::sigh:: Ok....Sooo.....yea, I saw Robert today, and it was fun...I always have a good time when I'm with him. But I'm in this phase where When I'm with one, I think about the other one constantly....HELP!!!! ::runs around house:: I'm just trying to figure out what I should do about this whole thing. I mean, I've known Rob quite awhile, and we've been through a lot. On the other hand...he's AFRAID of hurting me, because that's how much he loves me?!?! Humans end up hurting each other....HELLO!!!! And yes, I would do anything for him...I was just starting to get over him too....and he had to pull that out of whereever that came from...I'm just right back where I was before....God he has great eyes....::sigh:: Man, I'd still date him if he wasn't SO DAMN GAY!!!! GRRR!!! Women suck....anyways ::mutters under breath:: Can anyone tell I'm frustrated?? Ok...well...yea...but I REALLY like Robert too...::sigh:: he's SOOO wonderful to, but I haven't known him nearly as long. He always tends to know exactly what to say to make me feel better, especially today. Of course I couldn't tell him what was wrong, but yea, he just went with the flo (Damn, I just had to use that didn't I??) ::sigh:: man...I'm soo pathetic....I actually am feeling very lonely right now for some reason too....which is very weird for me. I think it's the fact that I'm just trying to figure out what to do with my "Love life" I mean...I'm just sooo blah on it....but I still REALLY like both of them! and I'm going to talk to someone about this in detail...but I just don't know who yet...I need to go do whatever....I'll write more later

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Sooo...Let's talk about how I was totally scatterbrained today and forgot about calling Rob....::sigh:: I STILL feel really bad. Ok...so, we're at dinner and he looks at me and says something about being aggervated. Then he went into this whole spchiel about loving me and not wanting to hurt me. If most people didn't know any better, they would have thought that he was proposing to me, that's how it sounded. I mean, he told me that I was everything he was looking for in a person, (Significant other) but he loved me so much that he didn't want to hurt me. You are human, most people hurt one another eventually, even if they are just friends. Damn, those blue eyes, they've always told me that. Also, he mentioned the fact that he put his arm around me for like the whole Return of the King movie, that it just felt right.....GOD DAMN! WHY DOES HE HAVE TO BE SO.....Ok...I just have to sit here and relax....Yes, I'm venting right now....I was just SOO shocked and stuff. I mean, damn tho....If I could relive that moment, like yea....::sigh:: he's still hot too...I'm SOOOO glad that I'm not seriously with anyone right now, because if I was, the person would have to realize that like yea, we're always going to be more then friends. However, Rob DID mention marriage, ::sigh:: we're still in college, I don't want that right now....thank god that either way he wouldn't want to get married right now either. But yea...he asked me what if we were out of college already and he asked me....so I'm kinda like um....yea, but you're gay....but is he? I'm SOOO frickin confused right now that yea, man.....I dunno....I just dunno anymore. I mean, I have two wonderful guys right now that like me, but the one I liked for so long just acknowledges me, and I JUST started getting over him, but I almost kissed him tonight after everything he told me...I know, that's stupid, but I honestly almost did. But damn the girls that treated him like shit in the past....because that's what got him like not liking girls anymore.....::sigh:: Ok....I'm just going to sit on what happened tonight, like a lot...but ok....yea....Um....it's weird because I don't know how to end this...Oh! Rob got two fish tonight....one named Sutton (Last name of the person who was in Delta Tau Delta) and Sherri (The name of the inspector of the fishtank). so at least he's not alone....which is a good thing....I'm going to try to hang out with him more. but I DO need to try to get to sleep....good night!

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So...it's been a week...I'm SUPER slacking...but I have my reasons. Ok...I've been working, trying to make christmas presents, AND I've been trying to see Robert....speaking of...hehe...Mandy, Jennifer (Her cousin Yea! We're back in contact--thanks mandy!) and I went over to his area and hung out....damn, he's soo wonderful...but this is about me, not him...he got two sets of two thumbs up. and I'm going to go see him after he calls me again...I'm shuffling through clothes...I need to find a cute pair of pants...I'm running out...hehe. but seriously, I really enjoy his company. We're going to go to a movie. and I talked to Rob today, he finally moved into his new apartment. which is very good. I've been neglecting him and I feel bad about that...so I'm going to try to go see him tomorrow. (He's still hot too....and still a sweetie ::Sigh::) Man, at least they haved the same name... but seriously....man...ok...well...chirstmas was good. My aunt made me a cool purple fuzzy blanket. and I am now the official owner of a purple star sapphire! Yea! It's REALLY pretty! and I also got a whole bunch of arts and crafts stuff that I've been playing with. and of course, the mounds of candy my mom always gives me (Hey, I'll have it until Easter, it's not too bad!) and ::sigh:: well...I REALLY need to get pics with Robert...hehe...I know it's SOO confusing. but I'm going to try to get a way to differencitate between them. hehe...I'm going to go finish getting ready...here's a few quizzes to quench the thirst....hehe...


