Entries in one day. Meh. My eyes hurt. I got mad smoke in them. I was bored, so I started drinking earlier, now Im drunk. I started reading a book by Hunter S. Thompson, called "Better than Sex." Its pretty much about some of the big bullshit scandels pulled off by past presidents, from a journalists view. I like it. I am now a registered voter in PA. I guess I thought it was the right thing to do if Im going to complain about the government. I downloaded a bunch of new music. Ive started to fancy the jungle/drum&bass gernres. I like to get high and kick it to some Venetion Snares. Its a crazy time. Im crazy, we're all crazy.

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listening to: Manifest Next to Me-Track 9
mood: Fair to middling
A couple days since I've been on or even felt like writing anything. I guess I'll start with Thursday. It was a pretty busy day with class and all. After math, there was a NORML thing in the auditorium. I stopped by and checked it. It was actually quite interesting. The NORML guy who does the podcasts was the guest. There was also a PCT cop and a guy from human services at the school. The cop didn't budge an expression except frustration with the decently large crowd of pot heads who were sticking it to him, and flowing with the NORML fella. After all the weed talk, I hit up the free show at the field house. I only stayed for the first half of the first band. I thought about killing myself. They just need to boot the singer, then they may be able to strike a note. Then to the after party. Ha. Well there were mad slutty girls there, one of which, flashed everyone at the party atleast three times. I drank as much as I could then bounced back to my place to crash, I guess. Friday, there was supposed to be a party back home, but it was a bust, as usual. Ended up just buying a case and getting shwasted. Same with Saturday night. Im so bored with just getting wasted anymore. I need excitement. I came the closest to hitting a deer then I ever have. And then, the goddamn snow. I HATE SNOW!!! I want warmth, and color back. Back to class tomorrow. Everything is stating to dwindle down. Only a week and a couple days before Thanksgiving break. I hope to hang out with Maggie for atleast a day over break. I guess we'll see how things work out. I haven't actually had a good conversation or even to really talk to her, well, since I left that Sunday after her party. Kills but I'm learning to deal. I just like knowing that shes alright and want her to know that when things get tough for her that Im always here. As soon as I finished that sentence, she called. Weird. I find it reassuring when I talk to her anymore. Its all cool, I suppose. Ive gotten back into writing. I used to do a lot during high school, but most of the stuff I wrote, was more juvenile and less heart-filled, compared to present work. Thats all for now, I guess.

So stay away if you can't deal with doomsday
We're back to clay like a DNA parfait.

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listening to: Explosions in the Sky - Your Hand In Mine (Goodbye)
mood: Calm
Am I a teenager, officially. I suppose anyways. Still a long ways to go. Earlier today, I took like ten minutes and sat there and thought about my life. Life is crazy. Growing, learning, thinking, being; Its all just a crazy concept to grasp. It interests me though. Today I had quite a bit on my mind. I feel like exploding. I feel anxious, irritated, and off center. I needed to do something with myself, so I went to the mall and filled out a couple applications. Its actually quite hard to find a part time job, without working at fast food joints. Teh. I noticed the weather really playing a part on my attitude lately. Im pretty bummed about not playing indoor. I got my hopes up for some quality soccer, but whatever. I think im going to look into some martial arts or something. I think Jiu-Jitsu would be an awesome thing to try out. Theres this NORML debate at school on thursday. Me and some of the guys are going to go and see whats going down. The flyer said that there will be a NORML representative there to answer questions and stuff, so should be cool. This song, "Jay Walking Backwards", is one of my top 3 favorite songs right now. The #12 are a dream band. On the softer note, the song " Love Love Love" by As Tall As Lions gets me every time. Check them both out. Thats all the excitement for now.

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listening to: Bob Marley - Is This Love?
mood: Distressed
Is my first entry. I welcome myself, I guess. I pretty much just felt like I needed something to write down what goes on in the day of the life of, well, myself. Interesting, I prefer not. Myself best describes me. I seek dimensions of life that others ignore. I have no extraordinary powers, no matter how much I want. I've began to see whats real in life and am starting to form myself to embrace my own future. That is my present motto. Don't like it? I guess we all have our own opinions. I'm curious what yours is.. Experience life. I want to. I'll try hard to do so. I enjoy sharing things, such as life, with select few, but am very curious. I have loved, I do love, and may not be loved back. I like to push myself. I enjoy nature and what she has to offer. I have a weird sense of humor. I enjoy to laugh and make others do the same. I have a bad guilty conscience and sometimes I care to much. I have a heart and feelings, but hide it for some reason. Maybe past issues, or maybe present. Ive never been able to pinpoint. I had someone bring me out of my shell, she was great. Shes probably one of my biggest influences. We still remain friends, but her love was the greatest thing I have ever experienced. Music is my life, no matter what. The talent, love, pain, blood, tears, sweat, and energy that goes into music amazes me. The Number Twelve Looks Like You is my favorite band. Sentimental value. History interests me. The future, even more. I think I have a good sense of direction, not so much in the city though. I have fears. I have reoccuring dreams of me being in a brutal car accident. This could be some sort of sign, I choose to ignore it. I think I change every day.

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