don't know what to say, i think a 3 year friendship just ended..::shakes head:: why? i don't know i guess we just got on each others nerves.... ::sighs:: oh well,... life goes on. got my new g/f, life is good as it has ever been. ::smiles:: i'm takin the good with the bad and rollin with the punches and all those other sayings. neway. later on folks. be safe, be happy, and be blessed. Comment! (0) | Recommend! 245th day of 2004 ok, here goes. meet this chick, we went on a date and now we're dating. hows that for summing it all up? lol, neway. we talk abit and we like each others company. so, we're dating. would i marry her? sure would and quick too. lol, yea, i know alot more about her than i'm leting on but hey, i want this to be short entry. its enough to say that she wants to be an artist for a living..... lol. later on Comment! (0) | Recommend! my week working the ambulance Wednesday. 8.25.04 1:11 pm this has not been a fun week, monday and tuesday i have to drive an hour out to hick town, tx to ride an ambulance out there. first day there not even 20mins of waiting and theres a mva (motor vechilce accident) head on. not cool. something that i want to talk about but can only with people whom i speak with (twy i was gonna talk to you about the other night but you seemed preoccupied with Teen Titans, thats why i got off the phone), i haven't been able to talk to my friend in el paso about it cuz, well, she's even harder to get a hold of than Kushiel. and well, me and kushiel are now just back to speaking again... i guess thats what i get for being forth right and saying whats been on my mind for 2 fucking years. oh well. its all gravy now.
then yesterday, we just sat around in the ambulance bay, didn't have one call. which is good. but today well, this afternoon, 3 till 7, i get to go to the major trama center for the area, which means i'm in for one hell-of-a afternoon/evening. i don't want to do this, i've seen enough death in my life. i don't won't to witness more. but it looks like i'm gonna have to, and i'll probably cut my time short here in tx, go to field med school and then its off to iraq, i wonder how that makes those who care for me feel? let me know guys.....
what else can i say? the dating scene is still pretty slow around here. i think i'm just gonna just start randoming talking to people in the mall, lol, nope not gonna do that. cuz that would make me that creepy guy who talks to everyone. which is not what i want. but i am gonna talk to that chick in hottopics. damn, she was fine. wow!!!. ::insert stupid noise that means hot/fine/drop dead sexy:: neway. i think thats enough for now, for those wanting to read the privy entry just ask for the pw cuz you'll never guess it. Comment! (1) | Recommend! Saturday. 8.21.04 8:20 pm |