Playful Orlando


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Orlando Bloom
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What Celebirty are you going to MARRY?!(14 outcomes with pics for anyone)
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Seer


The ULTIMATE personality test
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You should have brown hair. You are cute and smart.
Ha! You are the little devil aren't you. You
may look sweet and innocent but you have a wild
side to you and you need to show it more often
and who said that we can't have fun. huh


What color of hair Should you have?
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Black Angel
Now this isn't a picture or a black angel and it
doesn't mean that you are bad either. You are
like any other Angel. You have a good equal of
bad and good. like someone normal You are like
Yin and Yang happy and sad. To you the Black
Angel might sound bad but it isn't the color
black makes you look thinner so that's good.
You are peaceful strong and very beautiful.


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Today was really good. I worked (Ok, that part WASN'T good) and I saw Robert!!! Yea!!!! Hehe...I love hanging out with him. I also talked to Kristina today. I'm going to bed EARLY tonight so I can like catch up on the sleep I missed seeing ROTK....because my mom didn't let me sleep....but anyways. Hehe...I'm going to try to see My little sister perform tomorrow. but if I don't get to...that's ok. But I'm going to go to bed....but this time, I have quizzes....yea!


You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.


What kind of kiss are you?
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<<>>???What Kind Of Angel R You???<<>>( Anime Pics )
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You represent... kindness.
You're a very gentle, kind, and caring individual.
You truely care about people and are generally
well-liked. Though sometimes you may be
perceived as weak, you truely have a strong
heart and a good desire to help others.


What feeling do you represent?
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You're the loving smile,the one that is entirely
devoted to others,especially that one
person.You really can't get them out of your
head,but then,you don't really want to.


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Congratulations! You have an understanding of the
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Soooo..Haven't written since the night before ROTK! Well...it was SOOOOOOO awesome! You have GOTTA see it...if you haven't watched the first two Lord of the Rings movies, watch them, and THEN see the third one. It was Mandy, Wes (Her boyfriend), Rob and I. It was fun, and I was SOOO glad to get to see the first showing. Also, I'm going to see Robert tomorrow....whoo hoo! I can't WAIT! I'm SOO excited! Because he's totally awesome. and so incredibly sweet....and just so incredibly sweet and fun to hang out with. We're going to at least go to Borders (I need to buy an x-mas gift) and go from there....He'll be driving (which is good-because I don't have gas money), but it sux because like yea, defnitely can't hold his hand or anything...but we'll be in the same vehicle, which is good. But I was TOTALLY excited about ROTK. Also, Harry Potter comes out in June. June 4 as a matter of fact. For those of you who don't know, I'm also a huge Harry Potter fan. I've read all of the books, and own both movies. So there's my next movie countdown. After that, it'll be Spider man 2....and POTC 2! Whoo hoo!!!! Yea totally awesome movies, but I'm going to bed, because I need to get up in the morning and primp...everyone wants me to wear make-up tomorrow....so I'll fullfill their wishes for once...have a great night y'all!

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::sigh of content:: I just had a wonderful time today! Well, that would be AFTER work...hehehe....I got home, had hardly any water pressure. Now isn't that how it always happens? When you WANT to be somewhere in a timely manner, your water pressure bottoms out. Hehe...but anyways...I had a WONDERFUL time with Robert...::sigh:: we're going to see each other again on Thursday, and he's comming to my side of town. ::sigh:: I would drive almost anywhere to see him. Well...what's Ironic is that like yea, we got to know each other on the phone and such first before we saw each other. That's always good. So we know each other's quarks. Well...we know each other's quarks enough so we pretty much know each other's moves.


-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


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And the mention of moves reminds me that today is MOVIE DAY!!!! RETURN OF THE KING at 12:01 AM!!!! Whoo HOO! In honor, LOTR quizzes!


Congratulations! You're Merry!


Which Lord of the Rings character and personality problem are you?
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YOU LOVE LEGOLAS!


*Who is ur Lord of the Rings Soul Mate?*
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(Yea, like NO ONE knew that--::sigh::)

AWSOME!!! You obviosly Love Lord of The Rings!


Do you Love Lord of The Rings?
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Hey your like me you LOVE the guys, books and/or
moives


Do you truely love Lord of the Rings or are you just in it for the guys??
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good for you! you like both lord of the rings AND
harry potter!!! yay! someone like me!!! you
like them both and hate how ppls fight over the
better one! you like them both for what they
r!!! send me a message! ((rate this quiz!))


harry potter? or lord of the rings?
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So yea, the last one I couldn't resist...I'm a HUGE Harry Potter fan too! I can't wait until June! June 4 as a matter of fact! I REALLY can't wait until Thursday!

GOING TO WATCH THE MOVIES BEFORE RETURN OF THE KING!!! WHOO HOO!

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