ahhh so today was super fun. a very nice way to end the dreadful days of finals. i still have chinese school on friday which sux and i still need to do my homework. refer to randomjunk's site for pics. and ppl can see what i look like...ugh...

Urine, littering lucy, leather black "knights", those subway instructional tabs that cracked randomjunk up a lot, ang looking so small and cute on those monkey bars, the crappy slide with absolutely no available spiralling space ( god i wish i knew some scientific terms here maybe related to physics), talking about "Love Shaq" and guys (hey its what we girls do), playing on the monkey bars, webcam jokes and how we could all potentially....invoke (or evoke..) certain reactions from a certain people...that green roll-y but cylindracal ottoman thingie....OH today was fun! lottas laughter in the air.

ooh ok addition time

so today was fun. i already said that.

what i really wanted to talk about was...my old best friend...i got her newly sent email today and it was like the usual stuff like "hi hows life" blah blah blah. and....its weird....she was my best friend in elementary school and she was truly a person that i was close to. there was this connection that ive never had with anybody but her. i guess its because we were kids in 2nd grade...when complexitites don't quite happen at that age so friendship was easy to find. but then as we got older our relationship started straining mainly because well...as we developed our characters...i guess she was just more likeable and a more well-rounded person...so she made lottas friends guys and girls while i just...sorta drifted in her prescence. shes not preppy though which is astounding. my best friend actually has the best personality i know. seriously! if you met her you would love her. i guarantee it. anyway in middle school we really falling apart. at a time of puberty and finding yourself and what not...she found her social niche. for me...i lagged behind horribly. and she looked down on me, criticized me, even once in sixth grade, told me how to be more popular. starting off with :improving the clothes, watching certain movies, blah blah blah. at the time i guess i was just numb to that information and sort of accepted it. now i look back on it with regret. how could i have left her say those things to me? why didn't i stand up for myself back then? i was too weak in her eyes. but now that i moved and stuff...its been awhile since we last spoke. ppl might actually not have thought we were best friends. but we had a history kinda like ross and rachel...only we're not a freakin couple lol. and now she emails me...and ugh its complicated. i wish i could just lash at her for everything shes done. shell see the real me and shell be shocked. but who cares?

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I recently put up a blog on my other website saying how I hated the relationships people had with each other. that people were constantly getting hurt and people prioritized different values. I couldn't help but think that certain people, like my friends, thought that I was refering to them. I almost predicted the future. I almost thought about tomorrow how one of my friends would ask me, "Hey...are you mad at me?" and id be like "What??...." and she'd be like "well what you wrote on your xanga..."...and thats when i would snap and somewhat yell at her and say "did it EVER occur to you that i might be talking about PEOPLE IN GENERAL?!" well that didn't happen today...like i said "almost!". i didnt spend a whole lot of time with my friends today either. i guess i just wished people would not hide or shy away from the evils of our world. that they wouldn't have the need to prepare you for what's coming. and after theyre done theyd be like "haha thats just a feeling" or "haha dont wanna scare ppl" or watever the heck S they say. i wished our world was better...i wished people were more compassionate. Compassion is what we need in this world but people are too busy worrying about their own hide. ill been through my share of S. so has everyone. so why can't we all just get along?

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Two Girls....or is that one a Guy?[http://www.hancinema.net/photos/photo2781.jpg]

OK. First of all I am not a fob. AT ALL. im ABC lol. and i never watch asian stuff unless its the slightest bit interesting. it just so happened that i was in one of those asian bookstores cuz we dined at a Vietnamese restaurants in this asian plaza.and i was eyeballing the music and audio and movies from the asian cinema and i saw this. i looked at the two ppl and i stumbled to figure that one of them is a guy! and im like "whoa...hes CUTE!" literally! ok so i dunno if there is a literal meaning of cute and it depends on what you're calling cute...but isnt he just a babyface?? wooww. anyways apparently its called "Jenny Juno" and i looked it up (hehe) and its actually about these two teenagers and the girl is pregnant. it fired up some contraversy in Korea about teenage pregnancy and finding out that sorta killed it. but oh well!

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ughh....i feel tired. but also tired mixed in with a slight bit of sickness. but not like the common cold type sickness. more like a...how to describe it...a car sickness/dizziness. i think its cuz for the past two days i havent been eating lunch...im not starving myself or anything dont worry! my friend buys me lunch she gets it cheaper (and i pay her back) and she's in New York right now and...not there to get me lunch lol. yes i could just buy it myself. but im lazyyy hahahahaaa

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"This African village doesn't have running water....

BUT THEY CAN GOOGLE!"

commentary: Internet can improve the lives for these African people.

*shows a shot of these kids crowded together lookin at a comp screen in this brown, rundown room*

this was sum commercial i saw. i forgot what the commercial was for...but seriously wat the frick? lol

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I AM LOVING PUREVOLUME!

check it out music luvers or whatever!

www.purevolume.com

and check out We Are the Fury and their new song "Now You Know."

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