Saturday. 8.28.04 8:16 am and he said he is on his way to Clarion. this kind of makes me laugh because he is not going to be able to drive there all the time. hey, whatever.
as soon as he said that, i felt crushed, but then, i went to do my hair and i saw my very pretty necklace that mike gave me, and ya know, as wrong as it may be, he was really great. even still, he randomly shows up at my house, like the one day he showed up and i had just gotten outta the shower, but i put my pajamas back on, and had my hair in a towel and stuff, and i didn't even care that he was here. it wasn't uncomfortable at all. i highly doubt i will ever date mike again, but he is like, my best friend. shawn is just being stupid right now anyway, but i still miss him.
amy made me tell her all of the silly, but fun and sweet little things that shawn used to do and i thought she was going to cry. i talk to her every single night for like 10 hours (okay, maybe not that much) because she just makes me laugh.
i'm afraid to have another boyfriend because i'm scared that i would only be going out with that person to help get my mind off of shawn, but then again, i don't know. it's one of those things that you should know, but you don't, and i hate that. anyway, seeing shawn in school everyday is going to be both sad and funny. it will be sad for obvious reasons, but it will be funny because i will look at him and then think about what everyone told me about his girlfriend, and i know that it's true.
..lust. it tricks you every damn time. Comment! (2) | Recommend! | Rate! Thursday. 8.26.04 3:10 pm i really don't care. i just think it is SO funny that you start dating this college girl like 2 days before she goes back, and she is going to a college like 3 1/2 hours away. you're younger than her. she is going to cheat on you with the college guys and you know it. you can be so dense sometimes. i was there for you when ciara broke your heart, and when this girl breaks your heart, i won't be there, because you should know she won't stay with a younger guy that she'll never get to see. get real. please.
anyway, to three special guys, thank you. you guys are just, amazing. first off, andrew. you are just too sweet. it was nice to see you and shereen again. thanks for everything bud. second, ted. yeah, shawn thinks you guys' band sucks, but we all know how awesome it is. you're a sweety, thanks for the pep talk. haha, and last but not least, michael. ha, you make me laugh. amy and i will be there on the 3rd to hit up that game. you guys will kill Wellsboro if your offense is as good as you claim it to be. amy is raving over how funny you are, and i would have to agree. you're a special friend.
yeah so anyway, fuck guys. what's with them? yes, i am being sterotypical, but more than half of all guys are the same. single life is kinda good.. get to hang out with anyone i want, and plus i can focus more on passing my extremely hard year of school this year. oh yay. Comment! (3) | Recommend! | Rate! Wednesday. 8.25.04 5:16 pm Monday. 8.23.04 2:47 pm my mom goes on first shift starting tomorrow, and she is not working tonight. this sucks because it means no more of the people-come-over-at-night routine. shit. guess people will just start having to come over in the daytime. sneaky and very good at it. it's so fun to be that way, because the intense fear of wondering wether you are going to get caught or not is just.. awesome. ha, and i love how parents think you're so perfect and all. get real.
people have been pissing me off lately. i want to be a hermit. i really do. someday i will have a beef farm deep within Armenia Mountain where no one can see my house or anything like that. and i could give a shit less if i couldn't get out in the winter time. it would make it that much more awesome. i would just go ice skating on my pond or something. i hate cities, and so having a farm on the mountain would be perfect. Comment! (1) | Recommend! | Rate! Saturday. 8.21.04 8:46 pm shit sucks right about now. weird and not-so-good stuff is going on between shawn and i, because i haven't been able to go over all summer, and so that has kind of gotten to us. this time, i'm not sure if we are strong enough to work everything out, but i am keeping the confidence up because we have been through everything and always came out strong in the end with everything that we've been through. yeah, it may take a little longer to get things all straightened up again, but i can go over starting next saturday, and i think that will be a start. he is the most precious, adorable person, yet he has just enough bad boy in him and i love that. but i love him more. i can't describe it. two years of doing everything together and telling each other everything has been so great.
ooo, i went shopping today again, and bought four more shirts, one of them being a halter. yay. i love clothes. Comment! (2) | Recommend! | Rate! Friday. 8.20.04 11:43 pm how, my day sucked oh so hard, yet the minute shawn came online and started talking to me, everything was okay. he just has that special way about him i guess. haha, we didn't even talk much because he's too busy trying to beat me at DYC, but he still amazes me. after almost two years and he hasn't changed a bit. and i wouldn't want him to.
tuesday i go get my depo shot. i love shots.
i would love you forever if you bought me this:
it doesn't have to be a #1, but it must have blue eyes, and can be any number except one with a four in it. i hate the number four. Comment! (6) | Recommend! | Rate! | 
